MyLight
Chapter 9 BPOV
Everyone had gathered round the large oak dining table in the centre of our house. I know what you're thinking, a dining table in a house where nobody eats, but its just a prop, you know, so we can look normal! We have a lot of props actually, like beds and a fridge. Everyone but me uses there bed, just not for sleeping on---don't even try to guess what they use it for, ill just say, Im once again glad I can only read minds when I want to, reading them all the time would be disturbing when they use there beds!
Anyway, back to the point, everyone took they're seats and looked at me pointedly. I huffed and sat at the head of the table, Carlisle seat. He was our leader of many sorts and our farther, he normally lead these meetings. I hated the spotlight so im gonna keep this short and sweet…
"What?" I asked rudely to embarrassed to be polite, hoping someone else would start
"Bella…" Jasper said in a menacing voice. I automatically back tracked at his tone
"Ok then jazzy purr, what do you all wanna know, any questions?" I asked rhetorically.
"Are you in love with a human boy?" Esme asked, speaking up for a first time in this subject, her voice sounded unsure and wary, I didn't even realise she cared about this subject.
"I think sooo…" I answered unsure myself, earning puzzled expressions from my siblings. "Well I don't really know, is it a love at first sight job-or smell even-cause I thought you could only fall for someone when you knew them"
"Bells, you're right, "love at first smell", it has a ring to it, am I right?" Emmett asked grinning hugely; he looked like a big bear when he did this. I couldn't help but smile
"Em, stop messing and concentrate!" Rosalie thundered glaring daggers at her husband; he grinned sheepishly at her and then sighed loudly
"What I mean is, that im not sure how I feel about him, can't I just tell you guys when I know for myself?" I asked
"Bella I know how you feel for him and I think its true love, it's stronger than the way I feel for Alice or the way em feels for rose." Jasper inputted confusing me even further, how it is possible to love him more then Jasper loves Alice; they were made for each other in everyway.
"What!!" Rosalie shouted
"Bella loves Edward more than you love Carlisle as well, its true, strong love" Jasper said looking at Esme, who looked puzzled
"But how is that possible?" Carlisle asked shocked, Jasper trembled form the amount emotion in the room and looked at the table, trying to control himself
"Jazz means that because I've waited long I love him more, right?" I asked still confused
"I think…" Jasper sighed loudly and looked up "the amount of love Bella feels for Edward hits me like a jumbo jet flying at 100mph, it hurts even"
"…whoa…" we all said together
"But wait, does he like me too??" I asked hope bubbling up. Jasper began, but Alice hit the table hard and screamed:
"NO JASPER DONT!"
"WHAT??" me and jasper shouted back, the bubble of hope popped, stabbing my chest, where my dead, cold, heart is.
"Bella needs to find out on her own, it will help the relationship, trust me" she said grinning, nobody betted against Alice, we all trusted her. I sighed and thumped my head on the desk repeatedly with confusion
"Listen Bella, I had a vision that if jazz tells you then the relationship won't work, because you'll have the upper hand, but if you and Edward find out for you're selves then it will blossom." Alice said confidently
"Ok then, can this meeting be over yet?" I asked impatiently
"Yes or course, Bella" Carlisle said happily, he and Esme got up and left to hunt. I was just about to leave when Emmett's impatient whine stopped me
"Bells…!" he moaned, I was confused
"Yes Emmett?"
"Can I met Edward yet, I need to met my new best friend!" he said happily
"Me too!" Alice Jasper and Rose said simultaneously
"What?? Why??" I asked them
"Because" Emmett started "we are gonna be great mates, I can see it, and I like him too, he sounds interesting!!"
"Yeah Bella, we wanna met him too, we love him like a bro already!" Alice and Rosalie whined together. Jasper silently erased all panic from my mind and nodded to me slightly
"Fine, fine fine-just don't embarrass me!" I said giving in they jumped up and down "yaying" for about a minute until I ran to my room.
Tomorrow was gonna be a long day
We arrived at school just as Edward did the next day, the day of all nightmares, the day Edward met my family! We watched as he slipped out of his truck and tested the ground, Emmett and Jasper were hysterical, but we girls just giggled an annoyed giggle. I was in a paranoid mood; my poor family were the people I took it out on. He walked on the slippiest ice, of course. Accident prone Edward. This was probable a good time for Emmett to go.
Emmett swaggered over to Edward while we all watched in the car; I pushed my shield out to Emmett, wanting to hear the conversation better. Edward seemed oblivious of Emmett, keeping his eyes on the ground so he didn't slip. Emmett stepped in front of him and Edward looked up nervously. Rose was holding back laughter as her husband looked at Edward, and the way Edward looked at him-he looked like a rabbit trapped in headlights, not very manly.
"Hey dude, how goes it?" Emmett said happily dude looks frightened to death, not a good start!!
"Umm… it goes fine…I think…" Edward practically whimpered. Emmett boomed out his loud laugh probable scaring him even more, but Emmett was truly enjoying himself oh he's so funny, bells you sure know how to pick 'em!!
"Man you're funny dude, we're gonna be great friends!" Emmett said chuckling, while Edward blinked, very confused, poor kid, anyone would be nervous around Emmett, but when he says "we're gonna be great friends" that just about kills someone!!
"Ok…" stuttered out, blindly looking at Emmett's size.
Abort abort!! Emmett thought in a distressed tone I forgot to say who I am, im really messing up this! "Oh, yea, sorry man, im Emmett Cullen" Emmett said as calming and coolly as he could, holding out his hand. No no NOOOOO, his hand! His hand is stone cold like mine, Edwards gonna freak!
"Oh, hey Emmett, what you got now?" Edward said smiling calmly shaking his hand, well maybe he'd take it very well, ma bad, again!
"I think I've got a free period now, but im not sure, gotta ask Alice" Emmett said showing off his age and hinting about his family
Edward smiling and nodded slightly to himself: "Cool, Alice??" he asked uncertainly
"Oh she's my little sister, you should meet her soon, but ill warn you man, don't think just because she's a pixie she aint good in fights, she just about toke my arm off in arm wrestling the other day!" Emmett whined grinning at the end "she got lucky though" he said winking "she got a gob on her as well, you've officially been warned!" ha, ha, ha, he has been WARNED Bella, WARNED! I chuckled to myself, earning mad glances from my siblings, they never got used to my private conversations. Edward smiled, looking up at the sky awkwardly. Alice glared at Emmett's back and hid her head in Jaspers chest fake sobbing. Me, Rose and Jasper were in hysterics now. Was I really that funny, bells? Well im flattered! Emmett thought hearing out loud gawfufs. Edward seemed oblivious
"Right, ill see ya later Emmett, its gonna hurl soon and ice and water don't do good for me" funny kid Emmett thought again
"You got no balance, have you man, I saw you before, almost wet my self laughing when you almost fell out of you're truck" he said chuckling "nice ride, by they way"
We all laughed now; if I were human I would be crying with the amount of laughing ive done today
"Thanks, later Emmett" he said turning for the main building
"Hey dude, I know "Emmett's" a mouthful so call me "em" my family do" Emmett said kindly, hinting about being friends again, he was hopeless, my brother was.
"Right, sorry I sound rude, don't I?" Edward said frowning slightly, he was, ill have to admit, but not much
"No its ok man, im used to it, and I know you gotta go, sorry for keeping ya mate!" Emmett said smiling hugely. Edward laughed with him then stumbled off, toward the building.
Emmett strode back towards our car, grinning at finding his best friend. Alice and Jasper looked at me, pleading in their eyes. Rose, just laughed at my expression and kissed Emmett passionately.
"Eww, Em, Rose, get a room!" I shrieked
"The back of you're car will do us fine, thanks, bells!" Emmett said as Rose pulled away to breathe
"BELLA, CAN I MET HIM NOW!" Alice screamed impatiently. Jasper chuckled and rubbed her back.
"Alice don't you think it will be a bit weird if 4 people meet him separately, but they are all friend anyhow?? He'll think it's a joke or something, Emmett should introduce some of you" I said calmly, Alice exploding in her seat.
"Yeah, bells, after lunch I can introduce them!" Emmett planned excitedly
"But Rose and I have P.E after that so I can't talk to him much!" Alice whined
"I know" Jasper said loudly "Emmett should introduce Alice and me, then Alice should introduce him to Rosalie, its perfect!" he finished smiling hugely
"Great, idea, jazz!" Alice said smiling at her soul mate. "Wait what does Edward have after lunch?"
"And we should know because…" we said raising our eyebrow "some physic you are Alice" I continued grinning
"Huh, everyone's a critic nowadays! I'll find out soon enough!" she said smiling evilly, this didn't make me feel better about them meeting him. We all headed off to our morning classes. The morning dragged on unpleasantly and I waited impatiently for lunch to come. I know, im supposed be dreading it, but I just want it to be over and done with. In the past.
I sat, ridged in my seat, at our lunch table with Emmett and Rosalie impatiently. Edward walked in and bought his lunch. He didn't even stay, he walked back out into the icy field, dodging ice balls while eating a cheese sandwich, its harder than it sounds, believe me, been there, done that!
"Go Emmett, go" me and Rosalie said, urging him forward to the fountain, where Jasper and Alice waited. They took up their positions by the door. I watched as Edward walked over to them, and looked up to see Emmett leaning their, he looked happy and confused, and mostly shocked. Poor jazz must be having a break down!
He approached them happily smiling and looked uncertainly at Alice and Jasper
"Hey dude, fell down some more yet?" Emmett asked cheekily, I pushed out my shield to cover the 4 of them, but of course only hearing 3 sets of thoughts I signed in defeat, you think I'd have gotten used to it by now. Well ill never learn, huh? Jasper laughed but Alice glared at Emmett
"Oh god man, don't get me started!" Edward said grinning. He smiled at Jasper and Alice. Jasper smiled back positively, but Alice gave a small shy smile, what was up with her?
"Oh, yeah, Edward, this is Jasper Hale and Alice Cullen, my baby sister" Emmett said bored, gesturing towards them as he said they're names bells, this is annoying!! How many people do I have to introduce, I get bored of saying peoples names!! I laughed from my hiding place behind the soda machine with Rose and she gave me another "you're lost you're mind, babes!" look.
Alice suddenly lost her calm and jumped up towards Edward. I tensed, she grabbed him into a strong hug Bella I can't help it!! He's my new-almost-big-bro! Im trying to make a good first impression, I have waited long enough already! She thought as she released him. He looked shocked, but like he had suddenly realised something important. Jasper leaned down to Alice and whispered "Alice you're frightening him, not a good first impression!" she nodded and turned to Edward: "sorry Edward, im a hugger!" she explained smiling, but sighing slightly
"Its okay Alice, what have you guys got now?" Edward asked
"Dude you always ask that!" Emmett whined he needs to find a new convo starter desperately
"Well, I thought it was quite a good conversation starter Emmett, thanks very much" was Edwards's brilliant comeback. They all laughed.
"Told you guys he was funny…" Emmett said, chuckling
"I've got P.E now and Jazz has maths, with Emmett" Alice informed Edward with a friendly smile, trying not to scare him again. What do you have, what do you have, what do you have?? She was using all of her will power not to explode there and then; scarring him for life, would be the ultimate conquecence.
"Cool, I have P.E too!"
"Yay!" Alice squealed, at a pitch we were all used to by now, but Edward looked startled again. Em and jazz winced theoretically "Let's go, Edward!" Alice said pulling on his arm while pecking Jasper on the cheek. Edward mouthed "help me!" to Emmett and Jasper, they laughed and took off towards me and Rosalie. We were laughing at the outcome off their conversation when they reached us.
"Well, I think that went well, bells" Jasper said he showed no scared emotions and he just looked happy, he accepted my and Alice as friends. He thinks we are all nuts but he still likes us!
"Oh, gosh, I gotta go!" Rosalie squealed excitedly running off, leaving me jasper and Emmett behind her.
"Do you wanna go listen in on their conversation too, bells??" Emmett asked me rhetorically
"No thanks, Emmett, I trust Rose and Alice much more than I trust you!" I said smiling as his face turned down. "Well we're gonna, come on jazz, later Bella!" Emmett shouted as he and Jasper bombed down the halls to the P.E changing rooms. I stood alone in the halls, thinking about what to do; I really didn't want to go to class right now. I considered following Emmett and jasper, but decided I'd better not, if they said or did anything stupid, I'd know about it.
I walked to my car and listened to Debussy: Clair de lune, my favourite song. I watched as Edward stumbled over in P.E and as Rose and Alice gossiped. Emmett and Jasper suddenly came into my vision and I stepped out of the car.
"Hey, what's up?" I asked reading their expressions
"Nothing, we just came over to tell you we are going to met Edward after P.E, are you gonna come?" Jasper said
I processed that for a moment, meeting Edward again…
I decide to let him get to now my family before I stepped in
"No thanks, boys, ill just go home, you can run home tonight, right??" I asked cheekily. They nodded and headed of towards the entrance hall.
I decided I might as well leave now, so I speed of home listening to "super massive black hole" by muse.
I thought about Edward all the way home. His face clouded my mind and his scent clouded my scenes. His facial expressions from today were the strongest. His eyes when he was with Emmett, he thought off him as a friend. Emmett would love that. He didn't even look that scared by my siblings, like they didn't scare him at all.
I got home just as school was about to finish. Esme was in the forest, re-designing an old castle, lost to the woods. Carlisle had left recently to go to the hospital, his scent was still strong. I had the house to myself, for once, so many things I had wished to do when I was finally alone spun around my brain, getting less fun by the second. I felt dead on my feet. The feeling scared me and shocked my. I needed to hunt, and not be here when my family returned; they couldn't see what was bubbling up inside of me, waiting to burst out in rage and fury.
I took off running, jumped the river in one bound and flew into the forest. A million thoughts flew through my mind and I tried to understand all the unspoken questions Edwards eyes had asked me, the feelings he felt when we were together. I really hated Alice right now. I mean if she had just let jasper tell me how he felt then I would be alright. Well I suppose bad things come before the good ones. Sadness before happiness, the way my too long, stretched out life had always been, and would always be.