I wish that I could write these chapters faster, but I feel like if I rush them, they wouldn't be very good. I've been house sitting for the past week and it has allow me time to write because there is no internet so I don't have any distractions. I've read my previous chapters a couple of times and I wish that I could change a few things but oh well, I can just do better from here on out.

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Harm's Apartment

North Union Station

1800 EST

Harm's POV

I've never been good with words. Well I mean with words of expressing my feelings. Maybe it's the fear of rejection or maybe it's the fear of things not working out down the road. It could be to blame from being at a young age of losing my father and living with holding my emotions inside to show others that I was strong. However, tonight I finally did it! I finally told Sarah Mackenzie that I loved her. Since my crashing in the Ocean, I have been beginning to think that you never know what can happen in life. I'm coming close to the age of 40 and I don't want to be standing around wishing that I would have done something to make a life with Mac. I think once I got the words out of my mouth, I must have held my breath till she responded because once she said that I know how to surprise her I let out a huge sigh.

"Are you telling me that you, Miss Sarah Mackenzie do not like surprises?" I tease with one my own smiles.

"No, not at all, it just that I was not expecting to hear you say that. No offense Harm, but you don't have the greatest track record of telling someone how you feel. Though I believe that I've always thought that there was something there though I just told myself if you felt something you would have said something. But then again, you did say on the Admiral's porch that there is someone that will always love me. At that time I just made myself believe that you meant you loved me as a friend, but tonight I feel different." She stops for moment while she looks at the ground. She then looks up at my eyes; she looks like she is going to start to cry again. "That's what you mean right…you love me more than just a friend."

Oh god, she second guessing everything and if I don't do something she will pull away. I scoot across the couch so that I'm sitting right next to her and then I pull her onto my lap. She relaxes in my arms and rests her head against my shoulder. "Oh Sarah, I love so much more than just a friend. Yes, I love you like a friend, like a best friend. But, I also love you as a woman that I want to spend the rest of my life with." I stop for a second to keep my composure. Before I begin again, I hear her take a loud breath. "Sarah, I love you for the woman that you are. You are strong, independent and you don't take crap from anyone, especially from me. You challenge me in everything that I do, and you have made me a better person for it. I love that you have saved my life multiple times and you never hesitate while doing so. Sarah, I love you more than life itself."

"Then why?" Sarah sits up and turns her head so that she is staring straight at me.

"Why what?" She is confusing me. Didn't I just explain to her why I love her? I don't know if I have it left in me to say it all again.

"Why now? Why couldn't you say it before? Why couldn't you have said it before I came that close to walking down the isle?" She is breathing really fast. I can't tell if she is angry, sad or what.

"I don't like to do things in the traditional way." I always like adding humor to situations like this just to relieve any last remain tension.

"Well no shit Harm!" She laughs. "But seriously, why now and not before?"

"I have recently realized that there are some things in life that you can just simply watch from the sidelines. Sarah, I faced the truth of my feelings towards you a while ago. But the one thing I know was if you love someone, the most important thing is to make sure that person is happy even if it is with someone else."

"In this case, me being happy with Mic" I think I just saw the light bulb turn on above her head.

"Yeah, I could never really tell if you truly loved Mic, but it wasn't my place to question it. Well up until our little conversation on the Admiral's porch. For some reason that night, I had the feeling that you were very hesitant about everything. I would have confessed my love for you that night, but like I said before I didn't want to overwhelm you. I mean we were at your engagement party, I think that I would have been a little too much for another man to tell you that he loves you. Then when the wedding was cancelled I thought I'd have my chance but Renee's father died and when I got back you were gone on that TAD assignment."

"And you took that case so you could see me" She nodded while finishing the story. Thankfully she had a smile on her face so I knew that we are still on the same page.

"What about back in Sydney? You couldn't say anything then, you basically pushed me away."

"I wasn't trying to push you away. I just said not yet. Sarah, I was still trying to get my life back in order from returning from flying. I felt out of place once I stepped foot in the JAG office again. I didn't want to get in a committed relationship when my life wasn't in a steady position. It wouldn't be fair. I told you not yet so you would understand that I was interested but the timing wasn't right. I guess my choice of words weren't exactly the best to allow you to understand that because you went off with Mic's ring shortly afterwards."

She is still sitting straight up in my lap. She is not saying anything but shakes her head and just laughs. "Well our communication skills just suck between each other." I look at her strangely trying to understand what she is saying. "I mean we are highly educated individuals but we are incapable of expressing our love for one another."

I suddenly start coughing on my own breath but I'm not sure if I just heard her right. "Mac….Sarah, did you… you just say…" I am so dumbfounded at the moment that my brain can even function at the moment.

"You lost at words there Harmon" She smiles at me giving me the understanding that she knows exactly what she just said. The little boy in me is jumping up and down because the woman that I love just indirectly confessed her love for me. Before I realize it, I place my hands on her cheeks and finally place my lips upon hers. My intentions were only to give a small peck, however it did not end up going that way. Once our lips meet, Mac's arms go around my shoulders and she leans passionately into the kiss. My hands go from her cheeks to her waist while we make out like two love-struck teenagers. After a few minutes we finally stop to catch our breaths.

"Wow!" We simultaneously say together. We look at each other and laugh, and then she relaxes into my arms.

"If I would have known that making out with you would be that good, I would have done it along time ago." I say with a giant smile on my face.

"I was thinking the same thing, though I didn't want to say and give your giant ego another boost flyboy." After her comment, we both start laughing. I was on planning our evening to head in this direction, but right now, I am not complaining.