Only You Understand My Pain
Kakashi x Hinata
Chapter 14
Baby Steps
Hinata was so lost in thought she missed the rustle of tree leaves as Kakashi dropped to the ground, not bothering to mask his approach. Her back was facing him and what he saw slowed his steps. His eyes catching what in his mind, was a very alluring sensual picture. His throat became dry as a desert as he saw the jacket slid off perfect, smooth curved shoulders only to slowly, teasingly slip down soft, creamy, white arms. Before dropping from her delicate hands to pool behind her feet. Those same smooth now bare arms stretching up to move through her long hair. Hair that looked like midnight blue satin. His mind remembering how graceful she moved on the water. Those satin silk locks of hair dancing around her head like a dark halo. She was so beautiful, enticing and seductive yet so pure. He had to bite his bottom lip painfully just to keep the groan of bliss from escaping his lips. As he eyed the thin black mesh top. Only a small strip of solid black fabric covered her large amble breasts, leaving the rest of her creamy flesh barely hidden by mesh weaving.
"Kakashi…" Her soft smiling voice called to him.
Clearing his throat he mentally slapped himself, while praying she hadn't noticed his lust filled leering or the painful tightness of his pants.
"Yo!" Giving her a small wave. He was amazed he was even able to get that out.
'Damn why do I feel so nervous' He winced inward. 'Oh, maybe because you were having lust filled thoughts about sweet, innocently pure, Hinata.' His mind chastised replying to his inner ramblings like a crazy loon.
Her brow furrowed as she watched him. He seemed to having some sort of inner struggle. She had to admit to herself he looked adorable standing there perplexed. He was normally so laid back and unattached to others around him. A fake carefree smile slipping from his face to hide behind a book. For a fleeting moment she started to realize, that when he was with her, he showed more than the lazy copy nin everyone else saw.
"Kakashi are you okay?"
"Huh?…Oh um…sure." He brushed her off with the wave of his hand.
"So you ready to get started?" He watched in amusement as she nodded vigorously. Her hands clasped behind her back as she rocked slightly back and forth on the heels of her feet. She looked like a giddy school girl.
"Then let's start. Show me your hands."
Letting go of her clasped hands she brought them forward palms up. Her eyes giving him a questioning glance. Her face suddenly heating up as he touched her hands gentle with his. Spreading the fingers slightly apart.
"Okay, when I touch one of your fingers, I want you to bring just a small marble sized ball of your special
kekkei genkai to the tip and hold it for three seconds. Will make it longer after a few tries."
"You're kidding right?" Giving him an incredulous look. As if he had slipped his mind." That's like beginning genin!"
"You heard me." His voice coming out hard and gruff. "You want me to train you right?"
She cringed inward hearing the gruffness in his voice. She had asked him to train her. He had willing given up his time, and here she stood insulting his wisdom.
"Gomen nasai Kakashi-sensei." Dropping her head shamefully. "I had no right to question…"
Her words halted as she felt his fingers touch her skin, lifting her chin up.
"It's okay Hinata. "He smiled gentle. The thumb of his finger caressing her skin a second before letting go. "We need to start with the basics… " He paused his eyes holding her gazing stare. "If we want to increase the strength of your rare chakra , you need to learn how to control it first. With control you will gain strength. So we will start from the beginning with basic chakra control." He gave her a reassuring smile.
"So baby steps?" She smiled shyly back.
"Baby steps." He repeated ruffling the top of her head playfully. Giving him an almost teasingly mischievous smile she placed her hands outstretched, fingers sprayed apart. Her large moonstone eyes shining brightly at his own pale blue one.
She giggled nervously, before biting shyly on her bottom lip when he touched her right index finger. She swore for a moment his touch was like static electricity. Sending a bolt of heat through her. He shot her a halfhearted frown. Biting down softly once again on her bottom lip, she squared her shoulders, leaving all giddish behavior behind. With little effort a tear drop sized ball of chakra appeared . Glowing brightly on her long elegant finger tip. She let it build quickly to the size of a marble, radiating deep blue.
Kakashi sucked in a deep breath, his eye unable to pull away from the sight. He had never seen such a beautiful and captivating chakra as the kind Hinata held poised on the tip of her finger. In fact he had never thought of chakra as beautiful. Powerful, helpful, a tool in a shinobi's arsenal of weaponry and self defense. Yet now he stood in awe of a glowing ball of blue light. It was breathtaking sky blue, no not sky-blue his mind corrected but sapphire blue. Had Hinata herself not spoken of Shino calling it that. Yes, that was what it was, perfect like a sapphire jewel shining in the sunlight. Just like it's gentle wielder. A rare beauty, breathtaking, mesmerizing. She was delicate, yet strong.
Looking up Hinata blushed deeply at his intense gaze.
"Kakashi?" He didn't react to her voice, it was becoming a pattern with him. She frowned worriedly.
"Kakashi!" Her voice called loudly.
"Huh?" Her voice waking him from his inner musings. If he wasn't wearing his mask she would have caught a slight blush that now covered the elder jounin's face.
"You…ah sorta…seemed lost in thought again." She felt her blush intensify to her utter embarrassment.
'Why is he looking at me like I am something special." Her self doubt once again eating away at her. Her shoulders slumped.
"D…Did I…I do it wrong?" Her old nervous stutter returning as her left hand reached up to the scar on her face.
"Wrong?" He gasped loudly, startling her. "It was incredible, every time I see it I am awed. It's amazing…"He paused looking away nervously, whispering softly under his breath. "Just like you Hinata."
Did she hear him right. Her eyes widening.
'You don't know how wrong you are Kakashi.' She protested silently. 'There is nothing incredible about a Hyuga failure like me.' For several minutes an awkward silence filled the air between them. Both lost in their own thoughts.
Finally getting control of the unusual emotions she filled him with, he cleared his throat and prompted her to once again raise her hands. This time he pushed all thoughts from his mind, concentrating on pointing to various fingers. She matched each and everyone of his prompts. The afternoon seemed to pass quickly. As the hours grew he picked up the pace. Calling out the fingers instead of touching them. She became so quick with a response. She got to the point of pooling a small amount of chakra in all her fingers, only intensifying the blue chakra glow in the fingers he called. It was tedious and boring but helped her mind from drifting to her heartache and sadness that on most days seemed to devour her.
As the sun began its journey downward towards sunset, Kakashi called it a day.
"Great work Hinata." She smiled softly, reaching down to pick up her discarded jacket.
"I know it was boring but it is…."
"Necessary." She filled in. "I understand Kakashi…baby steps. A start in the right direction." She beamed as she pulled on her jacket. She reached into her pocket, but froze looking unsure, had she heard him right.
"So what about it Hinata…." He asked again. "My treat for giving you a boring training day."
"Dinner?" She asked unsure.
"Come on you must be starving." Her stomach rumbling as if on cue at his words. Placing a hand to quiet it, she laughed.
"I guess I am." Her eyebrows frowning down slightly. "Kakashi can we… get it to go."
He frowned questioningly at her. Placing her hand gentle on his arm she sighed sadly, but a small soft smile still graced her face. "I haven't talked to them today." Her eyes softly pleading." If you don't mind can we go there and eat with our friends."
He couldn't stop the small smile that grew slowly till it reached his eyes. Anyone else would think it insane to eat at a memorial. But not Hinata. How many times over the long years had he not done just what she was asking. Taking his meal, to sit and spent the hours, leaning against the stone talking softly to them. His Mai Bara, kind and sweet seemed to feel the same and to hear her include his teammates warmed his heart.
"I would like that very much." He smiled softly down at her.
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Aww do I hear the beginning pitter patter heartbeat of romance. Muwahahahaha… Maybe…..
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Japanese words…
Gomen nasai …I'm sorry
Mai Bara….My rose
Author note…..
Oh and for those who think eating at a grave is creepy, you are wrong. I bring my mother cake on her birthday. Sitting and eating. Sharing a daily activity makes you feel closer to the special ones you loved and lost. In many countries it is customary. Special days where families gather and eat among their dead loved ones.