"Candice, what am I supposed to do? Jeff thinks I like him, John thinks I hate him. Everything is so screwed up!" I complained to the diva after I'd ran to her hotel room from Jeff's.
"I don't know. I don't get myself into these kinds of messes and how you did is beyond me. What was going through your head? I mean, come on just cause John hurt you doesn't mean that you had to hurt him back. Honestly, the two of you are acting pretty juvenile. Everything you do is to get back at the other. It's like each others feelings don't come into to play because you're both too busy trying to make yourselves hate the other one. But forbidden fruit always does taste sweeter."
"I'm not talking about fruit!" I screamed. I understood what she meant but I was in no mood for metaphors. I wanted a straight out answer or what I should or shouldn't do.
"You're upset so I'll let that go. But I won't take another one so watch it. I get it you don't know what to do and you wanna know but I can't tell you." Candice looked at me sitting upon her bed and smiled slowly.
"I know you can't tell me. I know that I gotta figure this out on my own but I can't figure this out. I mean I do have feelings for John but like you said, forbidden fruit, and it's just so tempting to be with him. That's what scares me, if I do fall for him when I leave, what's going to happen?" I looked up at her, tears forming my eyes. I knew what I had to do but I didn't. I didn't have the guts to do it. I didn't have any guts at all.
"You want to be with John… but you don't want to hurt Jeff. Am I right?" She sat down next to me and pushed the hair out of my face.
I didn't respond just stood up and walked out of the room. I turned back to look at her and I could tell that she knew what I wanted to do. I could see the empathy in her eyes and I knew she was a good friend but what I needed at the moment wasn't a good friend I had just made it was my best friends.
I went back to my hotel room and got on the phone.
"Hello?"
"Jenni?"
"Michelle? What's wrong? You sound horrible." She asked a troubled tone in her voice.
"Nothing's wrong. What would make you think something's wrong? Can't a girl just call her best friend from the road without something being wrong?"
"Considering you've been gone a little over a month and I haven't talked to you once except for when I had to call and tell you that your boyfriend was dumping you; plus, the fact that I know you and I know that tone, boy trouble. How can you have boy trouble?"
"I just missed my best friend…?"
"No, you have boy trouble."
I laughed, I knew that she was never going to let that go and she knew it was boy trouble; it's the only trouble I get into. "I kinda wanna get into a relationship with John Cena."
"Um, well let me think he's like 29 and you're 16… crazy, much?"
"Yes, but can't help it."
"Then do what you gotta do. Michelle, the three of us are all the same in one way. When we figure out what we want we have to go after it and we deserve mostly everything we want. You hate Franklin and we all know that. You want more from life and if being with John will get you that and so will traveling around the world with them. I think it pretty much everything you want. And this way you can name your kid after your dad and your guy." She laughed and I shook my head giggling with her.
"Well, thanks but that doesn't help. Well, it does but not really. I don't know. I just gotta think. You know I can't ever make a decision."
"Sweet, but I gotta go. It's sorta late here in case you didn't know." I heard the yawn in her voice and realized that it was midnight in Franklin.
"Sorry, girl, get to sleep. I forgot that you have school tomorrow and didn't think about the time difference before calling."
"It's okay. I know you needed to talk. I'll talk to you later."
I hung up the phone and heard something behind me. I turned to the entrance to my hotel room and saw John standing there. I froze and took in a deep breath, "Hey."
"Hi," John looked down and shuffled his feet. "Are you going with me to the autograph signing? I mean it's in a town like an hour and some away so if you are we're going to need to leave soon."
"Well, I guess that I'm going with you." I said, biting my bottom lip. "Unless, you don't want me to."
"I thought maybe you'd want to go with Jeff to the next venue. I didn't know. It's up to you."