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The pack had decided to run to Port Angeles, the general consensus being that we would make it there in due time and be able to start our night of relaxing a little early. I personally think the guys just wanted to get there to start 'prowling' out the eligible bachelorettes for the night. Well really that was why I thought Paul wanted to get a head start on the night. The others I oddly thought had plans, plans that somehow seemed to involve me. That thought... was more than definitely enough to make me shudder.
"Okay, it's settled. We will leave La Push around 8, Emily and the girls will take my Ute and meet is on the outskirts of Port Angeles with our clothes' Sam said addressing the pack.
"Alright; Embry and Quil exclaimed as they high fived each other "... Port Angeles, HERE WE COME"
I Laughed as I watched my so called 'brothers' and their obvious excitement for the upcoming night. Shaking my head I said my goodbyes to the pack and began to walk back to my house along the stoney path that I had become so accustomed to. Normally I would phase and run back home, but I decided tonight that I wanted some time to think.
My dad Billy had informed me just before heading over to Sam's place that after spending the entire day with Charlie Swan, The Chief of Police in Forks, that his daughter Bella was home for a couple of days.
Since I could remember Bella and I had a bit of a history together. We had been childhood friends since I could remember. Spending weekends together at the beach when we were growing up. But that all came to an abrupt end when her parents divorced when we were only thirteen. She has decided to move with her mother Renae to Phoenix. We would keep in contact through letters, phone calls and every summer she would come to Forks to spend time with Charlie, but somehow she would always end up spending time with me in La Push. We would spend our days on end at the beach, exploring through the woods, in my garage, I even took her to a few bonfires. I had introduced her to a few of my friends, or now so called 'brothers' Quil and Embry, both of who came to enjoy her company just as much as I did. But somewhere along the way that all changed, well for me at least it did. Somewhere along the way and I'm not entirely sure of when, but I fell completely and irrevocably in love with her.
Of course this made for a few of her trips back defiantly weird. It probably didn't help all that much that I had told Embry and Quil of my new found crush. Both of them taking any opportunity they had to make fun of me. Bella, in her complete absolute gorgeous state, never noticed. Or if she did, she never let on. Things got even worse when both of us began to... well change. I mean her body began to develop in ways I could have only dreamed about. Not right now Black, I thought to myself as I tripped over a small rock on the path, shaking me out of any inappropriate images that were coming my way.
I remembered the first summer she had come back no longer a girl, but a developing eye dropping woman. She had called to meet up with me and the guys at First Beach to spend the day together. When she rocked up in her rusty old red ute, I had been fooling round with Quil and Embry on the beach, throwing each other into the sand to see who was the toughest. As soon as I heard her cut the engine, I couldn't help to suppress the giant smile that was spreading across my face. Both the guys heckling me, the teasing obviously already beginning for the day, but all of a sudden something stopped them in their tracks, their gazes falling on something, their jaws hitting the ground.
I turned my head to look at whatever had caught their attention, my jaw soon joining theirs on the beach. There getting out of her truck was Bella... my beautiful Bella. I couldn't help but admire how her long chestnut coloured hair moulded just perfectly around her face, how her two piece purple bathing suit clung absolutely perfectly to her slender frame, outlining all her curves, showing of her toned muscles and making sure that nothing was left to my imagination or even how her crimson lips brightened up her porcelain skin finally.. Her emerald eyes. Those god damn eyes were like a gateway to her soul. Always willing and taking me further into her being.
I quickly snapped out of it as she approached us, looking towards my 'brothers' noticing that they still had their jaws wide open. I let out a low growl, quickly brining them back to reality, before I turned my attention back to Bella. Looking her over one more before wrapping my arms around her waist in a hug.
"Hey there handsome!" she said as she returned my hug wrapping her arms around my neck, as I spun her around in the air.
"you got... ahh big" she said eyeing me up and down as I put her back down on the sand. I swear I would have blushed if my skin wasn't so dark, but I just laughed it off.
"you too" I replied "... I mean, you didn't get big, but you have grown. Not in that way.. I mean you." Going well there Jake, really.. I mean it.. smooth "how about I try that again. Hi Bella. You look amazing!" I said trying not to make a bigger fool out of myself. She in return just laughed it off.
"Ahem" I heard from over my shoulder forcing both Bella and I to turn to face the two guys standing behind me, I was for once grateful for the interruption. Bella gave me a quizzical glance before running towards the guys.
"Quil? Embry?" said asked reaching the guys "... is that really you?"
"Damn straight it is sexy little lady" Embry rolled of his tongue as he wrapped Bella up in a hug before releasing her to let Quil hug her.
"Long time no see" Quil said feigning fake hurt.
"oh, I'm sorry" Bella replied. The guys just laughed, Bella and I joining in not long afterwards.
We spent the whole day at the beach. The guys catching Bella up to date with everything that had happened since she had last visited and her returning the favour, filling us in on all her epic adventures in Phoenix, telling us about how she had just returned from Cabo on her schoolies trip, and all the activities she got up to.
I just sat there on the beach watching the exchange between my best friend and my brothers. I hadn't really noticed that I was being quiet until the guys decided to run back off into the ocean for one last surf, before we all called it a day, leaving Just Bella and me on the sand... alone.
"so Mister" Bella said as she began to move closer to me on the sand. "... You're being really quiet over here"
"Just enjoying the view.. and of course the company" I said matter of factly looking out into the ocean, just in time to watch Embry catch a ride on a wave. We sat in silence for a few more moments before I added "so Bells, how long are you down for?" trying not to let my eagerness show through.
"I plan on staying down for the whole summer. You know I have a lot of catching up to do with Dad, Billy, a few other people. One of whom is sitting right next to me" she said giving me a lopsided smile and sideways glance. I just laughed in return.
"so then, since you would love to be spending some time catching up with certain people" I looked at her, smirking a little "...one of which who is sitting next to you' I paused for effect "do you have any requests for the summer then?"
She just shrugged her shoulders and said "whatever"
"Well the guys are having a bonfire tonight. Just a few people from the rez. Charlie and you are more than definitely welcome to join. We could start there" I suggested.
"mmmm" she said pretending to think about it. "I guess I would have to run it by Charlie first, But I will definitely be there" she finished flashing me a big smile.
The guys took this as their opportunity to resurface.
"Hey guys, Bells is going to join us at the bonfire tonight" I said not letting the suggestive glares they were giving me go unnoticed.
"SWEET" Quil and Embry said in unison.
Bella and I once again laughed at their exchange, getting up and gathering our gear before heading back to my place.
That night was one of the most amazing nights of my life, well so far. I just enjoyed having Bella back for the summer. Even making plans to do a couple of things. But I guess it all had to come to an end. Everything does eventually, right?
That summer had been one of the most amazing summers ever, and I had to go on and ruin everything in a split second.
Bella and I had spent the whole summer together, Quil & Embry joining us for various things. We had spent a lot of time at the beach again, Bella had come to a couple of bonfires and I had even taught her how to ride a motorbike. But on that fateful day, her last day before she had to go back to Phoenix, we had spent the whole day in my garage. I was working on my rabbit, Bella coming to keep me company. I enjoyed her being there but I always thought that she had been bored. Something she always insisted she wasn't. I smiled looking up at her, she was off in her own world, clearly day dreaming about something. When I asked her favourite part of the summer was she simply said "cliff diving"
**FLASHBACK**
Bella, the guys and I had spent the whole day down at the beach again. The guys having fun surfing, Bella and I just mucking around in the surf in between watching them catch waves. After lunch we decided that we were going to give cliff diving a go.
Well when I say 'we' I mean Quil, Embry and I. Gorgeous fragile little Bella was to damn scared to jump. I was definitely going to have to help her overcome that little fear. But of course when we got to the cliffs, the guys had to pick the tallest cliff they could find to jump off from. I looked over at Bella and sensed that she was a little apprehensive, something that only got worse when we reached the top. I couldn't help but noticed that she was fidgeting with the cord of her shorts, something she seemed to do when something made her nervous. The guys just took one look back at us, and without giving themselves a second thought, just jumped backwards off the cliff. I stood back, waiting for Bella to gather up enough courage to take the 'plunge' so to speak. I heard the guys grow impatient and begin to tease her from down below.
"You're not chicken are you Bella?" Embry yelled
"Jump! Or I'm coming up there to push you in!"Quil threatened.
Over my dead body, I thought. I was definitely going to let the guys have it later on for this. I watched as Bella approached the edge of the cliff cautiously, looking out into the endless ocean.
"Jump already! I Promise to catch you" Embry continued. She just stood there gazing ahead.
"Alright, that's it. I'm coming up" Quil finished.
That was is. There was no way in hell I was letting him lay a hand on my Bella. I instinctively walked to her. She made a move, hovering on the border of the cliff, just about to step over the edge when I noticed she was about to panic.
Oh no she isn't, I thought. She was going over this cliff one way or another. Even if I have to go down with her. I involuntarily smiled as u wrapped my arms around her small waist. She turned her head to the side looking me straight in the eyes. Dear god. Those damn emerald eyes always managed to make me forget just where I was. I could only focus on one thing when I saw those beautiful eyes. I only saw her. I instinctively bent my head down to hers, stopping inches away from her ear.
"It's Okay" I whispered.
I wanted her to know that I was here, that I would support her, protect her, love her. I involuntarily leaned in further, nuzzling her neck. Damn she smelt so god damn freaking amazing. This was driving me insane. I realised that I was probably hovering a little to longer than was considered normal. I was about to let her go when she leaned back into me, taking me by surprise and sending shockwaves through my entire body. I wanted nothing more than to just stay in the moment forever.
I was suddenly brought out of my daydream by another cat call from the guys. I was definitely going to give them hell later on for this. But I took that as my chance to finally help Bella conquer her fear. I took one last moment to embrace everything, before I pushed us both forward. Making ourselves topple over the edge of the cliff. I never let go of her once as we went down. Hitting the ocean with a solid thud, making a large splash.
I came to the surface to a chorus of cheers from the guys, and one shocked Bella. I just smiled and shrugged my shoulders as we all began to make our way back to the beach. The guys not once letting Bella forget that she didn't actually jump of her own free will.
**Present Day**
I looked up from the hood of my rabbit once again when things went silent, to notice that she was staring off into outer space. She suddenly broke from her trance to announce, "Jake, if you don't mind I think I'm going to go for a walk down to the beach, say my goodbyes or whatever"
She looked as if she was struggling with something
"you want me to come with?" I asked hopefully. Not really wanting to let her go. Mostly just trying to absorb up as much time as possible, before she left again for another summer.
"no, thank you.." she paused "I just want a moment to myself. I shouldn't be long" said finished as began to walk towards the shed door.
I just nodded my head and returned to work on the rabbit. Fumbling around under the hood for maybe five minutes before I realised that I wasn't really accomplishing much, I decided to give up and go look for her.
I walked out of the garage and down to the old stoney path until I reached the edge of the forest and the start of the beach. I looked up and down the beach until I spotted the sole purpose for my little hiking trip. She was standing a few meters in the water, just looking out at something.
I stood there, just watching her. She looked so content, so at peace with everything, and just like that all I could see was my future... our future, flash before my eyes.
At that precise moment I was so over taken with love. Love for this one amazing woman, an amazing woman who at this present time, had absolutely no idea just how head over heels deeply in love I am with her. That needed to change... and soon.
With that I began to make my way out to where Bella was still standing. I didn't really sneak up on her, but she somehow didn't hear me coming, jumping slightly when I placed my arms around her waist.
"I was starting to get worried" I said looking over her shoulder out into the unknown of the ocean. It was always beautiful at this time of day, watching the sunset.
"sorry" she replied lightly, leaning her head against my shoulder. I tense up at first at her action, relaxing slightly when I realized this was what I wanted. Her in my arms.. forever. After a few minutes I started to pull away from her, grabbing her hand and leading her back to the beach, stopping once I was satisfied that we were far enough from the water, pulling her back into my embrace so that we were now face to face. I took her hands in mine and placed them around my neck, slowly beginning to swaying us to imaginary music. Something only I could hear.
She rested her head on my shoulder and I pulled her closer, making sure that the movement between us not once faulting to my imaginary tune. I couldn't help but feel like this was where I was meant to be, her in my arms, forever. I began to slow our movements. She seemed surprised and disappointed at the slight distance I had put between us. She lifted her head up from my shoulder and looked as if she was giving me the once over. This was it. The moment I was waiting for.
"Bella.." I said barely above a whisper, pulling her from her thoughts.
She looked up into my eyes, closing them suddenly and before I knew it.. my mouth was on hers.
I started out soft, brushing my lips up against hers, waiting for a reaction. Anything. For what seemed like forever there was nothing, but all of a sudden she leaned into me wanting more. She parted her lips slightly, taking my bottom lip with hers, giving me permission to deepen the kiss. Her hand come up to rest at the base of my neck. Pulling me closer, my arms automatically pulling her body up against mine, our lips seemed to become frantic. Passionate even. I glided my tongue over her lip, waiting for her approval, before I had the chance, her tongue darted into my mouth. Trying to explore every inch, but I wouldn't let her. I needed to show her how I felt. The two of us were seemingly fighting for dominance.
God damn Bella, so damn stubborn. I gave in, giving her full control over what we were doing. Her hand was still at my neck holding me close, her other one sliding down my chest until she reached the bottom of my shirt. Slowly, as if she was waiting for my reaction, she began to slide her hand up underneath the now annoying material that clung to my frame. Her fingers tracing over my torso, exploring every little contour of my muscles. I trembled slightly. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine Bella doing this to me.
Her hand had reached my shoulder, seemingly content with staying there. Or so I thought. Within one swift movement, she had ceased our kiss, if only momentarily to lift my shirt over my head. Her I stood in front of her.. on the beach.. topless. She took one moment to take the sight before her in, before her lips were once again on mine. This time I was not going to give in and let her have the dominance.
I began to kiss her back more passionately, yet still gentle. My hands now taking their turn to explore the full extent of her body. I ran them sensually down the sides of her torso, stopping every now and again to deepen our kiss further. Reaching the hem of her top, I waiting, making sure that I defiantly had her permission. She nodded her head slightly giving me, the much anticipated answer I was after. I began to move my hands up her torso, tracing the faint outline of her abs, reaching up further only stopping when I reached her ample breasts. I skimmed my hands over the fabric of her bra, my thumb sliding below the material to softly glaze over her now erect nipples. Bella moaned, lifting her head slightly. I began to kiss down her jaw line, until I was laying light butterfly kisses along her neck. I stopped to lift her top from her body.
I paused briefly, to appreciate the sight before me. Bella topless, only in her bra and jeans. I could feel my arousal beginning to surface. This was the moment. I found her lips with mine again, pushing her slightly backwards onto the sand, my body hovering over the top of hers. Our kiss growing deeper as my hands further explored her body. My fingers finding her hard nipples again, tracing small circles before sliding further down, going over her abs, before being stopped by the top of her jeans. I hovered there for a moment, my hand sliding back and forth across her abdomen. Moving my hand to the waistband of her jeans, I looked up at her, my face inches from hers. "Bella, I love you' I breathlessly. My lips finding hers again as I began to unbutton her jeans. Releasing the first button from its secure loop, then the second. Making my way for the third, when all of a sudden Bella stopped.
"I can't do this... Oh my god... I am so sorry... I... I.. can't do this... Not now..." She said, pushing me off of her and retrieving her top.
"Jake..." she continued looking at me, doing up the buttons of her jeans "I'm sorry, but I have to go" she finished as she ran off, down onto the stone path that lead back to my house.
I just sat there in complete silence. Shocked at the events that had transpired tonight, how close I had come to finally getting everything I had ever wanted, and clearly getting the answer to my long harboured secret. I truly ruined everything tonight. Why. Why did I do that! I can't believe I was so stupid to think that she could care for me the way I cared for her.
In the distance I could hear the sound of her starting the engine to her rusty old ute. No. This can't be the end of it. I have to apologise. I have to make her see that I never meant for things to go this far so quickly. I thought shaking my head. I got up needing to see her, running back to my house.
"Dad, just going for a run" I yelled as I grabbed a spare set of clothes and headed for the door. I didn't wait for a reply as I was out the door and heading for the forest. If I was quick enough, I could make it to her place, just before she got there. Hopefully avoiding Charlie.
I tied the spare set of clothes around my leg, as I phased mid air. Sprinting off into the woods. Heading towards forks. I made it there in no time. Waiting out the front of her house. I phased. Changing into the set of clothes I had brought. I was pacing back and forth in the forest until I heard her truck round the corner and make its way up the road, idling to a stop at the front of her house. She cut the engine, but didn't get out of the cab. She looked as if she had her head resting on the wheel. She definitely was regretting what had just transpired.
I cautiously looked out from the woods, checking to make sure there was no one around. Especially Charlie. Thankfully he wasn't home. I began to walk out from the shadows, crossing the street and making my way towards her house, stopping just outside the door of her ute. Lightly tapping on the window, she looked up at me. Shocked illuminated of her face as she registered who it was. She made an attempt to reach for the door handle, but I beat her to it. Opening the cab door, then taking a step back to allow her some space.
"Bella.. Please let me explain.." I began, begging her to hear me out. She just held her head down. I'm not certain if it was from embarrassment, or shock. "Bella.. Please look at me.. Please" I pleaded. She didn't move. "I am so sorry... I should never have let things get that far.." still nothing. " I never meant to take advantage of you that way, I don't know what I can do to make up for it" still not even a flinch "Bella.. I apologise for letting things go that far. But.. I'm sorry.. I am not going to apologise for kissing you" I said finally realising that this was a helpless cause. She moved, but only to hold her head in her hands, never once looking up at me. " BELLA" I yelled quietly "... please look at me, I need to know that we are okay, that I haven't stuffed things up by what I.. what we did back there! Please tell me that you don't hate me for loving you! Because if that is the case I will stop, right now. We can go back to being just friends. Nothing more. Please. I can't lose you" Oh my god, did I sound like a whiny little girl.
She finally lifted her head, reaching out a hand up to my cheek. Holding it there, where I noticed the sad look her eyes now held. Dear god. Did I really put that look in her eyes? I can't believe that I was the one who replaced the shining emerald bulbs that always held so much life, to nothing but a pit less bottom. I couldn't hide the sadness that quickly arouse in my own face at that look, and within an instant, her hand was gone. She was out of her truck in an instant and standing at her front door.
I had never seen her move so fast.. especially without hurting herself.
"Bella.." I said, one last ditch attempt.
She turned around and looked at me.
"Sorry Jake.. I can't" was all she simply said. And with that, she opened and closed the door. Leaving me standing on her front porch. Completely ashamed of myself.
That was the last time I had seen Bella. Over nearly a year ago.
Since that day we had no contact. I had tried various times to call her. Always picking up and dialling her number, but getting scared and hang up before she could answer. I had managed to stick it out once, having a brief conversation with her. But then again.. nothing.
I was bought out of my thoughts when I began to see the familiar red that was accustomed to my house. Walking to the front and stepping inside. Deciding to get ready for the night that was ahead. Walking down the short hallway and stepping inside my room to change.
Thoughts of Bella clouding my mind. What does it mean, her being back here? Should I try and contact her? Or would it be best to see if she contacts me? Would she even want to see me?
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