Only You Understand My Pain
Kakashi x Hinata
Chapter 22
Love Sparks Alive
Sitting on the familiar, fallen log in team eight's training ground. Hinata waited for Kakashi. It brought back memories of all the times she waited for her team to show. She was always the first to arrive. Slipping quickly, from the cold Hyuga compound at first light. Anything to avoid spending further time in the cold, silent, white walled prison it had become since her mother died.
Looking down, she smiled softly at the letters carved into the weathered wood of the fallen tree.
" Oh…I forgot about this." Her long, fingers following the lines and arches of each name.
"Silly Kiba…" She laughed, softly. Remembering the happy memories of that day, so long ago.
They were just beginning genin. It was after, their first 'C' ranked mission. Kiba loudly, and with great pride. Stated that team eight, should mark the log, showing their territory. So no one, would ever forget who team eight was and that this was their field.
"As if… I could ever forget you two." Her heart clenched, as she stared at their names.
Each name, carved with care by their very hands. Shinobi hands, that would never hold another weapon. Calloused hands, she would never get to hold within her own. She felt the sting of her warm, salty tears. The pink scar running down her cheek. Throbbing as it always did now when she cried for them.
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"Damn Naruto…now I'm late!" Kakashi cursed, as he made his way through the trees. It wasn't like it was unusual for him to be late. However, he had made sure over the last few months that he was never late, when it came to his bara, Hinata.
Yet, here he was over an hour late. All because of that blonde idiot. As he neared, the training grounds he ceased masking his approach. The last thing, he would want to do was to startle Hinata. In the last few weeks he could see the strain growing. He was amazed how hard she pushed herself. Never giving up, never slowing down. Yet it had him worried. Yes, he knew she was not as fragile as she looked however that did not lessen the sleepless nights she was causing him. Staring at the ceiling above him, worrying she would wither under all the pressure. Falling apart, like the petals of a dried rose.
Last night, had been the worse. Every time he closed his eyes, the image of her soft lips filled his mind. No matter, how much he willed himself, to let it go. He could not. It was becoming harder and harder to convince himself, he didn't have those sorts of feelings. That he was not falling, for the blue haired beauty. Yet the image of how close he had come, to losing control and claiming those enticing pink lips for his own. It could no longer be ignored; she had stolen a corner of his heart. A heart he thought, had long ago stopped caring. Lost as his teammates lives had been.
As he neared the edge of the trees. He tried to control the grin that twitched at his lips. As he caught sight of his blue haired rose. Her long dark hair cascading down her back in silky waves. As she sat faced away staring off in thought.
Hearing the rustle of leaves, Hinata quickly wiped the tears from her face. Quickly steadying her shuttering breath.
Brushing a hand through her hair, she stood up. Slowly, turning around to face him as he dropped from the treeline.
"Yo Hinata!…sorry I am late. Naruto has been after me all morning to treat him to ramen and you know how annoying he can be when it comes to…." His voice trailing off, as he gave her a questioning look. "You okay? Did something happen…?"
"I'm fine Kakashi…"Forcing a smile to her lips.
"You sure…"
"I'm fine… really." Her smile growing at his caring concern. Sliding off her jacket and folding it carefully she laid it on the log.
"Now come on… let's spar. You said… you would give me a refresher course on taijutsu. Unless you rather go hang with Nar… "
"Oh, hell no…I told you I would help with your taijutsu…so let's do this." He chuckled, sliding into a fighting stance. Hinata matching his stance with her own.
"Kakashi…?"
"What Hinata…?" A sly smirk growing behind his mask.
"Don't hold back…" Her words, fading as her body moved quickly at him. Taking him off guard and landing a hit, sending him staggering back a few feet.
" As you wish Mai Bara." A short chuckle leaving his lips as he moved swiftly towards her. She found herself, sliding back quickly. Nearly caught by his strike. As he moved, once again. She blocked his strike with her arm.
Dropping back, she centered her mind. She could do this she repeated to herself over and over again.
Pushing off, with her right leg she slipped past him. Letting her right hand, drive a blow to his shoulder as she slid past. He gave her no rest, as he turned quickly his leg catching hers. Catching herself she avoided crashing to the ground by flipping back wards. Landing in a perfect stance as he moved against her once again with lightening speed. She smiled, softly as adrenaline pumped through her veins. He was not holding back and she was enjoying the challenge. They where soon moving with near fluid movements. Each meeting the others strikes.
" Okay… I think that's enough for the day!" Kakashi called out, his breath slightly labored. Hinata nodded, dropping to the ground trying to catch her breath.
"I never realized how similar your open palm is to taijutsu. I don't think I will need to teach you much. " Taking a swig of water from his bottle he chuckled. " I would have been in serious trouble Hinata… if you had used even the slightest amount of your genkai chakra."
"I'm not so sure …you had me pushing myself to the limit." She smiled over at him, before gladly accepting a drink from his water bottle.
"Actually, there is something I could use more training with…" Hinata trailed off nervously. Kakashi had to swallow hard, when hentai images filled his mind. Maybe he should lay off his books for a few days.
"Uh…oh…" He stammered. "What would that be?" He once again, cursed inwardly at his perverted mind.
"Well…it's rather embarrassing.…I…uh…" She stammered nervously, catching herself before her fingers could poke together. An old habit that still came on when she felt extremely uncomfortable.
"Hinata … you know you can ask me anything." Standing up, he approached her slowly. Crouching down in front of her. "Tell me."
" I can not wield a senbon." She blushed mortified. "I mean… I am dead on accurate with a kunai or even a shuriken…. but for some reason, I am always off… when using a damn senbon."
"That's nothing to be embarrassed about Hinata." Kakashi chuckled.
"Yes it is!" She huffed. "I mean come on Kakashi… even genin can throw senbon more accurately then I can." Letting out a heavy sigh she frowned. "Kiba and Shino both tried to help teach me years ago but I just never could hit the bull's-eye with accuracy. So they said I should just stick with kunai's and shuriken's."
As hard as he tried, he could not hold in his laughter. Hearing his chuckle she scowled at him.
"I'm sorry….You just look so damn cute when your mortified with embarrassment." He laughed teasingly.
"Thanks a lot!" She huffed but a smile tugged at the corner of her lip. Letting out a slight gasp of surprise. As she felt herself being pulled up from the ground and a senbon pushed into her hand. The metal feeling cold and slightly foreign to her. She tried, to remember just how many years had passed, since she had held one in her grip.
"Come on show me." His hand gesturing to the bulls-eye on training dummy a yard away.
"Are you kidding me?! You will just laugh more!" She fumed, half heartedly. Sighing, he took her by the shoulders directing her towards the bulls-eye.
"Hinata!" Giving her a mock look of appalled shock. "How could you ever think I would laugh at you! " When she shot him a knowing look, he chuckled loudly.
"Oh okay, I might laugh a little… but only because I think you look so adorable when you're mortified with embarrassment Mai Bara." He teased. A smirk growing wider, behind the cloth of his mask. As his eye, caught the rosy blush staining her pale ivory cheeks.
He had to fight, the urge to pull her against him and kiss those velvet, pink lips till they were swollen. Pushing his hentai thoughts to the back of his mind, he shouted out to her.
"Just throw bara!' His smirk, growing ever so bigger behind his mask. Stepping back, he pushed up his hitai-ate, activating his sharingan.
Sighing unhappily, her cheeks glowing red as a tomato she released the senbon. Groaning unhappily, when it missed the target. Landing instead, at the foot of the training dummy.
"See pathetic!" She cried out, throwing her arms up in the air in defeat and walking away from the training dummy. Kakashi snickered softly behind his mask.
"Definitely adorable." He teased. Hinata pursed her lips, and frowned over at him. Pulling down his hitai-ate he walked over to the training dummy, retrieving the senbon.
" Hinata, you are not pathetic." Twirling the senbon between his fingers. "Come here I'll show you."
Taking her hand, he pulled her back in front of the training dummy. Moving to stand behind her.
"You just need a little help with your throwing position…that's all. "
Her cheeks blushed crimson as he wrapped, his left arm firmly around her waist. Taking her right hand in his. The senbon still clasped tightly in her fingers.
Her skin tingled, as if his touch was electrified. Kakashi gently guided her arm in to position. His warm breath, brushing against the nape of her neck. Making it ever so hard, to breath. She unknowingly leaned her body slightly back . It was if her body had a mind of its own. Needing… wanting, to be closer to his. She could feel the beat of his heart against his ribs. Her own heart, pounded fiercely as if it would leap from her chest at any moment.
Just when she thought, she might calm her beating heart. His hand, slid further down the curve of her hip. As he rotated her into position. Her breath hitch and liquid desire flowed through her veins. She could barely think as his right hand slowly moved, guiding her arm back. His fingers clasping her delicate wrist.
"Now release!" The thin metal stick glittering in the sunlight as it left her hand. Burying deeply in the center of the target. His fingers leaving her wrist only to capture her hand with in his own, fingers curling around lovingly.
"Perfect…"He whispered into her ear. The tone of his voice had her thinking that one word carried something more.
Minutes passed, neither one moving. Hinata found herself fighting a losing battle. To control her thundering heart. It was just too hard. With his firm, muscular chest pressed against her spine. She felt herself melt into his warmth.
Her breath shuttered nervously as she moved her arm. His hand still holding it tenderly. She prayed he wouldn't let go as she brought it to her chest. To lie against the beating of her heart. Could he feel how fast it was beating? Beating just for him no one else.
When he didn't pull away she felt those familiar butterflies only he could cause. Closing her eyes she savored the feeling of being held with in his arms.
Kakashi reeled in the knowledge of what was happening. It was like a dream. Or all the fantasies he had been having recently where finally surfacing into reality. It was all just to overwhelming to be true.
Here he stood the so called copy nin holding the blue haired rose Hinata within his arms. Thee Hinata Hyuga…His Bara the woman who haunted his every waking moment and nightly fantasy.
With her milky white skin, and dark midnight blue hair. Hair that looked, like shimmering satin but felt softer then the finest silk. Whose wide, lavender moonstone eyes held him entranced. When ever he stared into them. Had power, stronger then she would ever know and a heart of gold.
This Goddess of a rose was holding his hand against her beating heart. How could it be real? It was just too perfect. Perfection that was destroyed faster then an exploding tag and just as loud.
"Hey… what the hell are you guys doing?!" Naruto hollered, bounding into the clearing. His bright orange jumpsuit, a sharp contrast, to the earthy tones of the surrounding forest.
His sudden appearance. Causing the two to pull apart, as fast as a teen age couple, getting caught in the janitor closet.
" Naruto!" Kakashi hissed under his breath. 'How could one former student, continue to be such a pain in his ass after all these years?' He groaned to himself.
"N…Naruto." Hinata gapped her face blushing red with unease. "What are you doing here?"
"Hee hee…" Scratching his head uneasily. "Well… I came to find Kakashi. He owes me a bowl of ramen."
"I do not!" Kakashi muttered under his breath. Ignoring his former sensei, Naruto continued.
"So just what were you two doing…so cozy?" His blue eyes narrowing in on Kakashi. "Hinata is too nice of little girl for you old man."
Hinata blanched, her lips mouthing the words 'little girl'. Her normally kind face turning cold as she shot the blonde a dirty look.
Letting out an exasperated sigh. Kakashi faced the bane of his former team.
"Listen… Naruto…Hinata and I were training! Which you have interrupted." Taking a breath he tried to hold his displeasure. "Also Naruto…. Hinata is not a child! So do not go around treating her like one!"
Oh, how he wanted to inform the boy that he was the one who always acted like an idiotic child most of the time.
His teeth clenched as he annunciated each word. "Oh and if you want to see tomorrow… you will not call me an old man again…Got it!"
"Yah yah …what ever!" Naruto waved a hand, brushing him off. "Now about that ramen…"
Looking over, his eye locked with hers. With an understanding nod, she sent him a sympathetic smile. "Fine let's go Naruto." Kakashi sighed in defeat.
"I will see you tomorrow Kakashi for training." Hinata smiled shyly.
"Alright… tomorrow then." A smile growing under his mask at just the thought of spending more time together.
"Hey can I join…" Naruto found his words cut off quickly, as the two shouted a very firm 'NO!'
"Fine !… I'll just train with that moron Sai. Geesh… you two sure are sticking to this hush- hush training Granny Tsunade assigned you both."
Giving Hinata a wave goodbye. Kakashi grabbed Naruto by the shirt collar. Pulling the slightly bewildered young man out of team eight's training field. Hinata couldn't hold in the laugher, hearing Naruto's voice whining pitiful that Kakashi had to pay for his ramen.
Grabbing her jacket from the log and slipping it on. She made her way over to the training dummy. Pulling the silver senbon out of the bull's-eye she rolled it between her fingers. Watching it catch, the colors of the setting sun in its silvery sheen. A flash of Kakashi flickered across her mind. Just thinking about the silver haired jounin set a fire in her veins. She knew she couldn't ignore it anymore. All these sensations, he stirred in her. The simple touch of his hand on hers set her a flutter.
"Oh Kami… I am in love with Kakashi Hatake!" She gasped, her hand flying to her lips. A small smile touched her lips. Just as suddenly as it appeared it was gone. Tears prickled at the corner of her pale eyes. As the reality of her predicament reared its ugly head.
"It doesn't even matter." She thought sadly. "Even if Kakashi felt the same… we will never be together."
As she made her way home. She cursed the day she was ever born into the Hyuga clan.
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Definitions
Baka…idiot
Kami or Kami-sama…God
Bara…Rose
Mai…my
Mai Bara…My Rose
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I know you are all eager for their first kiss and I promise it will be coming up and yes a lemon too in the near future. This stories romance is one that slowly progresses. With all her grief. I knew I could not throw the two together too quickly. That and I have some surprises still to come. So hang in there… trust me it will be well worth the wait.
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