A/N: Okay, here's the rest of the chapter. Yes, it's short, I know. I'm gonna rewrite the next part sometime (as soon as I can) in the next couple weeks. (Hopefully before that tho.) Right now tho, I'm gonna have 2 study chemchemchemchemchem. Since I pretty much put most of it off during the summer that slipped away and I skipped ICP (integrated chem and physics its the first sem of each class) and took chem 1 as a soph like an idiot...wish me luck keeping my 4.0 snorts I guess at least I'd be one of the only sophs 2 ever earn the teacher's respect, she doesn't believe in them in taking Chem1 so...loads of studying and fun(not). I'll have it posted as soon as I can, and I know that there are at least 4 people out there reading this that I haven't gotten feedback from...I got one review and one pm last time...please begs can I have just 4 reviews? 4 is only 2 more ppl...puppy dog pout please? Seriously, I want to know what you think...

EPOV

I couldn't even say what classes I had been to that morning, so intent had I been on her. With each passing minute, the anguish had grown and I was beginning to realize that I was going to have to do something, anything to get her to understand. Before, I would have gone to the Volturi, but I couldn't anymore. I couldn't live without her, but I couldn't live without her, but I couldn't martyr myself anymore...I couldn't stand the thought of NOT living with her as I could before. When I had stood before the Volturi, I could, but now all I could do was concentrate on how to win her back. Though how, exactly, I was going to do so I had no clue at all. Sure, I had come u with ides, but none of them were right...

I shut my locker and flipped the dial without even thinking about it, then turned away to go to lunch. She was there, standing alone. I blurred and was over at her side in a second. I touched her hand and she started slightly. She stared up into my eyes and tightened her grip on my hand. In her eyes, I could see a pure love, but it was tainted by a profound hurt and a serious distrust.

"Bell—" Her expression hardened and her walls went up as I spoke her name.

"You lost the right to call me that a while back Edward." she spat as she pushed away from me. It only complicated matters further when Jasper showed up with a look that could kill on his face. Edward, leave her alone. I really don't want to fight here. To hell with our cover, but i WON'T hurt Bella. And seeing us fight now would kill her. She's obviously to over you yet. How could she be?

You know that I never meant to hurt her. I LOVE HER!!

'Yeah, you love her enough to rip out her heart and Jasper's.' growled Rosalie in my mind. "You broadcast your thought loud enough for even the most mind-blind person to be able to read you when your emotions overwhelm you Edward." She said out loud as she stalked up from behind me. "Give it a rest. You don't deserve her or another chance. You've already torn her heart up twice. Plan to do it again?" she raised an eyebrow.

" 'Cause seriously, you don't know how badly I hate you right now. You really shouldn't try me." she continued to rant, gesturing with her hands the entire time. I looked over at Bella to see her reaction. The only emotion registered on both her face and Jasper's was disbelief, well, besides the obvious problem Jas was having with Rose's emotions right now.

"Rose?" Bella said.

"I don't hate you Bella, I never truly did, I just envied you. You have freedom of choice to do what you were considering. I never did...and if I had, had the chance to, I would have said no. You should know that." she said in a softer voice before returning to her harder one again. "But I also envied your true happiness; not the love, I have that, just the knowing that you were happy. I really hate it though when that gets taken away from you. Experience showed me that, and it also made me hate those who destroy it..." she shot me an icy glare.

By now, we had an audience and even the bell didn't scatter them this time. Once more, it was dead quiet. The principal stood outside of the office building, watching. So no apparent help wad going to come from there.

"Jasper, why don't you get Bella away from here for a while?" Rose said. He raised an eyebrow in query and she nodded. He picked up her hand and headed towards the student parking lot. This time, my growl was quite audible as I clenched my fists. Before I could get any further though, Rose sent me reeling back in to the lockers with a slap so hard it should have been a punch.

"You should really learn to think before you act Edward. Haven't you learned that lesson yet?" she spat before stalking off.

I pulled myself up and ran off into the forest. Not seeing, hearing or caring, I just kept running, letting my feet carry me where they would. I came out in our meadow. I sank to my knees amongst the wildflowers and gave in to the grief. Not even bothering to breathe anymore, I blacked out.

A/N: Yes, I know vamps can't technically pass out since they don't need to breathe...think of it more as he isn't seeing, hearing or feeling anything...huh not the first one in this fic...I'm becoming a broken record here aren't I? Lol. Anyway...points to little lavender (is it lavender? I'm not really sure...sad huh?) box please?