A/N: Sorry for not updating! It's the week of finals, meaning I have to drown myself in books/articles/study guides. I'm not finished until Saturday (yay Saturday classes). Plus the week before, I had projects and papers to turn in.
Anyway, I have the other chapters already written up but I think I'm going to re-write them, thanks to some suggestions. I don't know how it'll turn up yet but I'll worry about it after finals so I can make sure it turns out well.
Ok ok, enough from me…
Logan looked around the Lounge for Camille but found the place empty. He started walking back to the dorms when laughing caught his attention. He turned and saw Camille with Nate, sitting on the grass with food set aside. Logan couldn't help but think that she was on a date. Another pang of jealousy hit him but he tried to shake it off. He was the one to suggest the friends with benefits and they both agreed that they were allowed to see other people. He tried to avoid them on the way back to his room.
"Logan!"
He stopped and sighed to himself. Mustering up a smile, he turned around and walked over to Camille and Nate.
"Hey guys," he said.
"Hi," Camille smiled, "Why aren't you with the rest of the guys? Doesn't Kendall need more people for hockey practice?"
"Uh yeah, I was just getting my stuff," Logan wanted nothing more than to leave the area.
She playfully warned him, "Take it easy on the girls. We may know how to skate but we're not pros."
He lightly laughed, "I'll make sure to tell the others. Well I better get going… I'd hate to interrupt your da –"
"Oh it's not – this isn't –" Camille stuttered.
Nate spoke for her, "We're just rehearsing lines and we got hungry. Nothing more than two classmate working together."
Logan's mind was put to ease for a short second. Camille looked flushed while Nate just kept a calm expression. He tried to keep himself composed.
"It's all right," he said, "It's not like Camille and I are –"
"Oh you're not?" Nate interrupted, "I thought there was –"
"No," Logan responded immediately, "Nope. Nothing going on. Just friends. Only friends."
Nate smiled and focused on Camille, "Ok then."
This caused Logan to mentally slap himself when he saw Camille's expression – she looked hurt by Logan's words then uneasy with Nate's gaze. She looked up at him and tried to mask her hurt with a 'help me' look. Logan got the message and pulled out his phone.
"Oh shoot, Kendall says Jo is looking for you," he waved his phone, "Maybe we should see what's going on?"
Camille nodded, "Yeah, let me just grab my stuff. I'm sorry Nate, we'll get together another time?"
Nate didn't seem fazed by the interruption, "Sure. We still have a lot of time to get this memorized. I'll see you around Camille, Logan."
"Bye," they quickly said and made their way back to the dorms.
As soon as they were out of earshot, Camille let out a sigh of relief. Logan lightly chuckled, unlocking the room to his dorm.
"What was with that look?"
"What? What look? I don't know what look you're talking about," she immediately went on defense.
He laughed harder, "I meant that uneasy look you gave me earlier."
"Oh," she felt silly, "Well, things got awkward. Nate and I were just practicing our lines and the moment he found out I was technically single, he got… Extra enthusiastic."
"And you didn't like that?" Logan tried to keep his cool.
Camille shifted, "Not really."
"You're a pretty girl, Camille. I don't see why you don't get enough attention," he mumbled to himself, but she heard.
"Too bad Nate isn't the guy I wanted attention from," she mumbled even more quietly.
Logan turned to her, "What was that?"
She put on a blank face, "Oh, I didn't say anything."
He looked at Camille for a long minute then shrugged. Logan went to his room and started to gather his gear for hockey. Kendall and the crew were barely starting to he knew he wasn't missing much. He double checked his bag then went to the common room. He was about to ask Camille if they wanted to drop by her place but stopped himself when she saw her pacing.
"Everything ok?"
Camille looked at him, "I… I don't know."
Logan was confused, "What's on your mind?"
She bit her lip, "Was this friends with benefits a good idea?"
"Did you… Did you not want to do this anymore?" he asked, "Because we both agreed that if one of us ended it, the other has to agree to it. I would hate to make things awkward."
"I think no matter what happens, it will be awkward," she said.
"Camille…" he started.
She put a hand up to stop him. It took her a few seconds to muster up the courage and tell him, "I'm starting to like you again, Logan. I liked you back in tenth grade and I thought they disappeared but during the summer – when all of this started – I guess my feelings for you came back. I have to stop this before I fall harder and another girl comes along that you actually will be interested in. I'm not sure if I can handle that, while we keep up this friends with benefits thing."
Logan looked at her in shock. He also took a few seconds to himself so he could figure out what to say, "Where did all of this come from?"
She shook her head, "It has just been on my mind. I mean, it's obvious that Nate likes me and I don't like him back, but then it got me thinking – What happens if some girl starts to like you? And you like her back? As for my feelings for you… Like I said, they just slowly started coming back. I was almost convinced that maybe we could make this work into something more but I know you've never felt that way about me."
Again, Logan was at a loss for words. He carefully tried to think of the right words to tell Camille. However, she didn't take the silence well as tears started to cloud her vision.
Softly, she spoke, "Ok… I'm just going to go back to my dorm. If they ask, just tell them that I had a lot of homework to catch up on."
"Camille, wait!"
She turned around and shook her head at Logan, "I'm sorry Logan. I'll see you tomorrow."
A/N: Oh man, I had planned on making it into an argument but I got caught up with "Roman Holiday" (a cute movie starring Audrey Hepburn) and things took a turn for a more bittersweet tone. I still think it turned out pretty well.
Update 12/13: So I wrote that A/N a while back but I'm just going to keep it there. Like I said, I'm renovating the upcoming chapters, hopefully spicing things up. I'm going to disappear now since it is finals week. Thank you always for the support!
