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song 1...Uneding dream...Inuyasha theme song
song 2...Deep forest...Inuyasha theme song
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Chapter 18 of Remember me?
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Recap:
Sasuke looked at Sakura. 'Man, I should have not been so mean to her.'
Sakura looked at Sasuke as she took a seat next to him.
"I am sorry, Sakura."
Sakura was shocked. "W-What?" Sakura asked.
"I said I am sorry." Sasuke replied again.
"It's okay, honestly Sasuke-kun." Sakura said unaware of herself when she added the suffix to his name.
Sasuke smirked at what Sakura called him… 'I missed that.' Sasuke thought.
Normal POV:
Sasuke and Sakura were walking to the Sakura's house, seeing how Sakura was, more had to stay with him, so that she could repay him for hurting him.
Sakura was waking quietly by Sasuke, which shocked the youngest Uchiha.
"Ne, Sasuke-kun, can I ask you something?" Sakura asked the Uchiha prodigy.
"Hn…" Sasuke answered.
"Why were you pretending to be nice to me?" Sakura asked.
Sasuke smirked. "Who said I was pretending?"
Sakura stopped in mid track. She was confused. Did he just say he was being nice to her, really being nice to her? No it couldn't be. He was heartless. He left her on a bench to rotten. He broke her heart time and time again. He hurt her as if she was a worthless piece of trash that didn't deserve love. He treated her like she didn't deserve compassion, friendship, trust, and family.
"Uchiha, be serious. I know you were pretending." Sakura said. Her voice was turning cold again.
"Hn…why do you think I was pretending?" Sasuke asked wanting to know her answer.
"I have every reason to believe that. So far you have yet to prove me wrong." Sakura answered ignoring his question.
"Answer the question Sakura." Sasuke said, well commanded.
"-Sighs- You hurt me over and over again. You tested my trust, patience, love, and me. You made me hate me only because you hated me-" Sakura explained but was cut off by Sasuke.
"You hated yourself because I hated you? What were you thinking; you know that was wrong and stupid! Right, Sakura?"
Sakura glared at Sasuke. "I hated myself because I failed to make you my friend; I failed to make you see that you were not alone. I failed everything I tried to do!" Sakura seethed. "That is why I hated myself!"
Sasuke looked at Sakura guilty. He didn't want to make her hate herself; He wanted her to hate him, to forget about him.
"Sakura, you shouldn't have hated yourself. I didn't want that." Sasuke said.
Sakura scowled. "What did you want? I know it wasn't to help me, to save me from myself like I tried to do to you. I tried to help you, but you just throw me aside. I know you didn't care. You hated me, and you weren't afraid to admit it either!" Sakura growled, she was trying to hide her emotions but her anger was rising. She hated this.
Sasuke looked at Sakura, and was taken back by her answer. But knowing the Uchiha he didn't show it.
"Sakura, just forget about that, and let us continue our conversation about why you thought I was faking." Sasuke said trying to change the subject quickly.
"Fine," Sakura said. "I think you are, faking because you always hurt me. You never care about anyone but yourself. You only train for your own personal gain, while Naruto and I trained for each other. We trained so we could protect each other, from enemies, from you, and from ourselves. We worked hard for each other, so if one of us failed and lost ourselves, the other could help us pick up the pieces of ourselves. I helped him with many things, I helped him with controlling the Kyuubi's chakra and helping him get a date with Hinata-chan, I helped him appreciate life, and he helped me raise Ayamari. He is her father figure." Sakura said.
Sasuke cringed at the phrase He is her father figure. He didn't want his daughter to consider Uzumaki Naruto as a father figure.
Whether he would admit it or not, she was his daughter. Therefore she is an Uchiha heir.
Sasuke was quiet for a moment. He didn't know what to say, well he did, but it wasn't something he would say out loud.
"Sasuke, you left me on a bench. You didn't care if I died. To be honest, I think you would have been grateful if I did. Ayamari wouldn't have been born, you wouldn't have to have me try and kill you, then be forced to take care of you. You wouldn't have to live your life in the same village as me, and you would go on with yourself as if everything that has ever happened to me has never happened.
"You continued to hate me. You ignored me and called me annoying. You never cared for me or team seven. You just watched us fall, tried to kill us, and bring that tramp back to our home." Sakura seethed.
Sasuke growled. "She is not a tramp, Sakura."
"Oh really, well then Uchiha you must have a bad taste in women. Because you seriously do not know anything about her! She isn't like Ino, Hinata, Tenten, or me. Ino loves Shikamaru, not because he is hot, which he is. But because he treats her like a normal person, he treats her as if she was like him. Hinata loves Naruto because he isn't afraid to be himself around her. He isn't afraid to speak his mind about her, even to Neji-" Sakura was cut off.
"What does Hyuuga have to do with the dope?" Sasuke asked.
"Neji is over protective of Hinata-chan. He considers her like a younger sister. Their dispute between the branch family and Main house hold was broken after you left. Because we all need to come together and realize if we each do our own thing separately we will not only kill ourselves, but ruin our friendship. So they settled their differences. That is an answer to a question I know you will ask later." Sakura explained.
"Go on," Sasuke said.
"Tenten loves Neji because he is there when ever she needs him. She can confine in him when she can't confined to anyone else. She would give her heart for him, as he would for her. They love each other; all of them do, just like how I loved you." Sakura said as she bit her lip. Sasuke took a step near Sakura and she bolted. She ran from him, trying not to lose her sanity.
Sakura's POV:
I ran away from him as quickly as I could. I didn't want to show any emotion that wasn't necessary. I felt weak and helpless. A feeling I tried to abandon long ago. Why, why is it so hard for me to hate him? Every single day I wake up and pray, pray to god I would hate him. I would pray that he wouldn't be in this village and that he wouldn't come back.
But my prayers are always unanswered. He is in this village, everyone loves him, he is still strong, but most of all, I still love him. It kills me day by day slowly and painfully to know he is happy with some one else.
I continue to run. My heart aching. Kami-Sama I thought I was over him. But the more I talk to him about the past, my feelings, the more I hate myself, because the more emotions I reveal to him. I can't take it anymore. This is suicide to me.
I am slowly dying moment by moment. When I am around him I wish the ground would swallow me whole just so I don't have to confess anything I don't want him to hear. I feel pained. I know this is wrong. I know I shouldn't love him. But yet, I still do.
Why, why do I love a monster? He hurt me and threatened to kill me and Naruto millions of times, yet I still feel like he is important. I still love him.
He is slowly killing me with out even realizing it. He is haunting me in my sleep with out even knowing. Each time he speaks to me my heart aches with love and pain. Each emotion is tugging at my heart trying to rip it into two.
He still doesn't know that when he left, he took my heart with him. He took my love, my soul, my dreams and life. He took everything away from me with out even realizing it. How could someone do something like that? How could he just watch me suffer? Did he get satisfaction out of that? Was he happy knowing that I was hurt.
Why can't I move on? How is it possible for me to still love the man who broke my heart into millions of pieces, still loving him with all those pieces?
Kami-Sama I must sound like a helpless crybaby asking myself all these questions. But still, why is this happening to me. Why can't he just ruin someone else's life?
I need to relax. I need to take a breath and let my feelings go. But the only way I can do that is to let my emotions go with out even knowing it. How can I do that?
Flash back:
"Okaa-san can you please sing me a lullaby?" Ayamari asked her mother.
"Sure, I would love to Ayamari," Sakura answered her four year old daughter.
"What do you want me to sing for you?" she asked.
"I want you to sing…Owari nai Yume (Unending Dream by Aikawa Nanase)" Ayamari replied.
"Okay I will." Sakura said as she cleared her throat.
"Kokoro no naka no JIORAMA no machi wa kibou no hikari de kirameite iru kagerou no hane de habataita yume wa kimi to boku to no sagashimono shinjitsu wa itsumo hitomi ni hisonde iru aoku
Bokura wa doko made yukou futari no mirai ima sasuratte bokura wa tabi o tsuzukeru eien no arika owari nai yume kono te o hanasazu oikakete ikitai zutto
TAAKOIZU iro no kokoro no umi de hikari no fune no aizu ga kikoeru hayaku ikanakya hayaru omoi ni nani mo kotoba wa iranai ne itsuwari wa itsumo kotoba ni hisonde iru amaku
Futari de hitotsu ni narou okubyou na nami no ho mo dakishimete bokura wa tabi o tsuzukeru dakiau sukima owari nai yume niji o tsukinuketa yakusoku no hikari o mezasu
Bokura wa doko made yukou futari no mirai ima sasuratte bokura wa tabi o tsuzukeru eien no arika owari nai yume kono te o hanasazu oikakete ikitai zutto" Sakura sang.
(Translation for Owari nai Yume...A.K.A Unending Dream:
The city in the georama of the heart is sparkling with the light of hope the dream that flew up with the wings of an ephemera is something that we search for the truth is always hiding in the eyes bluely
Where shall we go up to our future roams around now and we continue with our journey the place of eternity, and endless dream I want to chase after it without letting go of this hand forever….
In the ocean in the turquoise-colored heart the signals of the ship of light can be heard I need to go faster, for this impatient feeling no words are needed a lie is always hiding in the words sweetly
Let the two of us become one holding on to the coward waves we continue with our journey the space between our hug an endless dream cutting through the rainbow heading for the promised light
Where shall we go up to our future roams around now and we continue with our journey the place of eternity, and endless dream I want to chase after it without letting go of this hand forever…)
"Wow, Okaa-san your singing is amazing. Your voice has so much emotion. You should sing when you're upset. It seems to make you feel better. Like a load has been lifted off of your chest!" Ayamari praised.
Sakura smiled at her daughter and gently lulled her to sleep…
End of the flash back
"I guess I will do that, for Ayamari's sake." Sakura said as she cleared her voice just like she did in the flash back.
"Fukai, Fukai mori no oku ni ima mo kitto okizari ni shita kokoro kakushite'ru yo
Sagasu hodo no chikara mo naku tsukarehateta hitobito wa eien no yami ni kieru
Chisai mama nara kitto ima demo mieta kana
Boku-tachi wa ikiru hodo ni nakushite'ru sukoshi zutsu itsumowari ya uso wo matoi tachisukumu koe mo naku
Aoi, Aoi sora no iro mo kidzukanai mama sugite yuku mainichi ga kawatte yuku
Tsukurareta wakugumi wo koe ima wo ikite sabitsuita kokoro mata ugokidasu yo
Toki no rizumu wo shireba mo ichido toberu darou
Boku-tachi wa samayoi hagara ikite yuku doko made mo shinjite'ru hikari motome arukidasu kimi to ima
Boku-tachi wa ikiru hodo ni nakushite'ru sukoshi zutsu itsumowari ya uso wo matoi tachisukumu koe mo naku
Boku-tachi wa samayoi nagara ikite yuku doko made mo fuikaeru michi wo tozashi aruite'ku eien ni
Tachisukumu koe mo naku ikite yuku eien ni…." Sakura sang pouring her heart out into the lyrics of her song.
(Song: Fukai Mori… Deep Forest
Translation:
I'm sure that the heart I left behind still lies hidden in the heart of the deep, deep forest.
Exhausted, without the strength to search people vanish into the infinite darkness…
If it's so small I wonder if I can see it, even now.
As we live on, we lose a little bit more. Shrouded in false hood and lies, we stand froze to the spot, unable to cry out…
The days pass by and change, without us even realizing how blue the sky really is…
Over coming that made-up scheme, we live the preset, and our rusted hearts begin to beat again!
If we can find the rhythm of time, we can fly once again
We live our lives wondering to the end of the earth. Believing…in you, now I begin my journey with you, in search of light
As we live on we lose a little bit more. Shrouded in false hood and lies, we stand frozen to the spot unable to cry out.
We live our lives wandering to the end of the earth. Closing off the way back, we walk on for eternity
We live our lives standing frozen on spot, unable to cry out for eternity….)
Normal POV:
Sakura ended her song and finally felt at peace. Her emotions were let out, with out really expressing them. It was peaceful for her. She was calm, cool, and collected.
She sat down and laid her head on a trunk of a tree.
She closed her eyes and tried to sleep, but a rustling sound prevented that from happening.
Sakura opened her anger filled eyes and demanded… "Who's there?"
A male figure stepped out of the bushes.
"S-Sasuke," Sakura asked. "Is that you?"
Sasuke smirked. "Hn, I cam looking for you after you ran off." Sasuke answered.
"Why?" Sakura asked.
"…" Sasuke didn't say anything. Sakura sighed.
"Is that how you feel sakura?" Sasuke asked.
"What?" Sakura questioned.
"In your song, was that how you felt?" Sasuke asked again.
Sakura just nodded her head, as she looked at Sasuke, only to feel him wrap his strong protective arms around her waist on his lap, holding her for what seemed like hours. Both were resting in silence not wanting to break this moment…
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