"Did we sleep with the lights on?" I asked, knowing he was awake because I could feel the tinniest of kisses on my tummy.

"Yep, I wasn't going to move for anything." He left a big wet one on my stomach as I laughed.

"That tickles,"

"Really?" He asked sarcastically, since my squirming and laughing was enough proof.

"Hehe, Axe!" I whimpered, still laughing.

"Baby?" Axel sat up asked in a way that made me feel like something serious was about to be said next.

"Yeah?"

"You want this, right? You want us to last? For this to be real?" He looked so serious, like he really didn't know.

"Of course Axe. I want to be with you forever."

"Me and only me?"

"Only you." I sat up and took his hand.

"Kay," He looked away like that wasn't enough.

"What is it going to take to prove to you that I wont abandon you or leave? What will it take to prove that I will only love you?"

Axel shrugged, "I wish I knew,"

"Time? Actions? Anything?" I asked, wanting to prove that I loved him more than anything.

"I don't know Rox, I really don't. I just, I want to believe you so badly, it hurts." Axel put his hand over his heart.

"I'm sorry," I put my hand over his and was ready to cry; I could only blame myself in the end.

"I know you've changed and it's like everyone else can see it, and I can too, but there's part of me that's still so scared." Axel looked down and the sorrow on his face was enough to kill me.

"Axe, I don't want to scare you. If the risk is too much for you…then maybe it's not worth it." I couldn't believe what I was saying. I wanted to shoot myself for sounding so pathetic. Was I really willing to let him go?

"You, you mean it?" He asked like he was considering it and I got scared that perhaps I might have just lost him forever.

"I just want you to be happy. And if that means, a life without me, then so be it." I was sounding so much more confident than I was, and that scared me.

"You'd be able to forget me?" Axel asked, not necessarily sounding hurt, but curious.

"No, never. I don't think I'd be able to move on either. But I just want you to have the best life you can, cause that's what you deserve." I put my hand to his cheek and he nodded.

"Thank you."

"Yeah," I said, dropping my hand, looking away, wondering what to say or do next.

"I really do love you Roxas,"

"And I love you so much Axel. If I could go back in time, there's so much I'd do differently," I buried my face in his chest, loving the way he knew how to hold me.

"Like what?"

"I'd never cheat on you; I'd never abuse your love, I'd never make you hurt. I'm so sorry Axe, so sorry," I started sobbing, wishing he could take my words and realize how much I meant them.

"I want to believe you Rox, I really do."

"Then believe me!" I yelled, getting fed up with not being taken seriously, but at the same time, I knew I was to blame for that.

"It's not as easy as it sounds when our whole relationship you were dating me and fucking other people."

"I'm sorry. Please Axe, I've changed. I really have. I haven't been to a club, to a bar, I haven't even had a sip of alcohol since we broke up! I've been sober, trying to change all on my own and it's so hard." I broke down. For weeks now, maybe even months, I've been walking around smiling, acting like I'm a completely different person, trying to make people believe I'm nothing like I used to be. But deep down inside, I feel like I've only caged the monster I used to be, and while that's better than letting him roam free, it doesn't change the fact that he still exists.

"And I'm proud of you Roxas, but that doesn't heal all my pain of what you put me through."

"And these past few months aren't punishment enough?" I wailed, trying to get him to see how I was suffering for what I did.

"It's not about punishment Roxas,"

"Yes it is,"

"No it's not! You're making it seem like I want revenge, but I don't. You don't see me running around fucking whoever has a dick!"

Ouch. He crossed a line that back in the day, would have drove me right to that dick he mentioned. I froze. I breathed in and out the way my therapist instructed me to do in times like this.

"Roxas," Axel looked like he had already regretted his words, but I wasn't ready to talk yet, so I locked myself in the bathroom, crying, knowing that as much as his words hurt, they were true, or at least used to be.

"Roxas, please, I'm sorry."

"It's my fault Axe." I said over the sound of my tears.

"No, just come out please? Let me hold you, I'll make it better,"

"How? How can you make it better when you cant even trust me?"

Axel was quiet, I could hear him sigh. "Just give me a chance to give you a chance,"

I thought for a moment. I couldn't argue or deny that offer, so I opened the bathroom door and let him hold me as I sniffled in his arms.

"Shh, it's ok."

"I'm so sick of this shit, so fucking sick." I said, unable to take all these changes emotions.

"Me too Rox, me too." Axel ran his hand up and down my back and I moved away from him.

"Can we just decide what we're going to do, please? I thought that we were together as of last night, but its like I cant even tell anymore. Are we dating or not? I can't take this anymore." I didn't want to pressure him, especially if it was only going to drive him away, but I needed to know what my future had in store.

"I don't know Roxas. Just, just be here for me, ok?" Axel sat down, carrying me and placed me next to him on his bed.

"I'll always be here for you Axel, I love you." I put my hand over his, circling my fingers over the back of his hand, loving the slow steady smile that grew on his face.

"I love you too Roxy. Thanks, for being patient." He stood up, kissed the top of my head, and showered as I went to watch TV in the living room.

"Alright, I'll be back by dinner. Just make whatever you want," Axel waved goodbye to me as I sat on the couch.

"Where are you going?" Now that we spent so much time apart, I forgot his schedule.

"Work; I have two jobs now, remember?"

"Why?"

"Cause, they raised the rent here and I had to pay for some work on my motorcycle, so I needed the extra cash." Axel shrugged.

"Well, if you want, I can move back in, and since I'm working, you can go back to having one job." I tried to make it seem impossible to refuse.

"That, that sounds great. Still, I'd feel bad asking munny from you."

"Axe, if we're living together and eating together, it's only fair that I start paying you back for all the times you cared for me. Besides, I want to feel like I'm carrying my own weight." I changed the channel and he remained silent as he thought.

"Well, if you insist. I'll be back later. Love ya!" He blew me a kiss and I caught it, blowing one back to his smiling face, watching his hips sway as he walked out the door.

I had eight hours till Axel got off of work, so I decided to walk to our local grocery store to buy some food for dinner. It took twice as long with my bad ankle and my foot started to kill, but for Axel, it was worth it. While I was with Sora and Riku, I never spent any of my paycheck munny because I had no need to. But now, I wanted to spoil Axel, so I headed to the store to buy ingredients so I could make his favorite food. Axel loves spicy food, so I bought veggies and noodles and peppers to make some Thai food, since Axel also loves using chopsticks, but I only think it's because he likes laughing at me since I don't know how to use them . We used to fight every time he tried to teach me, but I knew this time would be different.

By the time I got home, I had six hours left till Axel would be home, so I went right to work so that way the veggies could slowly cook in a brew with the two peppers. I thought having one arm was bad, but having one leg is twice as bad. Every time I wanted to move I had to use extra caution and I slipped at least three times, nearly face planting on concrete, carpet, and tile. Five and a half hours later, Axel came home.

"You're home early." I said, stirring the pot of mixed veggies as Axel walked in the kitchen.

"Yeah, I worked overtime the other day, so I got off an hour early today." He smelled the pot as I watched.

"Oh, well, welcome back." He put a hand on the small of my back and I leaned back to kiss him.

"It looks amazing; smells even better too." Axel kept his hand on my back and I smiled.

"Thanks baby. It'll be ready soon."

"When did you get the stuff to make this?" Axel looked around the kitchen to see the paper bags of groceries that I still hadn't unpacked.

"While you were at work."

"Roxas, you know you cant move unless you need to. You're going to fuck up your foot!" Axel seemed, not angry, but…concerned.

"I'd rather fuck up my ankle than my relationship with you." I looked away. Ok it was cheesy, but it was true.

Axel sighed as if he were amused. "I appreciate it. Really, I do. From now on, be more careful though, ok?" I nodded and he smiled. "I'm going to get settled in."

He left to shower while I finished cooking dinner.

"You ready to eat?" I asked as he roamed the house in his boxers like he usually did.

"Hell yea!" He was sitting at the table, waiting for his plate, chopsticks in hand as I set his food before him. Working at that restaurant taught me how to balance food, even with my bad ankle.

"Whoo, damn this is hot!" Axel sprang for his glass of water and I got too scared to try it.

"Is it that bad?"

"No, it's that great!" Axel offered me some on his chopsticks and after one bite, I ran to the kitchen sink, continuously splashing cold water in my mouth.

"You alright?" Axel asked, standing behind me. I nodded, eyes crying as I tried not to choke over my dangling tongue desperate for the coolness of air.

"Maybe you should stick to more boring foods," Axel laughed and I coughed over my own laugh.

"Don mak me waf!" I put my hand on my tongue, trying to cool it down and Axel cracked up at the sight and sound of my stupidity.

"Quid did!" I tried to tell him to stop, but I too was laughing too hard.

"I'm sorry, you just sound so ridiculous!" Axel grabbed his stomach and I grabbed the sink hose and sprayed him.

"Fuck! That's cold!" Axel wrestled with me for it and after we each sprayed each other till we were soaking, I slipped. In an attempt to catch me, Axel fell first and I landed on him.

"Oof!" Axel grunted as I crashed on his stomach.

"Sorry." I slowly sat up.

"It's fine." Axel sighed and then slowly smiled. "Is your tongue better?" He asked, trying to hold back his laugh.

"Yeah yeah yeah," I huffed, sitting down at the table, taken by surprise when he joined me and put his arms around me.

"Thank you for dinner."

"Of course." I smiled and he smiled back.

He reached in for a kiss but I shoved his chest away.

"No! You have spiciness on your breath!" I struggled as he fought back, laughing even as we fell to the floor since our bodies were so slippery. Once he was sure that my ankle was fine, Axel went back to attacking me.

"Kissy kissy." Axel tried to pin me down as we both laughed and wriggled for our own versions of victory.

"Axe! I can feel the heat searing off your tongue already." I moved my face as he stuck his tongue out at me, pinning me to the ground.

"It's like a completely different you Roxas." He smiled and I blushed. He sat up and I did as well.

"That's good, right?" I couldn't have asked a dumber question. He hated the old me; everyone did.

"Yeah, I love this new you so much." Axel kissed my nose.

"It's who you deserve Axe. I really am trying hard to be the boyfriend you deserve." I leaned my head on his shoulder and he nodded.

"I know Roxas."

"Cant we just get back together without anymore questions then? Please? Just give me one more chance; just one, that's all I'm asking for." I begged, wanting so badly to know that I was his again.

"And if it doesn't work?"

"It will, I swear!" I clutched his hair by his shoulders as if I were threatening him.

"You promise?"

"I promise!"

"Alright then, I'm willing if you are." Axel took my hands in his.

"Really?" I got all excited as Axel smiled.

"Yeah. I love you baby."

"I love you too!" I put my arms around him and he kissed my neck. It's official. We're back.

"I'm glad to have my Roxy back." Axel kissed my lips and I pulled back in more excitement and mild pain.

"Spicy!"

"Well, I cant help being so sexy." Axel winked and I pushed his chest before I pulled it closer to me.

"I love you." I rested my head on his shoulder, loving how soothing and soft his touch is on my back.

"I cant wait to call you my boyfriend in public again." Axel smiled and I couldn't hide my smile. He really is so thoughtful and knows what to say to cheer me up.

"So tomorrow, for your birthday, we can have some birthday sex." I put my hands on his hips and Axel smiled.

"I cant wait. Damn I cant believe I'll be twenty three."

"Me either. What do you want to do? Besides the birthday sex of course." I blushed and Axel took my hand and took us to the couch.

"Well Reno wants to take me out to a club, but I don't know. I want to spend time with my boyfriend." Axel smiled at me and I shrugged.

"Why don't we go?"

"When's the last time you've been to a club Rox? You sure you can stay away from alcohol?"

I nodded. "I'll be fine."

"Alright, well I think he wanted to go tonight."

"Why didn't you tell me?" I wished I'd known sooner, just because I wanted him to have the best birthday ever.

"I didn't plan on going. But I'll text Reno and we can meet him and Rude there."

I got ready in the bathroom while Axel got ready in his room and when I walked out to find a shirt, I stood speechless. Axel was wearing tight black pants that hugged his ass, a tight fitted black shirt that showed off his curves, and a loose red tie for the hell of it. I looked down to my skinny jeans and wondered if I should change.

"Roxy I love your body, but you might want a shirt." Axel smiled sarcastically and I rolled my eyes as I picked out a dark green V-neck.

"I'm ready."

"You're sexy." Axel said as he out his hands in my butt pockets.

"You too baby." I put my palms on his chest as he texted Reno that we were leaving his place.

Author's Note: OMG YAY! They are back together! It's official! So prepare for the next chapter, where there will be more drama .

To RikuMewKira: I do love lemons, so yes, yay for lemons! Haha, hey you have to read when you have to read, and if that means 6 am, go for it! I posted this one earlier so hopefully it helped. I actually tried to post yesterdays early too, but my laptop's internet was sucky and wouldn't let me But waking up to a lemon is awesome! So glad you liked it. Thanks for reviewing!

To Hikari Tsukiyomi: Well now they are officially back, titles and all! Aww, I'm so glad you like my Roxy hehe ^_^ Oh yea, I'm pretty sure they both enjoyed that lemon ;) Thanks! Please spread the word and I totally appreciate it! Awww, more compliments! You're too kind! Thanks, it's your reviews and feedback that encourage me to post as much and as often as I do, seriously =)

To Kidkama: A perfect grade? I feel so honored! Thank you sunshine!

To kindofbadger: *claps hands cause you clapped*. Hahaha, well I think they each got plenty ;) It's ok, when I watch movies, I look for errors that the editors failed to catch. I'm way too hyper observant. Yet, I'm too lazy to edit my own stories . Oh well :P Thanks for reviewing!

Thank you everyone for reading!

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