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For Finchel envy fans ;) a kind of filler for what Finn is really thinking ;) Entirely Finn's POV. hope you guys like it! Cheers! Rose X

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Four Installment: My Thoughts In The Background

Finn looked over his girlfriend's head, making sure she didn't have a clue that he had zoned off entirely for the past ten or so minutes. He was fortunate enough that he had always chosen girlfriends that were full of themselves. He knew such thoughts were very egotistic, but what the heck? No one could hear his thoughts right?

His attention instead, diverted to the two brown eyed, brunettes across the hall way. His former girlfriend and his newly patched up relationship with his childhood best friend who was kinda like his brother.

He was glad that things were again in good terms with the boy he had met at football camp when he was ten and he was eleven. From that moment on, he had spent every spare moment playing video games, watching TV and hanging out where ever they could think of. Life had always been great between the two friends, until his friend had decided to hone on into his territory.

It was meant to be a mutual decision, an unspoken law between brothers, and he broke it. Guys didn't hone on, into their friends current and past girlfriends, without having spoken about it first, and clearly he should have had that chat with him long ago. He blamed it on hormones, but that was a slack-ass enough excuse because his friend seemed to always want what he had. Everything seemed to fall on his lap, while his friend wasn't so lucky.

He was lucky enough to have fallen and gotten reciprocal responses from the two most talented and hottest girls in school. Head cheerleader of the Cheerio's and the most talented girl in the Glee Club. He felt like a ping pong ball being flung back and forth between the two, he knew he had to make the right decisions before they realised what a douche bag he really was, and forgot him all together.

He couldn't believe that Rachel had chosen himof all people. He could see all the chemistry that lay between them, all his absentmindedness of not realising his openly show of care for the girl, but he had never put two and two together before that he might actually love this girl in particular.

He recalls a memory of when he was ten. They are sitting at Puck's place, when a cute looking brunette girl comes over to Puck's place.

Flashback

He recalls the little girl; mouth gapped open, surprise all over her face.

"Puck! You didn't tell me you still played with girls?" he remembers snickering at Puck, trying to show who was boss.

"Yeah you going to get your sisters doll's and play house, tea cups and all Puckerman?" someone else said after.

"Shut up Hudson! Mayweather! Anyone else HAVE anything to say? You can say it to my bad-ass friends over here!" Puck had held out his fist to them. The five of them had gaped their mouths and recovered quickly, trying to act all manly.

He remembers Puck look over at Rachel and saying "get out of here Rachel. We don't wana play your stupid little games! Now go cry home to daddy!" it had been so nasty, but no one really cared about the little girl and her feelings.

She was about to turn around and bolt before she cried hatefully to him "I hate you Noah Puckerman! I don't ever wana see you again! You are so mean! Puck whatever you go under now!" with that they watched her run off fast. Snickers of laughter followed her all the way to her house.

"What are you doing hanging out with such a loser Puckerman?" he recalls asking Puck.

"She keeps hanging around and doesn't get the hint that I don't want her hanging around like a fly!" Puck had said in such a tough voice he wasn't questioned any further, that was the moment people started to fear the boy.

End of flashback

Finn realised that Puck had been lying then, he loved playing with Rachel, and he just didn't want to admit to it in front of his team mates! Rachel probably ended their friendship all those years ago, refusing to talk to him till recently. He had always wondered why Puck and Rachel hadn't been friends, even though they were neighbours, and that was the reason why. He was totally amazed and shocked with his discovery.

She had been in love with Puckerman all this time; he had been just a stand in for her unspoken feelings for him. He felt sick to the stomach with this realization.

Finn also realised that he had destroyed their friendship that day with his taunts. If it hadn't been for that exact moment, Rachel would never have even given him a time of day or glanced in his direction! He would have stayed with Quinn the entire time, and he would have fathered Quinn's child.

The revelation hit him like a cold slap to the face. All the events had rippled from that exact moment.

If Puck and Rachel had gotten together:

1- he would never have broken up with Quinn, and oblivious to the way she really was.

2- he would never have dated Rachel

3- Quinn would never have cheated on him with Puck

4- he would have fathered Quinn's baby (eventually)

5- Puck wouldn't have been acting the way he was now. (Not such a bad ass bully)

6- he would never have broken his friendship with Puck

7- Puck would never have dated Lauren (cringe)

8- Mister Shuester and his wife Terri would still be together and the fake baby issue may not have happened, still very unhappy.

9- Quinn would still be head Cheerio's and would never have lost her position

10- Quinn would have won prom queen hands up

11- Sam would have never dated Quinn

12- he would never have slept with Santana

13- he wasn't so sure if they would have won any of the competitions

The list went on, of all the things that would not have happened. He sighed as he realised all the troubles he had cause the two of them.

He knew that backing off was the only real way to make it up to them now. He had to be the bigger man and let his love for Rachel go to the whey side. His feelings should never have developed the way he had let it. Quinn was his future now. She had to be right?

"So what do you think about that Finn?" his girlfriend put a hand to his shoulder, smiling so beautifully at him.

"I think that is a fantastic idea Quinn! I support you and your ideas a hundred percent!" and with that he kissed her on the head.

He watched as Rachel closed her locker and took her bag back off Puck and they walked hand in hand towards their next class.

A/N: Not as great as I would like :( sorry guys :(( BACK to the story… fifth installment 'Rachel's Stand' is coming up next. I'm sure you'll love that chapter better! LOL Cheers! X Rose