Still Caroline's POV
We've all paired off as we head into the party. Each with our own personal missions. Bonnie and Stefan are tasked with finding a room, and setting up some witchy spell that will keep all the wolves locked up, until we can figure out what we're going to do with them, and what they want. Damon and Elena go find Jules. Damon figures that she's the most dangerous, and he's worried that no one will be able to keep an eye on Elena better than he can. Alaric has gone to find Jenna, to keep her away and distracted from the action. That leaves Jeremy and I to find Tyler, a task that shouldn't be too hard, since Tyler has started following me like I'm the peanut butter to his jelly ever since he found out that I'm a vampire.
The music is loud, and there is a huge crowd of people on the Lockwood's back lawn. Jeremy and I have been here for hours, and we have yet to run into Tyler or Jules or any of the others. The party is great though, everyone is having fun, and this would be the exact thing I would have loved if I was still a simple high school girl, but I'm not. My life is more complicated than that now. The noise of the crowd and the music is making my head throb, and the smell of the meat on the grill is making me nauseous or hungry, I can't tell which right now. Jeremy is whining by my side about how they should just give up because it seems that Tyler has decided not to show up, when Matt approaches us.
"Hey," he says with that soft desperate voice that use to make me swoon, but now just makes me want to cry because I know that the only way this conversation can end is with me breaking his heart, yet again.
"I'm gonna go give you two some space," Jeremy says. I'm not sure if I want him to leave or stay. This situation couldn't get anymore messed up.
"What's up Matt?" I ask.
"Listen Caroline, I don't know what's going on between you and Tyler, but I'm not just going to let him come between us. I love you Caroline, and you've been acting all hot and cold, but I know it's just a defense mechanism. I wish you would just let me in, and tell me what's going on with you. Cause I miss you, and I think I could help." Matt says, all in one breathe.
I'm not really surprised that he's confessing his undying love for me. He's been giving me these looks all week. The kind of looks that say I know we broke up, but I love you in that kind of way that anything you do can't be wrong. I'm not sure how I feel right now, my emotions are all fuzzy. I use to love Matt, back when I was human and naïve to all the things that go bump in the night. Back when I thought love was suppose to be a white picket fence and 2.5 children. Now, I'm realistic enough to think there is a very strong possibility that the kind of love Matt wants, may not exist. As for Tyler, I like him well enough as a friend, but he's been really the only person I can connect with about being a vampire, and maybe that's all there is to that friendship, just a mutually understanding. I don't want to lose Tyler as a friend, but I'm getting increasingly scared that maybe Damon's right, maybe vampires and werewolves can only ever be enemies, especially after seeing what they did to Damon's arm.
I realize that Matt is staring at me expectantly waiting for an answer, so I give him the only thing I can think of to say right now, and hopes it doesn't sting as much as I think it will.
"Matt I have to go," I say and walk away. I reach my car before I realize that I still have to find Tyler. If I bail Damon will never forgive me, and I'm sure he'll stake me before I even get an explanation out. I need some time to think, to process, but it feels like everything is moving so fast. Matt wants an explanation for my behavior recently, Tyler wants all this information about vampires and werewolves that I can't give him without revealing everyone else's secret, and Damon he just uses me when he can to protect Elena. It'll always be about Elena.
I'm distracted, so when the noise comes from behind me, I only have a second to react. Too bad it takes me just a second too long.