It's the FIFTH CHAPTER! After this will come the more interesting parts!

Chapter 5: Memories of the Past

This entire week was filled with memories. Each person everyday. It's like this was meant to only last a week. First day: Edward. Second day: Alice. Third day: Jasper. Fourth day: Rosalie. Fifth day: Emmett. Sixth day: Carlisle. Seventh day (today): Esme. These memories I just "got back" from. They were all about her motherly love for me. Making food for me even though the smell was utterly disgusting. She would sacrifice anything for me. This just makes things even worse. I lied to someone like that. Should've stuck to the truth.

There's a knock at my door. It's Saturday, and I'm guessing today will probably be the end. This is where it may end, but everything else has started. There's another knock and in comes my true love. He leans on the doorway. "May I help you?" I ask, more polite than ever. A smile rises on his face.

"What? Not mean today?"

"I've changed my ways," I said and stood up. "Where's everyone else?"

"They went out." Of course. Hunting. "They'll be back soon." More like in many hours. "Look, I want to show you something."

"Sure. But I don't like surprises."

He smiles. "Just deal with it." He left the room to let me change. I slipped on denim short shorts, a dark gray tank top, faux-fur trim hooded jacket, thick and high winter socks, and brown leather boots. For a while I stared in the mirror. My hair was still straighten, as it's just natural. I grabbed a curler and curled my hair to fix my real self. When I stepped out, Edward stared and mouth dropped open.

"Yeah, I know. I'm exactly like Bella." He covers up by looking down my outfit.

"Why do you wear that kind of stuff?" I know I've been wearing a lot of short and exposed things, but I have the best excuse.

"Alice says she doesn't want me to end up like Bella, and she is the one who bought all this for me." He nods and walks towards the front door.

"Shall we?"

I sit on one of the branches on the tree in the middle of the meadow. Edward stands right under me, trying to figure out where I am. My legs kick and the tree shakes. With that I jump down, not trying to catch myself. Edward immediately catches me. His face is stricken with fear. I laugh and he growls.

"That wasn't even funny. You could've hurt yourself? What if I didn't catch you?"

"I knew you would," I said and leaned in to kiss him. He reluctantly pulled away and set me on my feet.

"What if I didn't see you or I wasn't in the right position to catch you? What if—"

"What if, what if, what if! Jeez, those 'what ifs' will never happen. You sense me everywhere. You know where I am all the time." I walked in front of him and reached in for a kiss, hoping it'll come this time around. But yet again I'm met by stumbling onto the ground. I find this chance to have some fun.

I groan and clutch my stomach with my right hand. With my left arm I hold myself up. My breathing becomes heavier and I let out a painful yell. Edward gasped and leans down with me. "Bella? Bella, what's wrong?" he yells. I make tears fall out my eyes and I lean myself against the tree. "Bella!"

"Edward, it hurts! My stomach!" I yell arching my back against the tree. My left hand grips at the grass underneath me. "Edward!"

"Bella, I'm right here! Can you hear me?"

"It hurts!" I cry. I unbutton my shirt and take it off, exposing my stomach and lacy bra. Another yell "escapes" my mouth. Edward's eyes grow big and he tries grabbing his phone out of his pocket.

"Hold on, I'll call Carlisle!" I slap the phone out of his hand as he starts dialing.

"NO! He'll hurt me! They'll do nothing but hurt me! Can't you see what they've done? I—"I let out another yell and grip at my thigh. "AHHH!" I scream, leaning down, pretending my leg has no more strength. I pull off my shorts and grip at my thigh. Edward stares at me, not knowing what to do. He presses his lips against mine.

"Don't worry, I'm right here." I pull him in and kiss him again. After that we're rolling around in the grass. I throw his shirt off and he runs his hand through me hair.

"Shall we?" I asked.

"That was a dirty trick… But…." He laughs. "We shall…"

"We shall," I say, a smile playing on my lips, and link our arms together.

"Wait, vampires don't travel this way…" he started. Alice told everyone that I knew and things softened up in the house. They started being free with their abilities. He walked me out the door then slung me on his back before I could even blink. "Hold on tight."

He dashed off into the trees so fast the trees were just a blob of one color. I close my eyes enjoying the feeling of the wind blowing my hair back, my face becoming cold. I've felt this feelings before… and I knew exactly from where. I realized being Bella isn't too bad. These memories are definitely something. I mean, who else would have a vampire as a boyfriend? There will be some twists and turns, and there has been, but it's actually a good thing.

Edward tapped my shoulder. "We're here." I opened my eyes and got off his back. After fixing my outfit, I took in what was in front of me. And there it was. I walked past Edward and stared at the tree. The trunk twirling around and breaking out into many vine that were covered with green leaves. I touch the tree and close my eyes. This is the place where our memories stay. I climbed the tree and sat on the branch I saw on picture 2. Edward came after me and we created that picture.

"I see you do remember," he said and leaned in. Our lips were just an inch apart when I pushed him away, making him fall off the tree. He landed with a bam and I gasped. I jumped down and kneeled next to him.

"Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to!" I started. He actually started laughing.

"I'm a vampire, I should've caught myself." He laughed. I sigh in relief.

"Good." He smiled and leaned in for another kiss. I leaned back but was met with the grass. Edward found an opportunity and kissed me. He continually kissed me until I had the strength to push away this strong vampire. I slapped him hard on the cheek.

"Don't you ever touch me again!" I screamed. He stood up with me and grabbed my hand.

"Bella, please!"

"I'm Esther!" I don't know why I was dening it now of all times were we'd be together, the happy ending ever fairytale has. He probably knows I'm Bella. He's seen how I've changed. "I'm not Bella! Why do I live in her shadow? I need to be myself! I have had memories and you know what? None of them had you or Alice, Or Emmett… Jasper, Rosalie, Esme, Carlisle! So just back off!"

"Look, I know you're Bella! Stop denying it!"

"Stop pushing her onto me! I'll be who I'll be! My name is Esther! Get that into your mind!" I grew my wings and he yelled for me.

"Wait! Don't leave me! Please! I can't like this!"

I woke up with Edward laying down besides me. I realized we were both nude. Edward stroked my head and kissed my forehead. "That was amazing," he said, his body pressed tightly against me.

"That was against everything you've made for us," I said, turning around so our faces were facing each other. Edward pulled me in closer and started again. I pushed him. "Edward, why would you change your mind?" He lifted the blanket and stared at my body. One hand reached for my chest and he traced down the middle of my body, all the way down to my toes.

"With a body like that, I couldn't stop myself." I gave him a kiss and stood up and walked over to my closet. I grabbed a bra and panties then slipped them on. Edward pushed me against the wall and took off my panties. He then entered very quickly. I slapped him.

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Well sorry if I want some action!" He growled.

"Go wait downstairs." He nodded and walked down. I sighed. I've never felt this way with Edward. Pure hate. I picked up my panties and put on a white dress that I saw hanging in my closet. When I got downstairs Edward was dressed and he had an angry expression on.

"Follow me."

He walked deep into the forest and I followed not too sure what will happen after this. For the first time in my life I was afraid of him. I should've known he is no different. I bet he has gone for Lauren and Jessica.

"I'm leaving."

"What?" I screamed. "Is that why you did it with me? Edward, you should've told me."

He laughed. "You think I did that because I love you? I've had many victims in my plan! And to think I'd fall for the most annoying, ugly little girl? Jeez, you weren't even that good. Thought you'd have a lot more practice seeing how guys cling to you. I mean, I thought you had a reputation where you used to live. Guess I was wrong."

"So, you're saying you never loved me? And all that was a lie?"

"OF COURSE! I finally got you in bed! And it was all for nothing! Anyways, we're leaving." I broke down crying and Edward followed me down. "But, if your willing to try one more time, I'd be happy to stay." He tore my dress and reached underneath it. I gasped and pushed him away. "Fine, I'll leave." He then disappeared leaving me crying on the floor with those horrible memories left.

"No! I'm not going to put up with your trash!" I screamed.

"Please! I can't stand being away from you! I know you're Bella! I know exactly who you are!"

"Then you know my memories!" He looked up at me surprised.

"What? Did you just admit you remember me?"

"One memory means nothing! And you know what I realized!"

"What?"

"I HATE YOU!" I screamed and flew away back to the house. I flew through the window making sure no one saw me. The I grabbed my backpack, a pillow, and blankets and flew away forever. I will never go back to Edward. I won't let him get to the point where I'd do anything for him. Especially what happened in that memory.

I found a cave and slept there for the night. My dreams haunted me of memories of what Edward was… What the Cullens were. Every second making this dream a nightmare. My life was a nightmare. I did get some flashes of my life before them, but they were supposedly the most important.

Someone shook me, waking me from the horrible nightmare. I turned around and saw DL there. "What are you doing sleeping in a cave?" he asked. "Edward get to you?"

I scoffed. "Yeah, worse than what you could ever think…"

"What'd he do?" I decided to lie at this point. He doesn't need to know about the other parts.

"Well, he said I should stay away from you. He said you're dangerous or something." This time he scoffed and sat down next to me.

"Oh, please, he's just jealous. Anyone would be when compared to me." Someone ran up to use holding a needle.

"I got it!" he yelled in joy. DL closed his eyes and stared at him.

"Not now, Dean."

"You told me to get this drug and I did! I know exactly what you want it for!" he said. I stared at him confused and then I somehow heard his thoughts. Why would he… OOOOH, the girl is right there…. Oops. Well, she is pretty hot, should've kept her to myself. Man, how I would like to take DL's place. That girl is fine. He then fantasized about what he could do and I shut it out. Wow, Edward was right. DL is going to drug me so he could sleep with me without me trying to escape.

"DL, what's going on?" I asked seeming dumb.

"Nothing. It's just a shot," he said. He grabbed it from the guy called Dean and looked towards me.

"What's it for?"

"You." He grabbed my wrist and injected it. I didn't feel anything and DL took off my clothes. Now, I decided to play along long enough so I could kill him. He then grabbed a camera from Dean. "Pose for me." I giggled, realizing it was a drug.

"You mean like this?" I asked, grabbing his shirt and pulling him into me. I wrapped my legs around his waist. Dean took a picture. DL pushed away and shook his head.

"Alone." He tossed me hand cuffs and I cuffed myself to the wall and pulled myself up. One snap then I felt something very cold. I looked up and the cuffs were frozen. They broke apart and then I stared at DL and Dean. "What the hell just happened?"

"This," I said and controlled the ocean behind me. A huge water wall blocked our exit. From there I wrapped tentacles around them both. Then I manifested myself some clothes, or just replaced the exact same thing I was wearing just a few minutes ago. "Don't you ever do that to any girl ever again!" I screamed. They nodded. I froze the water then returned the water back to the sea except the frozen water that wrapped around DL and Dean. I then grew my wings and flew back to the Cullen's house. I mean, what else could I do? Edward was right. But then again, he's somehow exactly like Dean.

Then I landed on the ground and pulled in my wings. But then I saw them all packing. I ran up to Alice and she turned around, her face full of anger. "What?" she asked cruelly.

"What are you guys doing? Why are you packing?" I demanded.

"We're leaving. We won't let you tear this family apart. You've done enough already."

"What?" She sighed and left. Then helped Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie, Carlisle, and Esme pack the cars. I walked inside the house and the place was practically empty. Edward walked down the stairs and saw me. He growled and rolled his eyes.

"What do you want? We're leaving, Bella or Esther. What ever. Either way, we don't want you. Just leave us be." He walked past me and outside. I followed him and everyone was talking.

"We'll hunt there. Okay, here we go," Carlisle said. Everyone walked to their separate cars but I started yelling.

"WAIT! Don't leave!" I screamed. They all turned towards me and rolled their eyes. "What's driving you away?"

"We want Bella, and seeing she just disappeared she has to be somewhere else. And you made it perfectly clear you're not Bella," Rosalie explained. They then all entered their cars.

"No! I am Bella! I'm sorry! I… I knew I should've told you! I was just afraid of what would happen! PLEASE, give me a chance!"

"It's too late, you can't change anything. How can you prove your Bella?" Edward asked. I stayed silent. Then he sighed. "Let's go." They started their cars and I started to blurt out all the memories I had.

"Alice! I remember you! You took me shopping even though I completely hated it! You got expelled protection my reputation at school! You said you'd give up anything for me! That you were my sister! Not caring of the consequences! What's happened?" From the side mirror I saw Alice's head drop.

"Jasper! We barely talk but only because you weren't too comfortable around humans! But yet you were a brother to me. One time you saved me from something that could get very bad by making these guys feel hate towards me! It may sound horrible, but it was better that what could've happened." Jasper's eyes lit up.

"Rosalie! You told me your story, about why you would never want me to become a vampire! Even though you were mean, as I thought, you weren't! You were only trying to protect me! You were there whenever I needed you, even though you may not have acted it! You were everything a sister would ask for!" Rosalie sighed, remembering everything.

"Emmet! My huge teddy bear! Right after Alice, I knew you were ready to pumble Lauren right after her! You protect me and I know you beat up some guys who were checking me out." I laughed. "You wouldn't care of what would come next, always focusing on the present with your booming laughter and huge bear hugs! I love you like a little girl with a new thing to cuddle with." Emmett had a smile on his face after that.

"Carlisle! Every memory I have of you is either bandaging me up or speaking to Charlie about Edward and I! But one time after the James accident you then had a fatherly image to me! You checked everything twice to make sure I would be okay! Everything you've done for me was to make sure Edward's and my relationship stayed! Making sure I stayed alive so I could have my happy ending!"

"Esme! You cooked for me even though the smell appalled to you! You stood by me through all the pain I went through! Made sure I was safe and had a loving family with me! You gave me everything I would want! Everytime I think of you I see a smile on your loving expressions… Giving me hope that you guys would be the people I'd be with forever!" Then I looked at Edward's car.

"And Edward… Oh gosh, Edward! You have no idea how much I love you!" As I spoke I got flashes of many memories of Edward and I. "When ever I simply had a bad dream, you were there to comfort me! Wanted what's best to me! Not wanting to change me because you know how horrible Hell you be! You had lived in pain your entire life before you met me! You had told me you were dead and then you found me and you were alive… You're sky had lit up and you were amazed by the beauty of it… Every time our lips touch or our bodies meet, everything stops and it's only you and I in the world… We don't care about anyone else… All there was was us… No one else could enter our world, break down the shield that protects us which is love… I've lost you once with a horrible impression, but I hunted you down and realized it was for protection... You loved me more than everyone's love in the world times a hundred!" I took a pause and took a deep breath.

"What happened to that? What happened to my shopaholic sister? My jealous, understanding sister? The annoying and huggable teddy bear? The emotion brother? The caring father? Loving mother? And the most understanding, overprotective, loving machine boyfriend?

"What happened to that family? How could everything change like this? Are you guy ready to leave it all behind? I know who I am now… I have my memories! Why won't you guys stay?" They then started driving away. "Don't leave me! I'm sorry! What have I done?" I screamed. I fell to my knees, a river of tears coming down my eyes. The ground shook beneath me and rainclouds covered the sky. Rain poured down and the waters roared. Wind blew all around me and lightning shot out from the sky. "What have I done?" I cried and everything grew silent.

No one was here, all that would be heard were my weeps. I called out their names, but heard no response. They were gone.

So I'm moving on, letting go

Holding on to tomorrow

I've always got the memories

While I'm finding out who I'm gonna be

We might be apart, but I hope you always know

You'll be with me wherever I go

Well, the end! Bella is all alone now! The cullen are gone! Haha, JK! You'll just have to find out in the next chapter!