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"Fang can you let me go, I can't breathe." I said running out of breath. He let me down gently and I regained my breath.
"Uh sorry…." He said blushing but still grinning besides himself. I smiled back at him and his face lit up momentarily. He took a deep breath and put his mask on again. How was able to do that? And why did he always do that?
"Fang, why do you always do that?" I blurted out without thinking. He looked at me and I noticed he looked a little mad.
"Do what?" He pretended not to know what I was talking about.
"Hide your feelings." I said still looking him in the eyes. He was obviously contemplating what to say and he didn't look too comfortable talking about this.
"I don't." I glared at him.
"Fang it's pretty obvious you do." I said getting kind of mad. Why was he denying it? He merely shrugged it off and sat on the bed looking away from me.
"Don't you shrug your shoulders at me." I said walking over to him. I sat on the bed next to him and put my hand on his shoulder.
"Fang come on at least look at me." I said shaking his shoulder. He turned around and looked at me with his emotionless eyes and it freaked me out to see his eyes so void of emotion.
"Fang you're eyes, are you doing this on purpose because it's not funny." He didn't say anything but his eyes changed a little I noticed some emotion in them. I hugged him tightly against me. Seeing his eyes like that made me feel like he wasn't there, that he was gone and I wanted to feel him to make sure he was still here.
I felt his arms wrap around me slowly and then tighten around me. Having his arms tight around me made me feel safe and relieved to have him like this.
"Fang I want you to trust me so that I can trust you." I said pulling away and looking at him.
"I'm just not used to showing what I'm feeling." He said looking away from me.
"Remember when we were at the school and they used to do all those tests on us?" He said staring off in to space. I didn't like talking about this specific subject anymore. I always tried to avoid it as much as possible.
"Mhm." I said in a low voice not knowing where this was going.
"Yeah I was always tried to stay quiet and not show them how much it hurt and the more times that it happened the more I would act like that around everyone else." He took a deep breath and put his face in his hands looking down at the floor.
"Fang I- you don't have to tell me." I said. I didn't like to talk about this anymore and I didn't want to know how bad the whitecoats had hurt him. It made me feel like I hadn't done enough, that I hadn't tried hard enough. If Jeb hadn't let us out of that place would we still be there, would we still even be alive. Remembering how they hurt the flock made me feel worthless as a leader. How many times had they gotten away with hurting them? How many times had I allowed them to get away with hurting them? Too many, I knew.
It infuriated me to know that I hadn't done anything, that if Jeb hadn't gotten us out of there we would all probably be dead now. I felt tears falling down my face. I faintly felt Fang's arms wrap around me. He pulled me tighter into his embrace and it actually felt comforting I didn't feel awkward or claustrophobic.
"Why Fang, why did I let them. I could have done something." I said still crying. He looked at me confused.
"Max, what are you talking about?" He asked me.
"I let them hurt you." I said in between sobs.
"No, don't say that, we were all young there was nothing that you could have done. Don't blame yourself for anything it's not your fault." He said running his fingers through my hair calming me down.
"But-." I started.
"Max stop it, you're being too hard on yourself." He said leaning over me and hugging me tightly in his arms.
I calmed down a bit when he did so.
"Fang I'm sorry." I said taking shaky breaths.
"Max stop it's not your fault." I wrapped my arms tight around him.
We stayed on the bed hugging him for another ten minutes and I was falling asleep when I felt him moving. My eyes snapped open in time to see him getting up.
"Fang, please don't go." I wanted him next to me, I felt cold without him there and his arms wrapped around me. He smiled at me and lay back down but didn't hug me.
"Fang, are you mad at me?" I whispered. He turned his head around and looked at me in an are-you-crazy kind off way.
"No, I didn't see you hugging some other guy so I don't really see why I would be mad at you." He said turning around to look at me.
"Why won't you hug me then?" I said looking at the sheets.
"Do you want me to?" He asked. I nodded and he got up. He's leaving. I felt tears form in my eyes when I felt him behind me pushing me so he could fit. Once he settled he wrapped an around my waist and stroked my hair with the other hand.
"Try and get some sleep." I heard him say.
"Fang it's like ten in the morning, I can't go to sleep right now." I said but even I could hear the tiredness in my voice. My eyes started to feel heavy and combined with the feeling of Fang's fingers I fell asleep almost instantly.
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