Katie
Chapter 12
After Seth got back and everyone left we were finally alone again in the house. It was weird to know that he was keeping something from me. I wanted to know what it was but I did not want to pry and have him get frustrated at me for asking too much. How bad could it have been? But the worst things went through my mind. Maybe his friends were a gang and they did things in La Push? Some cult? Drugs? Or some weird Native American thing that people outside the tribe can't know about?
I just couldn't image Seth this sweet guy being in anything horrible. Even all the guys that I met that he hung out with were too nice to do anything to bad. Yet they were still all years older than him. And Sam I could not place his role in it all. He had to be at lest 23 or older and yet he hung around guys years younger than him. Yeah Paul and Jared were the oldest besides Sam but then again the others were so much younger.
And then there was Emily with out even knowing me the day we met she was the kindest person I had ever met. She befriended me with out question with out knowing anything about me. Yet the scars that marred her face kept me wondering if it really was a bear. And even with them she still shone with so much light for all the ones around her. Always willing to help and take care of the ones around her.
Still with all this running in my mind I could not make myself not like them. I could not make myself not distance myself and my emotions from Seth. With every hour my normal defenses with guys were falling and yet I could not make myself put them back up. I don't usually let guys hug me and kiss my cheek like Seth dose. But I couldn't bring myself to tell him to stop or to even keep my own hands to myself. I always found myself next to him arms around me or leaning on him. It's like I didn't even know what I was doing and again I did not care. Things were just simple with him it came easy. It was like we were spouse to met and be together.
Even then we were sitting on my bed with his arm around me and my head on his chest I was off in my own head thinking about the day that I had. Out of nowhere Seth started asking me questions and we where off talking about so many different things I don't even remember everything. When we stayed at the hospital it was always centered on me and my fall. Now we actually could get to know each other better and we did. I just had to ask the one question that had been bugging me for hours. Emily telling me Seth was fifth teen I could not see it so I wanted to make sure Emily was not messing with me.
"So Emily told me your fifth teen." At this I suddenly found the blanket needed my attention.
"She did I was going to tell you that." Oh crap he didn't sound so happy
"Its ok its no big deal."
At this he brought my eyes up to his face. "Really it doesn't bother you."
"I kinda wish you would have told me but I understand it probably slipped our mind. But you don't seam like the normal guy your age. Emily told me about your dad too." I just had to let that last bit slipped out I knew if we talked about his dad we where going to talk about mine too.
"I was going to tell you about that too."
"Don't worry I understand if you don't want to talk about it. I should of told you about my dad too."
"What do you mean?"
"My dad died six months ago in a car accident." I swolled the tears that came up every time I thought about dad.
"Can I ask what happened?"
I started down at my hands if I started to cry I didn't want him to know about it. "He was driving home from work one night and a drunk driver hit him. He ran a red light and slammed into the driver's side door. The impact of the two cars pushed my dad's car down a hill it rolled to the bottom. Even though my dad had his set belt on it was too much and he had to wait to long for someone to find him. It took an hour for another car to come by and see what happened. Then another 30 minutes for them to figure out my dads car was done there. He was barely alive when they found him but he did not make it to the hospital. The man who hit my dad's car is now in prison for killing him. That's why we moved here mom could not stand being there anymore. Everything reminded us of him the stores streets people the house."
I couldn't keep the tears back for very long it just started happening with out even knowing it. I kept blinking back the tears and trying not to choke up. I did not get very far into telling Seth what happened and the tears just kept coming so I just let them go. When I finished I just couldn't stop the tears with such tenderness Seth wiped the tears from my face with his thumbs and pulled me close to him. He just hugged me close and said "I am sorry I am so sorry." Seth took a deep breath as he brushed another tear from my face. He stared in to my eyes as he started to tell me his story.
"It's been about a month sine we lost dad. He had a heart attack one day. There's not much to what happened he started to feel bad a few months before hand and went to the doctor. They told him to take it easy cut down on things. It just happened one day when Leah and I were sick. I had to grow up lot after that I have to take care of Leah and mom. I know dad would want me to make sure there safe and that everything is fine. By our standards I am already a man in the trides eyes. With dad leavening us a lot was put on my shoulders that night more than I was ready for."
Seth's breathing kicked up as he talked about his dad and I could feel his heart pick up with every word. He cared a lot about his dad and he lost his dad just as suddenly as I had lost mine. Knowing that we both lost our fathers in such a way made me think it connected us in a way. Our pain brought us together and we both were still healing from the cut life took out of us. With Seth's last words about his farther a single tear escaped his eyes. Such a strong man with so much on his shoulders and I got to see this one small moment of his weakness, his love. I reached up and just like what he did I wiped that tear away hoping to wipe away some of the pain with it.
I snuggled in deeper to Seth's arms hoping that being together could help us get over our pain. But the crying had started and I could not stop it. I cried for all the days I didn't and couldn't. I cried for my mom's pain and mine. I cried for Seth dad and mine. Even though I tried to be quite about it and hide my tears from Seth he still knew. Seth put his hand over mine and tried to clam me down and at that one act of such kindness my wall finally broke. The wall I kept up to the world so I didn't have to feel the pain anymore was blast to pieces by one act. I just let go for the first time in months, I let the tears and sobs take me. All the sudden I felt Seth pick me up and put me back in his lap like I was a child. I laid my head down on his shoulder and put my hand on his chest and cried right there.
Seth's arms tightened with the worst of my crying and it got so bad I couldn't breathe. But Seth's arms and his incredible sent soothed my tears. I could breathe in that woodsy sent of him all night. It clamed me deep down to a point I didn't even know was possible. Finally when the tears stopped I gave in to my eyes let my eyes slid shut and let sleep take me. The next thing I knew someone was trying to move something out of my hand I didn't know what it was but I knew I wanted to keep it.
"Katie you have to let go I have to go to bed down stairs."
"Please stay."
"I promised your mom I would only sleep down stairs." I didn't want to be alone. I just had to convence him of that.
"I won't tell her it can stay between us. I just don't want to be alone right now." The look on his face told me I was breaking though to him and with a sigh he gave in.
"Ok let me go change and I will be right back."
"Why?" After I asked the question I knew it was a stupid thing to ask.
"Well my shirt is all wet for one thing and my shorts are dirty."
"Sorry about your shirt."
"Don't worry about it. Can I ask you something about that?" I had a feeling he was going to get to this question eventually.
"Yeah."
"How long has it been since you have cried like that for your dad?"
"Not since the night he died." I stared at my sheets when I told him.
"You shouldn't do that it only makes it worse. But I won't bring it up again only if you want to talk about it will I bring it up. Now I will be right back."
While Seth was gone I went through my drawers and pulled out a pair of shorts and a tank top out of my pajama drawer. I usually only wear them during the summer while camping or at the beach but I had found out that when I am close to Seth I get warm. I was ecstatic that he was staying with me tonight I knew if he didn't I would have wound up going down stairs to him. I crawled back on the bed to set and wait for him to get back I didn't even know he was even at the door when it opened. I was so happy to see him I just smiled when I saw him then I really saw him. He had changed his shorts but they were still an old pair of pants that was cut off just below the knee but these were sweats instead. He had his t- shirt in his hand he stood there bare chested. This was a sight by all standards every muscle that he had was just perfect not to muscular but just enough. I felt my face heat up at him seeing me staring. I hide my face so he could not see me with a slight smile I had. I felt the bed move under Seth's weight and then his warm hand picking up mine.
"What made you change?"
"My shirt was a little wet too and when I am with you I always seam to get a bit warm. I did not want to get to hot." I did not know what was with me every time he asked me something I could not help but tell him the truth even if I didn't want to say anything at all. I kept staring at the blankets hoping for the blush on my cheeks to lessen and hope that he could not see it in the dark. Some of my hair fell in my face and before I could push it away Seth's hand came and pushed it behind my ear. I didn't trust my voice so I just shook my head and more hair fell in my eyes again. I stared at Seth's hand holding mine
"You sure you want me up here I can go down stairs when ever you want me too." I could feel his eyes on me even though I was staring at the sheets as I was laying down.
"I am sure I don't want to be alone right now we drugged up to many things I try to keep away." I couldn't look at him tears were stinging my eyes again at the thought of him leaving me up here alone. I didn't want him to know just how much I needed him right then.
"Ok I will stay for you." I watched him lay down with me and kept staring at him through the semi darkness of the room. Even with the little light I could see his face staring at me I felt my hair fall in to my face and his hand was there pushing it out of my face. I couldn't get my dad out of my head or the feelings of that night we lost him. His hand stayed on my face for just a second as his hand brushed against the slight tears I tried to hide. I would have to learn that I couldn't keep anything from him. Seth did the greatest thing he just pulled me back into his arms like before and held me tight. I feel asleep some point that night lying with Seth.
I woke up the next morning with Seth talking in my ear, "Katie hun wake up I have a surprise for you." I was still so tired I didn't want to wake up I would have been happy to just go back to sleep. But I knew that if Seth put any work in to something I should wake up. And I have never had a surprise from a boy before. I tried to rub my eyes a bit to wake myself up.
"Hmmm what surprise? How early is it?"
"It's about nine and you have to come down stairs to see the surprise." He looked really excited he had a bit smile on his face so I knew it would be good.
"Ok I am coming." I sat up so that I could try to wake up some more. "How late did we stay up last night?"
"I think till about three maybe four." Oh crap that late no wonder why I was so tired. I felt so exhausted I just leaned on to Seth hoping I could get just a few more minutes of sleep right there. "Come on lets go down stairs." He took my hand and pulled me off the bed and out the door to start down the stairs. I followed him down the stairs and when we go to the last few steps he pulled me to a stop. He stepped behind me and put his hand over my eyes and helped me step down the last few steps to were the table was. I took the last few steps into the room and he uncovered my eyes and there was food all over the table.
He had a huge plate of eggs next to an equally large plate of bacon. There was a stack of pancakes and syrup next to it. He even popped a can of biscuits and baked them. I knew how bad he was with cooking after our dinner so I knew he had help. But it didn't matter if he called Emily or his mom he went through all the trouble to just surprise me.
"You did this?"
"Yeah I had a little help."
I didn't even know what I was doing I did not even remember making the decision to actually hug him but I did. I still couldn't believe that it felt this good to be in his arms. But all too soon he let me go so we sat down to eat this huge breakfast he made for use. We talked about everything that we hadn't before. It was surprising that after all this time we were spending together that we still had things to talk about. We talked all morning till lunch I would have forgotten about lunch if my stomach did not remind me. We watched more movies waiting for the bonfire to start later that night. Out of nowhere Seth jumped up and grabbed his phone from the table. I heard him curse then dial the phone and then heard him talk to someone on the other end. At that moment I realized that we had no way to get to La Push for the bonfire and that was probably what he was doing. He came back after he hung up and just sat down like noting happened.
Embry pulled up not to long after Seth made a call I smiled as I was right about needing a ride. We left and headed to first beach early to find Quil there with a little girl. Quil was picking her up swinging her around and tickling her. Quil had her in his arms tickling her as she laughed and squirmed around trying to get free. He stopped tickling her and put her down as we walked up.
"Hey guys." Quil looked up at us as we walked up.
"Hey."
I was surprised when Quil turned to me and asked "Well how you feeling?
"Pretty good Seth is taking really good care of me." I could feel the blush creep up my face just making me blush that much more.
"That's good. Oh and this is Claire I watch for her parents every once in a while. Claire say hi to Seth and Katie."
"Hi. Quil play." Claire shyly waved from behind Quils leg at me and then started to yank on his shorts while staring up at him.
"Sorry sweetie I gotta get the bonfire set up with Seth and Embry can you sit and color with Katie."
Quil looked down at me. "Do you mind we have to get fire wood."
"I don't mind."
Seth leaned down to whisper in my ear. "I will be back Claire's good if she gets to be to much yell for me and Quil. She lessons to Quil better than anyone else." Seth kissed me on the cheek and ran to get firewood with Quil and Embry.
As soon as the guys were out of sight Claire pulled me over to her coloring book and started handing me crayons. She opened the book to a clean page and started to color and pointing me to where the blue should go. She just started chatting away about what her and Quil were doing. She went on about Quil to and keep hanging me crayons and pointing. I had to hand it to her she was very cute and a smart girl. I started to see the guys heading our way again with more wood than I thought the three of them could carry. I watched them come closer and drop all the wood they had into the already pretty big pile by where Claire and I were sitting. Seth looked over at me and smiled before finishing talking about that he was with Embry and Quil. Claire and I just keep coloring and talking she was now telling me about the stuffed animals Quil has brought her yesterday.
People started to file in to the bone fire right after Seth, Quil and Embry got the fire started. I was keeping Claire busy so that she was not to close to the big fire they started. Looking over to see who I knew I saw Jake and Paul carrying a man in a wheel chair across the sand. Sam was carrying a cooler in one arm and holding Emily's hand in the other. Slowly all of the boys that I had met at the hospital were making there way over the large fire. Seth came over to me as Claire was again back on what color goes were. He kneeled down next to me to speak to Claire.
"Claire I am going to steal Katie away."
"Why?"
"I want her to met someone."
"Why?
Quil came and picked Claire up from where we where coloring and swung her around before putting her on his shoulders. "Alright girly lets go play while Seth and Katie go talk to Sue."
Seth looked up at Quil to say. "Thanks Quil"
Seth then turned to me. "My mom just got here I want you to met her." He looked so cute thinking that I wouldn't want to met her.
"Really?" I was shocked that he would want me to meet his mom. But he just looked over at me while we stood up to go met his mom.
"Yeah mom is one of the tribal elders since dad died she took his place." Seth took my hand to lead me over to a lady that had short dark hair and was not too much taller than I was. She was sitting next to an older man and the man that was in the wheel chair.
"Mom this is Katie. Katie this is my mom."
"It's nice to met you finally. I saw you when I went to the hospital to talk to Seth but you were asleep. I hope are your feeling better and your arm is healing fine."
"I am feeling really good. Seth is helping me change the bandage and everything he's been a really big help."
"I am glad to hear that. Are you excited to hear the legends?"
"Yes Seth told me they are very interesting."
"They are as a people we see some truth in them. We take them seriously there some of our history. There passed down from generation to generation never changing. We are about to start eating you two better grab a spot so you don't miss out on the food."
"Yeah we should."
Seth looked down at me. "We better go sit you've see the guys eat."
We went over to the logs and I sat down on the cool sand and leaned back on the log. With out missing a beat Seth stepped over the log and took a set right next me. I was so happy when I felt his arm move behind me to rest behind me on the log. I was biting my lip at the fact that Seth could at any moment put his arm around me with everyone here. I was distracted when Seth handed me a sharpened stick and then a hot dog and bun. Before I could even stop myself I said "Yay hot dogs on a stick". Seth laughed at me and I could swear a few of the other guys did too but I know I said it way to low for them to hear.
I took my hot dog and put it on my stick to put over the fire. We all laughed and joked while we ate our hot dogs. We then had smores along with the hot dogs. A few marshmallows were caught on fire and even one was flicked over the fire at me and Seth. But Seth swatted it out of the way burning himself in the process I had a good feeling that Jared was going to get it later for doing that. I was leaning back and Seth was playing with my hair when the man in the wheelchair I now know is Billy called everyone to get quite. An older man started telling the stories in what I could only guess was Quileute language. Seth leaned over and was translating it for me. His breath tickled my neck and cheek as he spoke about sprit warriors, wolfs and the first wife.
As much as I was loving being this close to Seth for that long something about it made it hard to sit still. With his face so close to mine I wanted to just turn around and kiss him right there. It didn't help any that while whispering in my ear his arm found a way around my shoulders and I was now leaning on to him. But the fact that there was so many people and that he may not feel that way about me made me remain still. After the stories were over I leaned back on Seth who remained quite since he stopped translating the legends. I was enjoying this just being here with Seth and trying to figure out how he felt about me when his arms always mange to find there way around me. I felt Seth squirmed beside me and lean on to my ear again and asked, "You want to take a walk with me."
"Sure where?" I was really confused why he would want to take a walk in the dark. But then it hit me he wanted to tell me what he wanted to.
"Just down the beach."
He held his hand out to me to help me up and we started walking down the dark beach. The last time I was on this beach I sliced open my arm and met Seth. That day replayed in my mind as we walked to a tree I could barely see. I knew why we were going for a walk so he could tell me what he promised to tell me but I was still scared to hear it. I squeezed his hand to let him know I was there for him. He didn't say anything until we reached a tree that we sat on and after a few minutes he finally spoke.
"So the thing I promised to tell you its kinda two things and its big too."
Ok. I was so confused on how something could make him this nervous.
"I am going to tell you but please hear me out lesson to everything I say before you say anything. And please please don't run off with out at lest asking me questions and talking to me. He was staring me in the eyes begging me to not walk away."
I looked back at him to say, "I promise not going anywhere." He picked up my other hand and held them between us while looking me straight in the face despite the darkness I could make out the outline of his face. He squeezed my hands before he started to tell me.
"The legends that you heard tonight there true. The tribe takes the legends pretty seriously we don't harm wolfs because the sprit warriors were wolfs. It's against the tribal laws to kill one no matter what. He took a deep breath before going on. There's members of our tribe that are descents of the first sprit warrior. I am one of them the guys you met my friends there descents of him too. We protect the tribe we make sure everyone is safe. We keep everyone safe by being sprit warriors the protectors. We become the sprit warrior of a wolf when we are needed to protect the tribe."
I was so confused the legends I heard tonight were stories. Sprit warriors being wolfs and people protecting there tribe it sounded crazy. Was Seth messing me trying to make me think he was crazy so I wouldn't want to be around him anymore. Was he getting tired to taking care of me that he had to resort to scaring me away from him? Was I the butt of a joke between all of his friends? Was the whole night a set up? I was so confused but I had to say something.
"I don't understand." Was all I could get out. Seth pulled his hands way and put his head in his hands. It was like he was rubbing his face to try to words things right.
"I am not normal Katie feel my hands," he put his hands back in mine, "any of my skin don't I feel like I am sick with a fever to you."
"Yes but what dose this have to do with anything." I just thought he was always warm.
"Trust me it has everything to do with it. Three months ago I wasn't much taller than you or much bigger. I started to grow inches in weeks I grew stronger developed muscles and then the fever set in. it was the same with all of the guys. I am going to tell you what happened next but you have to trust me that it's the truth. I am not laying to you or messing with you its true. After the fever sets in anger builds up in us that to a point that we phase. Phase means we turn in to the sprit warrior inside of us. Your stuffed wolf I gave you one looks like my sprit warrior but I am a lot bigger."
"I still don't understand what you're trying to say."
"Katie I turn in to a horse sized wolf it's a gene that lives on in our tribe. We protect our tribe from the cold ones, vampires. All of my friends are wolfs too when we left the other night one of the guys patrolling around the rez caught the sent of a vampire we have been tracking. He called us to tell us we needed to come back. We left and tracked her down and was following her we chased her all the way to Canada. I can smell as good as a normal wolf and hear just as good if better than one. I am one of the newest ones to phase and the youngest."
"Why are you telling me this? I want to believe you but it's just not possible. People turning into wolfs and vampires just don't exist. Were wolfs and vampires are only in movies there not in the real world."
"How could I be joking feel my hands how could I be that warm and not be sick? In fact I don't think we can get sick or hurt. When we break or cut something it heals really fast. If you think I am joking and messing with you we can go back to the guys ask them or Emily even my mom anyone there will tell you the same thing."
"Ok so if it's true why tell me you have known me a week that hardly gives me the right to know something this big."
"Well that's the seconded thing I was going to tell you about. That day on the beach something happened on the beach when I met you. I imprinted on you its one of the wolf things. It's when we find our soul mate the person that is spouse to be with us. When I met you I imprinted on you I care about Katie. You have to feel it you can't deny it after last night."
I looked down looking at our hands his large tanned ones against my pale white hands. He was right about something happening that day I don't trust people that fast and yet I trusted him completely from the second we met. But he cared about me if he cares about why tell me all of this. Yet I couldn't deny that I didn't feel something for him. That being away from him was a scary thought and now right here I felt safe. But I couldn't help think he was telling me all this to get ride of me. I was beyond confused about this. Seth brought me out of my thinking by speaking to me.
"Katie please look at me. What are you thinking please tell me." He sounded hurt but why.
"Why didn't you tell me sooner?"
"I did not want to scare you. And I wanted us to get to know each other. I didn't want you to think what you felt was forced and that there was no choice for you. What ever you want me to be I will be that for you a friend boy, friend, brother anything you want. I want to be your boy friend but if you're not ready for that then I will wait until you are. Please talk to me"
"I don't know what to say. I don't know what I want. It's so much to take in right now." There was just so much to think about.
"Then I will be right here till you know what you want. If I ever say something or do something you don't like all you have to do is tell me. I don't want to make you uncomfortable with this. I just want you to be happy. Do you want to walk back and talk about this later when you have thought about all of this?
"Yeah." Was all I could get out I needed some time to get my thoughts straight.
"If you need to talk to someone about this besides me Sam imprinted on Emily so she knows what is going on." His voice sounded like he was in pain. But I knew I needed to talk to her I needed to know if it was the truth or not.
"Ok."
We stood and started to walk back to the fire. I couldn't hear the sounds of people talking and laughing anymore. This made me happy that way if it was a joke I wouldn't be laughed at by all of his friends. I expected Seth to take my hand again like he always seamed to be doing lately but he just walked with his hands in his pockets. I felt colder with out his warm hand in mine. I stared down at the dark sand at me feet thinking over he stories and what Seth had said. Yes he is really warm, really tall and all of that. But I could not get the fact that an extremely hot guy was being so nice to me a small plan not so special girl. While Seth could have any girl he wanted with his tall dark and handsome thing going for him. So I could not help but think that this was a joke. I would just have to watch him and not fall anymore for him. I barely realized we were back at the fire and then it did not register that Sam and Emily were still there as I sat down in the sand again thinking over everything some more.
I was staring at the fire my mind reeling with hundreds of things when I felt Seth walk up to me and kneel down next to me. "Are you ready to leave?" Not trusting my voice to not show my inner struggle with tears I just nodded. Seth held his hand out to me something I thought he would never get to do again. I took his hand as he helped me stand while I wiped the sand from my jeans. I held tightly to Seth's hand as I stumbled though the dark to the car. He helped me in the car before walking around and getting in next to me taking my hand again. The ride home was silent I just held Seth's hand as tight as I could. All I wanted to do was go home and think this over and maybe talk to Seth about it. But Sam had other plans. While we were on our way to the door Sam stopped Seth.
"Seth's let's go check in with the other guys on patrol and see if there is anything going on." Seth just squeezed my hand and let go to follow Sam into the woods. I looked at Emily who just walked over to me and put her hand on my shoulder while we walked inside.
"How are you holding up with all of this?"
"Ok I guess it's a lot."
"Yes it is. Did he at lest explain it well to you?"
"Pretty much he was pretty blunt." I took a deep breath before contenting. "He hates me right that's why he's doing this to me."
"What gives you that idea?"
"Why would Seth like me I am just a good deed he did for a day."
"Oh Katie your not a good deed. He really cares for you more than you can image."
"But how it's been a week just a week. Yeah we had good times watching movies cooking hanging out but why did he stay if he didn't like me."
"He dose care for really. Seth is my cousin and he would not be that cruel to lead you on like that. He imprinted on you that's forever. When Sam imprinted on me I was happy to be with him. Yes, he was with my cousin but I still fell for him. My scares on my face Sam lost control one day and phased when I was right next to him. I was to close and I almost died. But I still love him and I know it still hurts him because of what he did. Seth isn't lying to you he cares for you I can see it. I have known him since he was born he's not cruel like that."
At her words I realized all the bad things I thought about were wrong I knew he wasn't like that. I could just feel it that I was wrong. The tears that I had been holding in just started to flow. "Oh my god I am so stupid and blind."
"Your not the first one to misjudge there imprint. Some of the other girls really freaked out when the found out your doing fine."
The tears just kept coming now I couldn't stop them how could I have been so stupid. Emily just sat there next to me trying to clam me down but it didn't help the only one that could do that was Seth and he was out there some where running around as a wolf. I just couldn't stop I was starting to get on the verge of hyper venting and there was no turning back once I started that. I barely remembered the next events the door opened Emily stood up to go to Sam while Seth ran to my side and wrapped his arms around me. I just buried my face into his chest and breathed in his sent to clam me.
"Shhhh shhhh its ok. What's wrong did something happen while I was gone?" He sounded like he was the one upset not me.
"N- n-no." I was only able to get one word out.
"What's wrong if noting happened?" I took a deep breath to get more of his sent to clam before I spoke again.
"I didn't think you were telling me the truth. I thought you made up all of that to push me away instead of just telling me you don't want to see me again. Or that you did not like me you just took care of me and wanted a way out without hurting my feelings." I just confessed all my worries to him with out a seconded thought.
"What gave you that impression?"
"I don't know everything just seamed to good to be true. You didn't know me but you took care of me and I let you. Everything just seamed so easy with you I told you things no one else knows."
"Have you been paying attention this week I do care about you. You're my imprint I am spouse to be with you. I told you things no one else knows too." He pulled my chin up too look at him. "I love you it may scare you to but I do. If you don't love me right now it's ok. Just give me a chance to show you that I do care about you and love you." He loves me how can he love me after a week. And yeah it did scare me to death that he did but I was willing to give him a chance.
"Ok". I just buried my head back into his chest. Seth just squeezed me tight to his chest. "Ouch."
"I am sorry what did I do?"
"My arm still hurts."
"Let me see."
He unwrapped my bandage and looked at the stitches that were becoming more noticeable. Sure enough my arm was bleeding again was it ever going to stop. "Stay right here I am going to get the bag." He stood up and kissed me on my cheek before getting the bag out of the kitchen. I looked around the room and Sam and Emily were no where to be found they must of left when was crying. Seth came back and cleaned and rewrapped my arm like so many times in the past few days. With the last piece of tape he said, "All better and I should let you get to bed I should too I have to patrol a few hours tomorrow."
"What's patrolling?
"I have to go looking for that vampire."
"Alone?" I didn't want him to get hurt and I didn't want him looking for a vampire alone.
"The guys will be with me we are always together when we patrol."
"Is that what you where doing when you guys left the other night."
"Yes remember I told you."
"Well you told me a lot it was quite a bit of stuff to take in. What time do you have to leave?"
"About five. I will be gone only a few hours hopefully before you even wake up. Come on I will sit with you for a little bit before we both fall asleep." I couldn't be alone again tonight not after everything that has happened I just had to have Seth stay with me again.
"Please stay with me."
"Hun you know I shouldn't."
"But mom won't be back for two more days. And no one will know but us."
"Well the guys will know but they won't tell your mom."
"You're going to tell them." Ohmygod all of them where going to know about him staying with me.
"Yes and no. It's a wolf thing we read each others mind while we are phased. So if I am not careful they will see it there's not much privacy between us. We reached my room and Seth took my hand to lead me to sit on my bed.
"So they saw last night?" Great now all of them will know about my crying.
"Yeah don't worry the guys know what they see they need to pretend they didn't see it. We all know there's a line we never cross and what they saw is part of it. They won't bring it up unless you or I do."
"I guess I just need to get used to that don't I."
"Pretty much. Now I am going to step out so you can change."
Seth stood and kissed me again and left he closed the door I heard the stairs squeak as he went down stairs. I went to my dresser and pulled out a tank top and shorts with Seth being as warm as he is I knew I was going to get hot if I wore anything but shorts. I pulled the tie from my hair and brushed it. I went to the door and cracked it so that Seth knew it was ok to come back in. He came back and pushed the door open and stood there staring at me until I asked.
"You changed?"
My shorts were covered in mud. It happens a lot we run around with them tired to our legs so they get pretty dirty. I crawled in to her bed next to her. He came over and crawled into bed with me I snuggled up with him and put my hand on his chest it felt good to be there. Before I knew it I was asleep but the last thing I saw was Seth.