AN: Wow, it's been a long time since I have last updated. For those of you that have been keeping up, you know I have been going through a really rough time, so I am very sorry for my lack of updates. I really want to thank you all for being so patient, and also for all your kind words. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. This is just a really short update to let you know that I haven't given up on you guys. I will do more when I can!
The following days were edgy for everyone, but after Bella recovered from the fight with James, everyone was able to relax. No one was blamed for the accident, and everyone went on as normal as they possibly could.
The sun looked like it wanted to peek through the clouds as Bella and Edward were laying in the meadow that afternoon. Edward had been quiet since the accident, but spent as much time with Bella as he possibly could.
"Why didn't you just let him change me?" Bella asked softly. She had been rubbing the scar on her wrist without realizing it, and it was making Edward feel terrible. He thought for a minute before answering her.
"Two reasons really. The first being that you wanted me to be the one to change you. I didn't think you wanted to live out your existence with James' venom running through you. And the second was because there are still a few things that I think you should enjoy as a human," Edward explained.
Bella couldn't help that the first thing that crossed her mind was sex, but she knew without a doubt that it was not what Edward had been referring to. She nearly giggled at her hormones, not understanding how she nearly died just days prior, and still her mind when straight to sex.
"I know I say it a lot, but thank you for saving my life," Bella whispered. Edward smiled, making her heart skip a few beats in the process.
"Like I said love, fate may try, but it is no match for me," Bella snuggled closer to Edward and sighed.
"Jasper's not really talking to me," She murmured dejectedly. Jasper had been with her until she woke up from the accident, he hugged her lightly when he realized she was okay, and since then he had been scarce.
"Jasper's not really talking to anyone. He feels to blame for what happened," Edward explained. It nearly killed him to listen to Jasper's thoughts. Jasper had been so depressed; his only thoughts were of how useless he believed he really was.
"It isn't his fault! I made him take me, there was no other choice. Don't blame him!" Bella was frantic, she started to stand up but Edward caught her hands lightly before she could.
"No one blames him, love. We have all told him that, this is just something that he is going to have to realize by himself. Nothing we say seems to help," Edward soothed. Bella shook her head in anger. She was going to have to have a talk with Jasper, and she didn't care what it took, she would make him see.
"He is so thick-headed sometimes," She pouted. Edward smiled and kissed her softly.
"I can clearly see where you got it from," He joked. Bella feigned resentment at his comment which resulted in more laughter from Edward. Bella growled softly and launched herself at him. He caught her softly in his arms, and let them roll back into the grass. She was on top of him, smirking softly, and Edward could swear he felt his dead heart flutter. My god, she is beautiful.
"I love you," He breathed, smiling when he saw the familiar blush creep into Bella's cheeks. He brushed the hair from her face, and kissed her, hoping she could feel all the love he was pouring into it. When the kiss started to intensify, he lightly sat them back up.
The sun finally poked through the clouds above, and seemed to shine right on Edward's skin. A burst of light reflected on Bella, and her breath hitched in her throat at the beauty of it all. A thousand colors seemed to sparkle off of him, and Bella smiled to herself while thinking that it was more beautiful than any diamond ever would be.
"I was kind of looking forward to shining the way you do," Bella said quietly. She noticed Edward's eyes roam down her body, and when they finally found their destination, the sweetest smile lit up his face.
"You are shining, my love," He nearly whispered. She looked down to where Edward was looking, and realized that the scar on her wrist was shining just as brightly as Edward was. She laughed in excitement and threw herself into Edward's waiting arms.
Okay, so I know Edward would probably not be so happy with anything regarding her scar or the accident, but I think if it was something small that would make Bella happy, that he could put aside his feelings and be happy for her once...
Aside from that, after going back and reading through the story, I am really unhappy with the way it came out, and I really don't feel all that close to the characters :( I was actually going to just stop writing, but all your reviews made me want to keep trying. So hopefully from here on out, it will be better for you guys. Thank you so much for sticking with me, and I will update as soon as I possibly can! Like always, please review, I know it was short, but I want to know if you guys want me to keep at it?