Chapter 3: All Because of Me
Disclaimer:
Me: Jake, Edward said he doesn't love me anymore.
Jake: Its okay sweetheart I still love you. I will always love you.
Me: Really? Your not just saying that?
Jake: Of course but there is just one thing…
Me: What is it?
Jake: You can't claim me as your own. I'm so sorry! Don't hate me..
Me: I could never hate you Jake but why can't I claim you as my own?
Jake: Because my creator Stephanie Meyer owns me. You can only use me but you can never call me yours.
Me: *pouts in a corner* Nobody loves me…
Regretfully I would like to inform you I did not come up with any of the characters from the Twilight saga. Sadly it is my duty to announce that Stephanie Meyer owns them and I am only going to be using her characters for the purpose of this story.
(A/N): . Again not looking to win any awards in grammar, punctuation, or spelling. R&R!
"Edward" I breathed softly. He glanced over at me while still keeping his attention on the wolf Jake, who looked ready to pounce. "Wha- what are you doing here?" I spitted out.
"Alice saw you jump and then her vision went out. I thought you were-I thought you were gone.." Edward stammered, "I came back to see if you were alive and obviously here you are."
"But why did you pull Jake out of the truck like that? Did -just now did you see Jake and I-" Edward looked at me as if his still beating heart just broke. "Kiss? Oh yes. Unfortunately I saw you two apparent love birds making cozy while I was up in the tree, making sure you were still alive. Seeing you kiss him made something snap inside. It hurt so much to see you with him like that. Knowing that had I not left I could have been the one you were kissing. I am sincerely sorry if I interrupted you too. I guess I got what I came here for. I'll just leave you too alone now" Edward answered bitterly turning to leave.
"NO!" I screamed almost desperately. "Don't go not just yet. You think you have the right to come back here like that? Months and months you have left me here to basically wrought in this living hell. When you left you said you didn't want me any more; why so concerned about my well being now? Why did you have to come back and stir things up. Tell me damnit you owe me at least an explanation. Or are you going to leave again just like you did before?"
Jake growled. I couldn't tell if it was at me or if he was about to tear Edward's diamond like skin apart. This must be really hurting Jake. What at I supposed to do. I still love Edward and logically I know I shouldn't I mean he left me. People never change he'll just leave me again. But Jacob, my Jacob, has always been there for me. He even tried being there before Edward left me. I was just too wrapped up in my own self pity to notice what a true friend he was being to me. This isn't fair why do I have to choose? If I tell Edward to say then Jake will go all lone wolf on me and leave. But if I tell Edward to just go and never come back, I am just throwing any second chance we may have out the door. Jake was right; you can't have your cake and eat it too.
I gazed at Jake then back to Edward trying to decide what to do. Edward said he didn't want me though, so why is he back here to check to make sure I'm still alive if supposedly he doesn't care?
"I had to make sure that you were alive Bella. My world can't exist if you're not in it. I didn't mean to come back into your life. To interrupt any thing. Especially not like this. Truly I am sorry, this wasn't mean to happen" Edward explained staring back at Jacob.
It was so hard to sit here to watch two people I love so dearly be in the middle of a stand off. Each ready to rip the others throat out, literally. Jake ran into the woods quickly and within seconds came back out in human form wearing nothing but shorts. Probably to show off his well chiseled tan abs.
"Bella your not seriously going to believe anything that comes out of this lying blood suckers mouth are you?" Jacob demanded.
I stood there completely soaked in the freezing cold rain pondering what to do or say. It would be so nice to cuddle up with Jake right about now. I could see Jake fighting not to wrap his arms around me to keep me from getting hypothermia. Fortunately, Jake was smart enough to know that doing so at that exact moment might be the straw that broke the camels back. Surely only to end in a fight to the death.
"Jake you don't understand. Its more complicated then that." I argued.
"He left you Bella! You said yourself that he left you broken. What's to say he isn't' going to do it again?" he yelled. "There isn't any thing more the understand. You have no argument. That blood sucker doesn't deserve you! I love you Bella. I have proven that more times then he has. Why can't you just let him go? Be with me. Tell me you didn't feel anything when we kissed. If you can honestly tell me right now that kiss meant nothing to you I will leave right now. I will leave you to your blood sucking lover"
"That's not fair Jake" I stuttered starting to cry.
"Actually I think that sounds like a great idea. Why don't you leave us alone dog" Edward retorted smugly. In a matter of milliseconds Jake had managed to punch Edward cracking his face while Edward quickly tackled Jacob to the ground. They started rolling around and wrestling. Between the rain and mud that was flying I couldn't manage to see anything that was going on. All I could hear was cracks and what felt like a small earthquake what I assume was one of them hitting the ground.
"Stop it! Both of you. I can't take this right now!" I screamed at them. Instantly they both backed off of the other. Still staring each other down waiting for the opportunity or excuse to kill each other. Almost as if they were gladiators awaiting permission to begin a battle to the death. "This is ridiculous," I continued, "if either one of you really love me then you will stop trying to kill each other. Do you understand me?"
"But bella-" Edward argued. "No!" I shouted starting to get very upset. They both grumbled obviously still very upset at havening to control themselves. I couldn't control my anger anymore. Edward decided to waltz back into town unannounced just as things started getting better and complicate things. He has horrible timing. Or great timing I decided. Either way there was no way I was going to decide anything tonight. I needed some time to clear my head and get things straight.
I stared at the two of them wondering what I was going to do next. "I was so in love with Edward shouldn't I give it another shot?" I thought to myself. On the other hand does he really deserve another shot? Jake makes me hole again. He brought me back from being a zombie for so long. Regardless of what my mom, Charlie, or friends said to me nothing made me feel better. Jake loved me as I was. Broken heart and all.
Two guys fighting over me? Who would have thought it. As cliché as the thought was. I just never imagined I would be in this position.
"Look Edward," I started to say, "Go home. With no warning you just decide to show up just as things were starting to improve. Its not fair."
The rain started to clear up and you could see the luminous moon vividly now. As if carefully deciding what to say next, he looked up at the sky and then back at me.
He carefully examined my expression trying to read my mind before he spoke. "I'm sorry Bella. I shouldn't have just shown up like this. After Alice's vision I just had to come back to see for myself to make sure that you were still alive. I can't imagine the paid you must have gone through the last few months in the state I left you in. Only to come back and make things worse. That was not my intention. I'm not going again so easily this time. I thought leaving would be better for you. Seeing you tonight just proves that I was wrong. I shouldn't have left the way I did. Now that I'm back I want to prove to you that I deserve you. There has to be a way to make things up to you."
"Bella," Jake intervened. "I think it's best if we finish this tomorrow. You need to get inside to warm up and dry off. With how cold it is out here you are going to get sick in no time."
Edward agreed. "He's right Bella. I have forever to wait until you are ready to decide what you want to do. Nothing needs to be decided tonight. Hurry up and get inside before you catch your death out here."
Amazed that they had manage to agree on something I replied, " Edward go home and we will talk later."
"Okay" he stated. "I love you Isabella Swan. Forever." I love you too I thought. Knowing that even though he was capable of reading minds, mine was unreadable to him. Edward ran quickly off into the woods.
Tears started streaming down my face. I was so confused. I love Edward but I love Jacob too. It was just too much to process for me. I sobbed heavily now. Feeling light headed and dizzy the world started spinning around me. The last thing I remember was Jacob gently holding me whispering to me how much he loved me. I responded weakly "I love you too" and with that I gave in and let sleep overtake my overwhelmed body and fell into the crook of Jacobs arm onto his chest and slept.
(A/N): Well? What do ya'll think? Read and review J I was going to go a different way but I started writing and this just kind of spilled out into my word document so I decided to run with it and see where it takes me. Will try to have another chapter posted within the next couple of days. Thanks for reading hope you all enjoyed J