Chapter 5: Without You

"I can't quit now this can't be rigth.
I can't take one more sleepless night.
Without you (Without you) (Without you)"

Without You – David Guetta feat. Usher

Everything was perfectly settled up for Christmas but I had a hole in my chest that nobody could fill. Where was he? Where was the owner of my heart, the boy I had grew with these last years? Was he even alright? Nobody knew anything. Nobody told me anything, and I was desesperate.

That night, while I was suppoused to be sleeping in my room, I went out and ran into Alec's room. Nobody was seen in the corridors and I tried to open his door. It was unlocked, as normal, but inside everything was dark. His bed was perfectly done and everything was in its normal place. I opened the windows and curtains and looked around. You never knew if he had been here or not because he was so very tidy. A few paintings hanged from the walls, one of them showed him and his sister with angelic faces and dressed like in the 1800's. There was other in which he appeared on his own, dressed in a militar uniform. God, I never realized how hot guys looked in militar uniforms until now. Behind him I could see some rocks and, far away, blue ocean water.

Also, in his night table I found some interesting photographs I've never seen before. There was one of me, from three months ago, when he took me to Paris after I insisted a million times I wanted to visit France. My green eyes looked at me as if they were alive. Then there was other with him in the castle's garden and a photograph I'd never seen before. It was also mine, I guessed. But I was so little, so young. I had, as much, four years old. Why did he had it? Had he stole it?

I layed, tired in his bed. Everything around the place smelled like him. If he came back I would see him. So without even realize it, I began to fall asleep, a deep, beautiful dream in which he was there with me.

...

Felix had told me that Alec was on a mission and that I should calm down. I didn't believe him but obeyed or I'd get crazy. A week had gone now without him. I slept in his bed, through everyday became more difficult to find his scent in the room, it was vanishing. I had closed all windows and tried to keep everything as it was before I got there. Believe me, I tried to forget about him, but whenever I got bored I could just think about him and now that everybody seemed busy and kept evading me it was more difficult. I spent my hole days drawing and painting in the garden.

"Good evening, little lady."

"Hello, Derek. You scared the shit out of me." I replied, quite annoyed.

"That's not an appropiate lenguage for a young lady, is it?"

"No, probably not." I stopped drawing and looked at him. "You are not allowed to see me, Derek."

"I know. But no one seems to be watching you for days now, so..." he never finished.

So it was true. Nobody was looking for me. Something big must be happening. Maybe Derek, who seemed used to breaking rules, would tell me where Alec was and what was happening here.

"Do you know where Alec is?" I asked out of the nowhere after some minutes of oddly-comfortable silence.

"No, Rose. Isn't he with you?"

"No. They told me he is on a mission but I don't believe them."

"You are right doing so, they are not to trust." I eyed him curiously.

"Why?" he seemed to think over it for some seconds.

"Why do you trust them? After all, they did kill your family."

"Well... you are one of them too."

"For short. I'm thinking about leaving. I don't want to be here when the war starts." Alec had told me about it, but I never believed it was so... true. I couldn't picture them all fighting. What if anyone die? Chelsea, Afton, Heidi, Felix, Demetri... Alec.

"Why don't you trust them anyways?" he sighed.

"They are corrumpted for power. They'll do anything for it. Being here has been just an... experience. But now I want a life outside this, a much normal one. Have a mate, travel, not to fight." he sitted down in the grass and sitted next to him.

Wind blowed my honey coloured hair and sweet blood scent in his opposite direction. He was so cute with his hair falling over his eyes. For a moment the scene transformed in something intimate. Just the two of us and I realized I had been looking at him in the eyes for quite a long time, but it didn't embarassed me, he was doing it too. And then he got nearer and nearer and before I could even blink his lips where on mines and I felt like flying. As any other vampire, he drawn me into him. His scent, his look, everything about him.

I lasted a few seconds, but I will always remember it. My first kiss.

Hey guys! I know I've been very... quite all this chapters, but I'm here, finally! ^-^ hahah

Well... also, I know this is messed up and I'm just giving little details away but I promise it will get better. Now I'm on holidays I'll try to update more.

Love you all and thanks for your reviews that make me so unbelievably happy! Janey.