Only You Understand My Pain

Kakashi x Hinata Fanfiction

Chapter 7

Memories

The next day he found himself hoping she would appear as he sat on the soft spring grass his back leaning against the memorial. His heart skipped a beat when he heard her light voice great her teammates before she sat down. An awkward silence filled the air. As neither seemed able to break the unspoken silence of what had taken place the day before. Each staying on their own sides of the obsidian monolith.

His voice seemed to have left him as he sat frozen in place. What was it about this blue haired beauty that made him lose his composure? As he again felt drawn in by her ethereal being. For what seemed to be the hundredth time that day he could not fathom what had become of his calm indifference to life. Even his favorite orange book lost its appeal. The one thing in his life that he ever enjoyed in all these long years. It had been Obito's. Another one of his ridiculous ideas on his quest to win Rin's heart. That led them to purchase the first Icha Icha book. Kakashi remembered falling out of a tree laughing when Obito tried to use a particular line from one the chapters. Rin clearly found it repulsive and decked him. The punch shattering his favorite goggles and sending him forty feet in the air. Kakashi sighed inward thinking of them. How he missed the goof.

Kakashi felt his anxiety growing as the silence lengthened. Running a hand through his spiked silver hair he cleared his voice.

"Yo!" He called out. Dropping his head in his hands he felt utterly stupid. 'Now why the hell did I say that to her? Her of all people.' He thought to himself. This woman deserved more then his usual lazy greeting.

'Kami I have the social skills of an ant. Hell worse then that, since obviously Shino use to like conversing with them. 'His eyebrow raised as a light carefree tittering sound floated through the air. His eyes widened as he realized she was laughing.

"Yo." She giggled back softly. Kakashi rolled his eyes. Yep he was a complete idiot when it came to greetings.

"Sooo." He drawled. "How have you been?" Realizing what he said he slapped his head with the palm of his hand.

"Kami, I did not just ask something so stupid. I seemed to have committed every form of conversation Hari Kari today. I apologize." The rate he was going he should just walk away and never try human speech again. He cringed waiting for her to leave disgusted by his social stupidity. So he was shocked quite speechless when he looked up seeing her smiling down at him.

"Well, I guess that makes two of us." He pulled his head back his eye brow raised. She put her finger to her lips holding in a laugh.

"Ano…I was rude by not saying hello to You, Obito and Rin." A small smile tugged on his lips. This little rose of a woman was just too adorable for words. Only his Mai Bara could be so kind to think of his fallen teammates.

'Wait when did I start thinking of her as my rose.' He groaned inwardly. His eye roamed over her as she sat next to him. She was innocently plucking at the blades of grass with her long delicate fingers starring at the ground as if in deep thought. He let his eye travel upwards lingering at her soft pink lips. He frowned when he looked at her eyes. The color around them was dark a sunken. He sighed inwardly she wasn't sleeping. He should have realized she would be haunted in her sleep. How many nights did he still wake up in a cold sweat his dreams replaying their deaths.

"Ano Kakashi?" Her sweet voice pulling him from his lingering thoughts. "What were they like?" She sighed her finger beginning to nervously poke together. "You knew Shino and Kiba but I never met your friends." He smiled nodding his head.

"Hmm…Were to start." He closed his eyes taking a moment. "Well Rin was brilliant and way ahead of her time with her medical jutsu. She became the youngest medical nin in Konoha." Kakashi cringed inwardly slightly cursing himself for bringing it up as he watched her shoulders slump sadly.

She was a very kind hearted girl, willing to do anything to help a friend. Many times she acted like a mother hen keeping Obito and I out of trouble. Which seemed to happen a lot." He chuckled.

"She had these cute dark purple streaks on her cheeks." His hand mimicking where on his face.

"Oh it use to piss her off to no end when Obito would sneak up on her and smudge them. "He chuckled softly at the memory.

"Obito always had his heart set on making her fall in love with him." His face turned away as he let a sad sigh leave him. "He never got the chance." He turned quickly towards her as he felt her tender touch. Her small hand placed over his. Her simple touch nearly breaking him to tears. What was this Bara doing to him? He took a deep breath trying to calm his inner turmoil.

"Tell me about him." Her soft voice prodded.

'Damn!' He thought. 'How did she manage to get me to open up so about them.' He never talked with anyone about them and here he was opening himself up. Letting the memories pour out like a bleeding wound. Sucking in another deep breath he continued trying to keep the strain out of his voice.

"Obito was…well I guess you could say he was a little bit like Kiba. He was energetic, loyal and very confident. Sometimes to over confident." He gave her a knowing eye.

"Yet very devoted to him teammates like Shino. Teamwork ment a lot to him."

Hinata nodded softly.

"He was always showing up late. With some sort of excuse or reason that he had stop to help someone."

She smiled a small giggle leaving her lips. "So that is where you picked the habit up from."

"I guess your right. I never thought of that before. "A smirk crossed his lips.

"Obito also shared Naruto's same lack of fashion sense. He always wore these goofy orange tinted goggles not to mention the orange in his clothes. "He smiled warmth filling his chest as he watched Hinata let out a loud laugh. It was nice to see her look so happy.

'Wait when did I care so much if she is happy?' He cursed inward at how she was getting under his skin.

"He also managed to piss off our sensei Minato with his knack of speaking out before thinking it through."

Hinata giggled softly behind her hand. "Yes, that does sound like my Kiba."

"You know he was a Uchiha right?"

"No." Hinata drawled her eyes going to the stone. Bending forward her long fingers slowly moving over the cold black stone. Faltering slightly till she found his name. Her nimble fingers slowly tracing over the letters.

"I guess it was a blessing he died before…" His voice fading off. Hinata turned slowly towards him. Her soft eyes gazing at him. His breath hitched when he felt her warm hand touch the side of his face. His hand going up to press against it. He closed his eyes as his head tilted, pressing their hands closer to his masked face. They stayed like this till the skies opened sending a soft rain upon them.

'Does she really understand my pain?' He pondered as he watched her quickly leave.

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