AN: Ok this chap is a bit "rocky", not in that way, mind out the gutterPpl. LOL...Nah, just kidding that "F.U.N." is coming up later. Thanks so much for the reviews, you guys are the BOMB!
Also, great guesses on who the mystery person is that Lex keeps talking to on the cell phone, but I'm not giving anything else out, just know that you guys are gonna be in for a shock of ur lives. hehehe
Chapter 16: Stalemate
Lois walks in her room sporting the fluffy white robe, after taking an hour long shower to clean off all the muck of mushed food from off her skin and out her hair. She stops, starring at Clark's well toned back as she dried her hair with a fresh towel. She bites down on her lower lip, damn her body, it begged, practically screamed to be against his, again.
Clark turns around at the sound of her entering the room. "I found a first aid kit." he saids, displaying the white square box in his hands.
"Really, Smallville I told you I'm fine. Just some scratches and bruises, nothing else."
"Which, you wouldn't even have if you didn't decide to go..."
"Warrior Princess on Chrissy's ass." Lois finishes, Clark just smiles and shakes his head. "I'm not seriously hurt, stop making such a big deal out of it."
"Hey, I said you can either go to the infirmary, or you get me as a doctor." Clark saids, playfully.
"That, necessarily isn't such a bad thing." Lois saids, teasingly. Clark smiles, gently taking her arm and leads her to the edge of her bed.
She smiles widely as he pulls up a chair in front of her. "What?"
"Nothing." she replies, her lips still in a wide smile. "You know you really don't have to do this."
"Now, what kind of boyfriend would I be, if I didn't take care of my girlfriend." he half jokes to her confession from the Luau, giving her the charming Kent smile.
"Clark..." Lois sighs, dropping her head slightly down.
He winces at the sound of his name, knowing she only said it when she was being serious or wanted something. He knew it was the one before. "I know...you were only saying and doing that stuff to get to Chrissy."
Lois slowly shakes her head, he doesn't see her, she was too tired to argue with him. It hurt not saying she was in love with him, because as much as she try to keep the feelings at bay, try to believe it was something else it was killing her all the more, not telling him exactly how she felt.
She, Lois Joanne Lane was in love, with a farm boy from Smallville, Kansas. She was in Love, period, which in itself was no small defeat.
She sat there and watch as he opened the first aid kit, both sitting in silence. She watched as he took out the supplies he would need to tend to her hands, placing them in order on the bed beside her.
He gently takes her hands in his palms, she winces as she uncurls her sore fingers. He slowly runs his thumbs over the bruises that began to darken, her mind forgetting the pain for a moment as he slowly caresses her skin.
"There's only a few cuts, but nothing major." Clark tells her, knowing the last part to be true, having used his x-ray vision to check if there were any broken or fractured bones.
She only nods in response, he takes the small bottle of Peroxide and a cotton ball to kill any germs lingering in the cuts on her hands. Lois exhales loudly, the awkward silence in the room getting to her, hating that things have to be so complicated between them.
She swallows hard and tries her hand at sarcasm, their bantering though more flirtatious play over the years had always been their weapon to break the ice between them.
"So, I'm your girlfriend now, huh?" she taunts, picking back up from their previous conversation.
Clark feigns a smile, dabbing the peroxide onto the cotton swab, his voice still holding a bit of anger. "Yeah, I won't say anything if you don't, right?"
Lois was tired of being smacked in the face with her words, it was happening all day and she had more then enough of it. "What the Hell do you want from me!"
Clark stares steely into her eyes. "How about the truth, finally."
"The Truth! The Truth!" she shouts, in rage. "What do you want, Clark for me to confess my undying love for you?...You want me to tell you how I want to be the woman in your life, to be marry to you, to have those 2.5 kids with...live in a freakken house with a white picket fence!"
Clark ignores her mocking words, that stung him deeper then what she would ever know. To throw at him, those words he waited forever to hear from the "one" that was meant for him, and when he finally finds-when they finally find each other.She throws those exact words back at him like they are absolutely nothing.
Instead though, of biting back, he takes her hand, tapping the Peroxide onto the small cuts. Lois eyes swells up with tears, but not from the stinging pain of the Peroxide, but because her heart was breaking even more. That she was causing him so much grief and hurt by not giving him the one thing he wanted, that they both wanted and it was tearing her apart.
The tears began to fall without end, and she didn't care, an internal struggle was waging out inside her, her heart against her mind, pride, demeanor and everything else in her life, and that was herself, keeping her from having him, from being with him.
She looked up at him, his face down looking at her hand as he swabbed her hand with the cotton ball. Lois took a deep breath, swallowing her pride along with everything else that cursed her to not do this. She closed her eyes to find strength, to silence the screaming voices in her head that told her she was a fool for doing this. She took one more inhale and lets it out before her nerve was shattered.
"I love you." Lois saids, just above a whisper.
Clark sat there frozen by her words, dropping the cotton swab and Peroxide from his hands. He looked up into her hazels seeing the tears that stained her face. The words he waited to hear, seemed like forever, finally uttered by the one person he never woulda believed years ago, could make him feel so complete with just those three little words.
"Wh-What?" he stammered, having fully heard her, just wanting to hear it from her mouth again.
Lois couldn't help the smile that broaden her lips, such a release she felt saying those words, after all those years keeping it tucked far away.
"I love you."
Clark's face lit up, his heart beaten in a new rhythm he didn't think possible. He reached his hands out, cupping her face, wiping the tears that continued to fall. His blues searching her hazels knowing she meant what she said, looking for answers to his one question.
"Why..."
Lois knew him like a book, even upon first encounters they read each other so well, that it was scary. "...I waited so long?"
Clark smiled, they never could skip a beat with each other. He never knew how he coulda ever find that so annoying, and not see it for what it really was. One among many signs that they were made for each other.
They just weren't ready to see it then, well they did see it, but wasn't ready to accept that the piece they were missing in themselves, were each other.
"Yea." he replied softly, the grin never leaving his face.
Lois reached up taking his hands into hers, letting out the breath she held for awhile.
"So many things were just in the way, me being the major boulder in the path. In the beginning I felt I was betraying who I was, if I just letted go of these feelings. I mean growing up the way I did, love was never an issue...an option in life. I've dated guys before, yea, but it was just lust...a physical need to be with someone."
"Now?" he asked, cautiously.
Lois smiled, seeing the look of fear in his eyes. "You showed me I was wrong and stupid for turning my back on love...on us, but you were with Lana again for the fifth time..."
"I was the stupid one, not seeing what I was looking for all my life, was right there in front of me..."
She smiled sadly. "Then, there was the whole liver cancer thing, which thankfully I don't have..."
"Which, you still should have told someone."
"I hope you understand why I didn't."
"Yes, you didn't want people to constantly remind you of what you were loosing, among other things..." Clark sighs. " But...I hope you never do that again, never keep something like that from us...from me."
She smiled, honestly. "I promise."
His lips curled up widely. "So, I guess this means you're officially my girl now."
Lois feigns thinking. "Hmmm, I don't remember agreeing to that."
Clark swoops her up onto him, she squeals as she straddles his lap, her arm instinctively wraps around his neck.
"Then, I guess I'm gonna have to remind you." he lifted his hand up to her, gently pushing back the Chestnut strands from her face.
"I love you, Lo."
Her eyes smiled down into his, her heart flipped inside her chest. "I love you too, Smallville."
She leaned down her lips softly upon his, kissing each other tenderly but soon it deepened. Lois parted her lips, eagerly to feel his tongue enter her mouth. She moans against his lips, it's been too long since they did this, though it was just hours ago when they were locked in the changing room, but to her it felt like forever.
He smiles against her lips. "What?"
"Do you think Carlos and Lola would approve?"
Lois smiles back, never leaving his lips. "I know for a fact that Lola likes Carlos, very much."
Clark breaks from her lips and starts kissing her neck, talking in between each kiss. "Good, cuz Carlos had the hots for Lola, since he first saw her."
Lois giggles as Clark nips at the sensitive spot on her neck. "Oh, Really?"
"Really." he replies, then pulls her down to assault her lips, his hands slipping through her tresses.
Lois slides her hands down his hard Chest, her fingers easing their way under his shirt to feel his bare skin, then lowers down more, to his jean's buckle. Clark feels her hands as she unhooks his jeans, her long fingers pulling down his zipper. His body craving to be one with hers, finally things were right between them...almost anyway.
His damn subconscious kicked in and on overdrive too. Bart's words playing in his head about his powers and abilities, how Lois was stupid for not figuring it out by now. He didn't want her to feel that way and he knew she would if they did this and she found out later about him.
He knew that going all the way with Lois, with her not knowing, wouldn't be right or fair to the both of them, plus there was the huge issue of if it would even be safe to have sex with her, which made him very hesitant to take that chance.
The one reason, why his and Lana's relationship never worked out, along with him not telling her about his secert...but there wasn't anyone more in the world that he wanted to share everything in his world about, then with Lois.
He felt as she slowly reached her hand into his jeans, Clark just couldn't do this and there was no other time he hated what he was more, than at that moment.
He pulled her back, she gasped slightly at his quick action. "I can't do this!"
Lois looked at him confused. "What?"
His blues shown the hurt and pain that mimicked in her own. "I'm sorry..."
She quickly raises off his legs, falling back, sitting onto the bed.
"Don't do this." she pleads, seeing in his eyes that he was pulling back, pulling back from...her.
His heart sinked, seeing he caused her so much pain. "I'm so sorry."
All he could say, how could he explain that he was doing this to keep her safe from Lex, his gut told him it was more than a friendly offer, setting them up with such fine rooms and if something was going to happen, he didn't want her in the crossfire.
"Why are you doing this?" she shouts, raising to her feet, turning her back to him. Her worst fears coming into play, having taken a chance, putting down all her barriers, only just to be screwed in the end for doing so.
"I poured my heart out to you...I went out on a limb, to tell you everything I felt, and you push me away." she faces him her eyes cutting into his, tears creeping down her cheeks.
"We're even." she saids flatly. "I did the same to you, so why shouldn't you get back at me."
Clark quickly raises to his feet and goes over to her, she turns away from him, but he embraces her anyway. Wrapping his arms around her waist, his hands resting on her stomach, and pressing his face on the side of hers as she wept softly.
"I love you more then you'll ever know or understand...so much that it hurts." he whispers into her ear. "...but there are things, you don't know about me."
"I don't care about your secrets, Clark...If I did I would have pried a long time ago."
"Lois you would never forgive me if we did this and I never told you...about me, all about me."
She turns into his embrace, starring deeply in his blue eyes. "Then, tell me."
He drops his head down, unable to look at her. "I can't...it's too dangerous."
Lois pushes away from him, anger dripping in her eyes. "Bullshit!"
"Is it!" Clark shouts, his own anger rising. "Is it, Bullshit to want to protect you!"
"What is so horrible about your secrets that I would need protection!"
"I can't answer that, it's best you don't know, especially right now."
"Why!" she pounds on his chest. "Why can't you tell me!"
"Because of Lex!" Clark lets out, loudly.
Lois stopped her hands from pounding on him, her stomach knotted up at the mention of his name, her knees gave out and she slumped toward the floor. Clark quickly catches her before she falls completely down.
"Lois!" Clark shouts, with concern. "What's wrong?"
She lifts her eyes up to his. "You don't know, do you?"
Clark looked at her puzzled, not knowing about the death warrant hanging over her head, the disk with the information she stole. Her own secret she couldn't reveal, the reason why she couldn't be so mad at him for not telling her, when she harvested her own speck in the eye.
"Know, what?"
Seeing that he had no clue, and that Lex seemed to have taken up his odd hobby of obsession on him, again. She decided to keep quite, he had enough to deal with and she didn't need a hero to come to her rescue every time she was in trouble. She was a Lane and she more then proved she could take care of herself.
"I can't tell you." she saids somberly, throwing his words back at him.
She tries to walk around him, but only weakly slips and ends up being caught in his arms again. "Lois?"
"I'm fine...I'm just a bit worn out from the fight, that's all." she saids softly, keeping her eyes from his. "I just need some sleep."
Before she could protest, he scoops her up in one swift move into his arms, wrapping his arm around her waist and slipping his other arm under her legs.
To his surprise she didn't fight, instead she wrapped her arms around his neck and buried her face into his shoulder, allowing him to carry her. Clark cradled her in his arms, taking her over to the bed, he sat down on the edge of the bed, leaning over to place her under the covers.
Lois continued to cling to him, he smiled, he didn't want to let her go either. So he lade back, hugging her close to him, her head resting on his chest like before.
He smiled wider, as he listened to her relaxed heart beat, the sound he had memorized since they first met. He didn't know why then, he had so easily learned every pound it made, but now he did, it was because her heart belonged to him.
He hummed softly as he stroked his fingers gently through her hair, while her fingers slowly traced the lines of her chest. Her touch making him hum all the more, humming, something he never did, something he found his dad doing when he was really happy and that was when he was always around his mom.
Things were ok for now, just ok...it didn't backslide and it didn't go forward even though she confessed she loved him, finally. The mood right now...things right now... were just at a Stalemate, for now...just ok.
He slid his right hand over his chest entwining his fingers into hers, carefully listening to her steady heartbeat, slowing as she went deeper into sleep.
Clark buries his face into her strawberries & cream, scented hair. "I love you so much, Lo."
A single tear slowly falls down Lois' cheek, her voice heavy with sleep as she softly whispers. "I love you, too...Smallville."
To Be Continued...
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Spoilers Chap 17: Yay, finally onto Cruise (Day 2)...Plus do I smell romance in the air...Chloe sends Carlos and Lola on a date...and a Discovery!(Could be anything!)
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