So here's how Loki spent the rest of his weekend. Saturday evening after Tony dropped him off he did his homework and then watched Funny Girl with his mother while Thor and Odin watched football in the other room. The two laughed and sung along with Barbara Streisand and Loki secretly adored the fashion the girl wore. He stayed quiet about that though, his mother may be aware and supportive of his sexuality but she was an old school woman and he was pretty sure that the idea that he wasn't completely opposed to the thought of being a woman would be too much for her to handle.
Sunday morning he called Victor and Raven to come over (Logan wasn't answering his phone and Loki knew better then to push him when he was in one of his moods) and they curled up on the couch and watched a Dr. Who marathon. The tenth doctor of course, so Loki and Raven could sigh over David Tennant and so Victor, as the only person attracted to girls in the room could gaze longingly at Rose Tyler (Yes Victor is bisexual, though most guys pissed him off. The only boy he had ever liked was Loki and they quickly realized they were better off as friends.).
"Holy shit Rose don't go in there you idiot!" Raven laughed "Oh my god when the doctor tells you to stay put you should stay put." Loki smirked and stole some popcorn out of the giant bowl between them "Honestly if the doctor was taking me around the universe I'd do anything he asked of me." Victor grabbed a handful of popcorn and threw it at him "Shut up about your boner for David Tennant I'm trying to understand the plot." Loki and Raven burst out laughing at Victor as he picked up the remote and turned the TV up to full volume. "Who cares about a plot when you can just stare at gorgeous people with accents all day?" Raven asked, gazing at the 10th doctor with stars in her eyes "Though I have to admit, that while the 10th is more interesting the 9th doctor was way hotter." Loki snickered "Yes darling we all know that you only go for guys in their 30s or over."
Victor snorted and the girl glared at the two boys, twirling a curl of white hair around her finger (she had just dyed it again yesterday). "Wait how old is Prof. Lehnsherr again?" Victor asked and Raven's face fell "40 I think" she muttered and the boys laughed "Raven" Loki said "come on, you can do better! And by better I mean a guy who isn't middle aged with a boyfriend, or did you forget that him and Professor. X are the cutest couple since Rose and the Doctor?" Victor elbowed him "Get your mind out of the Doctor Who gutter Loki we're trying to have a serious conversation here."
Loki shoved him back and picked up the remote to pause the TV (On a wonderful close up of Rose looking stupid I might add!) "Oh all right" he turned to Raven "Sweetie we adore you but it's time for an intervention. Lehnsherr may be ridiculously attractive for a man his age but he is way too old for you and in a committed relationship with the sweetest psychology teacher ever."
Raven's smile turned wicked "He likes me though; we've flirted, after school. And he's driven me home before when I miss the bus."
Victor's mouth fell open and Loki put a slender finger under his chin, effectively shutting it and causing Victor to turn bright red. "Hun that's really unattractive. And Raven!" he turned back to his friend and took in her narrow eyes, typical teenage "I will not listen to anything you say no matter how reasonable it is" expression. "Do not play the other woman role, he was probably just being nice and even if he meant something by it that doesn't mean you should pursue him! That's so illegal and just generally whore-ish that I can't even believe you."
Victor nodded feverishly "Totally Raven, I mean think about it. If anything ever happened he would lose his job and defiantly go to jail, probably be labeled as some sicko that rapes little girls and then he would have to carry that title around his whole life."
"Not to mention you would break up the cutest couple since-"
Victor cut him off "Since Rose and the Doctor yes Loki we've heard." He shot Loki a sharp glare and the boy curled in slightly on himself, yes ok he was out of it and really didn't want to be talking about rape and jail and sickos, he had had enough of that lately. Really all he wanted was to watch David Tennant zoom around in a blue box and encounter things that Loki never could because he lived in a world filled with cold grey days and being slammed against walls and violated over and over by squinting blue eyes.
But enough of his bipolar emotions, Loki spent the day with his friends and then kicked them out when his father came home. Odin was not a huge fan of Loki's friends and so far the boy had hidden how crazy his father had become from everyone except Logan. So he ushered them hurriedly out the door, trying to ignore the sharp look Victor gave him. The boy was smart enough to know when something was going on; they had known each other since 7th grade and knew each other's tells by now.
Victor watched Loki carefully as he practically threw them out. His eyebrows were climbing up towards his precise hairline and his luminous eyes were getting bigger with every second, Victor knew what that meant. Loki was on the verge of flipping out and breaking down. They had all heard the slam of the door when Odin came home from work and that second Loki had switched off the TV and told them that they had to leave. Victor wasn't mad though, he knew Loki well enough to know that whenever he was rude it was probably for a good reason. It was always a good idea to do as Loki said; he was so smart about things sometimes that Victor had once or twice entertained the idea that he was psychic. So all he did was pat his small friend on his shoulder and peer into his face for an instant, see the confusion and terror in his expression for a second before Loki was closed off to him again.
"See you at school Loki" he muttered, grabbing Raven by the elbow and pulling her out with him, leaving Loki standing there in the doorway for a moment, a pale, skinny figure surrounded by the darkness of the interior of his house, then he shut the door and the two friends were left outside.
"Damn is that boy moody" Raven said loudly as they walked down the driveway to where her tiny bug was parked.
Victor shook his head "I don't know Raven, he's really sad about something but he won't talk to anybody about it."
Raven got in the car and started it up, waiting for Victor to get in, her expression contemplating. "Well if he won't talk to us then you know the only person he would talk to right?"
Victor smiled "Logan"
"Right you are" Raven grinned at him, and Victor really loved this girl, sure she was messed up and could be completely ridiculous sometimes but look at her now, white hair flying crazily around her face and eyes bright with excitement at the idea of helping their friend with whatever he was going through.
"Well what are we waiting for then?" he laughed getting in the car and cranking up the radio.
Logan was having a shit weekend. This foster home was worst then the last, gross overweight adults that made him clean their dishes and wash their clothes. He glanced at the woman now, her stomach hanging out over her to-tight jeans. Hating the way she pointed her cigarette at him as scrawny kids surrounded her, pulling at her hair.
"Boy, put the brats to bed." She spat at him and he sighed, throwing down his dish towel and picking up the youngest child by the armpits, swinging him up over his broad shoulder and taking the other children's hands.
"And when you're done I want you asleep, in bed, no computer or phone or I'll cut off your service." He didn't bother asking why the hell she would cut off his service, maybe because Rouge had kept calling him and hanging up, maybe because he had spent hours online last night, praying that Loki would Skype him, or maybe just because she was a bitch. So Logan nodded and pulled the too skinny children down the hall with him.
He tucked the two boys into bed and then sat down at the tiny bed across the room. He gently woke up the little girl that had been dozing on his shoulders and laid her down in the bed, tucking threadbare covers over her.
"Logan" she blinked up at him with huge green eyes and he was reminded with a pang of Loki, staring up at him with the same trust.
"What is it Sara?" he asked, pushing back her tangle of blonde hair and hating how thin the girl was, she was 5 but looked to be about 3 with how tiny she was.
"I'm so cold here" she whispered and his dead little heart twitched with the naked vulnerability in her words.
"Sara sweetheart how about I get my blankets for you?" She nodded earnestly and he smiled at her, hating that a sweet little girl like this had to live in such a horrible situation. He walked quickly across the hall to his room and pulled his quilt off his bed before hurrying back over to the little kid's room.
"Sara" he said softly "How about once I'm 18 and I can leave I see if I can take you with me?"
It was amazing to see the way her face lit up, he didn't know why he was getting her hopes up like this. All he knew was that he wanted, for once, to make someone happy.
A few minutes later he was walking out of the room, glancing back for a moment to see Sara's angelic face, peaceful in sleep and he allowed his expression to soften, turning more sensitive than anyone would have ever thought he could look. When he got into bed he glanced at his phone for a second and saw a few missed calls from Loki and bit his lip. Oh what if one day Loki would realize that they were meant to be? What if they could finally be together….and…..he smiled lightly….he could adopt Sara and him and Loki would raise her together. He would be 18 in less than a year and Loki would be almost 17 by then, practically adults. He was just on the brink of sleep, lost in a fantasy of himself and his green-eyed best friend living and loving together when his phone buzzed and he was jolted into awareness.
He flipped it open, too tired to care that his foster mother would destroy him if she found out, she was probably passed out from an overload of fattening food and smokes anyways.
"What?" he snarled into the phone
"Damn your sweet Logan, oh did we wake you up!" Raven's voice was way too high pitched and annoying and he could hear Victor laughing in the background.
"Fuck off" he muttered "I've had like 3 hours of sleep all weekend"
Raven snickered into the phone "Well that sucks for you, so are you coming outside or should we come in?"
Logan sighed heavily "Hold up, I'll come out." He ended the call and gazed for a second at the background of his phone, it was some old picture of him and Loki from during the summer, before Loki had gotten so sad. They were both smirking up at the camera, eyes narrow, arms thrown over each other's shoulders. He smiled bitterly and shoved the phone into his pocket then swung his legs over the side of the bed and shoved his feet into moccasins before clambering out the window.
He saw Raven and Victor parked on the street, both leaning against her blue bug and he realized that it wasn't even that late yet by the brightness of his two friend's eyes and the almost tangible energy that surrounded them. His body felt as if was 1 in the morning but it was probably around 8. 'I really need to get more sleep.' He thought, waving a lazy hand at the two.
"So Logan we were just at-." Victor started, to loud, someone would hear. He raised a hand, shutting the boy up immediately.
"Talk quietly I'm not supposed to be outside, in fact I'm supposed to be asleep by now according to the bitch so you better hurry up whatever you wanted to say."
Raven and Victor both had identical looks of shock as they glanced up at the house; it was a typical suburban household with an attached garage and a tiny square lawn. It looked like a house that a nice family would live in, a family with children who tried out for sports, a hardworking father and a sweet mother who stayed at home and cleaned all day. But one look at Logan proved just how wrong that was.
Raven opened her car door and dug out a can of Budweiser and threw it to Logan. He caught it and raised an eyebrow at the girl.
"I'm driving Victor home so he won't let me drink it, and we have to talk to you about Loki." She said
Victor nodded fervently "And we figured you wanted to be at least a little buzzed for that."
Logan stared at them, trying to remember exactly why he was friends with people like this, but well…..they weren't wrong so he shrugged and popped the top of the bottle, upending it and taking a long gulp.
"So" Victor started, thankfully in a quieter voice then before. "We were at Loki's today and he was acting off…."
"More off then normal" Raven piped up
Logan nodded, taking another long sip and jumping up on the hood of the car, leaning back against the windshield and gazing up at the night sky.
"And the second his dad came home he flipped out and kicked us out. I mean I know that something's wrong, something had been wrong with him since September. He was normal for like the first week of school and then he just got so….."
"Odd" Logan said softly, wishing that he was brave enough to call Loki, but he couldn't, all he could do was hope that Loki called him. Because what if Loki was busy with that new kid? What if he said that he didn't want to talk to Logan? God, he wouldn't be able to handle that, it would shatter him.
"Yeah his dad….you guys he hasn't told you anything about him for a reason. The guy started drinking all the time and…he's terrible to Loki. Not physically abusive, but the things he says to him are almost worse." Logan said quietly, knowing that Raven and Victor were staring at him; he could feel the weight of their gazes.
"But what else happened Logan?" Raven asked her voice shaky and more feminine then he had ever heard it sound. "There must be something else."
He shook his head. "I know there is, there must be. But….Loki won't tell me anything, I don't think he's talked to anyone about whatever it was. He's just so scared, I….whenever I try to get close to him he just starts crying and saying how sorry he is."
They three friends were silent for a few minutes, all staring up at the sky and the few stars that weren't drowned out by the lights of the city.
"What's he sorry for?" Victor finally asked and Logan's heart went out to him, he realized then just how much Victor and Raven cared. They cared about Loki just as much as he did, maybe not in the same way but still Loki mattered to them.
"He's sorry that he can't be what I want." The older boy murmured, feeling so vulnerable. He had never said upfront to anyone how he felt about Loki. Sure he made it pretty obvious but he had never actually said the words, had never said that he had romantic feelings for his best friend. Hell, romantic feelings, he sounded as if he should be in a chick flick. But as long as he was being honest with himself, he had romantic feelings for his best friend; he was madly in love with his best friend.
"I love him" he muttered to the night air and the two teenagers leaning against the car. Nobody said anything for a long time after that, they all heard the raw truth in those words, and how can you come up with a witty retort to that? Who would want to?
Well then, that was fun.
Sorry I promised stuff about Tony this chapter but I got wayyyyy to caught up in the wonderful angst that is Logan. They'll all be back to school tomorrow and I actually will have a Tony Logan faceoff then, seriously hold me to it guys, I can't keep righting angsty chapters like this it will be the death of me. Also the beginning of this was how I spent my weekend (A very nice date, Funny girl with my mom and then Doctor Who with some friends) and it was wonderful (although unfortunately I don't have Tony and Logan going crazy over me).
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