Italics are Alex's dreams.

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Thanks to Ashley for helping me with some American-isms! Dreaming – Young Jeezy ft. Keyshia Cole

December 2002
Alex: 14
Jay: 15

Alex hadn't been home on a night time in three nights. Since her "dad" arrived back on the scene, she'd wanted nothing to do with her mom or this man who was showing up and trying to ruin her life once again. Her mom hadn't made a single bit of effort to find out where she was and if she was OK, and as far as Alex was concerned, her life was here with Jay now and she didn't need anyone else.

Three nights ago, a dream woke her up before she could really determine what was going on, but the suggestion was there. The second night, in her dream she was kissing Jay, but really it wasn't him. Well, it was, but not all the time. Sometimes it was him and sometimes it was a girl. But last night, the dream really upped its ante. It all felt so real, things started to become clearer. But ironically, the more details were revealed, the more confused and boggled she felt when she woke up.

She had no idea how she'd gotten to be in this position. She was aware of basically nothing, but there were two things really troubling her. Why wasn't the person lying next to her Jay? And even more disturbingly, the person lying next to her was a... girl. Trying to desperately figure out why you were in bed with a member of the same sex was difficult when you were frozen to the spot in fear and confusion.

The dream that woke her last night was undoubtedly the most vivid and shocking. In 'Dream-Land' things had been turned on their head. A head of long blond hair, a taste of strawberry gum, yep it was definitely a girl. But that, incredibly, wasn't the weirdest part. This was Paige. Paige Michalchuk!

Alex awoke bolt upright in her bed, drenched in a cold sweat. This wasn't the first time this had happened. A horribly real feeling and mighty confusing dream woke her from her distressed slumber to an equally confusing realism.

Alex wasn't sure if you could have a sense of taste in your dreams. Thats what worried her so much. There was absolutely no way in all the times when she'd kissed Jay that he'd EVER tasted like strawberry gum. Her imagination carried her away and she'd actually convinced herself that somewhere along the line she'd been taken hostage of, drugged to forget it all, and taken advantage of. She'd attempted before to stay up all night so the dreams didn't have an opportunity to infiltrate her brain.

That night, however, was a little different. She didn't sleep. She couldn't sleep, for the small matter of her boyfriend accompanying her in the bedroom. She was three things she'd never been before: drunk, I mean absolutely hammered, totally unaware of what was happening, and on her way to fourth base and beyond with Jay. What was happening right here, right now was a turning point. Music was usually a distraction Alex used to take her mind off whatever it was the music was drowning out. The heavy drum beat, twang of the bass and strum of the lead guitar that made up this musical distraction was impossible to listen to. Not because it was crap, but because it was the last thing on her mind. Fear gripped her whole body rigid as she uncurled her legs from around Jay's waist and allowed him to set her down on the bed. She didn't have time to think about what was happening or what was going to happen next. The gentle pressure of Jay's weight was on top of her before she knew it. He propped her up on the pillows before matching up their lips once again. He kissed with such a serious passion, with precision, care and skill. His kiss was so heart-stopping and attention absorbing that she didn't noticed his hands slip to the waist of her jeans. He knew this part all too well. The first time, he fumbled and rushed it, and the experience was nothing to write home about for both he and Sunny. The second time, he basically lead back and let her take control. This time, however, he knew exactly what to do. He broke the kiss and immediately began trailing them down her neck and across the skin that wasn't hidden under the fabric of her tank top. He slid it up with his hand and the exposed stomach was showered with another fluttering of small, light kisses. Jay made a mental note to himself that although until this point he didn't know Alex had a bellybutton ring, he liked it a lot. As he moved lower down, he cut the kisses. He used his hands again to trace a tantalizing pattern across her abdomen. He heard her moan softly as he brushed his fingertips in an unspecified direction across her protruding hip bone.

He met her lips again to reassure and distract her as he began to slowly undo her jeans. The zipper came down and he attempted to rid her of them, but she broke the kiss and gave him a skeptical look.

"I don't know, Jay." She whispered, her nerves not allowing anything stronger. He maintained eye contact for a split second.

"It's OK, Lexi. You can do it. I promise I won't hurt you."

Alex considered his words momentarily. She had two options. Back out and leave him hanging and waiting pathetically. Or, she could just get it over and done with and then afterwards realize she had nothing to worry about.

"OK, keep going." Alex confirmed. Jay didn't need to be told twice. He reached back down and linked their lips back up at the same time. Alex was a good kisser, so he guessed she'd be good at the heavy stuff too. He whipped his t-shirt over his head and off without hardly breaking the kiss. If they were gonna do this, they should do it properly. It was her first time, and Jay wanted it to special for her. He'd sometimes imagined it might be both of their first times together, but somethings just weren't meant to be. He stopped fiddling with the zipper and quickly moved off her and repositioned her so she was straddling him.

"You gon' be OK?" He quickly checked. She nodded feebly and he removed her tank top quickly so she was exposed. Her sleek body was blacked out like a silhouette with the gentle orange light outlining her curves like an angels glow. She took him by surprise and started undoing his jeans. As she pulled on the zipper he gently but forcefully removed her hands and placed them on the bed either side of his body. As she changed positions, she bowed her head slightly and began to suckle lightly on his neck. Hickeys weren't anything he'd ever expect from her, but who was he to complain?

They carried on that way for a few heated minutes before it was time to start. Alex's heart lurched as she realized things were about to change. She kinda wanted to keep what they were doing the way it was and not have to go all the way. But, in a matter of seconds, Alex was back on the bottom with just her bra on – she felt she might die of embarrassment at this point – Jay's clothes were off, and the biggest moment of her life, something she'd remember for the rest of her life, began. It was forceful and awkward as it started. She was worried that she might burst out laughing or something catastrophic like that, but soon the worry of laughing was replaced by a mind-bending sense of pleasure. It was a job trying not to scream out in relief as Jay picked up the pace and began going faster. She gasped and bit her lip tantalizingly as she felt him inside her.

Jay had never pressured her into sex, but she could remember a time on more than one occasion when she could sense a hint of frustration when she'd cut short a make out session before it could get out of hand. From looking at him, she couldn't really tell if he was enjoying it or not, or if she was even any good. Of course, she didn't have any past experience with which to compare, but she knew from listening to little bits and pieces with Amy, and from the bits of health class she payed attention to, that this was pretty much how it was meant to go down, and it felt good. However, she couldn't help but be cruelly reminded of Sunny. She hadn't thought about her in months, and she certainly hadn't let it get her down, but right now, in the heat of the moment, she couldn't help but to know that Sunny had been here before her. It was like she'd etched her name into his skin with a Sharpie. Alex realized she'd got a little carried away thinking to herself and she hadn't spent enough time focusing on what Jay was doing to her.

It wasn't too bad to start with. The build up to it was actually worse than the dirty deed itself. Right now, however, it hurt like a bitch. It was getting faster, harder, sweatier, more breathless. Ina few moments she felt a weird sensation, like someone exploding a water balloon inside her. She knew what that was. It felt like it went on for years. Even in her naivety and added drunkenness, she knew exactly what he'd just done, and for lack of a better expression, it was a pretty hefty load he'd just blown.

The wind-down was pretty awkward too. He rolled off her and sank into the bed next to her. The comforter had writhed down during the course of the evening, and Alex was relieved that Jay had covered himself from the waist down. Not that it was unpleasant to see, but she didn't think she could face it right now. It was all over now, and she felt rigid. She couldn't move from the waist-down but luckily, all Jay seemed interested in was lying in bed together, and presumably falling promptly asleep. Alex felt like she wanted to take a bath, but she was stuck in this bed until she started feeling human again. Jay didn't speak at all afterwards. Alex spied the condom wrapper hidden in between the sheets and wondered how she was blind and stupid enough not to notice during the heat of the moment whether he was using one. That was the perfect way to get pregnant. That made her no worse than Sunny. Or her mom.

That night, Alex didn't have any weird dreams about any weird girls. She did however, have a weird dream about a astronauts in charge of a cheese factory.

Random ending I know, its the weirdest thing I could think of. Well, thats that. Alex and Jay finally did it, man it was awkward writing that chapter. But yeah, hope you liked it, and what do y'all think about Alex's weird dreams? Wonder where I'm headed with that....

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