I know the chapters are short but this way I will new chapters more often so yeah x)

"Dear Diary,
I didn't write anything in a couple of days because a lot of things happened. And I am so scared.
I overheard a conversation between Kurt and Santana and apparently Quinn is going to wake up soon. Everybody looks so happy but I am terrified..."

After thinking about giving up the diary idea Rachel was sitting at her desk, chewing on her pen again while searching for the words to describe her feelings. Quinn was going to wake up, and even though she thought everything was going to be better if the blonde survived, Rachel felt like this situation was actually bringing her even more stress.

"I feel guilty. I feel lost. I feel lonely.
I want Quinn to wake up and be happy but I know that she is never going to forgive me. She didn't even want to come to the wedding in the first place. I forced her... I didn't even want this wedding to happen. Why did I say yes to Finn in the first place? Why didn't I listen to Quinn? I don't know. But now that I've lost my boyfriend and all my friends I am going to lose Quinn a second time and it really hurts a lot."

She took a break to read what was written. She didn't want to lose Quinn. She felt her mouth curve into a tiny smile. That was called progress, right?

"I don't want to lose her. Not again. I didn't know it was going to hurt that much the first time, if it happens again I don't know how I will possibly be able to deal with it."

She looked briefly at her phone, untouched since she got that last text from Quinn. She took it and turned it on. Her fingers automatically went through the inbox to find the message and she broke down when she saw it on her screen.

Quinn: ON MY WAY

Before putting the phone down, she took her pen and wrote a couple more words in her diary:

"I just wish I could leave Lima already."

Santana and Kurt were best friends now, and both of them had wished that they would've become that close under other circumstances. And ever since they learned that Quinn was going to wake up, they would go to the hospital every day after school just in case the blonde finally opened her eyes.

"- I can't believe Rachel is still trying to get the attention." said Kurt to Santana who was sitting next to him in front of the sleeping beauty.
"- Are you still going to move in with her when you leave Lima?" asked Santana.
"- God no! I don't even think she will go to NYADA. She doesn't sing anymore how is she gonna audition? I was actually thinking that I could move in with you and Britt. I mean, if you're okay with that.
- Of course I'm okay with that!"

Kurt smiled and pulled Santana in for a hug.

"- Thank you so much Kurt.
- For what?"

He ended the hug and looked at the latina who now had teary eyes. They became friends right after the accident, Santana was in pieces and Kurt was slowly picking them up. The only person Santana was still being mean to was Rachel Berry, otherwise she was acting like an angel, trying to get rid of the guilt that was haunting her since Quinn had been hit by a truck. She had been feeling miserable for the past Seven weeks and she was pretty sure that without Kurt... She didn't even want to think about it. Brittany was still there as well, but was also having a hard time dealing with the situation and Santana wanted to be there for her without having to make things worse. For this reason, Kurt was the one Santana would always call when she was breaking down to avoid any kind of argument with her girlfriend.

"- For being there for me even though I was really mean to you before." She smiled.
"- Why do you keep bringing that up? You need to stop feeling guilty about everything Santana. I don't care about the past, and you shouldn't either.
- I know. It's hard.
- But it gets better at the end. If it's not better then it's not the end. You should know that more than anyone."

There was a long silence during which Santana took Kurt's hand and smiled. He was right, if she kept thinking about the future she was never going to be able to forgive herself for the mistakes that she had done, and she had to if she wanted to be able to love herself like she was supposed to.

She slowly nodded and saw Kurt's mouth open but a cough coming from the other side of the room stopped him before he could say a word. Before they even realized where that sound was coming from they heard a tiny sleepy voice whisper:

"- Please tell me Rachel didn't get married."