MyLight
Chapter 6 EPOV
I was a mess all week
I couldn't even annoy Charlie, or concentrate in school
Everyday I waited anxiously for Bella and her family to glide through the doors or the cafeteria, and everyday I was disappointed. Then I would attempt to listen to the convocations. Everyone was planning a trip to La Push Ocean Park in 2 weeks. I was invited; I agreed to go more out of politeness then desire. Beaches should be hot and dry not wet and windy. By Friday I was completely sure that Bella wasn't gonna be in the canteen so I wasn't as disappointed when she didn't show up.
My first week in Forks passed without any dramatic incidents, sure I had injured people in PE, but everyone had learned to avoid me when armed.
Charlie worked all the time so I had the house to myself for most of the weekend, much to my pleasure. I just did my homework and emailed mum. The rain stayed soft over the weekend so I slept well.
On Monday people greeted me in the car park and I smiled and nodded back to them as I didn't know there names. That's the bad thing about being new, everyone knows our name and you don't know there's, it's frustrating for some reason.
We had a pop quiz in English on Wuthering Heights and it was easy. I'm actually feeling comfortable here, which I never expected to happen. I hope forks wasn't growing on me, oh dear.
When we walked out of our class the air was swirling with little bits of white.
"Wow, its snowing!" Jess exclaimed dramatically
"Cool" I said simply, Jessica looked upset by my lack of convocation but I was in deep thought all the time, and if you knew me you knew that it hardly ever happens.
I was forever thinking about Bella. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I knew she didn't like me so why bother thinking about getting close to her?
Everyone started throwing snowballs at each other which I classed as my queue to leave.
"Jess im going to get something to eat, ok?" I said and she dropped her ball of snowy mush and walked happily next to me that was the most I've said to her, put together, since Bella had left
I walked alertly to lunch with Jessica ducking and dodging snow balls as they came near me. Mike caught us at the door, laughing with ice melting in spikes in his hair. He talked animatedly to jess about the massive snow ball fight he was planning after school.
I glanced at the table in the corner, out of habit and was planted in my place. There were people sat there.
Mike pulled on my arm: "hey Edward, you getting anything?"
I looked down, my ears hot; I had no reason to feel self-conscious, oh gosh im blushing!!! Im turning into a girl, brilliant
"No I think im ok" I answered mechanically, stepping out of the line, keeping my back to the Cullen's table.
"Aren't you hungry?" Jessica asked worried
"No actually, I feel a bit sick" I said looking at my feet, I waited for them to get there food and walked to our table never looking up. I played with my shirt nervously as I waited for them to eat, my stomach churning, all the girls kept asking if I ok.
I was terrified; I was going to have to sit next to Bella! This should be a dream come true but I was nervous for a reason I couldn't put my finger on.
I looked up at their table wondering if my memory had served Bella justice
I kept my head down and glanced through my lashes, none of them were looking my way so I lifted my head a little.
They were laughing. Emmett and Jaspers hair was completely wet and dripping, Alice Rosalie and Bella were leaning away as Emmett shook his hair towards them. They were enjoying the snowy day, like everybody else except they looked like they were acting in a movie. Of course they looked like they were having fun, but Bella looked like she was acting, and fighting to keep a smile on her face. Her family shot her nervous glances every now and then so she'd smile or ignore them.
They looked different. I examined Bella carefully. Her skin was less pale, slightly flushed and the circles under her eyes were less noticeable
"Edward? What are you staring at?" Eric asked, his eyes following my stare. Eric was another one of my friends; he was madly in love with Angela.
Forks is just the home of love triangles.
I mean Eric likes Angela but she likes Ben (no clue who he likes) and Tyler likes Lauren but she likes me and Mike likes Jess and she likes me too!
Well I like Bella, no triangle there, unless she likes someone else?
Oh my gosh, who does Bella like?
I was freaking out big time when Bella's eyes flashed over to meet mine. I dropped my head and stared at the table
"Bella Cullen is staring at you" Eric said smiling
"Really?" I asked hopefully-maybe she did like me! He was staring at her too "stop looking at her!" I whispered, he snickered but looked away. Jess interrupted us then asking about the snowball fight. They were planning it after school
Great now I had to hide in gym until the car park cleared. For the rest of lunch I carefully kept my eyes on my own table and tried to participate in the convocations
It didn't work.
I still always caught myself staring at Bella. This is getting annoying now! I mean I don't even know im staring at her anymore! It's like a routine. It's easy, like breathing
Well not like my breathing now, its coming out all ruff and cold, like I've got ice stuck in my throat.
As I prepared to leave the cafeteria I heard groans and I looked outside to see it raining washing away all traces of the snow. I would be free to go home straight after gym, not sure that's a good thing now. Mike kept up a string of complaints all the way to biology.
When I walked in, my table was still empty.
I sat down and began to write my name all over my book, I was bored.
I was very aware of Bella gliding in and sitting next to me, she pulled he chair back noisily making me think I was imagining what happened the first time. I was pondering on that as I tried to ignore Bella and to concentrate on my doodling.
"Hiya!" said a bright musical voice. I looked up and saw that her chair was angled toward me. She was talking to me! Her dazzling face was friendly and open, a slight smile playing on her lips.
"Hey, how are you?" I tried to keep it light and simple
"Fine thanks, im actually glad to be back!" she said grinning
"Where were you?" I asked
"In Alaska" she said frowning "helping my dad" she finished smiling again
Mr Banner started talking then, I tried to concentrate as he explain the lab we were doing but I couldn't with Bella sat so close to me.
As if she read my mine, her chair slid noiselessly away from me. We were working in partners today looking in a microscope and identifying things. Fairly easy, plus I've already done it, now I can show off and be all "scientificul!"
Or maybe she'll think im a geek? Well it's worth a try
"Get started!" Mr Banner boomed eyeing our table, he obviously remembered my first lesson. Well I know I did, but just for different reasons
"Ladies first" I said, I wanted to see if she was good at this, or if she needed help.
"Ok then" she said grabbing the microscope, too quickly again. It made my eyes hurt when she moved really quickly. She snapped the first slide into place and studied the image for a second: "Prophase" she said confidently
She began to remove the slide so I stopped her, her hand was freezing cold, and I know it's a cold day but come on! It's not that bad! That wasn't the reason I jerked my hand away so fast. When she touched me my blooded boiled and I felt like id been electrocuted. I checked my hair to see if it was standing on end
It wasn't.
"What?" she asked looking at her hand, she felt it to? Phew!! I wasn't just me
"May I?" I asked politely
"Yeah sure" she passed me the microscope and I looked into it hopefully Dang! She's right! I thought. I reached for the next slide and put it in place.
"Anaphase" I said confidently, I knew what was coming next:
"May I?" she mimicked sweetly
"Don't you believe me?" I asked teasing her a little, she smiled back and grabbed the microscope, slower this time, like she was watching her every move
She examined it for a shorter time than me and grabbed the next slide
"Interphase, wanna check it?" she asked kindly
"No thanks, I trust you" her face lit up when I said "trust"
Well im just glad I said "I trust you" and not "I believe you"!
We were finished before anyone else, so I had nothing to do but try not to look at Bella. I wasn't successful. I looked up and she was staring at me as well, I immediately understood what else was different about her
"Hey, do you get contacts?" I asked quickly, instantly regretting it
She seemed puzzled by my outburst of on unexpected question: "no" she answered simply as if she was trying not to give anything away
"Oh I just thought there was something different about you're eyes" I mumbled looking away. I heard her sign and shrug. In fact, there was something different. I vividly remember that flat black colour of her eyes; it's haunted me for the past week. Today her eyes were a completely different colour, a strange ocher, darker than butterscotch, but with the same golden tone
I didn't understand how it could be, unless she was for some reason lying about her contacts. Or maybe forks is driving me crazy-I told mum this would happen, but, NO she didn't listen! All she could think about was time alone with Phil…Ugg mental picture!
My brain, my precious brain!
"It's too bad about the snow isn't it?" Bella asked calmly
"Um I think?" I came out like a question. She raised her eyebrows "I don't like the snow. Any cold, wet thing and I don't really…" I broke off shuddering
I bet I sound like a girl complaining about living with out straighteners! Pathetic, suck it up man!
"Forks must be a difficult place to live then, huh?" she sounded concerned but she was smiling to herself as well, as if she was enjoying some private joke.
"You have NO idea" she seemed fascinated by what I said: "why did ya come here then?" she demanded
"Um my mother got re-married and kicked me out"
"Aww, poor you!" she was trying to cheer me up, I think: "why'd she kick ya out?"
"Cause she said she needed some "alone time" with Phil and that I was getting in the way-and she thought she had it bad! I was the one that walked in on them! Talk about scarred for life!" I joked
"Great that was a mental picture I really didn't need, thanks!" she was laughing again, my tummy tied its self in a knot "do you like living with you're dad then?"
"Hell no! I hate Charlie and im doing everything I can to annoy him"
"Like what?"
"I'm pranking him and messing the house and garden up, not much cause I need to find out what he hates 'n' he aint 'droppin hints" she was laughing a lot now
"Wait, are you unhappy?" she asked, all the humour vanished form her eyes
"Kinda, but annoying Charlie is fun, but oh well life aint fair is it?"
"No not really" she sounded sad
"What you got to complain about, from what I've heard, you live the high life!" damn not again, now she's gonna think I've been asking about her!
"Well there are 7 of us in our family so stuff like showering in the morning is living hell and TV's never available and im lonely, all my family are together-my mum and dad, and my brother and sister are with my foster siblings! Its kinda messed up" that was the most I've ever heard her say and I didn't realise she was so sentimental!
"Aww don't worry bells, it'll be ok, and you'll find someone soon!" I emphasized "someone" a bit too much didn't I?
"Wait, you called me "bells", why?" she looked shocked
"Oh sorry, don't you like it??" I thought is sounded nice but oh well…
"No it's my nickname in my family" gosh she is confusing me, she lets her family call her bells but not me, maybe she lets the people she loves shorten her name?
"I just thought it sounded nice and all so…"
"No its ok I was just shocked, you can call me bells if ya wanna" she smiled at me
"O…K"I said cautiously
"Sorry of im freaking you out, it just, im having a hard time trying to read you" she was trying to keep her smile in place, it was obvious. Why was she nervous all of a sudden?
Yeah she is freaking me out
"Oh, are you a good reader then?"
"Exceptionally! Well usually I mean, but you're difficult" she frowned to her self and then Mr Banner ended class early.
Joy.
Bella rushed as swiftly and as gracefully as she had last week, and the same as last week I stared after her. I hope I don't feel a tradition in the making cause it'd be boring sitting here watching her, instead of chasing after her.
I now realise that Bella is becoming a big part in my life, even if she doesn't know it. Well I have to be a gentleman and become her friend first, and as her friend I have to help her and support her. Even if she likes someone else.
I pledge to become her friend and to be a good friend as well.