The next day, Reno came over and even Rude stopped by for about ten minutes before he left for work, and after an hour with Sora and Reno, Axel joined us.

"Hey, how you feeling?" Axel handed me a dozen roses, a get well card, and a teddy bear. My arms were full as I tried to hug him, still sitting on the couch.

I looked down at all the stuff he got me and smiled up at him. "I'm feeling much better now. Thanks Axe, you didn't have to."

"I want to help you get better." Axel sat next to me as I kept my ankle up on the coffee table. "You should lay down and elevate so it doesn't swell up anymore."

"Good idea." I fidgeted around until Axel picked me up in his arms, laid himself down on the couch, and placed me on his stomach. "Thanks." I rested my bandaged ankle on his legs as he put his hands on my tummy.

I could feel myself getting emotional, and I hated feeling so dramatic, but being touched by him just felt so amazing. And not sexually, the way it used to. It just felt so comforting, so right. I put my hands over his and Sora turned on a movie for us.

"Are you two going to be ok while I go to the store?"

"We'll be fine. Thanks for inviting me for dinner." Axel answered as Sora left.

"Axe?"

"Yea?"

I wanted to tell him that I loved him, but I grew shy.

"Thanks for keeping me company."

"Of course." Axel ruffled my hair as we continued to watch the movie. Riku came home right when it ended, and right when Axel had to leave.

"Do you have to go?" I asked quietly as he placed me back on the couch so he could stand.

"Yea, I'm sorry." Axel put a hand on my cheek and I held it there.

"Tomorrow is going to be busy, I'll be at work all day." Riku warned Sora, who sighed.

"How is this going to work?" Sora asked Riku. "You have work all day tomorrow and I have a bunch of errands to run. I don't have time to look after him."

I was quiet. I hated feeling like a burden.

"He can stay with me, I have tomorrow off." Axel said and I smiled uncontrollably.

"Alright," Riku sighed, not really having an opinion.

"Good, lets get your stuff." Axel packed some clothes and my basic belongings to spend the night at his place, and Riku drove me along with my crutches that I had yet to use and my stuff. Axel drove home on his motorcycle and when we got there, he helped carry me in and then went to Riku's car to bring in my stuff.

"You want to go to bed?" Axel asked after he dumped all my shit in a corner of his room.

"Not really," I couldn't lie, I wanted him badly. He removed his black leather jacket to reveal his tight white T-shirt that looked amazing with his skinny black jeans.

"Well what do you want to do?" He asked, sitting right by me, our thighs touching.

"I don't know," I shrugged, inhaling deep. I wasn't trying to seem desperate, but I had missed him so much, I wanted to get all that I had been missing out on in one dose.

"Do you not know or do you just not want to say?" Axel put his finger on my chin and forced me to face him and I inhaled deep.

"I don't want to ruin the last bit of us there is." I admitted.

"Honesty is the best policy Rox," Axel smiled and I nodded.

"I've missed you so much. I've been crying at night, holding onto that red pillow, naming it after you, trying to squeeze the life out of it, wishing it were you." I threw my arms around his stomach and sniffled into him. He put his arms around me and rubbed his hands up and down my back.

"I've missed you too Roxy. Reno's been helping me realize that I'm taking out some old hidden anger on you when I shouldn't."

"Huh?" I asked, confused.

"See, my mom used to cheat on my dad all the time, and he never wanted to admit it, so he kept her for years and years and years, till she finally left him. Then one day a few years later, she came back, promising she had changed, but when the time came to prove it, she failed. I guess I've been fearing that my past will repeat itself. But Reno and Demyx have been helping me realize that you're nothing like my mom. You woke up, saw a need to change, and did. I guess I saw how quickly you changed and thought that it was impossible, too good to be true. But I was putting limitations on you and I wasn't giving you the credit you deserve. I'm sorry. I've been so scared and so insecure, and I just didn't know what to do." Axel lifted my face up and I looked into his dangerously bright eyes.

"I love you," I said; they were the only words on my mind.

"I love you too," He kissed me. It was slow and sweet and everything I needed.

"Come on, you need to go to bed." Axel helped me change into my pajama bottoms and tucked me in his bed.

"Thank you for letting me stay with you." I smiled as he handed me my pillow Axel that Riku let me take. I held onto that thing with all I had when Axel joined me in his bed.

"You know, you don't have to use a pillow version of me anymore, unless you prefer that." Axel smiled shyly and I did too.

"Ok." I moved the pillow and scooted over to him, putting my arms around him as he put his around me.

"Night Roxas."

"Night Axe." I felt his body breathe as he slept, but the pain in my ankle was much more than I remembered, probably because I wasn't on as many pills, and I hardly slept.

"Morning." Axel smiled sweetly when he woke up.

"Morning." I said, tired and weary.

"What's wrong?"

"It hurts."

"I'm sorry." Axel sat up, got his pillows, and placed them under my ankle.

He put my ankle over his shoulder and massaged my leg. Usually we'd fuck in this position, but he gave me a relaxing massage as I sighed, just about half asleep.

"How you feeling?" Axel asked me after he massaged my leg down to my thigh.

"Thanks." I said, so extremely tired and out of it, just wanting to sleep.

"Stay in bed while I make breakfast, ok?" Axel stood up and left as I waited for him to return.

"Axe? Axel?" I shouted his name and he came running in seconds later.

"What is it? Everything ok?" he rushed to my side as I blushed.

"I'm not hungry. I just don't want to be alone anymore." I looked up at him and he nodded.

"I'll go turn off the stove and I'll be right back. Five seconds." He dashed off and sprinted back.

"That was seventeen seconds." I said as he came back.

"Damn, I thought I was faster than that." Axel smiled as he climbed in bed next to me.

"Axe, are we dating again?" I asked when he sat behind me and pulled me against his body.

He sighed and I sighed, knowing that I had started something. As always. It was always my fault and I was so sick of it.

"I don't know Rox. What do you want to do?"

"I want to be the boyfriend you've always deserved. I want to make it up to you. I will make it up to you. I promise." I looked up into his hurting eyes with my own hurting pair.

"You're not going to break it?" He looked scared and I got angry.

"NO I wont ok?" I yelled and he exhaled loudly.

"Please don't yell." I wiped my tears to see that he was crying too.

"I'm sorry." I gulped and he looked away.

"I want to get back together, but if you snap like that, it's going to make it harder for me to stay patient." Axel rested his chin on my shoulder and I nodded.

"I'm really sorry Axe, I didn't mean it." I turned to see his eyes so very close to mine.

"I don't want to get hurt again. I know I need to trust you, and I know that you've changed, but think about it Rox. It's hard for me to take you back when just one thought of our past makes me want to cry." Axel blinked rapidly and I could tell that he meant what he said literally, his eyes were filling up with tears.

"I promise I'll make it up to you. I'll change our memories so that you wont even be able to remember the bad. Please, just one more chance?" I didn't even look at him and when he inhaled, I prepared for the worst. He was about to talk when his phone went off.

"It's Sora." He said when he flipped his phone open and talked. Sadly I couldn't hear Sora, so I didn't know what they were talking about until Axel hung up.

"Riku has to pick you up now because they'll be busy later." Axel stood up and got my stuff ready as I sat on the bed, feeling absolutely shitty. Sora always had the worst timing.

"So, about us?" I didn't want to bring it up again, but I needed to know.

"Right now, lets focus on healing your ankle. After you get better, we'll talk. I swear. Is that ok?" Axel handed me my crutches as I nodded.

"Alright. Thank you for helping me and letting me stay with you. It was nice to be in your arms again." I smiled and Axel kissed my cheek as Riku arrived.

Author's Note: So this chapter is shorter than the recent ones, but I'm trying to extend it still, so I'm writing as fast as I can so that I can post on time and not fall behind. Also, the next chapter will be REALLY long, so prepare!

WARNING: The next chapter will have a long, intense, detailed lemon. I hate to give away such spoilers, but I feel like I should, just incase someone is uncomfortable reading sex scenes or in case you try to read it when other people (non yaoi fans) are around and its just too hard (hahaha, pun :P) … hey I'm just looking out for your eyes! Hahaha lol, so yea, lemon coming up! Be prepared!

To Kindofbadger: I love badgers! Have I ever told you that? Seriously, they are like that random animal I am known for loving without being able to explain. Anyway, sorry for the long wait, but I hope it was at least worth it =) Hahaha YAY! Thanks for the compliment too. I love Demyx, but it's nice to see characters portrayed differently than the same old same old that everyone does. So thanks!

To Hikari Tsukiyomi: Awww, yay! I can just picture that happening, cause when I'm grumpy on pain meds, I turn into a little kid and my roommates are left wondering what language I'm speaking lol. So yeah, I thought it would be cool to add some of that in here ^_^ Thank YOU for reviewing and for reading ^_^

To mellow-panda7: Yes, you really did, and thanks again, I still cant get over that! Its like Christmas came early for me lol. Haha yes, Reno is just too amazing to alter his character in any way other than the loud-mouthed-idiot we all know and love. Grr, now I'm jealous! I wants an Axel-pillow! Hahaha, I want to write a Reno X Rude lemon, but the story is from Roxas' POV, and I don't know how to write a lemon with Roxas watching without making it totally awkward and uncomfortable . Tips? Lol Awww thank you! I love you guys too! Thank you and your friend for reading!

To Shadowridge: Butter is holy? Good to know :P lol. Hahaha, message received and in case you didn't read the warning I posted above, there will be a lemon next chapter ;P Oh yea, it will be intense. So prepare to read it alone when no one can possibly read over your shoulder and interrogate you about the smut staining your eyes …. Sorry, I got carried away lol.

To Kidakama: Ok, no I did NOT lose a fight to Roxas lol. Hopefully you read this, cause you're commenting on chapter 4, but I'm posting this with chapter 11….i don't want you to think that I left you out! :O Anyway, its all good lol. Aww, thank you So much for that encouraging comment ^_^. I do my best to write akuroku's that aren't the same stereotypical ones that are out there. I used to read a lot and it was the same old same old, Axel trying to get Roxas like a horny perv but Roxas was a stuck-up bitch with self-esteem issues. I try to add a twist or variety if and when possible, so thank you for appreciating it, because it's hard to put up stories that break character norms cause I've been criticized for it twice already! . Although I've posted 15 stories, so I guess 2 bad reviews isn't that bad…sorry, I'm rambling lol. Thanks again though!

Thank you everyone for reading! Also, as the Christmas holiday comes up, I will be adding some Christmas scenes, so mini-warning for that….just so that way you all know ^_^

Heart, Sarabellum!