Drive Safely!
A/N- WOW, last nights episode sure was beautiful. I was so hearbroken for Kris about Wildfire and Junior leaving... Definately one of the saddest episodes of the series. The wedding was so beautifully done but I feel a bit jipped that we didn't get a first dance or anything! I refuse to believe this is the end and we need to keep fighting to save Wildfire! Visit genevieve corese . com /forum/index or savewildfire . com to see what you can do to help! (remove the spacing in the links as that is the only way the website will let me post links)
And now on to the chapter lol...
She opened her eyes and rolling over on the couch turned to look at the clock on top of the television.
"4:48 a.m.," she mumbled "I guess its time to get up and get ready."
The house was pitch black as she stumbled through it making her way to the bathroom to get ready. She tried to make as little noise as possible, but furniture had been moved and she was sure with each bump that she was going to wake the entire household.
"Good morning," he said quietly grumbling as he rubbed the back of his neck.
She turned to look at him for a moment before wincing at the look on his face.
"Sorry Matt," she said "I really was trying to be quiet."
He looked at her for a moment before a confused look crossed his face. "Wait a minute," he stated "what are you doing sleeping in here anyway."
She could see a sheepish smile flash across his face and she looked at him for a moment in shock before slapping him on the arm playfully.
"Matt," she said warningly.
"What?" he replied innocently.
She looked at him and could feel the tears slowly coming to her eyes. "Matt, you know it's not that simple."
He looked at her with a smirk on his face before replying "I don't know that kiss last night sure was something."
"You don't know the half of it," she mumbled turning and looking away from him. "Well I need to get ready to go."
"Wait a minute," he continued "what are you doing up this early anyway? And where do you think you are going missy? Your not running off on us again, are you?"
"Matt," she stated, "I wouldn't think of it."
"Was that an avoid and deflect maneuver," he asked "or are you just avoiding my questions?"
She looked at him for a moment before letting out a sigh "I am going home Matt, I can't spend forever sleeping on your couch and I miss Jason. I really need to check on him."
He nodded his head in understanding before stating the one thing that had been on her mind all night "what about Junior?"
"I'm not giving up on him or leaving him Matt, it's just complicated and hard. I need to get away for just awhile, see my son. I promise I will be back later today but if I want to accomplish that I really need to get going soon."
He looked at her for a moment before he replied "you really do love him don't you?"
She looked at him sadly for a moment before replying "more than you will ever begin to know or understand. "
She turned her head to the side and continued "I think I always have."
He nodded his head in understanding, waiting patiently for her to continue.
"Matt Junior and I had an interesting conversation last night. He doesn't think his memory is going to come back."
She looked at him to gauge his reaction, noticing surprise. He looked down for a moment and once again his hands found his neck. "Then," he stated "you will help him remember."
She nodded her head quietly whispering "I am going to try."
He slowly pulled her into a hug before whispering "drive carefully; I will hang out with him for awhile until you get back."
"Thanks," she said as she hugged him back tightly "I owe you one."
"Kris," he stated "you don't owe me anything. That's what friends are for. You may have been gone for awhile but that doesn't mean anything has changed."
She pulled him into another hug and held him tightly "thanks Matt, for everything."
He nodded his head and then pointed back towards his room. "I better get back there before Dani realizes I'm gone."
She nodded her head and gave a soft wave as she turned and went into the bathroom to get ready.
As she placed her head under the stream of water all she could think about was Junior. What would he think about her taking off for the day?
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He sat, leaning against a car in the middle of a field. He was waiting for someone and as she rode up to him on a horse and approached she called to him "hey."
"Hey yourself," he replied "What's so urgent?" He could feel his heart pounding in his chest and he silently hoped that nothing was wrong.
"Am I pulling you away from something?" She asked questioningly.
"No I just don't like to get messages that say we need to talk, they never end well." He saw a panicked look cross her face before she responded.
"Sorry, sorry."
"What's going on?" He asked, feeling his nerves in the pit of his gut making him feel sick.
"Since we got back together I feel like I am getting it from all sides," she stated.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"You saw how matt reacted, Jeans worried I am going to get hurt and Pablo cornered me in the hospital."
He could feel his stomach flip and he knew in that moment he couldn't lose her again, ever.
"Pablo talked to you about it? He talked to me about it too, it was weird. You just have to let it roll off your back."
"I hate this!" she exclaimed and he could feel his heart drop.
"Kris this is all just temporary."
"No its not, the consequences are always going to be there and our relationship upsets everybody. I am just tired of defending it to myself and others. It's killing me!"
He could feel himself losing hope, he couldn't lose her wouldn't lose her. He was so frustrated that they were put in this situation. Couldn't people just be happy for them?
"What did you come here to say?" he asked.
"I'm not going to do this anymore."
He could feel a sigh escape his lips and his body moved to stand up, he watched her face and then she continued to speak.
"I'm not going to let others get in the way of you and me and I needed you here so I could make that promise face to face."
Relief could not even begin to describe how he felt at that moment as he sat staring at her in disbelief with a huge smile on his face. Was this really happening?
"When we got pulled away from that chapel we got pulled away from starting our lives together and I just want you to know I want to get back to that."
He stood up and slowly approached her. "We will I promise you that!"
"I love you!" he stated.
"I love you too!" she replied.
He leaned in and kissed her and he could feel his knees go weak. She deepened the kiss and his heart skipped a beat. This was where he wanted to be. He was not going to lose her again and he was not going to let her go. He loved her.
He woke covered in sweat and panting slightly. Rolling over and looking at the clock on the nightstand he realized it was still really early.
Groaning, he rolled back over and closed his eyes hoping to fall back asleep. Images of his dream flooded his mind and his heart raced as he thought about it.
He heard a light nock on the door and he momentarily wondered if he should ignore it, which he did. He could hear the door open quietly and he cursed himself for not locking the door after the events of the night.
He watched through hooded eyelids as she came and sat down on the bed beside him, moving quietly to avoid waking him.
"Hey," she whispered as she brushed some of the hair from his brow.
"I am going away for the day," she stated. "I need to go home and see Jason and get a few things in order. "
He could feel his heart racing as he lay next to her and he realized it was because he didn't want to lose her. After the night's events and everything they had gone through, was she running from him?
He opened his mouth slightly to speak but she continued to talk.
She let out a sigh as she stated "I couldn't leave without seeing you! Call me crazy, I know, but I really needed to make sure it wasn't all a dream."
He could feel her fingers gently playing with the palm of his hand and his skin burned at the touch. Each touch brought flashes of his dream back into his head and for the first time he wondered if the events of his dream had actually occurred.
"I love you Junior," she whispered "and I will wait for you. But please don't give up."
He could hear more than see that she was now crying and he wanted nothing more than to sit up and pull her into him and tell her everything was going to be OK. But he didn't know if everything was going to be OK and doing that would feel like a lie.
He could hear her sniffling and then he felt her lips gently brush his forehead and then his eyelids and then his cheek. His mouth ached for contact similar to the one they had experienced the night before but he really didn't want to push her into anything.
He could feel the bed shifting, signifying that she was getting up and before he knew what he was doing his arms were around her and she was in the bed next to him.
"I thought you were asleep," she whispered.
He silently shook his head no.
Before he changed his mind and before he could stop himself he pulled her in for a light kiss, which was deepened by her. They both sighed into the kiss and he silently promised himself and her that he wouldn't give up.
He had no idea how long they laid there lost in the moment but eventually she pulled away gasping for air and stating that she "had to get on the road."
He nodded his head in agreement, before kissing her again and again. He could hear her chuckling and he couldn't help but laugh at his antics as well.
"Really she stated," Laughingly "I need to go."
He nodded and pulled her in deeper, not letting her go. He could see a smile on her face and he knew that as much as she wouldn't admit it she didn't want to leave as well.
Her hands soon wrapped around his head deepening the kiss even more and he knew that for the moment he had won.
Laughingly he murmured "Drive safely," as he pulled her in for another kiss.