CHAPTER 4: LOGAN AND I

It was Logan. He checks behind him if anyone's watching and his eyes widen as he sees me crying. I look at him and frown a bit and look down.

"I thought no one would find me here except the janitor, or my dad WHO I was about to call" I say out of the awkward silence, keeping my blackberry back in my bag once I saw Logan enter.

"Or me." He says, he then sits on the floor and signals me to sit beside him. I then sit by his side and he brings out thick books. Some are for Math, some are for English. I myself couldn't even distinguish which book is for which class or if it is even needed for class. "I study here every Lunch." I smile for a bit then look down biting my lip.

"What can I call you, really?" He asks

"Tay is fine." I answer. He nods his head in agreement but then is shocked once he saw me looking down, crying a bit. I wipe off some of the tears, but some just keep falling

"Oh no! You're crying!" He says, as he takes out his clean checkered handkerchief and wipes some of my tears that fell on my cheek.

"I know, I know. I look horrible. Even when I cry." I say in disappointment, looking at his sparkly dark brown eyes with black framed wayfarers.

"No! You still look the same." He says, handing me his handkerchief, he lifts my chin up and I smile for a bit.

"So I STILL look horrible even while I'm crying?" I ask, taking his handkerchief.

"No!" he protested. He then takes off his reading glasses and puts them on the floor. He starts staring at me, I wipe off any more water from my eyes on my pale skin and I rub my arm on my face. I wet my lips and start biting my tongue inside. Him observing me is just so flattering.

"You still look beautiful." He finally says after looking at me while smiling. I smile back using his handkerchief and he laughs.

"Gee, thanks?" I say sarcastically.

"I'm sorry for giving you the cold shoulder back at first period." He says, "Today's been going real bad."

"Why?" I ask.

"Well, I liked this girl and she told me she likes me too. We were really good friends! But ever since she started being friends with Jo, she started ditching me and all and now I don't think she still likes or remembers me. It's been weeks and today she rudely passed by me."

I nod slowly, still in confusion and he just looks down, glum. I start running my hands through his hair saying,

"Hey! It's okay; there are more girls out there. Alright?"

The bell rings and he helps me up, giving me in return a grin. "Hey, let's go. Can I see your sched?" I hand it to him including his handkerchief.

"Oh, you can have that. So that, if you cry again, you can remember what I say!" He explains, "Your next class is with me, you can come along." We then leave the room and I keep his handkerchief in my denim jacket's largest pocket, he then explains well the lessons.

The day finally ends and Logan offers that he walk me home. As we exit the main door in school, he bumps to a sophomore with a freshman and he introduces us.

"Oh yeah, Tay. This is Carlos and Katie. Carlos is a sophomore and Katie is a freshman like you!"

I smile as I wave a hello and we all walk slowly. Surprisingly, we quickly got along together. Carlos was hilarious! Katie was a genius in pranks and she was really fun to be with since she's a freshman like me. Carlos actually brought us to our OFFICIAL meeting place every dismissal, which is the Roberto 99 Diner.

We order ourselves large milkshakes and Carlos makes us laugh by eating a huge burger with only two bites. Most of the time, I'd be leaning on Kendall as Carlos was snorting strawberry shakes from his nose. But suddenly, for that moment I felt like there was a connection between me and Logan. Like, there are feelings. We were the noisiest in the place but we never really did care.

Carlos and Katie leave together and Logan walks me home in the dark.

"So?" I say out of the silence.

"Today was great, wasn't it?" He says, putting his arm around me.

"Sure it was! I mean, sure there were the mean girls and the humiliation stuff and all but it was really cool after. Carlos and Katie were THE bomb and being with you made today complete." I say, staring at his eyes, smiling.

"I'm glad you enjoyed today. And I hope those girls will knock off someday, eh?" He says, stopping by the park bench. We sit down for a while and we talk more. We were mostly having friendly conversations until a more intimate conversation starts.

"So, back in your place in Minnesota." He says, I then nod asking,

"Yeah?" I ask.

"Did you fancy any boys there or something?" He says, looking down. I then slap his back jokingly and start laughing.

"Well, I did used to have a special boy. But, he cheated on me. So I never had one EVER again." I say, smiling.

"Then why do you seem so happy?"

"He wasn't THAT worth it!"

Logan then starts saying a lot of words nervously,

"Do you plan on getting one, again? I mean, you'll have to make your heart fall in love again, and you know boys are different, some guys really like you, some find you pretty, I mean, I myself think you're very pretty but you shouldn't think all guys are jerks, I mean not all are….."

I laugh while he says these and finally I get to shut him up with a kiss that lasted for a while. I pull away, still smiling.

"Maybe, maybe not." I say, he holds my hand and he walks me back home.