Love Is Always Complicated

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Laughingly he murmured "Drive safely," as he pulled her in for another kiss.

She wasn't quite sure how long they stayed like that only that by the time they had pulled apart again she really needed to get on the road.

"I need to go," she whispered.

He looked at her and smiled and shook his head silently signifying that he did not want her to leave.

"Junior," she stated warningly as he pulled her tighter to him. She watched as he winked at her "your incorrigible."

He looked at her and seemed to be contemplating something before replying "can't we just..."

She could feel her heart in her throat as she looked at him "I don't think either of us is ready for that, you don't even remember me."

"But I could," he stated sweetly and she could feel her heart dropping, as much as she wanted to she knew they should wait.

"Junior, no."

He looked at her and slowly bent his head down to her ear "tell me" he whispered.

"Tell you what?" she asked.

"Tell me," he said "tell me this doesn't feel right."

Five minutes later she sat in her car staring out the window at an empty field with her hand on her chest. Closing her eyes she was surprised at how strong she had been for them both.

Reopening her eyes she saw Matt standing in front of her car staring at her. Trying not to blush she rolled down her window as he walked over to the passenger door.

"I thought you were leaving, oh like" and he looked at his watch as he spoke "about an hour ago."

She could definitely feel the blush slowly creeping up her face and to her ears as he looked at her and laughed.

"Nice," he stated.

She looked at him for a moment before replying "It's not what you think."

"Uh huh," he stated "that's why your red from ear to ear sitting in your car and Junior won't answer the door."

"Matt," she replied "as hard as this may be for you to believe, things are complicated."

"Kris," he stated "love is always complicated."

She contemplated his comment for a moment and he seemed to realize that she wasn't going to respond because he placed his hand gently on the top of the car and leaned into the window.

"Everything will be OK Kris, it may not seem it now but it will. Give my love to Jason, and hurry back. Now that you're in our lives again it brings back so many old memories of how Raintree used to be. It's nice to have you around again."

"Do you really mean that Matt?" she asked as she felt tears bristling in her eyes.

"More than you will know," he replied.

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He watched them from the window as they talked and he couldn't help but feel jealous. The conversation between all of them that had happened the previous night was fresh on his mind and he wasn't stupid. He knew what Kerry was alluding to.

Picturing her and Matt together seemed to make himself feel sick to his stomach and before he knew it he was emptying the contents into the toilet.

They had been together at some point in time, which was obvious by the look on Matt's face when the conversation got brought up.

The way she had looked when she had saw him, both for the first time at the club and again each time she ran into him throughout the night seemed to linger in his mind.

The look on her face haunted him. He had hurt her more than he realized he would probably ever know.

Then, they had shared those kisses each one more passionate and intense than the next.

When she had come running to them bruised and exhausted and had launched herself into his arms his heart broke and he realized for the rest of his life he would make up the lost time to her, no matter what.

Now he found himself having a hard time controlling himself around her. He laughed at how out of control their little make-out session in the bunkhouse had gotten earlier that morning.

A million emotions were raging within him and he knew that if she hadn't have stopped him he would have had no problem going all the way.

She felt like home.

He watched as Matt leaned over and poked his head through her window, leaning deeper into the car. He could feel his heart rising into his throat at the sight and it made him feel guilty.

He could trust her, he was sure of that. He loved her; he now knew that as well.

He watched as her car slowly drove down the path leading away from Raintree and he instantly wished he was in the car with her.

"Let's just jump in the car right now and drive away."

She looked at his car for a moment with tears falling down her face "I can't" she stated.

He silently nodded his head in understanding as he slowly walked away.

Junior was broken out of his daydream by another knock on the door. Kris had mentioned that Matt would be coming over to hang out and catch up.

Sighing he made his way over to the door and opened it, looking the man dead in the eyes.

"If looks could kill," Matt stated "I think I would be dead."

"Let's catch up," Junior replied.

--

He wasn't sure why but he knew that the events of the previous night would have to be explained and he really did not want to be the one to do it. Looking at the man in front of him, he realized he had no choice.

"If looks could kill I think I would be dead" he stated.

Junior looked at him and brusquely replied "Let's catch up."

They left the entryway of the bunkhouse and slowly made their way to one of the many paths around Raintree.

"So," he stated.

Junior looked at him from the corner of his eyes and he couldn't help but feel nervous. Letting out a small sigh he ran his hand through his hair in frustration.

"I never meant to hurt you," he stated.

"But you did?" Junior asked.

"About as much as you hurt me," he answered.

The man in front of him looked confused and he couldn't help but get frustrated that they were constantly pitted against one another from childhood on.

"What do you mean?" Junior asked.

"It's complicated." He stated in response.

"I think I should probably start from the beginning. You and I have been best friends for almost our whole lives which is rather ironic because Davis and Ritter's have always been competitors."

"We were friends until we found something to compete over," Junior asked.

"Yeah," Matt stated "Kris."

"I take it I won," Junior replied and Matt couldn't help but look at him in awe of his cockiness.

"She picked you; I had no say in the matter. Dude, what is your problem? I am happy for you guys, your perfect for each other. It just took me awhile to see that. I've gotten past all that, I am with Dani now."

"I'm sorry," Junior replied "I have just been so on edge."

"Leave it to Kerry," Matt stated "to mess with your mind."

"Honestly," Matt continued "after everything that he has done to Kris I'm surprised you could even physically stand to be in the same room with him, let alone friends with him. Memory loss aside, anyway."

"Will you tell me what happened," Junior asked "between Kerry and Kris?"

"He was her agent," Matt stated "and you hated him and believe me it wasn't a secret. They were… what's the right word... involved."

They stopped by an old well and both sat down, slightly leaning against it.

"He messed with you, A LOT. I think he always knew that he couldn't even remotely compare to what you two had. He constantly got in the way of you two getting back together; it was obvious to everyone but Kris."

"He tried to take her away."

"To Paris?" Junior asked.

Matt looked at him for a moment in awe before replying. "Yeah, are you starting to remember?"

"No," Junior replied "I just recall hearing Kerry talking about Paris with Jeremy."

"He was going to take her to Paris for two years and you begged her to stay, told her you loved her and would do anything for her. That was when you gave her flame, your guys' baby. And then his plane went down and he went missing."

"Sounds familiar," Junior stated.

"Obviously he was fine," Matt continued "he stole a million dollars from her and from Raintree and he was on the run. She had him put away."

"Wow," the man stated.

"I'm not sure how that all plays into last nights events but I am sure Kris can fill you in with greater detail if you ask her."

"And what about our friendship," Junior asked "what happened with that."

"Well after a few fights, we got past everything. For awhile it was patchy, but some relationships are forever. I was the best-man at your wedding and I didn't object," he stated laughingly.

The man looked at him and smiled "best buds?" he asked.

"Best buds," Matt replied as he slapped him on the shoulder "no matter what."