This one and the next one were written together, but then I decided I wanted them as two separate chapters. So I'm gonna upload this one, then write the next next one (if that makes sense), upload the second half of this one tomorrow, then upload the third one the day after, then I'll be up to date again, writing as I upload, instead of copying up stuff I've already written. God, that was confusing.

Anyways, here is chappie fourteen! Enjoy!

DISCLAIMER: I own Nada!

Chapter Fourteen: Love Will Tear Us Apart – Joy Division

March 2002
Alex: 13
Jay: 15

Jay took the bus into the city. His body creaked awkwardly from another night of sleeping rough. He stared transfixed at the scenery rushing past the window. As they came to a stop at the lights, a huge billboard caught his attention:

"PRO-LIFE! Heartbeat at 18 days old!"

The words on the billboard made his stomach flip. He was a murderer, no better than the psycho's that went on killing sprees with machine guns. Traveling into town to the bank to withdraw money to send to Sunny for an abortion made him just as bad as those creeps you saw on the news. You'd have thought that after loosing his mom so young and so tragically, he'd be a million percent against death, but he was still willing to hand over the money his mom had left him to pay some skank fling to erase the son or daughter they had conceived on a drunken, half hearted one night stand.

He wondered what Sunny was doing now and how she was feeling. Now he understood why she was so reluctant to let him come back to Toronto. If he'd have known she was pregnant before he left, he would have never gone.

- - - - -

He stood at the ATM and punched in his pin code with a wobbly hand. 8768 – his birth year and his mom's birth year. The maximum he could withdraw from his account was 189.00, leaving him with just fifty three cents. But he wasn't that stupid. He withdrew 75 and pretended it was all he could afford. He wasn't about to hand over all his money. He enveloped it and sprawled the address clearly on the front:

Miss Sunny James

2334 Templar Avenue

Portland

Oregon

USA

He dropped it in the box and metaphorically kissed goodbye nearly half of his money, and a kid he didn't really want, and had never met, but had grown to love already. How pathetic was that?

He knocked sheepishly on Alex's door when he got back home. Emily answered the door with a knowing look on her face, and stepped aside to reveal Alex leaned against the back of the sofa with her arms crossed over her chest, biting the skin around her thumb nail.

"Lexi?" He broke the atmospheric silence with a small, scared sounding voice. Not like him at all.

Her head shot up and she stormed over toward him. "So you're back? You just run off to Ohio without telling me – again!?"

"It's Oregon." Jay pointed out, unsure of why he did, but he did anyway. Just to add to the dickhead persona he'd adopted.

"Why the fuck, Jay?" Alex asked, screwing her face up in disbelief at his point he just made.

"I didn't go back to Oregon. I just went into town. I sorted it out here. It's over now."

"Shut the fuck up, Jay! You're a bastard!" Alex shoved his chest with her clenched fist. Jay had no choice but to stand there and take it until she calmed down.

"Alex, take it easy!" He offered, stepping away from her and grabbing her arms to calm her down.

"No, Jay, I'm not gonna 'take it easy'!" She spat incredulously. "You always do this to me! This is the last time you're gonna play me for a fool!"

"Lexi, I got everything sorted out. Can't we just drop it, and go back to where we were before? When we were happy? I liked it there."

Alex took one look at him and laughed. "Don't be stupid, Jay! You think that after all this shit you've put me through I'm just gonna lie down and take it? Are you mad?" She spat bitterly.

"Lexi, I'm so sorry. I really am."

"I don't believe you." Alex said heartbreakingly. "I don't believe a word that comes out of your mouth."

"I really am, OK?" Jay pleaded with panic in his voice. He was facing his worst nightmare now, and it scared him.

"No! No way! Not OK. Not by far! I'm not even gonna look at you until you start telling the truth! The real truth! And please stop calling me Lexi, I hate it. I hate you." she snarled spitefully.

She stormed out of the doorway and into her bedroom, slamming the door so loudly behind her the whole trailer shook. Jay was left standing in the doorway feeling stupid. Every time he heard a crash, he winced. Emily was stood solemnly in the doorway of her bedroom, not moving an inch, not making eye contact with him.

"I thought I could get her back just like that." Jay explained, clicking his fingers as an explanation. "But I fucked it up."

"What's going on in Oregon, JJ?" Emily asked looking up.

He stepped into the trailer and sank down miserably on the couch. Emily perched tentatively on the arm of the couch and listened patiently. "I, I can't tell you." Jay stuttered. "Alex can't find out. It'll kill her."

"You can tell me, JJ. I promise I won't tell her unless you want me to."

Jay looked up and studied her face, wondering if he could trust her.

"Promise?" He asked reluctantly.

"You got my word." Emily swore, no sign of a tell tale giveaway smirk on her face.

"OK..." Jay inhaled deeply and began his story. "I had to withdraw money from my bank to send to Oregon. There's this girl."

"Girlfriend?"

"Sorta. Sunny her name was. Is." Jay stammered in hushed tones. "She... she's uh pregnant. And wants an abortion." he shuddered at himself hearing the words come from his mouth.

Emily looked horrified. "Do you want her to get one?"

"I don't know..." Jay sighed in frustration. "I'm too young to be a dad, but at the same time I can't live with that on my conscience. It's murder." He stared ahead rigidly.

"Oh, JJ. I'm so sorry. I thought this would be something small. This is huge. This is-"

"Jay?"

What did ya think? Please review and be honest! Thank you!! x