A/N So I was home sick today and was bored... The result is an update! Please read and let me know what you think! Thanks!
After making sure Jason was taken care of for the day Kris climbed into her car and prepared for the long drive to Raintree Ranch. It seemed so strange and foreign to her, being there without Junior. She thought back to the other day when her and Ken had hugged and she wondered if things would truly be different this time. Thinking about Ken made her think about Junior, and she could feel tears welling in her eyes. Sighing inwardly she gave into the memories.
As they left the house, hand in hand Kris could sense that something didn't seem right, that somehow something was out of focus. Getting in the car she felt as if eyes were watching her every move. Looking around her eyes met those of Junior's and she smiled, feeling silly. She couldn't believe after all this time that he could still make her nervous. He reached over and grabbed her hand lightly brushing his lips against it before holding it tightly in his. She could feel herself blush and could feel a sigh escape her lips, giving in to the simple pleasure of the night.
Driving along the road she slowly flicked through radio stations trying to find anything to listen to and anything to keep her mind off of that night. Just the thought of those memories brought butterflies to her stomach. Finding a station that she liked she smiled as she hummed along to the song. Today would go well, it had to go well. She needed Wildfire more than ever before.
He had walked up to her at the ranch, surprising and angering her. How could he show his face after the stunt he had pulled the day before? As he talked she walked past him and headed to the barn. He needed to talk to her to ask her something. She could feel herself weakening as she looked in his eyes, she loved him, probably always had. Lately things had been strained between them, what did he have to say now?
"We've been through a lot, together and apart. But before my.. The wedding you told me we had a connection. And not just a connection but the connection, the one people spend their whole lives trying to find. I know I ignored it and told you we couldn't be friends if I got married, but if you recall I also kissed you."
She listened to him speak, thinking about what he was saying. She thought about the kiss, the one that he probably meant as a goodbye. Could this really be happening? Was he really saying what she thought he was saying? That kiss had rocked her to her very core, and she could hardly stand afterwards. She had to grab the fence to hold herself up as her knees buckled and her heart broke.
"And not just kissed you but kissed you, big. So big I carried it with me all the way up to the alter. I screwed up a million times with us, so I have to ask you… I just need to know if we have a future together."
She looked at him then, questioningly, into his eyes. He looked nervous, terrified actually. He wanted her, he still loved her. She could feel her heart pounding, screaming at her to act. She felt frozen on the spot and she could slowly see a look of disappointment cross his face. Smiling, she launched herself into his embrace, as their lips connected. She couldn't help but notice that both her heart and mind seemed to scream at how right this very moment felt.
She instantly felt drawn to the field, felt the need to be close to him in some way. But she knew she couldn't handle visiting it, not yet anyway. Something told her that this trip was going to change her in more ways than one. She hoped that she would get a nice long ride with Wildfire. After all, she thought, if she was exhausted enough she would be able to actually get a full nights sleep. As she reached for the radio to change stations she heard the ring of her cell phone coming from the backseat.
"Damn it, Ugh" Kris moaned. Reaching behind her, while keeping her eyes on the road she picked up the phone. Trying not to sound agitated as she glanced over at the clock as she mumbled a quick "hello." Kris sighed realizing that she was running later than she had planned. She didn't hear the voice on the phone until her name pulled her out of her thoughts.
"Kris.. Hello?... Kris are you there?" When she mumbled a quick yes it was followed by an even quicker response. "How are you doing?" Such a simple question, but she had no answer. He rambled on about this and that but she really didn't focus too much on what he was saying. She felt bad for ignoring him but her mind was elsewhere. Finally seeing a gas station up ahead she looked at her tank and realized she had to pull over. "Matt," she said "I have to stop for gas I will talk to you when I get there." Sighing she hung up the phone, maybe this wasn't such a good idea.
Have you ever been in a state of mind where you think everyone is staring at you? As Kris walked into the gas station that was the exact feeling that she received. It seemed like everyone could see through her and knew exactly what she was thinking. As she checked her watch again, she knew that unless things were really sped up she was probably going to have to stay at Raintree for the night. Cursing she picked up her phone to call the babysitter. This was not going to be good.
As she walked through the gas station stretching out her legs she scanned the rows of junk food and snacks. Seeing a magazine rack she grabbed a Modern Jockey and began to flip through it looking at the different articles. Putting the magazine back on the rack she let her eyes wander along the bottom shelf. They met something Kris thought she would never have to see again and she fainted.