Author's Notes: Alright. This chapter is filled with drama, it might even make some of you cry, or not. I might not be at that level of powerful writing yet. But as long as you enjoy it that'll stop me from crying so enjoy, and review.

Before You Go Tell Me You Love Me

After I had returned back to Smackdown I didn't hear the end of it from Ashley. Even though she was halfway around the world she could still make me fear that she would attack me at any moment. Christy, Michelle, and Maryse had a few choice words for me as well, and lets not forget Cody's lashing. It had been nothing but drama from me since I had gotten back.

I hadn't heard from Matt since I had gotten back. Apparently he wasn't to happy with me as well, every time I called him he ignored me, every time I asked about him Dave and Ken just covered with bad lies, and I hadn't seen Matt since the day I left.

As I made my way through the hallway I suddenly noticed Matt talking to Dave, and Montel a few steps ahead of me.

"Matt!" I called as I began to move faster. Matt glanced over to me before beginning to walk away, which surprised me seeing as how Matt never treated me like this.

"Matt! Matt Hardy just wait!" I yelled but kept going until he reached the male locker room, and if he thought that was gonna stop me he was seriously mistaken. I walked in through the front door of the locker room only to have all the guys stare at me like I was insane.

I looked over to see Matt at his locker. I walked over and slammed the locker shut but he still wouldn't look at me and it was really starting to piss me off.

"Matt Hardy what is your problem?! Did I do something to upset you or what?!" He then looked to me, and it made me wish he hadn't. He looked angry, hurt and irritated in one facial expression.

"What kind of question is that Torrence?! Of course you did something to upset me, you left the country to go and see your ex-fiance and didn't even try to tell me what was going on until you got back!" I looked around the locker room to see that everyone had turned their attention onto Matt and I.

"Matt could we please take this outside?" I asked. Matt grabbed my arm and lead me outside of the locker room and back into the hallway.

"Okay Torrence talk. Tell me why every time Randy calls you jump. Tell me why whenever Randy is around you treat me like I don't exist. Tell me why you are so fucking stuck on Randy that you can't even take the time to love me! Go ahead I'm all ears." Where was all this anger coming from. I had never seen this side of Matt even before I joined the WWE, something just wasn't right.

"Matt you know I love you! But Randy is a part of my life as well and you need to understand that he means a lot to me but I chose you! I'm here with you! If I wanted Randy do you think I'd be standing here trying to fix things with you?!" Matt's expression didn't change.

"Okay then Torrence if you love me so much then tell me. Tell me that you love me more than Randy! Tell me that if you had to chose between me and him right now that you would chose me! Tell me that I'm your first choice!" I opened my mouth to speak but words just wouldn't come out.

The truth is that I didn't know whether I wanted him or Randy. I loved Matt dearly but Randy was in there, and there was no way to remove him from the center of my heart. I looked into Matt's eyes as a tear strolled down my check. Matt looked up to the ceiling before looking back to me.

"What are we doing Torrence. I'm not afraid to tell you that I love you more than anything.... but if you don't fell the same way then...... then I just can't do this anymore. I'm sorry Torrence it's over." With that Matt just stormed back into the locker room.

I just stood there as tears strolled down my cheek. I wanted to run back in there and kiss him, and tell him that he was the one for me, but the truth is I that I think Randy is the one I'm supposed to be with, he's the one that I'm in love with.

I clasped my hands over my red face as I ran down the hall and into the bathroom. I ran inside the middle stall and cried my eyes out. This was all to much for me, maybe I was in way over my head from the beginning of this whole stupid trip. I suddenly heard the door to the bathroom open and a knock at the door.

"Torrence.... sweetie open the door. Don't let a guy do this to you." I heard Michelle say from the opposite side of the door.

"Come on honey talk to us." Christy said next. I got up from the stool an unlocked the door. Standing outside of the stall was Michelle, Maryse, Christy, and Cherry. I just smiled and walked into the circle as they all hugged me.

If there was one thing that I had learned over my time working in the WWE is that,

Guys SUCK.