My depression was slowly going away as Chase and I walked hand-in-hand towards the lounge. There was a mixture of different facial expressions, most were happy but James looked angry. "What do you think your doing Chase!" He shouted so loud every head in the room turned. I was filled with embarassment as I heard a childish rant of "She loves me!, No she loves me!" then Chase and James were throwing punches and rolling around on the floor, knocking the sofa over as people were running from the room at risk of their own safety. All I could do was stand there and watch the mess I had created get worse with every hit that was thrown. Michael and Logan were attempting to get a hold of the both of them to split them up. "What is going on!" Mr. Bender and Ms. Burvich had come into the lounge, eyes glaring. Chase didn't mention anything about me, instead was just honest that he and James had a fight, James didn't mention me either, as did all the witnesses. "Well, you were still fighting even though there wasn't an excuse. We still have to take you to Dean Rivers right now" Ms. Burvich said giving evil eyes towards the pair of them. She shoohed them out and Mr. Bender looked at my distraught face before leaving with them.
Michael and Logan left to follow them to Dean Rivers' office while I sulked my way towards Room 101, behind a panicing Nicole, a shocked Lola and a confused Dana. Both of them could be facing exclusion for this, and it will be all my fault. I couldn't care less about James, but I don't know how long I could stay at PCA without Chase. Nicole opened the door and I just threw myself onto my bed, lying face down into the quilt. At eleven o'clock we had all given up hope on hearing something tonight so we got ready for bed.
I woke up on the Sunday morning to find myself alone in the dormroom. Lola, Nicole and Dana had obviously not woken me, hopping to hear that it is good news that they will have to break to me later. My depression had gotten so bad overnight, I could barely get myself out of bed, choosing not leave my room I think of things to do until the that haunting moment where I will find out what is happening to Chase. I decide to check my emails on the big computer that is shared between the four of us, there is one from my mom, wondering why I haven't spoken to her in a week, one from Dustin saying that my advice had worked and he has a new girlfriend. I reply to these two, putting on a happy tone and then I notice that there is one from Quinn, she is requesting a web-chat.
I press connect and sure enough there is Quinn's face smiling at me. "Hi Zoey" she says warmly. "I know this is weird but I think your the only one I can confide in right now" I smile lightly, how could I could give her some advice like I used to when I feel like throwing myself out of the window right now. "I suppose you want to know excatly what happened the day I left, right?" She says. "Well, I did love Logan. But I just couldn't cope with his arogant and selfish character. I guess I didn't really think about that when I got with him openly at the dance" She shrugged her shoulders. "We were also arguing because I found out about him and Dana. He left his laptop out with all his e-mails in plain sight, I was shocked when I read the one where he had asked her out. And then on Monday, when I left, it was because he told me he wanted to break-up because Dana was coming back to PCA. I was so angry I couldn't help but just throw all the room around. I'm sorry Zoey" She really did look sorry "It's okay Quinn, I'm not bothered that you trashed the room. I understand why you did it, I mean, Logan will always be Logan" I say still smiling slightly.
"I know, but I am over him now. You'll never guess what Zoey! I ran into a boy I knew before I came to PCA, we got talking and we really connected so...I guess were together now" Quinn looked so happy, and I was happy for her, although I didn't show it. "How is everything at PCA since I left?" Quinn looked like she wanted to know, but I didn't fancy the idea of telling her Dana had come back and that her and Logan were the happiest couple at school. I also couldn't bare the thought of her reaction if I told her I am depressed. I once had to help her out of a depression in our second year, but that was over her missing her pet alpaca though, whearas mine is much more dificult to overcome. "Well, Nicole came back on Monday, which I was so happy about," Quinn looked happy as well, she and Nicole were good friends for the two years they were here together. "Vince Blake cheated on Lola with a girl from the cheerleading squad, but it's all good now because Lola and Michael have gotten together" Quinn thought that was brilliant news, she never really trusted Vince either. "Erh, Dana um moved back and she is our third roommate" I said shakily, I was worried Quinn might get angry again. "Oh, well I suppose it is best that Logan and I are both happy even though we've split" Quinn looked satisfied as maybe she knew Logan would feel no emotion after leaving her for Dana.
"Are you okay Zoey? You seem very sad" Quinn looked through her computer screen with concern as I struggled to explain how my emotions are a mixture of guilt, confusement and self-hatred. Quinn listened intently and was finding it difficult to believe how long it took me to realise how much I loved Chase and how selfish James was being.
We had been talking for an hour when she told me she had to go, Quinn asked me not to tell Logan or Dana that we had talked and I said I wouldn't, we agreed to keep in touch with regular e-mails. Before disconnecting, Quinn wished me luck in coming out of my depression safely, she hoped I wouldn't try something dangerous if things got worse.