Only You Understand My Pain

Chapter 8

Asking For Help

Over the following weeks they seemed to meet like clockwork. The same time everyday though neither had told the other. Many days they spent the time in silence each on their own side of the memorial. Wrapped in their own thoughts as if in a world of their own making. As the days past a quiet idle chat started between them. Nothing earth shattering maybe just about the weather then growing into something a bit deeper. As in sharring memories of their fallen teammates. Today was different Hinata was not there and it seemed to make him feel rather unsettled.

'Maybe she isn't coming. Damn why the hell do I care so much?' Getting up to leave he stopped as he saw her approach. He had to smile as she struggled to hold on to a large handful of scrolls.

"Here let me help." He watched her blush as he grabbed them from her arms. "What are these for?"

"Oh…um… just something I am studying." Her voice barely over a whisper. He listened as she greeted her teammates and his smile grew as she also said her hello's to his. She sat down on the grass her kimono pooling around her. His eye studied her closely. She seemed lost in her own world as she opened one of the scrolls. He sat down next to her his back leaning against the memorial stone his eyes closing. He didn't mind the quiet that hung between them as he felt himself slowly drifting off. The sound of her calm breathing and her hands shuffling the papers seemed to sooth him. He let his guard down and fell into a deep sleep.

Hours later something stirred him from his dreams. It felt comforting like the wind blowing through his hair. His sleep filled brain trying to form a thought of why the ground felt so soft. A small grunt leaving him as he moved his head sideways.

"You awake?" Her voice called softly. His eyebrow rising at the sound. He felt her gentle fingers comb through his spiked silver hair. He was already feeling the pull of sleep again at her ministrations.

'Wait what the hell!' His brain screamed. Sitting up he knocked the paper she was reading in one hand to the ground. Her other was the one that had lulled him to let his guard down.

"Kakashi you okay?" She asked staring at him questionably.

"Yah." He replied nonchalant. His mind trying to figure how he ended up with his head in her lap.

"You fell into a deep sleep. I moved you when you started to slide side ways from your resting spot." She replied as if she had read his mind.

"Oh." Was all he managed to say as he stood up. Running a hand nervously through his hair he tried to replace his inner calm that once again this small rose had shattered.

"Kakashi?" She looked up at him with wide doe like eyes.

"What ?" He asked his shoulders slouched as he leaned against the edge of the stone.

"I…I .."Taking a deep breath she stood her eyes delving into his. "I want you to train me!"

He sucked in a deep shuttering breath his eye widened in shock.

'She did not just ask me that.' His mind cringed as it traveled back to Sasuke. All he had done those many years ago to train the Uchiha. All the hours teaching him the chidori. All to have it wasted in the end for what…revenge. To become a traitor to his own village.

'All it did was lead you to your death. You stupid boy Sasuke.' His mind shuttered his heart clenched with the betrayal he still felt. 'I will not let that happen to you Mai Bara.'

"No…I will not!" His voice rising heatedly. He watched as she took a step back at the cruel tone in his voice. He felt his pulse race faster the blood rushing in his ears like waves. He saw how her eyes softly widened then hardened.

"I understand." She whispered. Slowly bending down to gather her many scrolls. He felt like his heart was being torn in half.

"Listen Hinata it's nothing personal. But I will not train another for revenge." He turned his back on her walking off.

"I don't want you to train me to fight. I don't need revenge I already killed Zetsu. What I want is for you to train me in increasing my chakra control so I can save lives. Not take them!" She watched as he stopped. He seemed to be frozen. He took several deep breaths before slowly turning his head towards her.

"What are you talking about Bara?" Her eyes widened at the endearment.

"I have decided to become a medical nin." She smiled softly. "But I need your help. You already know my healing chakra is unusual." Her voice lowering sadly. He couldn't help but be drawn in by those pale moonstone eyes as if they pleaded to his very soul.

"Fine we start tomorrow….Mai Bara." The last words nothing but a whisper in the wind as he walked away.

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