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Chapter 11 BPOV

Emmett and Alice knocked lightly on my bedroom door. I groaned from under the covers. I had been hiding under them since I got back form hunting. All my unhappiness had been taken out on my prey and now I let the sadness get me. The pain was unbearable when I thought about my decision. It's for the best, I kept reminding myself. He can be happy, and you can watch him. Second-hand-happiness. Great.

"Bella" Alice whispered as she sat down on my bed. Emmett sat on the floor by my head and he kissed my forehead sighing. Alice pulled the covers off me and hugged me tightly. Emmett pulled me down to the floor to sit beside him. I ended up on his lap, my head in his chest, tearless sobs threatened to explode from me. They sat with me for a while silently, rubbing my back.

"Bella," Emmett whisper sadly "what's wrong?" he asked. I buried my chest into his chest again and whimpered "Edward" fighting the sobs again.

"Honey, it'll be fine, heartache will always come first before the good things" he cooed into my ear, rubbing my back gently. Alice put her head on my shoulder and wrapped her arms around my torso.

"Bella, why can't I see Edward in our futures anymore?" Alice asked hesitantly waiting for me to explode in sadness again. When I got home she asked how I was and I exploded into broken sobs on the floor crying Edward's name again and again. She was waiting for the re-run.

"Because I decided to take my self out of his life and his future" I said as evenly as I could, looking up from Emmett's chest and looking into they're eyes carefully. I pushed my shield to cover them, wondering why they too looked sad. I only just met him! Alice thought sadly as she saw the pain it had caused me

My new best friend---how can he hurt her so much, Rose doesn't hurt me that much... Emmett thought confused.

"Remember em, I love him more than you love Rosalie." I said reminding them of yesterday. They thought about me being happy then and it hurt to watch as they replayed they're memorise of today. My shield snapped back shaking me. Emmett's arms wound round me tighter. He kissed the top of my head and Alice left us to find Jasper. I didn't want him to calm me, it would probable make me think differently about me decision and I might change my mind.

"Emmett" I pleaded "please don't let him use his power on me, he'll make me change my mind" I covered my face in my hands and let the pain have me.

Emmett was fine throughout the whole time; he wasn't thrown by tears, like any other normal guy, which made him the best big brother ever. Jasper entered without Alice and sat at the other side of me. He knew I didn't want calming down, he could tell from the fear I gave off when he came near. He just pulled me onto his lap and rocked me back and forth, giving Emmett and break. He jumped up and alerted the rest of the family about my condition. Hum, that sounds weird, condition. It sounds like I'm sick or something. Well I think heart break is an illness.

But I've not had my heart broken. Edward hasn't had chance to break it. He has done it without even thinking about it, it wasn't his fault I didn't want to be a part of his life, so in other words I broke my own heart. I couldn't blame him even if it was his fault, I just wouldn't be able to.

Emmett returned and I was squished between my two big brothers, both of them silently helping me through my pain. I felt a wave of calmness spread over me, I growled at Jasper and he let it drop. I needed to be calmed, but I needed to get this out of me, if not it would build up and get worst. It could explode at any random time and hurt me even more. If Jasper calmed me with his freaky-vampire power it might influence my decision and I needed to make it work. For Edward's life, for his soul, I must stay away from him.

Taking myself out of his life will be easy. I was never involved in it anyway so he shouldn't notice any change, he'll just think I was being nice to him for his first days. I would still be with him, but from afar, watching his life and not letting him know I was with him.

Taking my siblings out of his life was another problem altogether. He had become they're friends today, and I couldn't let him think it was just a joke, something to hurt him. They would stay away from him if I asked them, or if they saw how much pain it was causing me, but keeping him away from them would be hard. He might just stay away naturally but he might talk to them and approach them. They had to continue being friends, just not close friends. The type of friends where they know each other, but they don't know about each other. It might work. Ill just have to wait and see.

I sniffed loudly and sat up on the bed pulling Jasper and Emmett with me. They both wrapped an arm around my waist and I leaned against them for support. I suddenly felt weak and tired. Too bad I couldn't sleep.

Bella?? Jasper questioned. I didn't even realise I was shielding them

I sniffed again and lay down on the bed they held my hands and looked down at me.

"Bella, do you want us to leave now?" Jasper asked out loud.

I shot upright and clung onto Emmett's arm with both hands: "no! I just needed to talk" they nodded and I relaxed crossing my legs on the bed and staring out my window. Jasper slide off the bed and sat on the floor by my knee. Emmett slid closer to me and put his arm around my shoulders.

"I need to hold a family meeting again" I admitted sheepishly, they looked at me, all wide eyed and shocked. They knew I hated family meetings and the attention you got with them. Jasper shook his head firmly: "not in this state Bella" he had turned into an overly protective brother now

"Not right now, when I can keep calm for a while" I said shakily, this just made him more positive about his decision.

I looked up at Emmett, asking for support, he sighed and grabbed my hand with his free hand. He pressed his lips against it and shook his head.

"You can't have a family meeting bells, not like this. Give it a few days and sure" he said quietly. Living in a house of vampires was rubbish if you wanted to say something nobody else was supposed heard. Stupid super sonic hearing.

"But I need to tell everyone about my choice, and I wanna see if it's the best idea for both of us" I whined unhappily, begging now.

"Both of you, as in, you and Edward?" Jasper asked.

"Yep" I said popping the p, I felt much better now. They had made me feel better and Jasper wasn't even using his power. Happy dayz….

"No Bella!" he shouted at me. I shrunk into Emmett's chest again. He held me there possessively, growling at Jasper. I whimpered slightly and Emmett pulled me behind him.

"What is wrong with you jazz?" he bellowed, I heard my family stop they're conversations and inch up the stairs. "She was just getting better and you had to scream at her, why did you do that?? Look at her; she's unstable as it is" he continued pointing at me.

I looked round Emmett's massive figure to see Jasper standing up and staring down Emmett. He was about to leave when I ran up to him and grabbed his arm. He froze and glared down at my hand. I swear he was about to hit me but then he remembered.

He grabbed me and pulled me back down onto the bed, sitting me on the edge. He kneeled down in front of me and stared into my eyes.

Emmett shifted behind me, he was unsure of what to do. I grabbed his arm and pulled him next to me again.

"Bella," Jasper said softly "I know you need to talk about it, but listen to me. If you just leave it here and talk tomorrow it will be easier"

"What happened to letting me make my own decisions?" I muttered under my breath.

He shook me slightly, shifting and standing up. He towered over me and shook his head, muttering something I blocked out. Emmett growled again and Jasper left.

"Jasper…" I whimpered, trying to stand but Emmett pulled me down

"He needs to get out or he will hurt you or maybe me" Emmett said smiling slightly

"Can we come in?" Rosalie and Esme said from behind my door. I just nodded to Emmett and sank down into the duvet. He stood up to; leave so I pulled him back down again:

"Hey, just cause they come doesn't mean you have to go" I said grinning and pulling him back down. Esme ran in and scooped me into her arms, crushing me into a hug. Emmett and Rosalie chuckled from beside me. I smiled at them and sat down on the floor again.

"Bella, dear, are you ok?" Esme asked cautiously

"Sure, Esme, I'm better now thanks to em and jazz" I said grinning at Emmett "which reminds me – where'd Jasper go?"

"Him and Alice left to go hunting" Rosalie answered "are you going to school tomorrow??" oh crap, I forgot about that….

"I suppose Rose, it couldn't hurt, right?" I asked looking around.

"Test out you plan, if it hurts then you don't have to go back" Esme said kindly. I jumped up and hugged her; she left soon after to find Carlisle. I completely forgot they were probably listening to our conversation, I thought I was going to have to repeat myself. Again

Rosalie and Emmett stayed with me for the night, we laughed and joked and I occasionally sobbed, but little sobs. Not the huge, broken, jagged sobs that were erupting from my chest earlier. Jasper and Alice never returned.

I told Rosalie and Emmett I was fine and that they could leave but they didn't want to. Rose told me she knew what it felt like to have you're heart messed with – and she was human so it would have hurt less – but of course we all knew the story of her human past. I don't think to amount of pain I feel is capable of being in a human, it would probably kill them.

I couldn't even attempt top imagine a pain that was worst than this one. Emmett said probable the venom was worst, but I disagreed.

That morning came quickly and Rosalie left to change. Emmett hung around until I practically pushed him out of the door. Alice and Jasper were still gone. I called Alice but her voicemail came on.

"Alice, where are you?? Are you gonna come to school today?? Please come home!" I said after the beep and her perky message.

We all piled into my Volvo and sped of to school. My first class was maths, I hugged Rose and Emmett goodbye and they wished me look, I think I really need it. Just the thought of Edward sends me spiralling back down into depression. I needed to remember I would always be with him no matter what; I just wouldn't be able to talk to him, to touch him…

As I entered maths I found Alice sat in our usual spot at the back. I grinned cheerfully and ran to greet her (human speed though) I hugged her and pulled her back down into her seat. I wanted to talk to her, but she held up her hand, signalling not to. I was offended. We told each other everything; she was even blocking her mind – singing "let's get excited" over and over and over …

Mr Cook walked in so I tried to concentrate on him and decimals but Edward kept flooding my mind. Would he notice a difference in me? Would he care enough to ask? Probably not…

Alice was worrying me as well, great! Another problem in my hectic life.

The day flew by with the occasional mini breakdown, but alone where no one else could see me. I was beginning to doubt my control. Staying away from Edward seemed easy when I wasn't near him but when I was with him, when I could see and smell him, I couldn't see a life without him.

Eventually I was at down in biology waiting impatiently for him to arrive.

He took his time walking to class; I followed him in Jessica's mind. He was surrounded by girls from every year. They seemed to have been following him all day. He looked angry and annoyed, oh how I wish I could read his mind!

He sat down beside me grumpily and I yearned to comfort him or talk to him, which ever. He glanced at me so I quickly stared at Mr Banner, pretending to listen. He stared at me for the rest of the lesson and I stared at him through Lauren's mind, she was very pissed off because he didn't even notice her. I couldn't help but giggle at her thoughts, and then I became very disturbed as she made a turn and imagined kissing him. A lot.

The bell finally rang and I rushed out of the class into Jaspers arms. I didn't even realise he was there until I ran into him.

Good lesson? He asked raising his eyebrows.

"You have noo idea!" I muttered hurrying to Spanish. Jasper ran after me chuckling.

"Hey where did you go last night?" I said turning round to face him. He smiled sheepishly.

"Well, the Denali coven wanted an update…so me and Alice went to see them…" he stammered.

"An update on what exactly?" I asked eyeing him suspiciously.

"On you're progress with Edward…"he trailed off as I glared at him.

"WHAT??" I screamed, Jasper started to back away and Emmett ran up behind him.

"There's the Bella we all know and love!" he said kissing my cheek.

"YOU KNEW ABOUT THIS!?!" I shouted.

His face fell: "no, I did not, I can't keep secrets, when will you learn bells?" he asked tutting.

Jasper stepped in front of him: "Bella, Carmen just wanted to know how you were so we told her you were depressed so she asked for ALL details and Kate needed to know if you had got Edward yet, so the two questions merged…" he said slowly, whispering so only me and Emmett could hear.

"Fine, but I'm not happy" I mumbled "and remind me to call Garrett after" Emmett nodded and pulled me into Spanish.

I sat silently through the hour thinking about Carmen and Edward. I had found it impossible to think about anything but him, so I thought about him and other things at the same time. It was easier than trying to block Edward from my thoughts.

Emmett watched me for a while and then he looked away frustrated. He had gone into protective big brother mode so was probably trying to figure out a solution to this problem. I didn't have the energy to bother pushing out my shield. I was completely out of it by the end of the lesson, Emmett had to practically carry me to the Volvo and Jasper insisted on driving because I didn't look capable. I slumped on the back seat in between Rose and Alice. I found the energy to push my shield out and hear them. Their faces were making me noisy, they all looked sad.

I can't believe we had to abandon Edward in PE! He is defenceless in PE as it is so... thought Alice worriedly feeling guiltier and guiltier as she replayed the lesson. I felt like slapping her, because firstly, she was thinking about things I would probably cry from if I were human and secondly, she abandoned Edward! I know I told her to but com'on, he was hopeless in PE so I thought the rule subsided then.

Just walking past him without saying even a little "hi" was hard, wonder why... Emmett thought.

What's up with emmie? He looks down, maybe Edward has an effect on him as well, and god that boy will be the death of us! Although he is really kind and...Holy shit is that my hair! Rosalie shrieked as she caught sight of her hair; trust her to think about her hair at a time like this.

Too...many...emo...tions! Jasper thought struggling to drive and keep him self together. I almost laughed at the look on his face.

We made it home and I went straight to my room and locked the door, no point really because everyone in this house could probably open it anyway. I stayed their all night and for most of the morning. My family occasionally came to check I was still their but they never tried to get in.

I came down at eight to drive to school and saw Alice looking at her phone longingly. I had banned them from texting Edward and she so desperately wanted to. She loved match-making so she was trying to make this right. I poked her in her back and grinned.

The next month was mostly the same: going to school, ignoring Edward, coming home, not talking, hunting…

I sat next to Edward everyday in biology as far away as the desk allowed. His blood was calling to me the whole time, urging me towards him so I could talk t him, to touch him, to drink him…these are the kind of thoughts that make me certain about my decision.

Emmett keeps asking to talk to him, more than his daily "hi" it the corridors. He misses him as well, not as much as me, but almost.

He and Jasper tried their luck the other day in the cafeteria. When they thought I wasn't looking they tried to make a dash for his table, I stopped them with a growl and they sat down in defeat and gave me puppy dog faces. They were depressed. So was I. Edward didn't seem to notice the difference or notice how much we all tried to avoid him. He seemed happy.

I made my way towards biology and sat in silence waiting for the class to be over. Normally I hang onto each and every, precious second I have with him but today I can't be bothered living – I'm practically begging someone to come up and tear me apart and then burn the pieces. I was busy ranting on in my head when the familiar scent burned up my nostrils. I sighed deeply and let the scent swirl around in my head. I had become so attacked to the scent I could probably smell it for miles, not that I was willing to go that far away from him to try. And his heart beat; I could hear that all day as I walked down the halls.

"Hello Bella" a magical voice said startling me. I almost broke my resolution and talked to him. Instead I turned my head towards him a little, nodded and shot my head back to the front. The whole time my eyes had not left the blackboard. It was almost painful to ignore him when he wanted to talk to me.

We both ignored each other from then on and the spring dance was coming closer each day. I watched him everyday, my promise to myself was close to being broken and in some way I wanted it to be. Edward made me happy, he made my family happy. He could be with us for a few short years and not be harmed. It was possible, I suppose.

Last Wednesday Edward walked into biology with Jessica - like normal - but she came and sat on the edge of our desk. She was shooting insults at me in her head and thinking about how hot Edward is.

She tried to start a conversation about the dance, she wanted to ask Edward. She wondered why he hadn't asked her yet - dumbass it's a girl's choice I thought angrily

She frowned and dared herself to bring it up: "so Edward, Mike asked me to the dance…"stupid! She thought now he'll think I'm going with him! Stupid! Yes, Jessica, you are stupid, I felt like shouting at her.

"I thought it was Girl's Choice!! But that's great, you'll have fun with him" Edward said grinning. I knew it Jessica thought, annoyed. I barley heard her; I was to busy watching Edward's face. He saw her glaring at him and he panicked looking around him swiftly. He's kinda thick, well you can't be fit and smart all at one, they come separately! Jessica thought dryly.

"I said I'd have to think about it" she stated looking away shit, everyone is watching – how is my hair, I didn't put foundation on this morning... I tried to tune her whiny voice out. I turned and stared at Edward, judging his reactions.

"Why would you do that?" he choked out, he actually sounded like he cared, but his face gave him away, he looked bored and like he was concentrating on something else. Yes, I can tell these things by looking at peoples faces…

"Well to be honest, I was planning on asking you…" she blurted out regretting instantly. Edward looked more shocked, like he had finally realised what was going on.

"Jess, its Girls Choice…" yes I know, I just asked you! Wait, is he saying I'm not a girl??? SHIT! I had to agree with her their, he did imply she wasn't a girl.

"Um…I think you should tell Mike yes. He had the courage to ask you and it's a Girl's Choice dance, I think he really really likes you" Edward continued looking like the floor should swallow him up now, but his arms were stretching in my direction. I giggled at his face and tried to stop the hysteria that threatened to erupt.

"Did someone already ask you?" Jessica asked, glaring at me that bitch, she has EVERYTHING, she gets EVERYTHING she wants and now she wants him, the one person I want, HOW COULD SHE??

"No Jess, no. im not going to the dance at all, and I'm going out of town that weekend anyway" Edward stammered, glancing at me as well

"Why?" she demanded. Coz he wants to, nosy bitch.

"Im going to Seattle" he said bored.

"Cant you go any other weekend?" she practically begged, c'mon I'm offering myself to you, take the opportunity!!

"Sorry, no. You should really answer Mike; it's rude to let him wait" Edward said softly as Mr Banner entered the room and Jessica slipped away, defeated.

My eyes never left Edward as Mr Banner began talking; he ran his fingers through his hair then froze as he saw me watching him. He turned round to look me in the eyes. My heart leapt out to him, only to be stepped on by Mr Banner as he appeared next to us, huffing. Edward looked away and his brow creased, my heart was doing flips and my chest was tight, the venom in my mouth was almost overflowing and I couldn't breath. The bell suddenly rang and for once I didn't run off quickly. I stayed in my seat and watched Edward slowly pack his bag.

"Edward?" I asked softly. His head snapped up and he slowly turned to face me.

"What? Are you talking to me again??" he asked and I couldn't tell what emotion bared his face. I smiled sheepishly and shook my head: "no not really" I said looking at the table. I looked up when I hear him breathe in sharply and his eyes were almost closed.

"Then what do you want Bella?" the thrill that swept through my body was unignorable when he said my name.

"Im sorry" I said sincerely "I'm being rude, I know. But it's easier this way, really" I continued when he open his eyes.

"I don't understand what you mean" he said, guarded. I couldn't help but laugh at his expression; I rolled my eyes and grinned widely at him.

"Its better were not friends" I said frowning as I remember the conversation, it was easy to forget things like that when I was with him.

"But you're brothers are my friends" he said his eyes looked longing. See what I mean, I forgot he liked Emmett…

"I understand that, but I can't be you're friend, you can be friends with my siblings, but just not me" I said quietly, god I sounded old and official. I was talking like my age, 108!! The venom in me was welling up in my mouth and in my eyes. It stung a little but I shuck it of

"Why not?" he asked sadly, like it hurt him. I looked into his emerald eyes deeply and truly believe I could cry. He looked unsteady so I began walking towards the door, he stumbled after me.

"It's for the best, ok? Trust me" I said, my voice breaking a bit, as I tried my hardest not to show any emotion in my little speech. It will be harder if he believes I cared.

"I trust you but…" he whispered "…whose definition of best?"

He almost made me laugh: "My definition, Edward, I know we seem fine now, but I know that we can't be friends, I just know it" I whispered as we made it outside, into the rain.

"Ok" he said quietly as I turned away. He stumbled towards the PE block and I U-turned and headed there as well. I watched as he walked into Rosalie's arms: "Oh god Edward, are you ok?" what the hell happened to him? She asked as she spotted me behind the fountain, I pointed to my torso and looked down at the uneven ground sadly.

"Yea Rose, im fine, just thinking" he whimpered, Rose wanted to press it more and then Alice appeared and hugged him like nothing was wrong Bella, he needs us now, we have to be his friends now - like it or not she thought sternly and I nodded so she could see I understood.

"Hiya, Edward!" Alice said happily.

"Hey Alice!" he sounded happier already, I love my sister – she is magical!

Change the subject, change the subject! "Boys and girls are working in the same groups so were with you!" Alice said grinning as she remember how rubbish he was a PE.

"Alice, im useless in P.E!" he reminded her. Rosalie approaches him, grinning as she hugged him: "we know that, honey!" he smiled and stumbled of to the changing rooms.

I decided to wait in my car again, listening to Alice and Rosalie whispering together. I watched as they helped Edward pull through the hour, looking lost in his head. He fell over much more than usual taking several people down with him sometimes.

As the final bell rang I got out of my car and headed over towards my Spanish class, where I found Emmett and Jasper walking towards me.

"Hiya, bells" Jasper said happily, Emmett just nodded towards Edward. He was walking parallel to us on the other side of the car park.

"Hey, guys, mind waiting here for a moment?? Just wait for Alice and Rose then come over" I said as I walked towards Edward's car slowly. Jasper looked puzzled but Emmett just walked back towards the girls PE changing rooms.

I hid behind Tyler's old Toyota as I watched Edward approach his truck and I giggled as he almost fainted when he saw Angela leaning against it. He looked like he was about to run away but then he carried on walking towards her. She looked nervous to me.

"Hey Angela!" Edward said waving as he got closer, "do you want me?" Edward still looked upset, not as bad as he was before, but still upset.

"Well yeah actually, I was wondering, will you come to the spring dance with me?" she said looking at her feet. Her quiet voice broke on the last word. Edward looked shocked and confused. He looked at her helplessly as she stared at the tarmac. She finally looked back up at him and he took a deep breath

"Thank you so much for asking me, but im going to Seattle that weekend" he said softly, smiling. Her face fell a little, but she was ok. Well at least I tried, right? it felt ok, maybe asking Ben would be easier coz I actually like him... oh my gosh! I never knew she liked Ben! What a rubbish mind-reader I am…

"Oh, that's ok Edward." She said turning to leave.

"Wait Angela, I thought you wanted to ask Ben?"

"Yeah, but he doesn't like me. And I don't want to embarrass myself!" she said swiftly, not thinking he knew about Ben. Not much of a secret if even Edward knows is it??

"Well just ask him like you asked me, its not that hard, it'll be fine Angela, you should ask him before someone else does" he said grinning. Angela nodded to herself slightly, whoa, who knew he was this deep?? But I suppose he's right

"You're right, I will, thank you so much Edward, I owe you one!" she said quickly, hugging him and kissing his cheek quickly before she rushed of back to Ben's car.

He smiled after her and shook his head; I thought it was a good time to show myself as he climbed into his truck. I walked past smoothly and couldn't help but chuckle to myself as I caught my reflection in his truck; I looked like I was on a mission. N n n n n n n n n n n n n n n Na BATMAN! Emmett thought from across the car park can we come over now you've had you're perverted fun??? He asked gesturing towards the girls. I nodded a little and climbed into my Volvo trying to ignore Edward sending me evils. He revved his engine loudly so I pulled out into his path, blocking they way and waited for my family. They were walking slowly from the cafeteria, muttering about me.

Edward was looking around his cab, trying to amuse himself and he hadn't noticed Lauren waving at him form her car behind. This is my chance! He's alone, and there is no chance of us moving anytime soon so here we go... she thought as she got out of her car and skipped over to his window, knocking on it loudly, fluttering her eyelashes, trying to look seductive. More like stupid I thought.

"Sorry Lauren, Cullen's blocked me in" Edward explained quickly, still avoiding looking my car.

"Oh I know, I just thought I might ask you something while were stuck in here."

Edward froze, looked around him trying to save himself: "Do you want go to the dance with me?"

"Sorry Lauren, I can't, im going to Seattle that weekend!" he answered impatiently, not looking at either of us.

"Yeah, Jess said that" excuses...

"Then why…" he asked puzzled, aww... he looks so cute when he doesn't get it!

"I thought you might just be letting him down easily!" she said getting less hyper as she realised what he had said. No. ha-ha

"Well I really am Lauren, sorry" he said looking at my siblings as they came closer to my car. He needed an escape now.

"Its ok, we still have prom!" she said, still trying to impress him oh well, Tyler said he wants me to go with him, might as well now, make Eddie jealous!!!!

I saw the shock on his face and fell about laughing, I saw him glance at me and it made me laugh more, but I held his eyes as Alice, Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie got in. they looked at me, with that scared kinda expression and waved at Edward as I sped of.

What's up with Bella?? Rosalie thought she is laughing!! Not scowling at everything murderously for a change, what's with her and these mood swings???

When we got in we decided to go hunting. Alice and Jasper wanted to stay home with Esme and Carlisle, so it was just me Emmett and Rosalie. We ran off and bounded over the river, competing to see who could get the furthest. I was the fastest runner so I ran ahead of them. We caught scent of a herd of deer and descended. Emmett got bored of easy prey and ran off to find a bear or something bigger, ignoring Rose when she told him this is the biggest thing in the park.

He came back and found us lounging on a tree, swinging from the branches and giggling.

"Wassup, my ladies??" he said swaggering.

I shrugged my shoulders and he sat down on the floor next to Rosalie. I climbed up the tree until I got to the top. I stared at the moving clouds until the tree began to shake. This was Emmett's signal to how bored he was. I climbed down hesitantly and stared at the mud and bracken on the forest floor.

"I'm going home" I said after a minute of silence.

"Bella…" Rosalie started but I was already running.

I got home to find the house empty. Esme had left a note but I didn't bother to read it. They had been gone for about 10 minutes, so I decided to call Garrett now.

Ring, ring, ring, ring pick up you evil little…

Ring, ring, ring, ring, ring, BEEP! Hiya, it's Garrett here, well obviously, it's my phone – unless you have the wrong number, and if that's the case, piss of. If I actually know you then I'm probably busy so call after or don't bother at all, I don't really wanna know, which is probably why I didn't pick up the phone. Unless it's Kate, then call after sweetie...well you guys know what to do now, I hope...laterzzz----there was a short silence oh shit, how the hell do I switch this damn thing off?? Elezar, give me the instructions again...ok then please...finally...oh, here we go, wait, what the hell??? God damn this stupid phone. Ahhh, shit, cant believe I am this stupid, what do you think of me now peeps?? Wait don't answer it just pee off, ----- it cut off eventually and I groaned wondering whether to bother leaving a message. He would get back to me so I figured I might as well just rant to the phone. BEEP.

"Hey, Garrett, how you doing?? Didn't phone for small talk, I promise. I just needed to talk to you, you know, get stuff of my chest. Sorry for bothering you and you need to get a new voicemail message dude, it's kinda freaky. Bye".

I hung up and looked out the window, the night was closing in quickly now. I wondered where everyone was. I decided to read the note.

-Bella, we have gone up to Denali again, Rose and Emmett are gonna follow us I think, you can come to if you want. Sorry to leave you so soon but we will be back bye tomorrow night. Love you, from Esme xxx-

Brilliant, I thought sourly, alone again. I didn't quite feel like staying by myself so I went out running again. I wasn't going anywhere particular; I just followed a familiar scent into forks. I found myself stood outside Edward's house. I almost fell over, wondering how the hell I got here. I stared at his truck for a moment they looked at the top window, it was open a crack. I decided to try my look and climbed up a tree, climbed into the window, shuddering slightly when I moaned and creaked and found myself in Edward's room, looked at a very stressed looking Edward. Thankfully he was asleep, so I stood there, stunned, wondering how all this happened. He shifted violently and suddenly stopped. His face fell softly and he looked relaxed, like his dreams had come to a sudden stand still. I glanced around the small room and spied a desk chair. I made my way over there and made myself comfortable. I figured it was going to be a long night.

He smiled in his sleep and mumbled Charlie's name. He talked in his sleep!! I grinned to myself and continued to watch his peacefully face become softer and softer with each random word. He said things like: "he said yes" and "minstrels and strawberries" but he surprised me by saying: "Silver Shiny Volvo" it stunned me yet again, he was dreaming about me!! Well about my car, but still!! It's better than nothing.

He mumbled out conversations with people like, Seth and Leah (whoever they are) and arguments with Charlie. He said Mike's and Angela's name a lot to, they were his friends. His face went tight and his body went rigid, I was scared for a moment but then he choked out "Bella" his face smoothed out again and he went back to his original position, looking ok. He started talking about our conversations and how it hurt him, how it looked like it hurt me. He screamed out random things every now and then, but otherwise he fell silent. I was still in shock. He. Was. Dreaming. About. Me. He. Might. Just. Love. Me. Back. My mind went into overload as I plotted what to do the next day. I was so deep in my fictional dreams that my cell phone vibrating made me jump up and jump out of the window, just before I had one last look at Edward, he looked peaceful now.

"Hello?" I said into my phone, forgetting my call ID for a second.

"Bella, Bella, Bella!!" Alice shrieked back "we are on our way home now, we'll be back before you go to school"

"Hiya Alice, how are you?" I asked sarcastically

"Don't do that! You know I don't understand it!" she complained

"Why are you coming home??" I asked hesitantly

"Cause, I saw you and Edward and you guys need all the help you can get!!"

"Alice…" I warned

"Shut up Bella, you promised I could help now byes!!" she hung up on me. SHE HUNG UP ON ME!! I don't know why I was annoyed, I just was. I slowly made my way back home, dreading the next day, but yet looking forward to it…