Axel carried me into his house, cradling me like a baby as I sniffled and released the last of my tears. He set me on his bed and sat beside me, silent for a little while as we both reflected the intense day behind us.

"You wana shower?" He didn't have to ask because he knew how much I needed to feel clean after sex. Showering after the 'dirty act' was as close to clean as a slut like me could ever get. But he asked anyway, because he's amazing like that.

"Yeah." I wiped a tear and he got the shower ready, knowing that I preferred them over baths, even if I was sore from our love making.

"Water's ready." He stood in the doorway and took his ponytail out, letting his long hair fall straight to his shoulders. He must have showered and washed his hair since I was last here and he probably straightened it too. It was naturally straight, but it never fell so easy a victim to gravity without the use of products. Instead, his hair would jet out in the back like a porcupine, an adorable red porcupine.

I stood up and he put an arm around my waist to help me to the shower and he cleaned me up as I stood there, still and quiet. It was the least sexual shower I had ever had. He soaped me, sponged me with a wash cloth, rinsed me, and dried me without being too rough or making me too excited. He did it with all the tenderness and care that anyone could ever do, and all I could do was silently watch him as I envied myself for letting him go.

"How did you end up with Sora?" I asked, wondering how he knew about my call with my twin. I predicted that Sora had called him once he and I got off the phone, but I wanted to be sure.

"I was sitting here miserably and everyone left soon after you, Riku, and Sora did. I was all alone and I hated it. I missed you and I just felt like I needed to talk to you. After some thought, I decided to go to your brothers place to try and work things out, but before I could get out the door Sora called me. It was a good thing I caught the phone on my way out, since my cell's broken."

I frowned, that was my fault.

"Anyway, when he told me that you were missing, I asked him to pick me up so we could all get you, in case you were in serious trouble and Riku needed backup." Axel got comfortable sitting up in his bed after he made sure I was first.

"You want another pillow?" He even offered me his only pillow, after he gave me his secondary one.

"No, I'm fine." I wanted to use him as a pillow, but I didn't know how to say it, or if I should at all.

"You wana talk about it? About your dad?" Axel knew I hated that topic, but perhaps he knew me better than I give him credit for, cause I sure needed someone to at least ask.

"I'm ok." I said, rubbing my eyes, tired, wanting to cuddle so badly with Axel. Even if Axel were to reject me right now, I wouldn't want to cuddle with anyone else. Usually I could picture myself leaving him if I had to and using someone else's body to comfort myself. But right here right now, I knew that only Axel could keep me warm. Only he could make me feel like I was still worth keeping, like I was worth forgiving and trying to make things better.

"You wana go to bed?" Axel turned on the TV and turned it down low, knowing, like always, how I lived; how I fell asleep perfectly when I was in his arms and trying to stay awake watching TV. He used to stay up late while I would try to, and when I fought my tired body he would laugh at me and say how cute I was for trying so hard to keep my eyes open when I'd fail every time. I would get fake mad at him, you know, when you want to be mad at him but you can't? I'd tell him to shut up, but I would be too tired to say it clearly, and he would only laugh more. He'd kiss me and snuggle with me and I'd fall into a deep calm sleep for the entire night.

"Yeah, I'm tired." I yawned, unable to hold back the smile growing on my face when Axel positioned himself right beside me, grabbing my arm and not even giving me a choice but to lean on him, which I was more than thankful for.

"Go to bed," He soothingly whispered as I pushed my face into his chest, getting as comfortable as possible. I wanted to fall asleep right then and there but I couldn't, not while I had so much to work out with Axel.

"Axe?" I asked, half awake, fighting it harder than ever before.

"What is it Roxy?"

"Take me back, please?" My eyes started to water as I looked into his, so bright and priceless, exactly like emeralds in every way.

"I was about to ask you to take me back." Axel smiled down at me and I smiled back. I knew this wouldn't be easy, and I knew that proving that I'd never cheat on him again would only be possible with time, but I was willing. I didn't want to feel anyone else's arms around me; didn't want to sleep with anyone else or be touched by anyone but him. Cause in the end, only he would be there for me and love me the way I needed it. In the end, I promised to say no more broken promises.