A/N: Okay so this is taking a while because my life is starting to get pretty crazy (I have a LOT going on right now lol) so I will try to update as much as I possibly can. I will try not to leave you guys hanging for a week again :( Also, I tried to do this quickly so you guys could have an update, so I didn't get to review it all that much. If there are mistakes I'm sorry!
"Okay, so we have four months to do this. So I need you guys to help me with this. I understand the basics, but I'm kind of worried about the hunting thing, because you all see how graceful I am. And when you change, Jasper said it's painful, and you know how I am with pain," Bella was talking a mile a minute. Edward figured it was just Bella being Bella, but Jasper knew it was because she was nervous. He tried to calm her down, but it wasn't working out too well.
"Bells, we don't have to talk about this right now," Jasper said quietly from his spot on the couch. Rosalie was reading a magazine next to him, and Emmett was absentmindedly playing with her hair. Edward was pacing, something that he had been doing a lot in the last couple of days, and Alice was sitting at Bella's feet.
"But the sooner we get it out of the way, the better," Bella argued.
"So Edward, when are you going to do it?" Rosalie asked, not looking up from her magazine, all she cared about was getting this done and over with. If Bella wasn't human anymore, she didn't have to worry about them getting caught. Edward stopped pacing and nearly jumped her.
"I'm not," He said harshly. Bella looked over at him, clearly hurt.
"You aren't?" She asked, trying to hold back the tears. She wanted Edward to be the one to change her more than anything.
"No," He said coldly, not looking at her. Jasper filled her senses with happiness and love, but she wasn't fooled. She blinked her tears back a few times, and tried her best to not sound hurt.
"Jasper, will you do it please?" She asked, with a small voice that she didn't recognize. Jasper was glaring daggers at Edward, but turned to her before she could see it.
"If that's what you want," He answered softly.
Outside, now. Jasper thought to Edward. He walked outside the house and waited a few minutes until he heard Edward excuse himself. When he walked out, Jasper yanked him across the yard so that no one could hear them.
"What?" Edward asked.
"What the hell is your problem? Why won't you do this for her?" Jasper yelled.
"I can't be the one who does this to her. Not when I'm the only one that is against this," Edward explained.
"Did you ever think about why Bella wants you to be the one to do this?" Jasper asked incredulously.
"No, I don't think it matters who does it. It's going to get the same result," Edward said completely confused.
"For someone so smart, you sure are an idiot. She wants the one she loves to change her. It will make her feel closer to you. Can you put aside your own issues and do this for her?" Jasper exclaimed. Edward mentally smacked himself in the head.
"I didn't even think of it that way. Oh wow, I suck at this boyfriend thing," Edward said sullenly. As much as Jasper would have loved to make fun of him for pouting the way he was, he was angry.
"Yes you do," He said.
"Thank you, Jasper. You always have my back with this," Edward said gratefully.
"That was the last time," Jasper said quietly.
"What?" Edward asked.
"Look, I love the idea of you and Bella together. But I am not going to spend the rest of my existence as the third person in your relationship. You need to wise up. I can't be the person that makes you realize your mistakes. I had to let Bella go, I have to do it with you too. I can't always be the one fixing your problems," Jasper explained. He hated the way it made him sound, but if Edward and Bella were going to be together forever, it was about time they started understanding each other.
Edward was shocked at Jasper's little speech, but quickly realized that Jasper was right. With every problem Edward had with Bella, Jasper was there to pick up the pieces and fit them back together. Even when Bella was younger, Jasper seemed to be the one fixing what Edward did. He had his own reality check, and felt terrible.
"You are completely right. I'm sorry, Jasper," Edward said. They didn't need words, Jasper understood, and Edward got that.
"Good, now go fix it. Idiot," Jasper smiled. Edward socked his arm lightly and went to apologize to Bella.
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"How bad will it hurt?" Bella asked softly. She was currently laying with Edward in their meadow; it was sunny that day, so they had to avoid school. Due to the recent circumstances, Esme and Carlisle let Bella take the day off as well.
"Is this all you are going to talk about until it happens?" Edward sighed. Ever since he told Bella he would love to be the one to change her, he felt like that was all she ever wanted to discuss.
"Edward, this is life changing. Well, life ending really," She joked, but Edward's eyes went cold and she stopped laughing.
"Stop it," He said softly.
"This is the only way I am going to be able to deal with it. It is scary and hard because I don't get to choose when it happens. But I won't bring it up as much," She promised.
Edward hugged her close to him, and inhaled her scent. He wasn't going to miss how her scent affected him, but he would miss how sweet it was. When he looked down at her expressing all his love with just his eyes, he marveled at how deeply she blushed. He was going to miss that the most.
"I love you, Bella." He whispered against her neck. She shivered and pulled him closer. He placed a soft kiss against her neck and she felt sparks all through her body. Being a teenage girl, she definitely had wants. She brought his face to hers, and she kissed him fiercely.
He rolled them so that she was on her back, and he was slightly above her, but never broke the kiss, she was assaulting him with her tongue and he swore his cold body was starting to burn. Her hands were grazing up and down his body, and she cautiously started moving them lower. Edward hadn't realized what she was doing yet, but he was slowly starting to lose his restraint, so he moved to her neck once again.
She moaned his name as he whispered kisses down to the base of her shoulder, and he stiffened when her hands were getting closer to a certain spot. He sat up quickly, and looked down at her in question. Her lips were swollen and pink from his kisses, and her cheeks were the color of rubies.
Bella had absolutely no experience with anything sexual, she just knew the stories about how Emmett and Rosalie broke their house. Jasper and Alice weren't as open about their sex life, and Carlisle and Esme never spoke about theirs, which Bella was secretly grateful for. But every time Edward touched her, or kissed her, Bella wanted more. And she had no idea how to express this to Edward in way where she wouldn't want to hide under a rock for the rest of time.
"I'm sorry, I think." Bella said quietly. He must not want me she thought to herself sadly. Edward grabbed her hand gently and pulled her up.
"We should be getting back to the house, love." Edward said softly. He didn't want to ever have this talk with her. After she was changed, this would never be a problem, but he couldn't handle it now. Edward had never had sex before or anything even remotely close. He wasn't the typical guy where his parents caught him with a magazine and some lotion or anything. He wanted it to be special, and it wouldn't be if he lost control with Bella.
She nodded quietly and let him pull her up. When they were standing, he pulled her into his arms and hugged her tightly for a few minutes, hoping that she would understand through his hug that this definitely wasn't about not wanting it. He kissed her forehead tenderly, and placed a chaste kiss to her lips.
"Please don't jump to conclusions, love." He said. He may not have been able to hear her thoughts, but for once, he knew exactly what she was thinking.
Okay, I'm trying to make more chapters for this because the ending I have in mind will only take a few, and this doesn't exactly seem complete to me, so I am trying to add some extra stuff so it doesn't seem rushed. So here is where my wonderful readers come in, should I continue to add more (not a crazy amount or anything) or just finish this up soon? I kind of want to add more because I like writing obviously, but I don't want to drag this on and have you all completely annoyed with me haha! So let me know! And let me know your thoughts on this chapter... should we get Edward and Bella lovin? ;)