Finally, an update! Mainly because I was forced against my will to write one today (cough *uruha* cough _) Anyways, enjoy!

XXBeijing, ChinaXX

"Good job tonight, Miyavi-san," a woman said as she walked by.

"Awesome show," another man said.

Most of the staff members said something like this as Miyavi walked by them to get to his dressing room. Not that he cared at the moment. He was exhausted and all he wanted to do was go back to his hotel and get what little sleep he could before he had to get up and leave for the next stop on the tour. Yanking open the door he went inside and collapsed into his chair, sighing softly.

"I wonder what Kai's doing right now…." he thought aloud.

He hadn't heard from his husband since he left, which wasn't normal. When one of the them went on tour they made an effort to talk to each other every night. They didn't like being apart, especially Kai. So to not here from him this long was really starting to worry him. He reached over to the table and picked up his phone. It read five missed calls, one voicemail.

Calling his voicemail he put it to his ear

'Miyavi, answer your god damned phone! You need to come home now. Kai isn't doing good and you need to get here before something else happens!'

His eyes widened. What was wrong with Kai? Was he sick, did he get hurt? Did something happen to Aiko? Trying to stay calm he dialed Ruki's number and waited anxiously for him to answer After what seemed like forever he finally picked up.

'So you finally decided to check your phone, eh?'

XxXx With Ruki xXxX

"But….But what if they don't?…"

Ruki was silent. What was he supposed to say? Kai had a point. What if things really didn't get better, or they got worse? What if something really bad happened next time?….No…he couldn't think like that. Kai would be okay. He just needed some help. Everything would be back to normal one day. But still, a small part of him couldn't help but think 'what if'?

The ringing of his phone brought him out of his thoughts. He pulled it out to see who it was, half expecting it to be Reita complaining about being stuck with a kid. But to his surprise it was Miyavi. He stood from his seat, telling Kai he would be right back, and went into the living room.

"So you finally decided to check your phone, eh?" he asked in an annoyed tone.

'I've been busy, I haven't had the chance to!'

"Mhmm…"

'Whatever, be angry. Just tell me what's going on.'

"Kai is depressed. You need to get back here now."

'Depressed?'

"Yes, depressed. You know, depressed as in sad, crying all the time, not able to function right anymore, not even able to take care of your guy's daughter anymore."

'…' There was a pause on the other line. 'H-How is he now?'

Ruki sighed. "At the moment, he's really bad. He's not sleeping, he's not eating, he just sits there and stares into space or cries mostly, and he completely stopped taking care of Aiko. I'm glad I got here when I did…"

'She's okay, right? Nothing bad happened to her?' he didn't know if he could handle something bad happening to her. It was bad enough hearing that Kai was in such bad shape…

"As far as I know she's fine. Reita's taking care of her. I thought it would be best to get her out of the house for a while."

'Yeah, that was probably for the best…is there…anything else that happened?'

Ruki was silent for a moment. Of course there was something else, there was the incident from last night. But how was he supposed to tell Miyavi his husband was possibly suicidal?

'Ruki!'

The vocalist sighed. "I don't think it's safe to leave him alone….I..I think he tried to kill himself last night.."

Complete silence on the other line. Miyavi didn't know what to say. He didn't know what to think. How could this of happened? When he left Kai had said he was okay, he was just stressed and everything would be okay. How could things have gotten this bad?

"Miyavi…are you there? Miyavi!"

'Y-Yeah….I'm here. I'll…I'll be home as soon as I can. Take care of him until I get there, will ya?'

"yeah, will do. I'll be here."

'Thanks…' he hung up.

XxXx With Miyavi xXxX

The cell phone fell from his hand and hit the floor. He buried his face in his hands, and, for the first time in he didn't know how long…he cried.

The dressing room door opened his manager walked in. "Miyavi~ I was just informed that you'll be-" he paused when he saw the singer crying. "Eh, what's wrong? Did something happen?" Miyavi glanced up. "Cancel the rest of the tour…"

"What! Why! You have-"

"I said cancel the tour! I'm going back home."

"But your fans. What are they going to say when you don't show up?"

"I have more important things to worry about then what some people I don't even know are going to say. Just. Cancel. The. Tour."

His manager sighed. "Fine, consider it done." he walked out of the room, pulling out his cell phone. No doubt calling all the venues Miyavi was supposed to appear at. When he disappeared down the hall Miyavi stood, wiping his eyes and went over to his computer. He needed to book a ticket to Japan.

- With Reita and Aoi -

"Tell me again why Ruki left you alone with a kid?" Aoi asked, an amused smile on his face, as he rocked Aiko to sleep. He had arrived here an hour ago to find Reita panicking and trying to take care of her (the wrong way he might add).

"The hell should I know? He just said I needed to take care of her and brought her over."

"Language!" Aoi scolded.

"She's falling asleep. She probably didn't even hear-" But a glare directed at him shut the bassist up. He should have known better. When it comes to children, it's best to just do what he says. It was kind of dangerous to make him angry, what his maternal instincts and all. He sighed.

"Ok, ok. I'm sorry."

"Mhmm…..so you never told me what was up with Kai."

"I don't know much. I haven't talked to Ruki yet today. But from what I've heard was depressed."

"Depressed?"

"Yeah. According to Ruki he really doesn't do much besides cry. He wouldn't even take care of Aiko, or himself for that matter. Ruki was scared to leave him alone, so he's staying over there…"

Aoi was silent for a moment. "But…wouldn't we have noticed sooner? I mean, if it's this bad he must have been depressed for a while now.."

"Who knows. He's good at hiding things. He probably just didn't want anyone to worry about him, you know how he is."

Aoi nodded. Kai had always been like that. He had no problem being concerned for others but he never wanted anyone to worry about him. He didn't think he was important enough to be worried about. Aoi sighed. "Sometimes I wish he wouldn't be like that though…."

End!