CHAPTER 7: BEING LOVED ISN'T SO NEW TO ME ANYMORE

"LOGAN!" She says, screaming as she falls into Logan's arms. He then hugs her tightly.

I smile for awhile but as I try to stand up to approach Logan, he tells her,

"Camille! Oh how I missed you! You know how many days I have tried to not think about your or even miss you? I love you Camille, no matter how much we have gone through. No matter how much I have gone through, it's still you. And please, never let me go."

She then smiles while jumping saying,

"Oh dear, Logan! I still loved you, I never stopped loving you or missing you! Please, stay with me now."

Logan then runs his fingers through her dark hair and gives her a very long kiss.

I was in awe as Kendall finally lets go of me.

"WHAT NOW?" He says, I start crying a bit and cry on Kendall's shoulder. I cover my face with his jacket and start weeping some more. Tears can't stop falling. Logan's abandoned me for Camille. Logan forgot about me. He loves HER not me. Well, it's obviously my fault because I was too stupid. Why did I even hope for me and him to last together when he never even did tell me he loved me?

I look down a bit and Kendall sees me.

"Oh, I'm sorry." He says, he wipes my tears with his hands and I look up to see his face with his gorgeous eyes and golden hair. I smile for a bit as he brushes the wet sticky hair due to my tears off my face.

"Why don't we all head to Kendall's house tonight for our FIRST practice?" Katie suggests.

Everyone then starts paying their share of food and leave for Kendall's house just down the block near my house. I see Logan kissing Camille some more as they both walk together hand in hand to Logan's car. I frown for a moment for he never let me in his car. Kendall then lets me in his motor and we drive off to his house.

The only ones who really came were me and Kendall. We just did some practice on some guitar and talked some more about the band. He drove me back home safely and I wave and hug him a goodbye.

That night I start crying myself to sleep. I felt horrible, terrible. I felt like my whole world was a lie, like I've been living as someone's fool. Like I'm a joke to everybody. I thought all those kisses meant love? I thought those protective arms around me meant compassion? I thought him being with me all the time was dedication to be mine? But no, I was a substitute for Camille. Their probably dating right now. I wipe off my tears as I see Kendall's text to me at 12 am.

Hey, you still awake? Go to sleep now, beautiful. Don't cry.

I then sit up and wipe my tears. A soft knock on my window is then heard across the room and I open it from my study table.

It's Kendall.

"Pretty girls don't cry, you know." He said, combing my hair with his fingers.

"I know, that's why I cry." I say, looking down.

"To me, you get more beautiful every day." He says, he then carries me to my bed and we sleep under the dark.

He lies beside me on my bed and I doze off to sleep beside his warm arms. Sometimes, I'd even wake up after every two hours but I'd always see him still with me, he'd hush and sing me to sleep but to my expectations, he left early morning for school.

Next day, Mrs. F announces something more, as she promised.

"After the fair, we'll be having our annual school dance!"

I then look down cause until now, I STILL haven't had any crush on anybody, nor has anybody liked me. Jett has been long gone and still creeps me out. I see Jo glare at me thinking I'd be with Kendall, but I doubt he'd even like me. I'm a freshman, and he's a senior. Plus, Logan has slowly been ignoring me for Camille. Kendall sat beside me today as he switched seats with Logan and Camille sat near Logan this time.

At lunch, I ignore the janitor's closet and sit with Kendall and we take our seat by the stage and we munch on our fries and burgers that he bought and we practice some notes on my guitar and write down more lyrics for the fair.

The day ends and we all have band practice at Kendall's place. Everyone comes except for Logan, who claims that he might be running late. Obviously he walked Camille home.

"So first of all, what song will you guys play? I mean, you got the guitar, the beat box, three singers,

"Make that four." Logan says, coming in. "I feel like singing too."

I just simply sigh and roll my eyes on him. I look away and Kendall just starts embracing his arm on my shoulder. Logan just looks down and takes a seat beside Katie.

"Alright. So I guess we have, Kendall, James, Carlos and Logan!" Katie says, writing it down on a paper.

"What about Tay?"

"Nah, just playing guitar, remember? Just, don't include me in the main cred, Katie." I say humbly.

"We should give you guys a name." Katie suggests.

"Why not One 4 All? I mean, we ARE four right?" Logan suggests.

"It's too weird." I say cruelly with my eyes glaring at Logan.

"What Tay said." Carlos mentions. "I mean, just saying bro."

"Why not, we create our first song. THEN we take the title from the first song?" James says,

"Deal!" Everyone says together.

We then start working on the song, Mostly it was Kendall and I writing the song because we were the ones who were more exposed to the business and all. Katie was fixing the plans for the stage with Carlos and how we present it with the others.

The clock strikes 8 and everyone leaves, it's a Friday Night and I told my dad Kendall would bring me home. Everyone leaves except me and Kendall and we watch some band performances and we play some guitar and we wrote down more lyrics.

We spend the night until 9:30 pm and we finish the whole song.

Come and shake it up

What you got to lose?

Go and make your luck with the life you choose

If you want it all, play it on the line

It's the only life you got so you got to live it BIG TIME.

"Hey, it's getting late. I think I have to go." I say, taking my bags and my guitar, but he holds my hand, forcing me to stay and look to his beautiful green eyes.