*cowers* I know it has been forever since I have been here. I promise that I won't leave until this story is finished. I've just been way too busy to write another chapter for this. Life fucking sucks but I promise it's a good one. Enjoy.
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight. I own Tony's ass and the rest of him.
Gotta know,
Was it real?
Or a love scene,
From a bad dream
I don't think
I can forget about it
– Forget About It (All Time Low)
TOSoM Chapter 6
Anthony
Last week was something else. Carrie stayed with me the whole weekend. She was something different. However she became too clingy. So I fucking dropped her, like every other girl I fucked. Jake called me constantly wanting to talk more about my brother and my fucked up life. I couldn't really find it in me to want to talk about my brother. I knew that I messed up with Edward by yelling at him over dad but I couldn't bring myself to admit I was wrong. Edward always had a harder life than I did because of the simple fact that he was the Golden Boy. He never rebelled. The only thing that he fucked up in life was the one thing that tore us apart. With him fucking my girlfriend and getting her pregnant, he ruined our closeness. I knew there was nothing we could do to change the past but I just couldn't find it in myself to let it go. I didn't hold anything against Jesse who was the best nephew in the world, but I just couldn't forgive Edward.
"T, man focus," Benny snapped.
I looked up at my band. We were practicing for another show. I nodded my head, mumbling my apology and resituated my guitar. Tonight I was going to perform a new song. It made me nervous as hell and Anthony Cullen doesn't get nervous often. Hell now I'm talking about myself in the third person. We'd perform some covers first and then my song. It said everything that I held inside.
"Okay as Tony isn't focused why don't we just go home and rest and be back tonight?" Benny offered. The other guys nodded.
"Sorry guys," I said frowning.
Sam laughed. "Dude do not apologize as long as it is out of your head by tonight we don't give a fuck."
I nodded. "Yeah, well later guys."
Packing up my guitar, I walked to Starbucks, my safe haven. I grinned seeing that Amy was working today. The tall blonde was my favourite barista. I walked up and leaned against the counter.
"Hey sweet thing," I drawled.
"Shove it up your ass Masen," she replied, not even looking up. "Sit your ass down and I'll give you your coffee."
I laughed. "Babe you make it worth coming."
"Wow Mase, didn't know coffee gave you such a reaction," she said, catching onto the double entendre.
Shaking my head, I sat down at my usual table looking around. I could never get enough of this place. If I could I would live here. A cup was set in front of me and a smile overtook my face. I glanced up at Amy who sat in front of me. Her hazel eyes rolled at my expression.
"Masen, if I wasn't a lesbian I would totally rock your world."
"I could always change your view on cock," I replied casually taking a drink from the cold beverage.
"I'm sure you could," she answered. "So why aren't you ever at the bookstore?"
"I'm there, just not enough it seems lately. I feel so disconnected in the world. I wasn't even focusing in practice today," I grumbled.
She leaned forward, resting her chin on her hands. "What's eating you Anthony?"
"My brother is pissed at me. I fucked up and told him that he's being a pussy for listening to our dad."
"Masen listen to me okay? Take your skinny, sexy ass up to your brother's place tomorrow and apologize till your fucking tongue is numb. He'll forgive you, he always does. Edward is your best friend he will never give up on you no matter how mad you get at each other. Plus I know that you two are in for a visit with a certain blonde angel."
"Very true, I think we were going to go to my mom's when my dad is out of the country. Do you want to be my date Amy?"
"Fuck yeah I do," she laughed. "I love pissing off your prissy sister."
The difference between Amy and Rosalie was astronomical. They were complete opposites. Rosalie, the ice princess with her porcelain skin and her perfect blonde hair and her wrinkle-free clothing, couldn't stand Amy. Amy with her blonde, green and pink hair and her pierced lip and eyebrow, her "slutty" clothing as Rose has said and her carefree attitude, pissed Rosalie off more than anything in the world. Plus Amy hits on Rose every time they are in the same room. It makes me laugh. Edward, Esme, Emmett and Alice think it is funnier than hell. Jasper is too much of a gentleman to admit it but I am sure he thinks it is funny too.
"Great I'll call you when I know the date and time."
She smiled and kissed my cheek. "Off to work I go. Do well tonight and please talk to your brother tomorrow."
I nodded. "See ya Amy."
Now I just had to play. That's all I had to focus on was playing. Just focus on playing the music. The beginning was easy it was the end that had me worried. I had to bare my soul tonight. To show the pain I was actually feeling. Tonight was it. Win or lose I was performing this song. The bar was packed full. Benny's uncle was generous enough to let us play here. Everyone was out to see us tonight. They enjoyed our covers and it was finally time for the ending number.
"Thank you for being here tonight now it's time for our last song of the night, this one is an original piece created by yours truly. Please enjoy."
They all cheered for us. I sighed softly, my fingers slipping through my hair. This was it. My first real song. My first original piece. My eyes scanned the crowd. Beautiful brown eyes caught my attention. There sitting directly across from me was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. The urge to sing for her came over me. I nodded to the band. The slow intro before I sang.
Do you not see
What you are doing to me
You are killing me inside
Can you not feel
The anger from this spell
I am under your power again
But only for tonight
I do not belong to you
I am not yours
You have lost me yet again
Now let me show you
The other side of me
The side you chose to ignore
The side which says I love you
Let me show you
The other side of me
Baby you are an angel
You are my world
You are the girl I will marry
You are the one
The one that stabbed me in the back
I am under your power again
But only for tonight
I do not belong to you
I am not yours
You have lost me yet again
Now let me show you
The other side of me
The side you chose to ignore
The side which says I love you
Let me show you
The other side of me
Please baby let me go
Let me go
Oh please let me go
I closed my eyes before the applause started. I looked up shocked. They liked it. They actually liked my song. I had finally done something right with the pain. The boys gathered around me and we all bowed to the crowd.
"Thank you guys for coming tonight we are Masen's Boys catch you all next week!" Benny shouted into the mike.
The high running through my veins was so fucking natural and I was excited about life tonight. Suddenly those brown eyes were brought to mind. I looked around for the girl. I jumped off the stage seeing her leave. I grabbed my jacket and my guitar chasing after her. Grinning I saw her enter Starbucks. Perfect. I walked in looking for her. She was sitting down reading a book. I walked over and sat down at her table. She looked up shocked. Her eyes widened as she took me in, I could have sworn I saw her mouth Edward. I ignored it.
"Mind if I sit?" I asked.
She ignored me returning her eyes to her book.
"I noticed you sitting by yourself and figured you could use some company."
She still didn't say anything.
"I saw you at my show. You were really into the music." I grinned. "My name is Anthony."
"Bella," was all she said.
"Have I done something to offend you?"
Her eyes snapped to mine and she glared. "Yes you have. You mistook the fact that I would like company tonight. Plus I do not like liars and your brother is one. Oh yes don't think I don't see the resemblance. Did he send you here? Is that why you are bothering me?"
I frowned. "Excuse me but I'd be very fucking happy if you didn't compare me to Edward. We are nothing alike and as I haven't talked to him in a while now, I'd say no I am not here for him. Sorry for fucking showing an interest in you."
I stood up and left her sitting there staring at me in shock. Fuck her I didn't need some bitch who was obviously infatuated with Edward. I'd follow Amy's advice and talk to him but then I'd bitch him out for pissing in that girl's fucking coffee. We'd laugh about it and then all would be right with the fucking world. At home waiting for me was a nice bottle of Jack fucking Daniels. My new best friend. I drank washing away the emotional night.
Okay so there ya have it. Tell me what you think. If you hate the song blame my lack of lyricist skills. LOL. Also I am currently looking for a BETA or a PreReader for TOSoM so if you are interested PM me. About the story: Love it? Hate it? Please tell me.
xx K