Chapter 7 Coming Home

Bella's POV

We were in the limo on own way home from the party Demetri has his head in his hands. He is trying to prepare himself for the enviable. He knows he will be severely punished for his actions his passiveness is not acceptable. I am t punishment is something he will reflect on next time he feels that way. The car pulls up to the house, he one in charge and I call the shots, but every once in a while he forgets so I have to make sure of this and Sam opens the door, I pull both men on their leashes in the house. Once inside, I remove them. "Be in the toy box in 10 minutes, be in position and ready for me because tonight going to be a long night..." they both nod. "Yes master!" they say simultaneously and with their heads down they head to their designated room. I need a joint or I am going to beat the shit out of Demetri. How dare he embarrass me like that so I head to my office and roll a phatty. I decide to get dressed in another outfit for the night. I decide to go with the leather tub dress I want to make sure has easy access to everywhere... God this is getting me hot already I am almost ready to give out his punishment. I light the joint, get a small glass of wine and start to meditate to get into the zone.

Fifteen minutes had passed by the time I finished the joint and the wine. I like to leave them anticipating and decided to add high heels to it so they can hear me coming down the hall, I head down to the toy box for some fun. I leave my office, taking deliberate steps to make sure they hear me coming. I put my hand on the doorknob, close my eyes, take a deep deliberate breath, and open my eyes. Lets the games begin.

When I walk in and cannot help but be mesmerized by the sight. Both men have their heads down with nothing on but their collars and their black silk boxers. I shake my head then walk over to the dresser with the iPod and dock and find the song that will set the mood. Lick by Joi starts to play over the speakers. I open the draw and pull out two blindfolds, Demetri is red because he is going to be punished while Felix gets a purple one because he is going to be rewarded. I slowly make my way over and stand behind Felix. I apply the blindfold and do the same to Demetri . I come around the I can see both men sporting a semi, I smile and stop in front of Demetri . "Demetri you have disappointed me tonight. Do you know what you have done to bring me this displeasure?" he says nothing, maybe there's still hope for him yet. "You may answer." I could see Felix smiling," Yes master I was possessive towards the other men getting close to you."

I love his honesty that is one of the good things about him. He willing to admit when he is wrong, "That is exactly what you did, so what is going to happen is your going to be punished! Stand." He got up but remanded in a more bent down position so I could grab his collar. I guided him to the St. Andrews' cross and pushed him against it so he knew what was coming next. I secure his arms and feet with a pair of shackles that were custom made for Demetri because at the beginning he broke the straps that were originally on the cross. I remove the blind fold and look him straight in his smouldering blue eyes that have taken on a darker colour with the lust he was emanating "your punishment has to remain silent while watching Felix fuck me every way from Sunday and not being able to get your release till tomorrow, if you behave." That is when he whimpers and I backhanded him which causes him to become fully erect. I lean in and whisper in his ear. "I was really hoping that you both could have had me at once tonight but I guess Felix will have his work cut out for him tonight," as I lick his neck, which causes him to shiver. I smile, walk and stand in front of Felix.

Puscifer - Rev 22:20starts. "Felix you have greatly please me tonight so I am going to punish to your limits tonight, while Demetri watches. Stand." He does, I grab him by the collar, leading him to the end of the bed and pushing him back. He moves up to the top knowing just where I want him laying spread eagle waiting to be handcuffed. I secure one of his arms, move down to his boxers, and remove them but making sure to glide my hand over his hard cock as they are removed making him stand taller. I feel him take a breath but otherwise say nothing. Once I secure his legs, I walk to the top of the bed straddling his chest leaving a moisture print and remove his blindfold looking him in the eyes. "Felix I am going to suck your dick while you fuck me with your tongue and you are not allowed to cum without permission, do you understand? You may answer." I watch as his eyes go to almost black in colour with anticipation and longing as he nods vigorously. As I mount his face, I turn around away from him ,slowly lowering my mouth to him and begin to suck his painfully straight member, as he inserted a finger to see how wet I was he then he started to lick my clit. I lift my eyes to make contact with Demetri so that I could watch his every reaction. I was watching him, his expression slowly becoming very bitter. This will show him not to make me look bad again at an event.

"Felix I want Demetri to hear how much pleasure I am giving to you for your good behaviour." He hummed against my clit adding another finger and then another I could feel myself constricting around his fingers and he started to pick up pace because he could tell I was close. I started to pick up my speed and sucked harder relaxing my throat taking him deeper. "Holly fucking shit just like that uuuuuhhhhh. I do... n't kn...ow how lo...ng I can last mas...ter. ple...ase let me coooommeee." This is so hot to have this going on I could not hold back anymore so I came hard. Like a good boy, Felix takes everything I give him then proceeded to cleaned up every drop that was left behind. Making eye contact with Demetri "Felix I want you to come now." Taking him as deep as humanly possible while watched as Demetri's eyes get dark and he fights against the chains. "FUCK." Felix yelled as he came in my mouth while Demetri breathing hard watched me clean up every drop.

Next song was Haunted by Evanescence after I came down from my organism I decide this would be a good time to add to our play. Because Felix deserves this best treatment for his behaviour so I got up and went to the dresser to get a vibrating anal plug and some lube I know this is one of his favourite devices. Walking back to the bed I undo his other arm and his legs from the handcuffs and look into Felix's eyes, "you did very well and for the pleasure you brought me I am going to intensify your stimulation. Now turn over and get on all fours." He did as he was asked, I added the tingling lube to his asshole and slowly started to massage the opening before adding a finger to get him ready for the plug. He moaned in response. I really think that he and Demetri would enjoy each other if they tried it. I add more lube before inserting another finger moving it in and out. After he relaxed enough, I remove my fingers and turn the butt plug on then slowly start to stimulate the outside causing him to inhale deeply while moaning on the breath out. I turn down the speed adding more lube; I slowly insert it, he gasps in response so I give him a few minutes to adjust to the sensation before turning it up to medium.

"Now Felix I want you to fuck me as you wish but remember you are not allowed to come." I turn it up slowly, his moans increase with the speed until we hit top speed. By now, there was an animalistic sound coming from him and his eyes were black with lust and frustration. Then he grabbed me kissing me hard with the feelings of love and need. He pulls away, putting my leg on his shoulder this is when I notice his cock is already at attention again. He plunging in to me deep and hard causing me to scream in pleasure. I could hear Demetri fighting against his restraints but I could not bring myself to care and all that mattered right now was Felix and I. The noises he was making were as his inner beast was out to play, getting ready to tear me from the inside out. I couldn't help but lose control. Then I made eye contact with him and he gave me an evil smirk before he reaches down and pinches my nibble while rolling it in between his fingers.

The rattling in the background was getting louder and a growling noise was emanating from that direction. I am so happy I reinforced that cross. Then he lets go of my nipples slowly bring his hand down my body to the Holy Land. Once he arrives, he pinches my clit and I fall over the edge. "Master may I come?" I smile and look over at Demetri and he looked ready to kill "yes my Felix cum for me!" Felix picked up the pace; I could not keep my eyes on Demetri anymore. We both came simultaneously, he fell on top of me, and I reach over and turn off the butt plug. After we both came down from our high I gave him a passionate kiss, making him smile. "You did well. Now l will meet you in the bathroom take position on the floor." He kissed me one more time "yes master." he got up, went to the attached bathroom and closed the door. I took a few more deep breaths before I could gain enough composure to get up. Once I felt ready I got up and removing the sheets then going to one of the side cupboards getting the Lysol spray and wiped down the plastic bed covering before adding clean sheets. I put the toys in a bowl before going and standing in front of a defeated looking Demetri.

"Demetri look at me." He looks up with tear in his light blue eyes. I undo the shackles and rub his red wrists "what do you have to say for yourself?" and that's when he broke down falling to his knees grabbing my legs and hold them tight. "I am so sorry master I will try my hardest to get this under control." I look down at him and rack my fingers through his hair "do you know why your punishment was so severe?" he shook his head "it's because we have been working on this for two years and we are still where we were at the beginning. I know its time to finish your punishment. I will come and untie you in the morning and we will take a bath then as well." He nodded before giving me one more squeeze then making his way over to the bed and waiting for me to restrain him. I gave him a bottle of water and allowed him to go to the bathroom. After he returned locking him up I gave him a kiss on the cheek, "you will not be getting release tomorrow you did not remain quite. Do you understand?" he nods.

I turn off the iPod and light before joining Felix in the bathroom. I noticed that he was waiting for me like a good boy. This is a man I could see myself being with forever. Suddenly Edward Cullen face suddenly appears but I shake my head. That was weird .I went and started drawing us a bath. After the tub was ready, I turn to Felix, "my beloved please go into the bath I will be there in a minute." He nods, getting up, making his way over, and then lowered himself in the bathtub while I went to the cupboard pulled out some nice smelling bath oils then preceded to join him. I star to massage him starting with his shoulders, slowly making my way down his whole body, making sure I don't forget anywhere. In a comfortable silence I realized that is was getting later because I was at his feet. Just then, there was a knock on the door. "Ma'am would you like me to get you breakfast ready for six-thirty as usual?" Sam is always on top of everything, "no Sam that will not be necessary but we will have lunch at eleven-thirty. What time it is right now?" having no idea how long that scene lasted. "Its four-thirty ma'am and Paul is in your room waiting for you." Of course, he is, maybe I will just sleep in Felix's room or Demetri's because he isn't in there... However, in the end I cannot hide from Paul. "Thank you Sam that will be all." Hearing only his retreating footsteps, I slowly finished massaging Felix's ankles and feet. "I think tomorrow after I get Demetri up and dress we will have breakfast and discuss last night's scene." Felix nodded lying back, enjoying the attention. After giving his body a through massage, I kissed him on the cheek, "ok hun I have to go and see what Paul wants." I was drying off when Felix comes and wraps his arms around me "may I talk freely master?" I nodded leaning into his chest, "will there always be a Paul?" I knew what he was really asking, so I gave him the only answer I had "I don't know if I can let him go." I watched him close his eyes, take a breath, sigh and nod before walking out and leaving me behind to watch his retreating figure. I knew then that I would do anything to make him feel better, even if it meant leaving Paul behind.

Since I have come to this conclusion, I decided to face him and headed to my room. As my hand is on doorknob, I take a few deep breaths and give myself a 'don't worry you can do this 'speech before walking in, wearing only a towel. I do not look at him, I just drop my towel and walk into my closet to get a pair of lavender satin tank top and pant set. I go in my stash located in the back of the closet and go to my prerolled doobies , I light one, take a deep puff before going out to join Paul. There he is in all his glory wearing nothing but boxers and drinking bourbon. I could not help myself but admire this fine specimen of a man. His hair was wet from a shower I assume and I slowly make my way down his body.

His arms are still jacked to shit and the one thing that always stops my breath was his washboard abs. Looking at them, I could not help but to lick my lips. A part of me wanted to get down on my knees and lick every inch of him. I looked back up to meet his eyes that when I seen that he knew, he knew exactly what he was doing when he showed up looking like that. To say I was pissed was an understatement. "What can I help you with Paul I am very tired." I try to hide my irritation but fail miserably. "You know what I want and why I am waiting for you in your room and for you to finish fucking the guys that are not me. I am the one who has been there for you through thick and thin." He stood up and walked over so close to me that my nipples were touching his chest, his nose flaring, "I seen the way you looked at me when you left the closet ,grabbing my hand and placing it on his semi erect penis. "I seen how your body still reacts to mine," squeezing my hand around his dick. He always liked it when I was rough with him. "As my body responses to you, doesn't it remind you of anything tonight? Does it remind you of... this? He squeezes my hand on his now full erection until it hurt.

This is what it felt like to relinquish control. Let me take care of you again my beloved. You say to me to stop waiting, but here I am waiting for you to finish was you needed to do and even after what you just did, my body and soul still calls for you ,as your does for mine. How can you tell me not to wait? How can you still tell me to find someone else? When your body calls the way it does." I could feel the tears running down my face, "my beloved all you have to do is come back to me." That is when he leans down and kisses me so sweet and tender. Felix is right this does have to stop. I pull away from Paul, wiped my eyes before making eye contact with him again.

"Paul a lot of things have changed over the last few years. I feel that if I was ever going to do the submission thing again, I wouldn't be coming back to you baby .I love you but I would want to experience it with someone else for a while." I see the tears fall down his face, "Why am I not good enough? Why do I not crevice? What can I do to change your mind?" he says this in such a low whisper that if you were not listening you would have missed it. This man has been great; the least he deserved was honesty. "I don't know, you have given me everything and I love you with all my heart, but I am not in love with you. Does that make sense?" Tears streamed down his face full tilt and his eyes are closed he nods. "Paul we do need to talk about your roll in my relationship with my guys. I feel that you should be removed from the contract. I am so sorry Paul."

I bring him into a hug, hearing a sob rip through his chests he nods in acceptance. I kiss him on the cheek and leave the room, heading to Felix's bedroom. He is going to have to come to terms with these things. When I reach Felix's room, I open the door and I see him sleep peacefully. I just had to stand there and gawk at him. He is mumbling in his sleep "Bella please don't go I will love you for ever." He rolls over and I could not help the tears rolling down my face. How pathetic can I be...crying, because I have these men fighting for my affection. First thing I have to do it cut down the men around me. I slowly get into Felix's bed and press my body against him. "Bella?" he asked with his voice full of sleep. "Let's sleep and hope everything looks better in the morning." he smiles and nods before kissing me on the cheek. Holding me tight to him and letting sleep take us both I knew that in this one moment it was perfect, even if it was only an illusion.

I only slept a few hours, every time I closed my eyes I seen Edward. I decided to go and release Demetri from his punishment. I get up and cover Felix back up. I grab my housecoat from the chair and head down to the toy box. I open the door and turn on the light before heading to the shelf where I left the key and went to release Demetri, "come let's get you in a bath." He nods but keeps his head down while we proceed to the bathroom. He goes and kneels into position while I ran the bath and got the bath salts. Once it was full, I shut off the water and started the jets .I turn to Demetri, "you may enter." He got up, undresses himself and getting the tub, letting out a moan. I spent the next hour just being with him, washing his body gently while massaging his body. "Demetri, my love, you know that no matter what happens in the toy box, we are still good." I washed his back and he just nods. "Let's get out and I will come to your room, if you would like we can cuddle for a while." He looked at me a long moment before nodding.

This was not something I did often; we got out and headed to his room. It was still early and I felt drained. Once we were in his room, I closed the door took off my towel and climbed into bed. He took this as a hint and did the same thing. "May I speak master?" I smile, "you may speak." I turn in the bed to face him "I hope you're not mad about me not being able to going to the grand opening?" I shook my head, "My Demetri, I knew there was a good chance of you not being there, this year has been really busy for all of us in one way or another ." He gives me a look, I smile, "Ok you and I anyways have been busy." I ran my hand along his cheek "I was thinking it maybe time for us to get our own place. I want you to think about it and then we will discuss it with Felix when we wake up." He smiled, "are you serious?" I nod and he smiles wider then I ever thought he could. "Yes I think it would be best to do this for us." He kissed me hard "I think it's a great idea, even if we have to take Felix with us." I could not help but laugh. "Ok nap time we will talk about later."

I was awakened by a knock at the door; I look over at the clock that reads eleven-thirty. "Ma'am your breakfast is ready and Felix is waiting at the table." I stretched, "Thank you Sam, Could I have a tea? When I get down there, please tell Felix I will be about ten minutes. Also inform Paul that breakfast is ready." Now what to do with him. "Ma'am, he's not here at the moment." Perfect, I will not have to deal with him until later, sounds like a plan to me. This will also be a great opportunity to talk about moving out. "Thank you Sam that will be all." I hear his footsteps retreat. I look over to see Demetri watching me with a smirk. "What?" he just smiles bigger so I hit him in the stomach. "Come, we have lunch, then we can all talk.

After going back to my room, I found an 8x10 of Paul and I at the Grand Canyon on my bed. I walked over, picked it up, and ran a finger around my smile. I was leaning against Paul with my back to him and he had his hands around my waist, we were both wearing sunglasses, my hair blowing in the wind gazing at the view. You could see a bit of the canyon. I need to be honest with him. I think the only way he will get it, is if we leave. All of a sudden, I lose my balance, almost unable to catch myself. I look down to see Lestat rubbing against my leg. I get down on my knees and he starts kissing my face. "Don't worry my love, I would never leave you, just then Akasha comes up looking for a little love. "That means you too." I kiss them both and head downstairs to have the conversation that was going to change not just my life, but all of our lives.

I put the picture on my dresser then grabbed a housecoat since I was nude then headed to get something to eat. By the time I get there, both men are seated, whispering to each other. However, they stopped when I enter the room. "Good afternoon gentlemen," I said as I took my seat in between them at the head of the table, just as Sam enters with my tea. When I leave, I am going to miss him the most. He put my tea down and left without a word. "Ok we have a lot to discuss, first we have to talk about the scene we did last night."

I took a sip of my tea and starting eating some of the mushroom omelette and bacon. I also had an Everything Bagel with light cream cheese, and some cantaloupe. They had some food as well. "I hope that last night scene was to everyone's satisfactions?" Demetri snorted, I turned to him and raised my eyebrow; he just put his head down. "Master, when do I get to come?" I had to think about that. He did not do good last night. "We will do a scene tomorrow night where you will both be able to participate...Well hopefully." I look directly at Demetri and he just nods. "Now, is there anything either of you wish to discuss about it?" they both shook there heads. "Are you sure? We will not be revisiting this subject. I know what you both want to talk about, but this is important."

I throw a sausage to Lestat and Akasha. Felix smiled and I knew he was going to say something. "Well I can't speak for everyone", eyeing Demetri from across the table, "but I thought it was great. I would have although liked to have you every which way." He was really smiling now and Demetri's had his jaw ridged. "Ok fine, lets move on then. I figured that Demetri filled you in." Felix took a bit of his waffles "Yeah a little, from what I got, we are moving." I nod, taking another sip of my tea. "Yes I think it would be best if we got our own house, I will buy it. I was thinking we should start looking today unless you both have something else to do?" Demetri shook his head.

"Actually I do I have some things that has to be approved by tomorrow morning so I will be tied up all day," Felix said, with a hint of disappointment. Demetri's smile could not get any bigger. "What are you going to be doing all day?" I said to Felix. He wiped his mouth, "I have to go over some advertisement for a few commercials as well as for some magazines, I will be doing open conferencing so they can change things accordingly." He finished the last bit of his waffles before continuing. "Do you mind if I go and start that?" I smiled at him, "Of course not." He comes to me and gives me a deep passionate kiss and then pulls away but comes back for a peak. "I'll see you at dinner." He kissed me again then turns to Demetri "take care of my girl," saying it with a twinkle in his eye. "Our girl", Demetri quickly corrects him. Felix put on a smile, "yeah our". He looks at me one more time before leaving the room. For about another hour Demetri and I talked about what the house would need .He excuses himself to go look for listings while I had another cup of tea and think about how I was going to tell Paul I was moving out. He still has not returned any of my calls, so I decided to take a shower and get dressed.

When I got out of the shower, I dressed in a long flowing silk strapless black and white John Richmond dress that had snake print; with black stiletto Gucci heels, adding only light makeup. When I was satisfied with my appearance, I went to find Demetri who was in the library. He was looking at the computer while talking on the phone. He must have heard me, when he turned around he was speechless .I laughed, whoever was talking on the phone, was trying to get his attention. I gestured towards the phone, "Oh yes, I am here. I am sorry. Something had me distracted. Yes, we will be there in about a half an hour. Yes, see you then." He hung up; I am assuming was the realtor. "Are you ready?" I ask with a smirk. He smiles, "yes I am I have eight places lined up, the realtor said she would meet us there." He got up, this is the first time I notice what he is wearing, a black with white Armani pinstripe suit, a silk Armani white shirt and white Gucci shoes. All I can say is dam. He walks towards me with a knowing smile. He knows what he does to me. How I can resist a man in a suit that is putting his arm out for me to grab. When we enter the garage, he stops me. "Do you mind if today we take my Lamborghini Concept S specs2005 in silver?" Even though it was older, he still loved it, so of course we took it.

For the next four hours, we looked at houses. Every time the realtor thought I was not looking, or paying attention she would flirt with Demetri. He would give me a knowing smile. If she only knew. I was going to give up, until I saw the last one.

It was perfect. It is a grand white Victorian style farmhouse. The realtor stated it was twelve thousand square feet home on 1000 acres of land. None of that mattered. I loved it. I could not stop jumping up and down Demetri put his hand on mu shoulder and brought me close to his body. He was laughing. "Shouldn't we see the inside first?" He kisses my head and we take the grand tour. It has two master bedrooms with balconies, large master bathrooms that had sunken baths with marble floors.

It had three guestrooms, three offices. There were four ½ bathrooms, a kitchen a four car garage, and a completely stocked library with rare vintage books. The two living rooms had an 80 ft view thru the massive windows that were from ceiling to floor leading to the rotunda and a great room, in which a fireplace greets you upon entering. The circular floor plan provided easy access to a den and the formal living room, while connecting the kitchen and formal dining via the butlery. The covered outdoor dining and barbecue porch connects the family living areas to the outdoors. The rotunda's circular stairs lead to a spacious master suite retreat. It was divine. The upper floor comprises a guest suite, two family rooms to share the turreted play loft, a large media room and a popcorn kitchen, basically my own theatre and a dining room, a sitting room, gym, and a laundry room. I turned to the realtor and smiled, she looked relieved.

"This is perfect. I will take it." Her smile got bigger, "that's great! If you and your husband can meet me down at my office we can get the paper work started." I could help but smile "I am sorry but we are not married I will be the one that is buying this house, also I would like you to talk to the seller to see if we can get a better price if we do a quick close." She looked at Demetri and licked her lips; she was eye fucking him not really listening. I could not help but smile wider. "My apologizes, I'll meet you back at my office then." I nod and take one last look before going home. "Did you have to point out we are not married? Would it have really made a difference?" He said once we were in the car. I had to look at him, "Yes it would have, first she would have put both our names on the mortgage, which is not going to happen, and second we are not married so I don't want to have people thinking we are." That ended the discussion.

After an hour at the realtors, we had the papers all signed and our closing was in two weeks. It was seven-thirty by the time we arrived at home. "Go and tell Felix what's going on and I am going to go out for a bit, have supper without me." I turned around and left, I needed to get my barring, if I was going to talk to Paul. I got into my car and decide to got for Italian instead of drinking because it won't help the conversation being drunk. I found this nice little restaurant and thought about what I was going to say to Paul. By the time the meal was over, I got it down, I feel confident and happy with my choices. He is not going to be here any way; by the time I am able to move out, he will already be in Europe.

"I feel good I know what I am going to tell Paul and everything is going to be fine." I coach myself on the drive home. I pull in and get out of the car, "everything is going to be fine, this is Paul, he will understand." I say this one more time before go inside. I notice that something is off. Sam was not here to greet me, huh that weird. I head up stairs and hear music coming from my room. I wonder who was in my room I get there and open the door.

There was Paul with a half a bottle of tequila I have never seen him drink like this so I run over, "Paul, are you ok? What's wrong?" He slaps me and I fly back. "So this is how you treat me!" he gets up throwing the bottle across the room hitting a wall and smashing then started walking towards me. "I spent all this time on you and this is what I get! Make you who you are today and now you're leaving me!" I was trying to get to the door but even in this state, he was faster then me. "Where do you think your going?" He grabs me by the hair and drags me across the floor. "Paul what the fuck is wrong with you? This isn't you ..." I did not even get to finish before he hits me again. "This is what it comes to, your leaving with THEM!" as if I didn't say anything, "And where am I left once again, by myself!

This was supposed to be a stage; you were supposed to get over it. But not of course you don't follow the rules." He let me go and I start moving backwards along the floor towards the door again. "See! Like this! Your moving away from me! When you are going to get it, that YOU ARE MINE! You leave when I say you leave!" I was almost at the door when he picks me up off the ground by my throat and starts hitting my body into the door knocking the breath out of me. "I love you! Why is it so hard for you to love me back? I can give you the world! What do they have that I do not? The way you look at them, you never looked at me that way." He is slamming me again. "Then to make matters worse I have to hear them talking abut the house you bought today and that you are moving out in two weeks. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?"

He tightens his grip on my throat. I am putting everything I have into trying to get his grip to loosen, trying to grasp for breaths. "Well I am going to take what's coming to me whether you want to give it up or not." Loosening his grip a little but then brings his other hand to lift up my dress and rips off my underwear, then precedes to started to undo his pants, panic erupts. "Paul what are you doing? Why are you doing this please stop this is me! Bella!" tears were coming down my face like Niagara Falls. "Please Paul, don't do this." He hit me against the door again, "this is all your fault do not try and turn this on me! I do not care what you say I am going to take you and then we are going to get rid of Demetri and Felix then everything will go back to normal. Do you understand?" I did not answer him he was going to rape me and there is nothing I can do about it! So I cry. He started pulling my dress up but because there was a lot of it he just ripped it off of me. I cannot believe this is really happening to me! Paul, My Paul, was going to rape me.