Okay sorry it took so long, my computer was acting up. So this is Chapter 1 in Quils POV. Hope you like it!

Disclaimer: 'Fan' fiction not 'author' fiction.

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Quil POV

I sighed and hung my head as I came out of the forest after hours of pointless searching. I'd never find them. They hadn't wanted me to follow anyway, but I did. How stupid.

Is that why they're ignoring me? Because they think I'm stupid? I looked up as my thoughts were interrupted by the familiar roar of a truck.

It was Bella, she pulled her truck over by me. I stopped walking and greeted her halfheartedly, "Oh, hey, Bella."

"Hi, Quil, "she said hesitantly. "Are you okay?"

I stared at her, why did she care? "Fine."

"Can I give you a ride somewhere?" She offered.

I didn't want to be rude, and it was a little ways to my house..."sure I guess." I went around the front of the truck barely picking my feet up and climbed in the passenger door.

"Where to?" Bella asked, I could tell there was something else she wanted to ask. Probably about Jacob.

"My house is on the north side, back behind the store."

"Have you seen Jacob today?" I knew she wouldn't be able to wait much longer.

She looked at me eagerly awaiting my answer, but I didn't really want to admit my failure. I stared out the car for a moment contemplating then answered, "From a distance."

"A distance?" I could tell she wanted to know more. So I continued on, "I was trying to follow them, - he was with Embry. They went in to the forest, so I went after them. But it was like they disappeared. I've been wandering the forest for hours trying to find them."

My face dropped at the thought. But I turned angry when I thought of what they were doing in that forest. "Probably met up with Sam," I said sneering at Sam's name. I hate him!

"Sam got to him?" She asked her eyes down cast.

"Yeah," I said curtly. Wait, my eyebrows raised in surprise for a second. How did she know about that jerk? "How did you know about Sam?"

"Jacob told me," she said sadly, it looked she might cry. "Before."

"Before," I agreed, my anger flaring. Didn't he know what this was doing to Bella? "Before he joined Sam's..." I was at a loss of words in my sudden outrage, "Sam's cult. It just makes me so angry, that the Elders don't seem to care! And then when they look at you funny and you're scared you're next! I don't want to be next Bella! I don't want to!" My fists were pressed to my head, my whole body shook like I was going to fall apart and I couldn't seem to get enough air. What is wrong with me?

"Are you okay?" Bella asked concerned. But the question just made me angrier.

"No!" I roared the rattling increased. I felt like I was coming apart at the seams. I couldn't concentrate, I was so angry. I wasn't even sure what I had just said. "I just feel so out of control and I don't know what to do!"

The overwhelming anger burst through me shredding me apart from the inside out, and as it did I was terrified. Everything hurt and it was too hot. It was only one second, but that second seemed to last forever.

In this new angry shape I was on all fours crouched in the cab that now seemed incredibly cramped. I snarled from all the frustration and snapped at Bella. What was I doing?! I thought as I shrank away ashamed of myself.

The car movement stopped. I guess Bella had pulled the truck over. My back legs were cramping up so I moved them a little. I heard the glass break from the pressure. Dang it! I had wanted to say, but a bark came out instead. I yelped, what had happened to me?!

Bella was hyperventilating. She was probably as shocked and scared as me. I was still growling because I was still frustrated and upset.

"Do you know what's going on?" She gasped.

I wanted to say, 'about as much as you do', but figured I couldn't so I shook my head. What do I look like now?

"Oww!" Bella cried out. What? What? She looked down at her lap and winced. Why? As I inhaled I smelled something familiar, salt and rust? What was that smell...?

"Umm... Quil," Bella said softly, "could you move this leg?" She touched my front arm with her small hand, "Please?"

I looked down at the hand to see a giant paw with sharp claws digging in to Bella's thighs. Was this my hand? Was I a bear?

I quickly lifted my...paw only to see a lot of blood covering her and the seat. How could I have not noticed this?

I looked at Bella trying to apologize with my eyes. She understood.

"It's okay, you didn't do it on purpose."

She opened her door and stumbled – oh, not good – out, looked both ways, and motioned for me to come out...that it was safe to get my hideous, bear self out without scaring more people.

I don't know how my shoulders fit through that little opening, but they did. I was HUGE. I could see over the top of the truck without even trying. Bella was starting a lot. Was I that ugly?

After a moment she stopped and limped over to a rock in a slightly concealed area of the forest. I followed her slowly taking a deep breath...oh what smell is that?! I guess my senses were enhanced because with each breath some new wonderful smell hit me.

I was a little past Bella when I heard sounds. The patter of feet...deer feet? The rain drops hitting the ground, my body and Bella's rain jacket. I heard so many other interesting sounds and could have just sat and listened for hours, but out of the corner of my eye Bella's eyes closed.

Oh crap, I thought as I trotted swiftly to Bella. Was she unconscious? I should have made her go to the ER, but how?

Her eyes opened. "Oh!" She gasped. I guess I'd surprised her. I smiled in relief and from her reaction. Now to get her to the hospital...I stared at her wound where her elbows were trying to stop the blood unsuccessfully. How could I have done this? Guilt was building up inside me and I grimaced.

"I know," she sighed getting at what I meant. "I need to go to the ER."

Yes, yes! I thought nodding in agreement.

"But I'm waiting for the dizziness to pass. I don't want to crash my car."

I sighed, just hurry up, I thought, I don't want you to die of blood loss. My eyes flicked down to the gashes where the blood still flowed steadily. Oh gosh, I'm sorry Bella!

She had closed her eyes again. Don't pass out, don't pass out, I chanted. My ears pricked as I heard voices. Voices in my head?

Yes.

Oh my gosh what was happening?! Oh no, did Bella just pass out? Oh crap, she did. Crap, crap, crap!

Quil, calm down!

No! I thought back. Oh gosh, I'm crazy.

Quil it's me Jacob!

Jacob?

Yes, now what was this about Bella passing out? The Jacob in my head snarled caringly.

Crap, he's going to kill me.

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