Day one : Monday I sat up in the bed being spoon fed by 'him'. From the taste, I Guess it was some vegtible soup. He held the back of my head with one hand while the other weiled the spoon. I didnt like it. I could feed my self but noooo... He insisted. The soup wasnt half bad. My guess was the cheff made it.
About 30 minituts passed and I had finished the soup."Now you will take these pills,
and go to bed." He anounsed. He shoved to pills in my face, "Eat." He dimanded. I choked down the pills and layed down. "good boy." He said peting me like some house pet. The pills started to take affect and I soon fell into the darkness called sleep. I couldnt wait to get to my world.
Day two : Tuesday I awoke the next morning to the sound of foot steps in the room, moving about.
"Ah. Your awake. Time to take another pill~!" He said. 'What in gods name did I do to diserve this?' I thout rather loud to myself. After takeing the pills, He left the room insisting me to take a long nap. I gladly took this oppertunity to get away again.
I sat under the cherry blossm tree again to sing as I watched the petals fall.
Every where is still, every thing It rest to see my Heart, Hate the way this feels, Suddenly im scared To be apart, The days are dark when your not around,
The air is getting hard to breath, I wish that you just put me down, I wish that I could just go to sleep, Loving you is suicide,
I dont know should I go or should I stay? I tryed to keep my self alive, Knowing theres a chance, Its all to late, But I heared you say you loved me, thats the part I cant forget,
And I wish youd come save me, 'Cause im standing over the edge, I should let you go, Tell myself the things I need to hear,
but my brain is whineing wrong, Thats why im loving you, your not here, Feels like im doubting your every word, And every breath thats in between, some how you got me where it really hurts, Its Killing every part of me, Loveing you is suicide, I dont know should I go or should I stay? I tryed to keep my self alive, Knowing theres a chance, Its all to late, But I heared you say you loved me, thats the part I cant forget,
And I wish that youd come save me boy, 'Cause im standing over the edge, Loveing you is suiside, and my worlds about to brake, and I had as much as I can take, and love is a long way down,
Loving You is suiside, and its getting harder every day,
I tryed to keep my self alive, Knowing theres a chance,
Its all to late, and I pray past every point but im still determined to fight, And I know its takeing all my straingth, to keep emotion alive, Loving you is suiside.