Only You Understand My Pain
Kakashi x Hinata
Chapter 18
A Caged Bird
Before he knew it, he found himself standing frozen. In the dead of night. Right in front of the last place he should have been. Hinata's home.
The Hyuga clan's large manor stretched on forever. The three story, main house was enormous in its own right. It stood out like a cold monument facing the road. Smaller two to one story buildings, covered the rest of the large acres of land. A wall that could rival, the length of the Great Wall of China, surround the massive compound. Kakashi sighed heavily, when he realized where he had ended up. What power did this small woman have on him, to devour his thoughts night and day? A woman who filled the air around her with such grace, beauty, and unending strength.
Since the night he had found her, standing over their dead bodies. Screaming , sobbing with heart wrenching agony. Surviving, against unbelievable odds. She stood alive, left behind by the two most important people in her life. That night was when he had lost control, over his empty heart. No longer the same aloof, carefree, constantly late, Hatake Kakashi. Orange cover, Ichi Ichi reading perv, that never let emotions rule him. Just how the hell did this happen? Could such a small slip of a woman do all this to him? No other woman, since the loss of his team, made him feel so alive… almost complete. Hell, he wasn't even sure, if those words could fully describe, this change growing inside.
Jumping up, into a large red maple tree that sat, on the other side of the road. He sat on the thick branch, his back against the trunk. His deep blue eye staring, at the near, palace like home. The walls and buildings coated, in a bland, white color. He had never noticed, before how the entire compound gave off an eerie cold sensation. Was it the same, inside those walls? A house filled, with cold indifferent people. With only one rare rose inside. Was she suffocating on that stale air inside?
His one eye shot up to the third floor window. The branches of the tall sakura tree almost blocking, her window. He frowned, as his senses caught the unusual shift of air around the large glass window. Sliding his hitai-ate up. The Sharingan always active. He let the three tome quickly swirl, as he studied the room.
"Don't even waste your time Hatake. It's a special genjutsu Kurenai taught her years ago. It keeps wandering eyes from seeing inside her room. Even a Uchiha couldn't break through it." Both eyes, one red, the other blue, glanced down. Kakashi took in Neji's unemotional face leaning against the tree. Dropping down from the tree. He faced the long haired man, studying him closely. So many questions filled his mind as he weighed each one. Finally, he asked the question that had been burning in his chest for three days.
"What has she been doing the last three days?" He tried to hold all emotion from the question but sucked in a breath at Neji's reply.
"Her father ordered her locked in her room for a week. She is not to speak to anyone. Nor is she to be spoken too. No food only water…" He let his words trail off.
Kakashi felt as if his legs, had been knocked, right out from under him. All the answers he had prepared himself for, this was never one of them.
"What…!" He shook his head. "No…why?" Tilting his head Neji studied him with wide, pale eyes.
"The what and why don't really matter does it? What matters, is what are you going to do about it…Hatake?" Kakashi felt his fists clench as the realization seeped in. That his bara, was being starved. Locked in a room against her will.
" Bastard!" He hissed under his breath. His jaw clenched tight. Neji didn't answer, just pushed away from the tree.
"So I take it by your reaction… you will do something about…this situation. " He paused looking up at the window. "I'm glad we agree… Hatake. I regret, I am unable to do something myself… due to clan laws." He began to walk off, not bothering to turn around.
"Neji… wait!" Kakashi called out. The darkness growing around them. As the clouds slipped, across the moon. He watched as pale eyes turned back.
"What now… Hatake? Do you not have something to do…" His words trailing off. The meaning behind them, unmistakable.
"Why the hell are you… concerned about Hinata's well fair? Last time I checked Neji…you hated her and all of the main branch. I even had to step in and stop you from killing her during the chuunin exams eight years ago." His eyes narrowed as he watched the Hyuga sigh. His eye brow arching up in surprise as those pale eyes flickered with a almost sad, haunting look.
"I was a foolish child back then Hatake. Only selfishly seeing… my own unhappiness." His eyes closed for a second, as he inhaled deeply. "I was so wrong about a lot of things. I owe her." With that he turned away. Kakashi could hear his whispered words as he walked off. "Hinata is the true caged bird, in this damned clan." Those words drew a fire within him. Rage flowed off him in waves. As he closed his eyes, his breath heavy, as he pictured her locked in that damn room.
" How could they do this to such a rare beautiful rose?" Pulling down his leaf hitai-ate, he took one last look up at her room.
"Don't worry Mai Bara I will protect you." With that he took off towards the Hokage tower.
There was no way Tsunade would allow the Hyuga clan to destroy her new secret medical student.
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Hinata sat on the cold floor, her knees tucked under her daintily. Scrolls of all sizes, lay strewn around the tatami covered floor. Rubbing a weary hand over her tired, dark, rimmed eyes. She let out a long, heavy sigh. It had been three days locked in her room. The four pale bleach white walls seemed to press in on her. She felt like she was suffocating. She had not been able to go to the monument and talk to Shino and Kiba. Or even Obito and Rin. Saying their names, brought the person who weighed, the heaviest in her mind to light.
"Kakashi…" She whispered, her heart once again feeling heavy. "He must hate me, thinking I just up and quite training."
A small smile, filled her pink lips as she thought of the last time they were together. A blush growing brightly, on her pale, sunken cheeks. "I can not believe I was flirting with him. I probably looked like a childish fool to him. Then again am I wrong? Was he not flirting back? " She could feel the heat fill her cheeks, flaming them at the thought of him.
"No, I must be extremely tired, to even think that… Kakashi Hatake would ever be interested in me." Letting another weary sigh leave her lips. She once again turned, tired eyes to the numerous medical scrolls sitting around her. Her hands swiftly practicing the different signs. Every so often, she let the blue chakra flow, from her fingertips.
After a several hours she felt her eyes blur once again. She knew she should rest but her heart denied her that comfort. Reaching over she picked up the silver framed photo. Turning it over she stared down at the three smiling faces. She fought back a tear, as her finger slowly brushed across the faces of Kiba and Shino. Setting the frame down gently. Her hand brushing over it lovingly.
Turning back to the many scrolls, their techniques, she had not yet mastered. She would not waste her hours locked in this eternal hell brought on by her father. She would learn how to master her special genkai. Learn everything she needed. To become a valued medical ninja.
Never again, would she let someone she love die. When her seven days were over, locked in her prison of a bedroom. She would make Kakashi proud of what she had learned. Once again she cringed inwardly. Worry filling her chest at what he was thinking, of her unplanned absence.
"Don't lose faith in me Kakashi…please." She whispered softly, into the cold, white room. In her heart she no longer cared, if she made her father or the clan proud. Kakashi was the only person she cared to prove herself too.
"I will make you proud Kakashi…I promise…."
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