A/N: I can't believe I haven't updated in so long. I'm sorry for leaving all of you waiting for so long but finally another chapter.
I felt light fingers tracing my face. The lightest of touches on me. I didn't want to wake from fear that these feelings would disappear when I opened my eyes. I started to become aware of the noises going on around me. I could here the squeaking of the mattress as some one next to me moved and the slope of the bed as that person sat next to me. Slowly as I began to regain my senses fully I caught Fang's scent next to me. With a great struggle I opened my weary eyes and realized that it had been Fang lying next to me.
When he realized I was awake he turned to look at me.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to." He said looking at me with the face of the little boy that had broken my arm so many years ago. I looked at him blankly for a moment remembering what had been done and said. I cringed at the memory and clutched myself closer to him.
"What happened?" I asked. I looked up to look at him and he had bruises marring his face on his cheekbones and brow and his bottom lip was split. I reached up to stroke his face and his cheek twitched at the touch. I grinned a bit at his reaction and he grinned back at me.
He turned serious and I looked at him questioningly. "Are you mad at me?" He asked.
"Why would I be mad?" I asked searching his eyes. He looked me straight in the eyes and stared at me with a look that bordered on anger.
"For getting you in trouble!" He said.
"No, it wasn't your fault." I responded desperately noticing that he seemed to be getting angrier.
"I hit him, aren't you mad at me for that?" I shook my head again. "No." I whispered hiding my face in the crook of his neck as I did so. He gently pushed me away and looked at me.
"You are mad aren't you, the way you think, it's like you don't remember how he left us. You can't hate him, you're too good." I shook my head not knowing if it was in denial.
"You don't love me do you? It's because of what he said. I'm selfish and depressed, I only hate, and I can't love." What was wrong with him? I looked into his eyes and I saw that he believed what he said.
"Fang no…that's not true!"
"It is, he's better, he taught me, he knows better. He knows me." He had a pained look on his face.
"Fang please no, don't believe that." He had the same look in his eyes he'd had when Jeb had left us. He undid the grip I had on his shirt and stood.
"I have to go." He started to walk away and I stood to run after him. I grabbed onto his arm. He looked back at me and his eyes were glistening with pain and his chest was rising very slowly like he was struggling with every breath of air he took in. He looked at me. I felt his hand taking my hand that was holding on to him. He took it in his larger hand and pulled me closer to him. He gently pressed his lips against mine, for the shortest of moments, and let me go. He went to the door opening it and Angel was there listening in. She had wet trails on her cheeks and I knew this would keep him from leaving. He knelt down in front of her and pulled her silk hair away from her face.
"Be good ok, do what Max says, God knows you need someone to keep you in line and I can't do that anymore so please listen to her." He hugged her and walked to the door.
"Fang don't leave us." She cried and I saw him hesitate before he opened the door. I heard the wind blow against the door frame as he took off. I stood in the kitchen unable to move, unable to form a thought. Jeb and mom came out of the living room and saw Angel crying and asked what was wrong.
"You Jeb, you're what's wrong, you made him leave. The way he was acting, he's probably thinking of ways to kill himself." I yelled in fury at our supposed guardian.
"What do you want me to do?" He asked me back in the same tone.
"Nothing, don't you realize what you've already done. You have no idea how much he suffered when you left us. Do you have any idea what you did when you said those things to him? He looked up to you!" I yelled and realized I had tears coming down. I wiped at them furiously.
"Go get him back, before he does something stupid." I looked at him and saw concern flash in his eyes before a look of derisiveness covered it.
"I'm not doing it because you're telling me to but because I love him and you can deal with that any way you want." I hissed. "Go with Iggy while I leave." I told Angel and I saw a sparkle in her eyes as we realized what I had said.
Sorry for leaving it there. I'll update soon!