A/N: So here is chap 13. Thanks to all the reviews, alerts, and faves. Sorry if there are any grammatical or spelling errors. Wanted to update since I haven't in a minute. Hope you enjoy!

Chapter 13

"Grief can't be shared. Everyone carries it alone. His own burden in his own way." ~ Anne Morrow

"I can't believe that we actually did this." Matt announced looking up from the lap top. He could hear Anna sigh as if she was annoyed with his statement.

"Damon asked me too." She retorted not looking up from her laptop.

"I feel like we're betraying Bonnie. I mean did we have to look up everything instead of just asking her." He answered to the vampire who didn't seem to be paying him much attention.

"Sorry Anna, but I agree with Matt on this one." Jeremy sat up from the couch he was lying on. "Bonnie is like family to us. It just feels weird."

"I for one am okay with this. I love Bonnie but something isn't right with the girl. Maybe now that we know something we can help her." Caroline added and received a glare from Matt and a smile from Anna.

"So we are just going to send whatever we find to Damon?" Matt asked leaning back on his chair.

"Yeah, we're almost done though."

"It doesn't make sense for Bonnie to do all those things without a reason."

"Well hopefully now Damon can get one out of her. We have some pretty damning evidence."

"I don't know. To me it doesn't look like she was doing anything bad at all killing supernatural beings." The blonde hesitated; he still wasn't sure about this whole thing.

Alaric bust into the living room of Jeremy and Anna's home. "What's wrong?"

"Uhh I just found out something about Bonnie. Something I wasn't expecting." Moving towards the center table he placed the folder full of papers down. Scattering them across the table.

"Is it bad?" Caroline worried.

"It's a little bit of both, depending on how you look at it." Alaric said moving to the laptop by Anna. Everyone was crowding around him trying to see what the big deal was.

Once he finished typing and the page was loaded in front of them. "What are we looking at Ric?" Anna asked not sure what type of information he was bringing them.

"Give me one minute." Fast-forwarding the video he stopped. "Who does that look like?"

"It could be anybody."

"Isn't that Bonnie's cousin and that other witch dude. What's his name?"

"Josh." Matt finished. "What are they doing?"

Alaric moved back over to the table, "Seven years ago they lived there and there was a fire." Looking through the papers he scattered, he found what he was looking for. Opening the newspaper they read the headline and a few lines before there was a huge gasped. "Oh my God." Caroline said covering her mouth and backing away.

"Are you sure this is Bonnie?" He showed them another picture of the women with the name Bonnie Bennett under it.

"I could have never seen this coming?" Jeremy backed away.

"Did you know anything about this Matt?"

He looked at all the eyes on him. "I had no idea. She never told me."

"We have to send this to Damon." Anna said taking the laptop from Alaric "How did you find this?"

"Well I just put her name in the database and it popped up on some news sight." Alaric moved to find this cell phone. "I'm going to call Damon. He needs to hear about this." Matt was left looking at the picture in front of him and reading the entry. He wished she'd told him it had gotten this bad because this was bad.

Damon sat at the bar that apparently was Howie's place of business; he had seen the man make at least 5 transactions since he got here. The group had spread out to search for Bonnie who hadn't returned home last night. It was going on 4 o'clock in the afternoon and no one had heard from her. No voicemails, calls, or text messages. They panicked after hearing about her addiction and went searching for her. Stefan and Elena checked hotels, Meg and Evan checked other bars and clubs, Nate and Jasmine went searching at other known druggie spots to see if she would appear. Tyler had said he'd stay home with Josh and Sarah just in case she came back.

He looked around the bar and it wasn't really crowded but it was getting there. The thoughts in his mind started to wander as the alcohol slid down his throat. How could Bonnie not tell him she was addicted to drugs? How come she didn't come to him? She had chosen to lie instead and Damon hated who it had turned her into. He took another sip of his drink when a woman took a seat next to him. She turned to face him and before she could speak he held his hands up and stopped her.

"Not worth my time. Besides I'm spoken for."

"I know. Bonnie's your girlfriend." He turned his head to get a good look at the women. She had long golden hair and piercing blue eyes. She ordered a coke and rum while he continued to stare her up and down. "Well aren't you going to ask me how I know her?"

"Who are you?"

"That's not important right now. The important thing is that I know some things about your girlfriend that might be able to help you."

"Like what?"

"Like why she got hooked on that stuff in the first place?"

"How would you know that?"

"I'm the reason. Not intentionally but I'll take the credit."

"What did you do?" He said ignoring the bartender who was asking him did he want a refill.

"Let's just say I took something from her. Don't her friends know? I mean it seems pretty obvious if you think about it."

"We don't know anything?"

"Not you or the other ones from Mystic Falls. The ones who where here when it all happened her cousin and boyfriend." Damon's jaws tightened at the mention of Josh. "The ones that if they saw you with me right now would try to kill me."

"Why shouldn't I be trying to kill you right now then?"

"First, because there's so many witnesses. Second, I think you need my help if you don't want you little witch to die."

"What do you want?"

"You'll find out soon enough." She stood up and before disappearing into the now crowded bar she spoke. "By the way my names Alyssa."

Damon turned to the girl who had walked away with a smile on her face. Who the hell was she and how did she know so much.

Sara flicked through the channels as Josh sat next to her and Tyler on the recliner next to them. "Do you have anything you want to watch?" She asked no one in particular.

"Jersey Shore." Tyler said holding his hands out for the remote that she threw at him. "It reminds me of Bonnie. We would watch it together whenever it came on."

"Are you sure you want to watch it now I mean in the situation that we're in." Sara spoke which caused Josh to get up and stand in the window looking out. She had noticed he would do it every ten minutes since they went out on their hunt for Bonnie. She didn't like it but understood he was worried.

"I feel like I should be out there helping. I mean I'm a wolf we have a great sense of smell and I could track her."

"Yeah but someone has to stay here."

"There are two of you here, so why do we need three people to wait and not do anything." Tyler elaborated. "You know what forget this I'm going to look for her myself."

"You want some company." Josh asked going to grab his jacket.

"I'm sure Tyler could handle it by himself." Sara spoke too quickly getting a glare from Josh.

"The more the merrier." He said.

"I'm going with you then."

"Who's going to be here if Bonnie comes home?" Sara sat up looking between the two.

"Why are you doing this?" Josh inquired causing Tyler to venture off to get his jacket.

"Doing what?" She asked not sure what was wrong.

"You know what. You're trying to keep me from finding Bonnie?"

"I'm not. There's already people looking for her. Why can't you just wait here?" The blonde woman pleaded.

"Because something could be wrong with her and I'd rather be out there trying to help then in here just waiting."

"Well if you go I'm going?" Reaching for her jacket, Josh stopped her.

"Then who's going to be here in case she comes back."

"Tyler can stay."

"Sara, why are you being so childish about this? Bonnie is my friend, why can't I be worried?" he asked sincerely cupping her face in his hands.

"You can worry in here with me."

"I don't want to damn it. If you could stop being so possessive over me and trying to keep me from the people I care about you could see that I'm scared for my friend."

"That's what you think I'm trying to do?" Eyes growing in her head, Sara watched Josh waiting for an answer.

"I do. I think you like having control over me." The blonde sighed grabbing his upper arm.

"I feel like I'm losing you. Ever since she came back you've been drifting away."

"If you were more confident you would know that isn't true."

"So now I'm insecure. You know what fuck it. Go look for her. But when you come back I won't be here."

"What are you talking about?"

"It's either her or me." She backed away crossing her arms as Josh's eyes grew in shock.

"What the hell is wrong with you? I already chose you. Why are you making such a big deal out of this?"

"Me or her?"

"You need some time to relax so I'm going with Tyler and hopefully while I'm gone you will reevaluate some things." He followed Ty out the door and Sara began seething.

He didn't want her. He didn't love her like he claimed too. He was still caught up with his witch bitch of an ex. Running upstairs and to their room she took all her clothes and started throwing them in the bag. She was so angry she hadn't realized that she knocked down his safe. She went over to pick it up when something caught her eye. There seemed to be some type of small compartment under where the safe had been. She moved and opened up the space without a second thought.

Placing her hands in, she pulled out a medium sized shoe box. On the top it read Bonnie Bennett. Even the girls name made her blood boil. Ripping the top off, she looked at the items inside the box. She pulled out a CD case. On the cover it said Mix CD for Josh from Bon. The vampire rolled her eyes at the case in her hand as she flipped it over and read the songs on the back. Magic by Colbie Caillat, Can't help falling in love by Ingrid Michealson, Open Your Heart by Madonna and others.

She felt sick to her stomach. How did Josh even fall for this? She looked like some love sick teenage girl. Which, Sara thought, she probably was at the time. Placing it back in the box she took out a few pictures of the two and some with the whole group. Then a velvet box made her heart catch in her throat.

"Please don't be what I think this is." Opening up the box she gasped and covered her mouth. The green emerald cut jewel sat on a white gold band, with accent diamonds. It was beautiful and simple, it kind of reminded Sara of Bonnie. She couldn't believe he was going to marry her. Her heart not being able to handle this revelation, she threw the whole box against the wall and sobbed as she bought her legs to her chest.

Through her blurred eyes a piece of paper caught her attention. It looked like parts of it had been burned, picking it up the top read Certificate of Death. Looking over the paper certain letters still where intact, she still couldn't read the whole name. She was getting ready to grab the other sheet when the door opened. Sara looked up to see a pint of ice cream and two spoons in Josh's hands.

"Look I didn't mean—" He stopped when he looked around his room. Her clothes had been thrown in the suitcase on the bed. He then noticed her sitting at the foot of the bed with a piece paper in her hand.

"What the hell did you do?" He screamed rushing over to her and grabbing the paper out of her hand. Picking up the box he began to put the items back in.

"You were going to marry her?"

"You shouldn't have gone through my stuff."

"I had to get answers somehow because no one was giving me any?"

"You went too far?"

"Were you going to marry her?"

"It doesn't matter." Trying to ignore the woman, he continued picking up the items.

"Who is Lydia?" Josh stopped and looked up at her with unforgiving eyes. "Was she your girlfriend before Bonnie?" Breathing in deeply and out. He placed the box down and turned to look at her.

"I guess I should tell you now." She turned to him as Josh began speaking.

"Thanks for letting me stay the night."

"No problem." Shirley had took the blanket she folded and placed it back on the couch.

"I can't go back until I know more answers and why there seems to be a blank spot in my head." The witch stared at the woman waiting for her to say something.

"We should start making our way to the grave it's going to be getting dark soon." Bonnie grabbed her keys and got into the car following the woman.

They arrived to the grave after a 45 minute drive. "I still don't remember this place."

"Maybe when we see whatever we are here to see it'll come rushing back." They walked until they got to the spot where the tree was suppose to be, "Look around and see if anything stands out." Bonnie strode through some of the tombstones and none of the names stuck out to her.

"Bonnie? I think I found something." She could hear the woman's faint voice.

The witch came rushing over to the psychic who stood staring at the site. "What?" She looked at the grave and read the stone

HERE LIES

LYDIA C.W. BENNETT

DAUGHTER

JULY 20, 2004- JANUARY 5, 2005

Bonnie could feel something happening but she didn't know what. "Is that who I think it is?" Shirley glanced at the witch to see if anything was happening.

"I don't know I don't remember her." Silence filled the air as Bonnie stared at the stone. She couldn't speak as a creeping sensation filled her.

"I think she's your daughter."

A/N: So Bonnie had a baby girl who she lost at five months. I guess everyone is starting to put the pieces together in this story but there are still a few hidden surprises so stay tuned.