I spent the rest of the day sleeping, it's all my depression wanted me to do. I woke up to a knock on the door, my body was refusing to get up, so I made myself yell; "Come in". Chase slowly walked in. Oh god, here it comes. I braced myself as he kissed my forehead and sat on my bed. I made myself sit up and come out from under the covers, I wrapped my arms around Chase and rested my head on his shoulder as I did this he just stared at the floor as he began to tell me our future.
"When we got to Dean Rivers' office, he said he had no choice but to exclude me and James because fighting is against the school rules. I'll be gone for the next semester" I was sobbing as he pulled me into a hug. I couldn't believe it, I was forced to spend an entire semester away from Chase last year due to a major twist of events, but now I don't know how I could cope this time round, especially now I know that I love Chase as much as he has always loved me. "Are you sure you can't take some other form of punishment? Like; hundreds of detentions, cleaning the grounds or-or anything other than exclution?" I cried into his shirt. "No Zo. His decision is final, there is nothing anyone can do." He said while stroking my hair, he is just as upset as me, but Chase only cries if he's in pain, it's the tone of his voice showing me how upset he is. I lifted my head off his now tear-stained shirt, I looked into his eyes and then I started to kiss him, I was in control until he pushed me down onto the bed. Our kissing became hungrier, until my hands were under his shirt feeling his stomach, his hands were smoothly going down the sides of my body, we were kissing for a while until we assisted each other remove our clothing.
It has been four weeks already, but Chase won't be back until after the christmas break. Unfortunatly, James will return too, but I think this exclusion has made him realise that he and I will never happen again, he and Chase will still be roommates as they were talked to by the PCA guidance counselor about anger and learning to get along better. My depression is improving, Chase going away had made it worse, but Nicole convinced me to see the guidance counselor weekly, which I am proud to say is a success. Chase's parents were not impressed with his behaviour and the exclusion, so he is having to work for them as his punishment, with me busy with classes and him working we just manage to talk at least twice a week, texting whenever we can and web chats whenever possible.
I miss him. I don't know how I am still going without seeing him, his crazy frow, his clumseness, his smile that appears everytime I come into his sight, I still have Nicole who's always great company for me, despite her bubbly and slightly odd character, but that's why we're best friends because I am the only one who won't leave her because of her crazy. Lola and Dana have become really close over the last month that Dana has been back, Lola and Michael are still going strong as are Logan and Dana. Quinn and I are still talking, she is happy being back home with her new boyfriend and pet alpca Otis. James is still friends with everyone, he talks to Logan and Michael often and Chase told me that he and James have somewhat settled their issues and are working towards a better future as roommates, when I spoke to James he mentioned that he just wants what is best for me, which is obviously being with Chase. He also said that he sort of fancies someone else, when he said that it was Nicole, I was so surprised. In fact, I can't believe I never noticed it sooner, from the minute Nicole came back to PCA, he couldn't stop looking at her and I thought she might have noticed it too, maybe even liking him back. Dustin is happy, I've met his new girlfriend, Mara Jane, she is nice I can see how much Dustin likes her and they seem to be really happy together. Altough I am happy for him and all my happy couple friends I surround myself with, it reminds just how much I miss Chase.
So it is a happy ending for everyone but me, I must admit in my case, it's not the happiest of endings, but I know things are going to get much better in time.