Thanks to everyone who review on the last chapter! Anyway, once again finally the next chapter….so here you go….
I transformed as soon as I was out of view of him, not bothering to strip down. What was wrong with me? I'm over him, I have my imprint now. I should be happy. Then why is it so hard to know that he l-, loves me? The tears were streaking down my fur; I tried to blink them away.
Bella what's wrong? Jared asked. I'd almost forgotten about them, but not quite.
Nothing, I said not sounding how I'd wanted.
There issomething so tell us- Paul had started impatiently, but I didn't want to talk right now. So blocked them from my thoughts, I just wanted to be alone. The trees were just a mass of green and brown blending as I raced past to avoid the others.
I pushed my legs faster hoping to be able to run away from it all. I guess it really wasn't a surprise, I'd always hoped deep down that it really was a lie. That he would come back, but now that I was actually hearing it from him… It was just a lot to take, especially now that I had a boyfriend. A whole different life.
Did that mean he wanted me back? No, Bella. Don't think like that, you'd just be hurting Jacob and yourself. And Edward, because you would not- no, could not go back to him. You're a werewolf now, with your soul mate.
So what if he's back, it's just Edward. I'm over him, right? Of course, don't be silly. But what if he does want me still, even if he knew what I am? Could I betray my instincts, the pack and even Jacob that much just for an…an old crush?
But I was just trying desperately to convince myself I'd never do something so horribly selfish, when the answer was maybe I would. Why couldn't I just be happy with what I had and not want more? I already had a great guy, a nice family…. I don't need two… I just want both of them.
You can't have Edward, Bella, he's not for you. I'm with, Jacob. I mean Edward was the one who left so he'll just have to deal with the consequences, even if it hurts him. My running slowed to a canter as I calmed down, thinking more rationally. I'm sure he'll find a nice vampire girl, be happy… hopefully.
But what if he doesn't?! Stop right there, Bella. Just stop thinking about him, completely. No need to worry he'll be fine. I started thinking of the pack, La push, Charlie, Jacob, anything that didn't have to do with the Cullens.
I stopped and looked around me, not like anything ever looked familiar. I mean it was just a bunch of trees and I was in a forest, trees were everywhere. I sniffed the crisp air; it had some 'Cullen' smell in it. It's just probably coming from me though, as Alice and Edward smothered me in their stench.
No smell of my brothers, I must have gone pretty far. Oh well. My tongue lolled out of the side of my mouth as I panted lightly, a bit out of breath from the sudden run. I felt kind of funny with my tongue hanging out, like a dog. I giggled to myself at the feeling.
I let out a steamy puff of air, sighing as I relaxed into another form. My fur disappeared, my bones shrank, mouth changed, senses dulled, slightly. The phasing process took less than a second; I rolled my shoulders back, and then cracked my neck feeling refreshed after my little meltdown-ish thing.
I reached down to my ankle for my clothes but they weren't there… I smacked my forehead with the heel of my hand. Duh! I'd exploded without taking my clothes off! Great, how smart of me… Well I wasn't really planning on going to tell the pack what happened yet so I guess I was fine until then.
I sat down and pulled my knees to my chest feeling tired. I'll just rest for a minute, and then figure out what I'm going to do… my eyelids slid down over my eyes as I slowly drifted into a light sleep.
My head jerked up, there was snarling and howling. It was getting closer every second. I wonder what the problem is, I thought groggily. The ground shook from the running wolf, they were getting closer. A snarling reddish wolf came into sight, skidding to a stop when he saw me.
I phased quickly hoping I'd been fast enough. Jacob approached me sniffing curiously.
Why is there vampire scent all over you? He demanded, growling at me. Did you fight a vampire without us? The guys told me you'd run off acting weird.
No! How stupid do you think I am? I asked him agitated by his assumptions.
Then why do you smell like leech? He asked again, a little more nicely. More calmly.
Well…. Edward and Alice came back. I couldn't lie. The stench was all over me. I was not in the mood for this.
What?! He gasped, his upper lips twitching, wanting to form a snarl through his teeth.
Chill out. I told him showing him what had happened earlier, but mostly kept my feelings to myself.
Stupid bloodsuckers hugging you… he grumbled extremely upset that they were back. His growls rumbled from his chest as he paced back and forth. They have no right being here… We'd better go warn the pack so they don't break the treaty.
Sure, Jacob. What else was I supposed to do? Do you have any clothes? I'd rather be in human form at the moment.I really was just scared that I'd let one of my thoughts of Edward slip in and upset him.
Yeah, I brought some for you just in case. He thought, jerking his head to a bundle of clothes at his ankle. Hold on a second. He left me alone while he phased back, and then tossed me a shirt and shorts. I snatched them up in my mouth leaving the area to change back.
I slipped on the clothes as soon as I was human again and hurried back to Jacob. I didn't want to be alone to long, afraid of my mind wandering. He gave me a quick kiss on the lips before we set out for the pack. We walked side by side, his arm on my shoulder giving me a reassuring squeeze.
Long tense minutes passed before the silence was broken. I couldn't take it anymore; I stepped in front of him. He almost ran me over not catching my movements fast enough.
"Sorry," he mumbled, his eyes searching the woods around us.
"Jacob, look at me," I commanded taking his browned face in my hands. "I can't stand the silence. Say something."
He looked at me curiously, a smile playing at the edges of his lips. "Bella, what do want?" He stopped looking away from me at something, his shaggy eyebrows raising for a second before assuming their original position.
"Jacob, what are you looking at?" I asked distracted by his sudden distraction, I went to turn my head, but he stopped me. He was looking at me again, his hands on the sides of my face. "What-?"
"I love you Bella," he told me cutting me off.
"I love you too, Jacob," I said my face crumpling into confusion. What was with the sudden passion?
"Kiss me," he said almost urgently. I blinked, why didn't he just kiss me?
"Okay," I breathed, tilting my head up to his mouth. He leaned down pressing his lips to mine, kissing me passionately. It seemed almost desperate the way his lips moved under mine, but it was loving all the same. As I took in a breath I understood why the kissing was so immediate, the sickly aroma made me feel like choking.
I pushed Jacob away. "Jacob!" I gasped, outraged at him. "How could you?! You knew Edward was watching us and you have me kiss you! In front of him!" My arms were shaking from my anger towards Jacob, why did he have to do that? Even if he was jealous he knows I wouldn't leave him!
"Bella, I'm sorry. I didn't know you would get this mad, I was just-" He began sullenly, looking apologetic. I cut him off though; I didn't want to hear it.
"Just stop there Jacob, I'm sure you had your reasons," I told him sounding understanding, tricking him. His face lit up, and then I raised my voice crushing the hope on his face. "And I'm sure Edward hates me now. Now that he knows what I am and now that he thinks I'm rude enough to make out with my boyfriend in front of him!"
Jacob frowned madly at himself, "I'll go tell the pack Bella. I suppose you want to be by yourself."
"Yeah, I do. So later, Jacob," I said harshly. He waved and we went separate ways, me to my house for some sleep and him to 'warn' the pack. I ran home, no tears coming, knowing it would exhaust me enough to go to sleep almost immediately.
When I got there, their scent was still there bothering my sensitive nose. I quickly showered to get the smell off me before climbing into bed. I was asleep as soon as my eyes closed.
So a little dramatic, but what do you think? Please review! I love reviews!