New Reason for Living
Chapter 15: A Vital Decision
That night, I lay in my room. I had so much running through my heard that I needed to think about. "I don't know what to do anymore. How can I be with Leanne, if I know that Blaze will always be after me? Why is he doing this, when I didn't do anything to him? What am I supposed to do about all this?" I asked. I felt so desperate that I didn't know I was going to do now. I looked outside to see the night sky through my window; it was my one comfort from what was happening.
"What am I going to do? I didn't want it to go like this, but now look at what I've caused. Leanne's upset because she knows her fears are real and I'm in danger of being hurt by Blaze. Please help me; I can't do this alone!" I whispered as I looked outside at the sky. I turned back around upset by what had happened. 'What have I done?' I thought. That was when my decision came to me; what I was going to do to set this right.
'It may make Leanne sad, but this is for her safety.' I thought. I headed out of my room and looked in Leanne's room to see that she was asleep. But I knew she was still thinking about what had happened, like I was. "I'm sorry, Leanne. I'm doing this for your sake. I can't stay here; I can't let you get hurt because of me." I said as I looked on at her. With that, I headed downstairs and looked around. I couldn't believe I was leaving the one place that I could call home, but I knew I couldn't stay; it was too risky for me.
"I'm sorry it had to be this way. But it's the one thing I know will set everything right." I said and headed out, closing the door behind me. I looked back, knowing that Leanne was there and so was Blaze. It was going to be hard, but I knew that it was the right thing to do. This was the only way; I was convinced of this.
"I hope Leanne understands." I said, and immediately headed off. I didn't know where I was going, but that didn't matter. What mattered was keeping Leanne safe and doing what I believed was right. Even though it would hurt her feelings, it would ensure her own safety and mine as well.