"No, you have work. This is the least I can do," I tried to smile as he nodded and began to get ready for work. I wanted to be of help to him. I wanted him to value me and my existence the way that only Sora has thus far. But of course, I fucked that up. On my way in the kitchen, I spilled a cup that I was trying to keep from tipping over. After I spilled it, naturally I slipped on it, and as I crashed on the ground, back first, head second, I could hear the sound of shattering glass.
"Roxas?" I could hear Axel yell, but my head hurt so badly from meeting tile.
"Ow," I couldn't move; my back felt so heavy.
"What happened?" Axel stood in the kitchen archway and saw what I couldn't from my position.
"I'm sorry." I apologized. I felt awful for breaking his stuff….at least since this time was accidental.
"Are you ok?" He asked, slipping into some shoes so he wouldn't cut himself on the broken glass.
"Yeah. But the plate," I sat up on one elbow, unable to move further.
"No, stay put, don't move." Axel tip-toed through the broken glass and toppled plates and dropped food to squat by me. "You sure you're ok? Is anything broken?"
"Yeah, I'm really sorry." I looked at the cup.
"Fuck the cup Rox. Are YOU ok?" Axel put his hand on the back of my head and I nodded.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Thank you." I said as he helped me up.
"Careful!" He warned since I was barefoot. "Here," He scooped me up like a baby and I put an arm around his neck, burying my face in the crevice between his shoulder and cheek, my favorite place to snuggle.
"Thank you," I said when we made our way out of the kitchen and he set me down.
"Of course." He looked down at me. "You're so cute," He smiled at me and I smiled, until I felt a sharp pain and groaned through it. "Whats wrong? Where does it hurt?"
"It's nothing. I think I'm just sore." I said, using my left arm to rub my back.
"Let me see," Axel stood behind me, lifted up my shirt, and gasped. "Shit, you're already bruised. Just go lie down. Can you walk? Do you want me to carry you?"
"I can finish," I started to walk back into the kitchen.
"Roxas, half your back is blue; there's no way I'm letting you back in there until you've had some rest."
"Axe, I can do it," I took a lazy step, more sore than I would have guessed.
"Roxas, bed time." Axel picked me up and I couldn't refuse being in his arms for anything.
"I'm sorry," I began to sniffle again. I hated being so emotional, but what I hated even more, was feeling helpless.
"For what?" Axel scoffed as if my apology was silly.
"For breaking the glass and for making you carry me. And now you have to pick up after my mess when you should be getting ready for work." I placed my left arm around his neck and realized that I hadn't even tried to move my right arm since I fell.
"Roxas, don't worry about it. It's one little cup, it's no big deal. And, I really love carrying you. It makes me feel like I can take care of you and like you're mine." He held onto me tighter, cause he's just perfect like that. "And I still have plenty of time before I have to leave for work. So don't worry ok?" He set me on his bed and kissed my forehead after pushing my bangs aside. "I'll be back with some ice and some water, ok?"
I nodded and ten minutes later, he returned.
"Here's some aspirin, water, and you need to lay on this ice for your back." He helped me sit up and placed the ice on the bed so I could lie on it.
"It's cold," I shivered.
"I know, but you need it. Promise me you'll ice it and get some rest?"
I nodded.
"I'm serious Roxas. I don't need you getting hurt. Just take a nap, and I'll be back by bedtime." He kissed me on the lips, another simple peck, and walked away.
I had never been so bored. I lied there for half an hour shivering before the icepack became warm and I threw it on the floor. I tried to sit up, but I didn't even have the strength to do that on my own. I wanted to watch TV and I could see the remote where Axel left it on his nightstand, which was on my right. It was within reach, but I couldn't get it. I couldn't move my arm. I couldn't feel my arm.
I felt like it was broken, since I had broken it before…ok my dad actually broke it, but now that I'm "moving on" whats the difference? I didn't want to tell Axel. I couldn't bring myself to burden him anymore than I already was. The phone rang, and thank god that was on my left side, also within a convenient reach.
"Hello?" I asked, half there, half nonexistent.
"Roxas? You ok?" It was Sora.
"Yeah, I fell, but I'm fine."
"You fell?"
"Slipped."
"You're such a klutz Roxy."
"Yeah I know. Lucky me."
"So, how are things with Axel?"
"It's…it's great. We had our moments, but we didn't fight, we didn't yell, we just talked and it's like he knows that I'm serious this time." I couldn't help but smile and I wished Axel was there to see it.
"Good, I'm glad. Well, I just wanted to check up on you. You sure you're ok? You sound tired."
"Yeah I'm just a little out of it. I'm fine."
"Alright, but if anything changes and you start to feel worse, call me, ok?"
"Promise." Sora and I hung up and I began to think about just how good a day it had been, minus my whole slipping scene.
I was beyond bored, wishing that I had Axel to keep me company, wishing he was here to see how I smiled when Sora asked about us. I reached into my front pocket with my good hand, thankful that I kept my phone in my front pocket, because if it were in my back pocket, I would have smashed it to bits when I fell.
I wanted Sora to call me again so I could have a reason to talk about Axel and smile. Then the more I thought about it, the more I realized that just thinking about Axel was enough to make me smile.
I lifted my cell in my left hand and took a picture of me smiling. Then, I sent it to Axel in a text that read, "I miss you,"
Then I was bored again. I couldn't fall asleep, could barely pull myself to sit up, and couldn't feel my right arm, except for a sharp throbbing pain below my elbow. I decided to just try to take a nap, against the odds, but even that was a fail. Fifteen minutes after I sent that text to Axel, I got a response.
"You're so cute baby. Miss you too."
I smiled and held the phone to my chest. I didn't know what I was feeling, but it was numbing my pain. Quickly I called Sora.
"Are you ok?" was how he greeted me.
"Yeah. I, I have this weird feeling in my stomach. My cheeks are warm, and I can feel my heart beat just lying here."
"Do you need to go to a hospital?"
"No Sora, I feel this way because I got a text from Axel. He called me cute, and baby, and said he missed me."
"Oh, so you have butterflies?"
"I …I guess. I've never felt anything this strong before."
"Do you feel heavy hearted but light headed, like you could almost float?"
"Kinda. I almost feel sleepy, but not tired."
"Like its surreal?"
"Exactly."
Sora laughed at me. "Means you have butterflies. It's a good thing."
"Oh, ok." I could feel my cheeks turning red.
"How are you feeling? Did you fall hard?"
"Yeah, a little. My arm feels a little heavy, but I'll be ok." I couldn't tell Sora how I really felt, cause he'd freak out and tell Axel.
"You sure?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm going to take a nap. Bye Sora."
"Bye Roxas, love ya."
When I hung up with Sora for the second time, I couldn't handle the boredom. I tried to reach across my body to grab the TV remote with my left hand, but that ended worse than I expected. I accidentally rolled off the bed and since I only had one functioning arm, I landed face first. Hard. I groaned loudly; wishing Axel was here more than ever. Unable to get up, I ended up falling asleep, with nothing better to do anyway.
"Hey, what happened?" Axel combed my hair after he found me face first on the floor.
"Hm?" I rolled over my left side and onto my still sore back. "I fell off."
Axel shook his head. "Alright, back to bed." He grabbed my right arm and I screamed, moving my whole body to pull away.
"What's wrong?" Axel looked scared.
"I'm fine." I crouched forward.
"Roxas, let me see your arm." Axel beckoned with his hand.
"It's nothing."
"Quit being so stubborn," Axel pinned my left hand down and saw my hurt arm. "Oh my god Roxas! It's completely broken!"
"I'm fine!"
"No, you're not. Come on, we have to get you to a hospital." Axel put his hands under my armpits and lifted me onto my feet.
"Its nothing." I tried again.
"Roxas, please, let me take care of you," Axel scooped me in his arms and set me on his bed while he called Sora to ask Riku to take us to the hospital, since his motorcycle wouldn't work well with my one arm and having to hold on.
"They're here." Axel cradled me and took me to Riku's car. He strapped us both in and with Sora in the front seat, Riku sped off.
"You told me you were ok!" Sora lashed around.
"I'm fine," I pleaded.
"Roxas, please," Axel put his arm around me, draping his hand on my left shoulder
I felt bad, so I hushed. After I got my cast and Riku drove Axel and I home, the guilt was settling in again.
"Whew, I am exhausted!" Axel let his body crash on his bed, hands folded behind his head.
"I'm sorry." I stood in the doorway to his room.
"Why? You didn't do anything wrong."
"But, you had a long evening at work and I just made you spend hours at the hospital carrying me around." I stayed where I stood while Axel sat himself up.
"It's not your fault you fell, stop blaming yourself. You tried to do too much at once, no one is perfect Rox. I love you and I want to take care of you. But I can't do that if you wont let me." Axel said and I nodded, sitting next to him, leaning my head on his shoulder.
"You ok? How's your arm?"
"Ok," I sighed, super tired.
"How did you not feel the pain?"
"I did, but it wasn't as bad once I read your text."
"What?" Axel laughed and I leaned away from his shoulder to show him my smile, since I was starting to feel proud of myself for being able to smile.
"Your text made me so happy, I couldn't feel my arm as badly."
Axel sighed happily, "Glad to help. But it was your text that got me through my late day shift."
"Really?"
"Mhm, it's my new background. See?" Axel showed me his phone and I saw my face and I felt so special.
"I don't know what to say," I blushed.
"You're my baby and you have an adorable smile." Axel tapped my nose with his fingertip. I blushed and leaned forward. I needed a kiss. Axel knew, he could read my like a book, and he gave me that kiss.
"Bedtime," Axel smashed his lips into my cheek.
"Kay," I weakly walked to my dresser to change into a white T-shirt and we always slept in our boxers.
"I'm going to shower. I'll be right out," Axel closed the bathroom door behind him and I got into bed.
I was already falling asleep when he walked out of the bathroom, which woke me right up. He was wearing only a white towel that barely stayed up on his hips. He couldn't see my eyes, and probably thought I was still asleep because he shed off that towel with no hesitation, leaving that pale round juicy ass to be admired. He bent over to pick up a pair of boxers and I silently sat up to get a better view. Fuck. I was hard. He pulled up those tight boxers and when he turned around, his eyes widened when they locked with mine.
I looked down at my bulging erection, then back at him. He stood frozen and I ran into the bathroom. I slammed the door behind me and stayed for several minutes fantasizing about that sweet ass, that long cock, those small red hairs that drove me wild and made me come into the toilet.
"Axel!" I tried to hold back, but it was pointless, and when I exited the bathroom, sweaty and red, Axel was sitting up in bed, watching the muted TV. I silently crawled into bed and he opened an arm to welcome me to his side.
"Feeling better?" he asked and I rolled my eyes.
"Not my fault you gave me the world's best view to your ass."
"Not my fault you get horny so easily,"
I kept quiet. If I didn't, I'd say something I'd regret, and I couldn't ruin the best day we've ever had.
"Is it wrong for me to enjoy my boyfriends body?" I said, trying not to sound like an asshole.
"Don't worry, once we both know that we can make it, we'll have the best sweaty sex you can think of," Axel start nibbling at my ear, and that always drove me over the top.
"Axe, stop!" I pushed on his chest with my heavy cast.
"I'm sorry, you're just so delicious."
"Well this no sex plan is your idea, and if you want me to keep it, don't tempt me," I looked up into his eyes.
"You're right. Sorry," Axel rubbed the back of his neck and I yawned. "Go to bed," He messed up my already and always messy hair.
"Are you?" I asked and he shook his head.
"Nah, I'm going to watch some TV. The light wont bother you, will it?"
I shook my head. "No. Goodnight."
"Night," Axel rubbed my shoulder as I laid myself down. I kept falling in and out of sleep, but every time I opened my eyes to sneak a glance at him, I noticed how tired he looked. His eyes had dark circles underneath and he kept sighing like he wasn't as tired as he needed to be to fall asleep. He always had a hard time falling asleep, and I wondered if it was because I accidentally talk and kick in my sleep. I also steal all the blankets and force him on the edge of the bed, but I never mean to. He's just too sweet to wake me up to help himself. He always slept on the left side of the bed, so I took the right, close to the bathroom and the door, but he was always the first one up and ready before I even got the chance to open my eyes. He's does a lot more than he should have to, and I knew that if I could help him out, it'd help me show him how much I care.
Author's Note: I'm so sorry that I didn't post last night, so I am posting a "long" chapter…hopefully long enough lol. Warning though, I will be super busy for the next month, so I will do my best to upload daily, but no guarentee's. Anywho, hope you like where this is going and I hope that you continue to read some of my other stuff as you wait for the next chapter.
As always, comments are very much appreciated.
To 18plusforme: haha, cake is awesome, and yes, I love red and green so much, they've always been my fav (besides black and grey, but my friends say they aren't 'real' colors whatever that means lmao). But yeah, I love red and green, but together its just Christmas lol.
Thanks for reading!
Heart, Sarabellum