I looked at John trying to read his face; he was always good at hiding his feelings. "I'm going with you… not that it matters. I'm telling Vince tonight. I'm leaving." My entire body held the temperament of a heavy heart.

"Wha…?" He walked across the room toward me, standing in beside the bed. He towered over me in a way that made me back away and I bumped into the nightstand, almost knocking off the lamp but John caught it before it could hit the floor and shatter.

I reached for the lamp and grabbed John's hand, making him look up from the lamp in his hand less than a foot above the floor. "I'm leaving."

"But I…."

"Don't" I said, not risking a kind word or a guilt trip sentence, but I especially didn't want a mean spirited one. I wasn't staying to prove anything or to make him feel better about himself. I was leaving for me, end of sentence.

John put the lamp back on the table and withdrew from me a little bit. "So, tonight is your last night?"

"Hopefully, my stuff's all packed. I'll go put it away." I picked up my suitcases and proceeded to make my way toward the elevator.

Thank god for ipods or the ride would have been an awkward one. John called some family members while I listened to my music. I felt pretty pathetic though, listening to Krystal Harris' Supergirl. I sure show my age with that. The silence would be worse though I couldn't deal with that. Only a few more hours and I'd probably be on a flight back to Virginia and it would all be over.

We got to some city in Kansas, I didn't care to find out the name, we went to a local gym where apparently John was doing a meet and greet, autograph thing. I began to take my bag with my laptop in with me but John stopped me.

"No, I need your full attention today. Sorry but you won't get any work done." He looked over to me, one foot out the car door, which was wide open and it was sort of chilly so I couldn't tell if the chills were coming from that or the tone I heard in his voice.

"Uh, well, I guess that's cool. I didn't have much work to do anyway. I just thought I'd surf the net for a little while, of course, that's assuming I could get a signal on my wireless in this god for saken place."

"Probably not, so I guess I'm saving you from being bored, just call me your knight in shining armor."

"I wouldn't go that far." I got out of the car and followed John. I didn't know what he'd need. All these meet and greets are the same, meet people, shake hands, sign autographs and then you're done. What could be complicated about that?